Thursday, March 30, 2006
God is so cruel to us .
I'm so angry now , my blood is fucking boiling . Fuck you ! You suck!! Whatever.. I din have tuition today as my teacher isnt feeling well . So i headed home straight after school , bath and slept . Din have maths test today also , cause almost the whole of Gransazers were sent home due to their hair . Mrs Leong is soo fucked up . Chinese lesson was a total bitch too , she suck . Skipped Physics lesson and wento Mdm Wong's class to disturb people .. It was hell fun . Anyhow , received a call when i got home , something happen . I think they're gonna go find that bitch on Monday . Good !! That bitch ought to be taught a lesson , i hope she fucking get slap and lick the toilet bowl . Am having Speech Day rehearsal , NOT looking forward to it . No fun ! Still thinking if i wanna go see Gransazers peformance and BP Plaza tmr . Will be towning with Grasazers on Saturday too . Was talking to Melvin Chan about getting those hamsters earlier , he kinda agreed . So lets hope he'll get it soon , cause i'm so excited . =) And i think if that* is true , -you- can go and die . Everyday i wake up , i wished that it was -you- whom brighten up my day . But -you- weren't the one , -you- didn't even whisper a single word . I really dont know what to do if i were to bump into -you- on the streets . Should i smile to -you- or ignore it ? I really dont know . Be it hatred or what , i still miss you a lot . Goodnight people.. <3
"I went back to the place we met , hoping to see you again . "
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God is so cruel to us .
I'm so angry now , my blood is fucking boiling . Fuck you ! You suck!! Whatever.. I din have tuition today as my teacher isnt feeling well . So i headed home straight after school , bath and slept . Din have maths test today also , cause almost the whole of Gransazers were sent home due to their hair . Mrs Leong is soo fucked up . Chinese lesson was a total bitch too , she suck . Skipped Physics lesson and wento Mdm Wong's class to disturb people .. It was hell fun . Anyhow , received a call when i got home , something happen . I think they're gonna go find that bitch on Monday . Good !! That bitch ought to be taught a lesson , i hope she fucking get slap and lick the toilet bowl . Am having Speech Day rehearsal , NOT looking forward to it . No fun ! Still thinking if i wanna go see Gransazers peformance and BP Plaza tmr . Will be towning with Gransazers on Saturday too . Was talking to Melvin Chan about getting those hamsters earlier , he kinda agreed . So lets hope he'll get it soon , cause i'm so excited . =) And i think if that* is true , -you- can go and die . Everyday i wake up , i wished that it was -you- whom brighten up my day . But -you- weren't the one , -you- didn't even whisper a single word . I really dont know what to do if i were to bump into -you- on the streets . Should i smile to -you- or ignore it ? I really dont know . Be it hatred or what , i still miss you a lot . Goodnight people.. <3
"I went back to the place we met , hoping to see you again . "
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Wednesday, March 29, 2006
I know , i'm nothing to you now .
I'm having maths test tmr !! And i'm not prepared for it... I failed my previous one badly , darn badly . Fuck it laa.. Urgh! I so dont like today , i wento school and was kinda"bombed" by this woman with lotsa useless and fucked up stuffs . I just nod my head and never listens to what she say.. It just suck laa . PE , we were practising on how to play shotput , it was rather fun . But yeah , thanks to my back injury it was quite hard to play like the past . =( Was reading this month's CLEO during Mrs Leong's lesson . Kinda slack.. During recess , had an interview with Straits Time IN about some school stuffs . They will publish it next Monday in Straits Time on IN . Do check it out ya ! =) Chatted with Mister Etic in the noon just now , we rocks . *smiles* Had a very bad nightmare just now , was crying terribly when i woke up . It really haunts me.. I dont wanna have that nightmare again , it's enough . Yesterday , Dennis saw that someone again . I thought -you- were dead , but Dennis saw -you- again . What does it mean ? What the fuck are -you- doing ? What the fuck do -you- really want ? My life is messed up by -you- , seriously messed up . Dead ? Yes ! In my heart , -you're- dead . No matter what i do , -you- just wont show -yourself- and -you- do nothing about it . Fuck -you- !! If -you- dont like it or so , just say . Dont give me silence . I hate silence.. What more do -you- want me to do ? How much more tears -you- want me to shed for -you- ? Everything is about -you- now . Every night , it haunts me . Everyday , i lived in fear and tears . I'm drowned by the sorrows and my heart is shattered into million pieces already . My life is hopeless , meaningless , messed up and wretched . -You- are the pillar of my life , -you- can light up my life and make my happy again . -You- are the only one i want to see , the only shoulder i want to lean on and cry . For now , i miss you a lot . Goodnight . <3
"When the night falls , i'll have to leave too . "
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Tuesday, March 28, 2006
now you are not by my side when i'm sad .
*wails and scream* Wynny hurt her back again... Tsk tsk tsk... I dont know how i hurt it . It was so painful after i bathed this morning . So i started walking slowly and tried to stand up straight but it hurts like fuck . My eyes were slightly swollen this morning , quickly soothen my eyes with ice and it was better . Lessons were boring and uncomfortable , cause i cant sit up straight and my back hurts a lot . There was this time during Geography lesson , when i wanted to stand up and pick something i dropped on the floor . I stood up my back was so painful , i quickly sit down and tears welled up around my eyes . The pain was so unbearable .. Just like what my heart is experiencing . Anyway , today's Invesiture was okay . I was so nervous on the stage , but thanks to my Sister . He made me less nervous and kept smiling to me . He rocks! =) Headed home after school to rest and my back is better now . But still cant sit up straight.. Urgh! Ain't have time to visit the doctor and secondly i'm scared also . =( Having Speech Day rehearsal tmr , hope that everything can end early . I dont wanna stay in school for so long , i will get fruastrated . Today it's the "IO-day" , how miserable .. Heart shattered into million pieces when everything was silent . I couldn't believe everything went this way and nothing was done . Why is it this way ? Why cant everything just go smoothly and peacefully ? You always ask me not to tear for you and you'll always be by my side when i cry . Where are you now ? I made you bleed and mad , i'm sorry . I was unsure about everything concerning us , i dont ask much all the time . We just lived everyday happily , having each other as our companion . Sharing weals and woes , everyday lifes , sorrows and happiness to each other everyday . When i'm down , you were there to cheer me up . When i'm sick , you sent your concern every now and then . And when i'm lost , you guided me through my way . What have everything become now ? Disappeared in the air ? Stop saying all these nice words and making promises to me , i've had enough of it . My heart is tearing everytime i think about it and reminisce about the good times . Nothing matters now.. what matters is only your presence by my side . I wanto see you again.. Goodnight . <3
"You've found another pillar in your life , but where's mine ? "
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Monday, March 27, 2006
abandoned love
Tmr's is the Student Counsillors Investiture 2006 !!
Clap for me okay.. =) I love all fellow counsillors . I'm tired now , my eyes hurts , my thigh ache and my back is so painful . Tmr is also another scary day for me , as it marks the day of the "IO" . I dont wish for "IO day" to arrive , but it's just tmr . Whatever i do , i'll still end up having a broken heart and think about those sad stuffs . Yesterday i slept around 2plus due to weeping and thinking of lotsa stuffs . Crying is all i do in the night before i sleep . I'm really speechless to talk about anything now.. My heart is bleeding , it's tearing . The feeling is miserable.. Goodnight. <3
"Without you by my side , everything seems meaningless . "
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Sunday, March 26, 2006
if we met each other later...
25 March 2006 - Saturday
Woke up around 8am and prepared for school , was late for a little while . The rehearsal started and the Sec 4s are soo free . We only have to show our face for awhile and then we can get off the stage and do stupid things . A few Sec 4s were there only , so we had lotsa fun tgt . Sang that candle song , took photos and lotsa stupid things . Sec 4 counsillors rocks ! =) The fellow counsillors were nice too , they are so enthu in the song . After the rehearsal , played netball with Yeok Ling , Melvin Oh , Ridaudin , Azmil and some sec 1s . It was fun and darn hot .. After netball , left with Yuling and co to Macdonalds to get a drink . Saw Heng at Sun Plaza , so walked to Godma house with her . Saw Godpa on the othet side of the road while walking , shouted for him and waved then off he went .. Kenneth and Lil' Trina was at Godma house!! I so love them.. Played with Kenneth and when his Dad wanna bring him home , he was crying and asking if he could stay at Godma house with me . He's Dad agree and he ran back and hugged me then we played Initial D together . It was fun , i'm always the winner cause he dont know how to play.. *evil grins* Kenneth wento sleep around 4plus and of course i wento sleep too , till Edwin call me then i wake up . Edwin was going to Serangoon and i was praying so hard that he could actually bump into that someone . But Dennis bump into he that someone .. =( Blah blah blah... Fed Kenneth dinner and Godma , Sheng , Wj , Kenneth and me wento Sun Plaza cause Wj wanna change phone . Kenneth was soo noisy in the bus laa , kept singing "Oh Macdonald had a farm.." and made lotsa animals noises . Brought him to Macdonalds and awhile later , his parents brought him home . I so miss him laa.. Although he's noisy and stupid at times , but i still love him .. =)
26th March 2006 -Sunday
Mum woke me up around 10am and told me we're going down to my eldest uncle house to pray for my grams ( maternal side) death annivesary . I was so tired and my thigh were aching . Fucking painful.. Prepared and wento over to uncle's house , i was soo hungry laa . Waited for around 30 minutes and they start to eat , so i ate and left with Mum to Chinatown . SHOPPING!! But most of the expenses , Mum used my card to pay.. =( Mum say she'll return me those money soon . Let's hope she'll remember... Went over to Uncle's Ping house for dinner , Kor kor , Jie jie , Dennis Kor Kor and Ah jie was there too . After awhile they left , as they're going for dinner . Then Kor kor was showing me the action of singing , OHH!! They're going to sing and i cant go.. Aww..... =( Dennis Kor kor kept luring me out and asked me to get out of the house . But i cant laa , promised to have dinner together . I missed it this time.. URGH ~!! Left Uncle's Ping house around 10pm and i am so tired now.. Tmr is a long day for me , having rehearsal after school again . But i love rehearsal.. Yippess !! I should go and pack my bag after this entry . Monday bluessss.... =(
I took yesterday as the "IO-day" . I cried at night as my player plays those sad songs and all those nice memories flashed back . I wanna shout out your name , i wanna know why is it like that ? I think i know what you really want.. I knew it . I treated it as you were dead , but i just cant stop myself from thinking about it . Why do i always cry for you ? Why must you disappear the moment i need you ? Why cant everything go smoothly ? Why weren't you there for me when i needed you ? Nothing could be explained , only tears could soothe my heart ache . Everytime i tell myself to be strong and i can get over with it , but in the end i'm lying to myself . I dropped down to the lowest point my life everytime memories flashed back . I smile and told myself , it was all a fairytale . But my heart was shattering inside and it hurts so much . What is all this about ? Sighh.. And i still miss you alot . <3
"You brought me happiness and left me with sorrows . "
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Friday, March 24, 2006
i could never find another like you.
It's Saturday tmr ! *cheers* Am going to wake up at 8am , cause needa reach school by 9am . Today's Speech Day rehearsal was kinda dead , but i hope the next one will be better . Was once again assigned hall duty , for the past years i've been ushering in the hall . Hall is fun !! Mr Raj. spoke to me today , all thanks to that Chew LP . She wento complain about us , and so we have to get double . Bitch!! And thanks to some BTKs (bao toh kia), Mr Raj. also asked me about lotsa stuffs . To those BTKs , you all suck big time okay . Stop bothering about others and mind your own business laa . Maybe you're just jealous of the fun we have all the time . Fucking coward! Get a life alright!! Left school around 1530 and rushed home to get prepared and cabbed down to look for Godma . Had dinner at Sakura , with some others . Kang Wei was there , crapped a lot and sang alot . I got so tired after having the first round , wanted to doze off already . Sat down and rest for awhile , wanted to go for second round but was full already . So , went on chatting and singing with Kang Wei and did nothing . Godpa went too.. He asked me if i wanna go back to Haat Yai with him this coming June . wooo~~ Of course , I want to go with him ! GANBEH!!! Gotta tell him the news real soon.. Pink Lady , "my friend" and Haat yai.. Here i come !!! =) Mmmms , my eyelid hurts . I think is due to crying and rubbing it too much . Yesterday night , cried like hell and thought of so many stuffs . Everything that came across my mind just hurts and made my tears welled up my eyes . I just cant forget it and make myself not think about it . Sighh.. You made me mute and crazy , you made my heart numb and made me lost my way . I wonder , which side of the world are you at now ? I pray everyday just to know your presence and i shout out your name loudly everyday just to let you know , i'm still here for you . Please... I've had enough.. My heart cant take it any longer , my mind too . One day , everything will burst and it will lead to a misery . Goodnight. <3
My initial "W" .
Rotating it into an "M" is nice too..
Negative of the "W" is cool !
"You made me realised i'm nothing without you ."
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Thursday, March 23, 2006
my heart is crying.
Tuition was cancelled today , of course i was so happy laa . Was actually napping till she message me and told me it was cancelled , den i was lazing on the bed and suddenly thought of cutting my hair . So wento prepare and got out to had my hair cut , and bought my new school shoes . Finally i got bought my school shoes , cause the older one is tearing and painful laa . Saw Godma too , wento look for her chatted awhile . Tmr is her birthday , shit ! I dont know what to get for her . Should be meeting her for dinner and i'm thinking of staying over at her house . But i'll need to bring all those barang barang over for school on Saturday . Ley Chey ahh.. Shall see how . Today i was late for school , okay i went for breakfast at macdonalds with some others . Then went back to school around 8:50am , saw Mrs Chang (VP) and still yaya talk to her like nothing . But nothing happen.. Then happily go for lesson . Ohh.. Wynny , you shouldn't do this anymore okay.. *nod head* That Chew LP never come today , i was happily singing and jumping around . Went down to do some homework with the others and was quite funny when CY crack some stupid thing . We linked up to a very long sentence and it was seriously funny . Leong's lesson was a disaster again , but i was reading the magazine and books she borrowed for us , so wasn't really listening to her . I love after school sooo much ! Had rehearsal with the fellow counsillors , trained them up for singing and they all did a good job . Keep it up , guys ! We sang the song with Aiman playing the flute , Justin Banana playing the piano and Alfian playing the guitar . Really nice ~ I love the guitar's tune so much .. Looking forward for Saturday's rehearsal.. Yipeess ! OM came to look for me after school and asked me about today's late coming . I was honest to tell him everything and he said no more next time . So Wynny , you heard it right ? =) He's nice laa , he's like a friend to me . Everytime he'll ask about my studies and other stuffs , chat alot and he's funny at times too . Mmmms.. Recently , Orh Chee Keong (Melvin Oh- i prefer calling him that..) isn't in really good mood . I dont know why , he seems worried , confused and sad . If i can see him tmr after school , den we shall have a good chat . Seeing my cousin so sad is weird laa , he's always disturbing me . And now , i'm the one disturbing and li siao-ing him . How weird laa..
My mood , better ? I guess so.. Maybe because i'm numb already ? Or is it because it's hopeless already ? I really dont know . I've seriously done what i could . I made you bleed and mad . How many million times have i told you not to do those stubborn things to hurt yourself ? You just dont get it in .. You think i'm happy when you're hurt ? I made you mad searching everywhere , but what's really in your mind ? Now what ? Everything is from bad to worst... Everyday i wake up hoping to spend it happily and not think about anything . But , what happens at night ? Everytime i look through those messages , my heart aches . Tears welled up my eyes .. Sighh.. My heart really hurts a lot.. You made me speechless , i dont know what else to say .For now , Goodnight.
"Hearing the voice of melancholy and fatigue . "
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Wednesday, March 22, 2006
The warmth of your hand still linger around me.
I'm anticipating for weekends !! But , yesterday i heard that i still needa go back on Saturday for the investiture rehearsal . Dang..~ Spoilt my weekends mood. Aww.. Still thinking that i wanna go for a swim to get back my tan . Nevermind.. Rehearsal isn't bad too , can play around with those fellow ones and get to know them well . But lets just hope that Mrs. Raja wont be there to see our rehearsal.. With her presence , the situation is kinda awkward and people tend to be very quiet . I dont know why.. But recently , I almost look for Mrs. Raja everyday just because of the rehearsal . This morning , wento look for almost all the teacher in charge of the counsillors to tell them those stuffs about the investiture . Tmr am having rehearsal after school again , make it a good one and maybe we wont have to go back on Saturday . =) Today school was tiring , maybe for the past few days it was tiring . Because Wynny cant get to sleep everyday , insomania ? I think so.. I toss and turn around on the bed till 4plus in the morning , then i get to sleep . Hell , I climbed up the bed around 11+ and toss and turn till 4plus .. It's quite disturbing . And yesterday , i was late for school with Chew . It's not because i woke up late , it was the bus timing . Fucking long laa.. Urgh~! Yesterday had rehearsal after school and received some messages , at least i got what i wanted to know . But , we still have to see what's the conclusion . As for today , things were same . Only that , i never receive any nonchalant messages . It is so confusing laa.. Anyhow , am thinking whether should i take part in this year's Dragon Boat Festival . Alfian was telling and asking me to join them and have fun together . Ohh.. We shall see how . I actually wanted to cut my hair today , but i overslept while napping . When i wake up , it's already 8pm . But i will go by this week.. Now , my form teacher is a liar . Serious! She's so ner ner ... She actually said that she wanna help the class pay $5 each for the class tee , today she say she's not paying because the $5 could be use to buy books . Narnia~ If she were to say earlier , then we could have confirmed everything earlier . If dont wanna pay , just say laa.. KNN~ The whole class was like so happy cause she was paying , now we all have to pay the full amount . Fine , we dont mind !! We shall prove to her that , even without her $5 we still can get the class tee done . She said that we , the chinese people are all against her . Hello , LEONG , you are the one against us laa . Today , She even say that Alfian is fat , cause he's in TAF . He's not fat at all okay ! Screw you , LEONG ! How can you say all that , didn't MOE teach you manners ? How did you actually nuture your children ? Teach them how to be bias , be unreasonable , lie to people and insult people ? What kinda form teacher are you ? Insulting your own students and saying all the bad things about them , you just suck laa . As she was preaching today , the whole class had their heads on the table and never listen to her . Just hate the way she talk to us . *plurghh* Drop that subject about her , it will just make my blood boil . Mmmms , things remained the same . I'm not in any good mood now . Goodnight people . <3
"I've done what i could do , the rest is up to you . "
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Monday, March 20, 2006
I can see that you've taken root in my soul.
Yesterday night , i didn't sleep well at all . I was just tossing and turning on my bed , my mind was already shut off but i just cant get to sleep . Around 4+ , i got to sleep and the feeling was just like shutting my eyes for a few seconds and my alarm rang . It's 6am.. Hell Shit! Was grumbling and groaning on the bed , but in the end still dragged myself up and prepared for school . Having a heavy heart , awaiting for some message . But to no avail , it was soo silent . Cheered myself up with chocolate cake this morning , it was nice .. The moment i stepped into the school , i told Chew that seeing the same old things is so bored . Nothing brightens up my day.. First thing , was grooming check .. Gransazers were all sent home , same to my cousin Melvin Oh . He was stupid enough to walk around when the school was having the grooming check , he was caught by the VP . How funny can he be... *shake head* Lessons were seriously bored , especially Mother Tongue . That Chew LP is so not nice , everything also our fault . There nothing we do that is right , looking at her face is so disturbing . Her chinese isn't good too.. Dont know how to pronouce words well . Hell ya , what kinda teacher is this ? KNN! Go lick my school shoe laa . *puke* But Physics lesson was fun , she didn't teach . So me and Bai was drawing behind and were making a fool behind . She drawed my initial on my hand , it was hell cool can . =) Anyhow , tmr am having tuition in the evening . I seriously need to take a nap before tuition starts , if not i'll doze off halfway . And i received some kinda heart-warming message today .. Was quite glad.. Mmmms , i guess i should stop here already . I wanna have a good sleep tonight . Goodnight readers. <3
Be there for me always , my dearest
"It can`t be , it probably isn`t , that`s what I believed . "
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Sunday, March 19, 2006
My heart is filled with your image and reflection.
Annoucing Singapore's First Star Idol , BRYAN WONG !!!! *applause & fireworks* God!!! He won !!! He's cool .. Yeah !! =) Wynny hasn't been good today , she's slacking her day away . She only touch on one homework today , and she only wrote a few lines then that's it . She happily watched Full House and munched her chips away . *grins* As for maths homework , i'll do a few sums later . Am down with serious cramps today laa... Awww... So painful can . Stupid cramps..! Urgh! After this entry , i shall go and iron my uniform and skirt , if not tmr morning i'll be rushing like hell . And maybe i should pack my bag also.. Thinking about tmr is so empty , Social Studies is the first lesson , he's face just spoil my day . He's hair too.. Alien-ified. Then it is F&N , her naggings and voice make me sooo sick and tired . My day dont start well at all . Screw it ! Shall look forward for tmr morning , see if i receive any miraculous message or not . I really hope to received it . While watching Full House just now , i cried like nobody's business . The show is just soo touching and suits my mood . Yesterday , Edwin told me some stuffs about hanging around some places . It could be pretty scary .. I'm really scared yet hoping for something else . Sighh.. if nothing seems to change , den i think resting the problem will be the best . Maybe it's just another meal for him/her to consume and forget about it , nothing much what . Right not ,Wynny ? Happy moments dont last forever , memories do . Knowing it wont last , treasure it with your heart and cherish every single moment well . Dont wait till it's gone , then you start to search for it . It wont go back to you anymore , when it's gone , it'll never come back . You hear this , my dearest ? Tears seems to roll out so easily nowadays when emotion hits , tears also roll out easily when i see your reflection . Whatever i do , i think of you . My sky seems so dark , where's the rainbow ? Where is your candle to light up my dark and lonely cell ?
Sigh.. Where are you? Shall stop here already.. Goodnight people . <3
tell me everything is true , my dearest .
"Why couldn`t I see you when you were right before my eyes ? "
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Saturday, March 18, 2006
the incomplete love
I'm on hot boiling mood now . Just finished some shouting with my Mum , she's totally unreasonable . Fucking unreasonable! Cant stand the way she think and talk , her midset just suck big time . Whatever~ Today's BBQ at Sembawang Park was a total fucked up one . The park rangers said i didn't book it . Fuck you! I booked it and your company still called over and told me it's approved okay .
A-P-P-R-O-V-E-D !
KNN~!! Then they said someone booked the pit already and we have to leave or so.. Ya , i know we have to leave . But still , i kp to the park ranger before i leave . Hell ya ! Screw Sembawang Park's Board and fuck you park rangers !! But back up plan was to go Jason's house for BBQ , wasnt that bad . But on the way to his house , i was just making noise in the car and was so angry laa . Urgh ~!! BBQ started , it was fun . Then had some gossiping session and stuffs . There were lotsa stars above , Dennis kor kor den told me some stars story . Reached home around 11+ and i was tired laa , my eyes still hurts alot . Mmms , Met Mond Mond today to get some stuffs . Oh.. I'm bored !! Tmr will have to chiong for my homework . I think my freaking bro is working at gay pub now . He's working as a bartender and he didn't tell me where , so i told people he worked at gay pub . =) Anyhow , i got pissed off very easily today . PMS ? i guess so.. Ohh and today is Kim Long's birthday . Happy birthday !! Steal more stirers for me .. *evil grins*
Crying for you , seems to be a everyday thing .
Worrying and thinking of you makes my tears flow out uncontrollably .
Viewing through those text messages , brings back so much memories .
All those messages you sent in were seriously sweet and heart warming .
But all i could give you was silience , i got the urge to tell you so many things everytime .
But , there's just something stopping me .
All i could do is to wait , and go on waiting .
Where are you now ?
How have you been ?
How are your injuries ?
I always asked myself so many questions about you , my heart hurts a lot .
Without you , my life seems quiet and lonely .
Nobody to cheer me up when i'm sad .
Nobody to listen to my grumbles when i'm unhappy .
Nobody to wake me up in the morning for school ,
and nobody to call me and accompany me through the lonely night .
I miss you alot .
My dearest , i really miss you a lot . =(
"I want to die peacefully on that bed of roses . "
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Friday, March 17, 2006
Love is really fragile.
Touching my eyes softly is so painful . My eyes are painful , swollen , watery and red . I didn't know yesterday night's weeping could cause swollen eyes today . =( Woke up at 6:30 today and prepared for remedial , during remedial my eyes hurts and i was feeling really tired . During remedial , Haffiz was sitting infront of me , so i kept disturbing him and he kept laughing . After remedial , headed home , bathed and slept till 12:15pm and prepared for tuition . After tuition , prepared to go out to meet those few for movie in town . Was having MVC , darn painful laa . Took two panadols to ease the pain , but still having slight cramps . Stupid cramps ! And I bought new grey lenses and it was really uncomfortable , i dont know why but i guess it's my swollen eyes . Reached Orchard , and it was kinda bored . Bought the tickets for Your , Mine , Ours . It was a nice show , i made a fool in the cinema too . There's this part where the guy got promoted or so , he's whole team was clapping and being stupid , i dont know why i clapped with them . Then I laughed like hell and it was seriously embarassing laa . Headed home after the movie , my mood was down . Going home so early from town is so awkward laa . But we have so little people , cant do much . On my way home , am really feeling lonely and depressed . Wished that there's actually someone by my side that i could talk to . Mmmms.. Tmr am having BBQ at Sembawang Park with cousins . Messaged Mond Mond in the noon and he told me Zouk was fun last night . Aww... Sad laa . But... He promised to bring me there next time . =) Damn it ! My eyes is really painful . Urgh !! Dang... I gotta go rest now . I've got so much to tell my dearest . =( Goodnight world. <3
aint he cute ? his daddy brought him to style his hair . =)
"Hold my hand tight and never let go . "
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Thursday, March 16, 2006
maybe one day , i'll fall for you.
My night is seriously ruin laa !! Urgh !! Didn't go to Zouk for ROMP cause last minute , Titus had something important to attend to . When he called and told me that , i was grumbling and making lotsa noise . Aww.. Nevermind . He said he's gonne pay back soon . So i'm looking forward to the next meeting . =) Yesterday , my night was a disaster too . Anyhoo , i woke up late for maths remedial this morning . So i rushed like hell and cabbed to school , wasted my money . Narbei! Received some unholy message and my eyes hurts .. Maths remedial was quite okay , Melvin Chan was having international meeting under the table , ZQ kp alot and i always have to punch him to make him shut up , Jon's calculator loves to show "error" , Nasri loves to throw those rubber dust around anyhow , Haffiz kept bio-ing his girl and i kept looking around , draw stupid things on the book , but i did pay attention . Our class was much better than the others , i seriously admit it . I was sooo hungry during lesson time , but after lesson i wasn't that hungry anymore . Weird , i know . Wento Mcdonalds with the whole lot and slacked there for awhile . Something stupid happened when i followed Heng to develop her photo . Okay , that stupid thing was done by me and i was so excited and worried . But it was just for awhile.. Headed home , bath and wento sleep till 3pm , Mum woke me up cause i'm going over to Uncle Mic's place to help him out . It was fun helping him there , "Happy Fishy" . It was seriously hot inside . Bth~ Left around 9plus , Dad drove me home and i was telling him about some bills stuffs and money matters . I'm going to get a new contact lens soon , i am really going to get it . My vision ain't that clear already , kinda blur and misty . Will be heading to town tmr noon with Gransazers and others . As for my mood , i guess it is still the same . I wanna go to Esplanade tmr . I wanna let everything dissolve in the sea . I wanna let the wind blow away my sorrows . I dont know what else to say anymore.. Goodnight people . <3
I miss you ; my dearest
"I can`t see the radiance in your heart anymore . "
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Wednesday, March 15, 2006
come and take me away with you tonight.
Oh.. Shitty ! I woke up this morning with a serious backache . I aches like fuck and it made me have to walk slowly and do things slowly today . Urgh ! So i actually packed my dressing table and study table , and i cleared lotsa unwanted stuffs and useless things . Decorated my notice-board and walls with lotsa photos . I came out with this idea , cause i wanna know that when i'm sad , i could just look at those pictures where i smiled radiantly and looked at those pictures which have lotsa nice memories . And the other reason for putting up those photos is , at least i know that they all will be with me when i need them . =) I took lotsa time to paste up those pictures and figure out where to put those pictures . Adding on , my backache really sucks . After awhile , i have to sit down and rest or lie down on my bed . The feeling is really shitty .. *plurgghh* I only had 1 slice of small kueh lapis and that's it . Lazy to eat and i think i'm going on a hunger strike now . Anyhow , my mood is still unstable . I think today was worst , i on-ed my handphone when i woke up and i leave it as i wento bath . Went i came out , i saw 2 messaged received and i quickly open and read . Tears rolled down uncontrollably and my heart was really painful . Called Edwin and told him , cause this current problem , he know it best . Sighh.. but messages didn't stop coming in . Everything was so confuse , unpredictable and heart - breaking . =( Every moment , i'm thinking about lotsa stuffs , my mind was flood with lotsa questions and memories . I miss it alot... I really do .. I felt sad for that person , it's like he lost another part of his life and searching it high and low for it . Thinking , what actually happen ? How come things suddenly became this way ? Hoping he will find it one day , but i guess... it wont go back to him anymore . This is a very crucial stage , a small message could change everything . We all dont know how the other side is doing and what is the other side thinking about . I've got lotsa uncleared doubts , i've left many things unknown and undone . Yesterday night was as usual , whine on my bed and thought of lotsa stuffs . Sighh.. I think tonight , i'll be sleeping with my tissue box beside me again . =( Needa wake up early for remedial tmr . Goodnight people .. I miss you. <3
"My tears will dry up one day , i cant cry for you all the time . "
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Tuesday, March 14, 2006
you appeared in my dreams last night.
Wynny ain't in any good mood . I'll update about outing today in a few days time . Wynny is sick and tired.. My mood was quite okay in the morning and in the noon , but as the sun sets and the sky turned grey , I dropped down to the lowest point of my life . I struggled to smile and made others less worried , but how long can it last ? The previous night wasn't spent well too , was snivelling under the blanket and reminiscing about the good old days . It was so hurting... Am feeble and baffled now , what should i do next ? Will i regret after every action? What will this cause ? Is my next move right ? Can everything be solved and forgotten in a nice way ? I asked myself loads and loads of questions , but i get none . My mind twirled like a maze and my eyes hurts like hell . Aww.. ain't in any mood to type any longer . Will blog when i'm in a better mood . Am gonna off my handphone tonight , i dont wanna weep in the middle of my sleep . I rather weep tmr , when i wake up . Goodnight!
14th March 2006 ; i miss you ...
"Never to turn back on your miserable path . "
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Monday, March 13, 2006
the secret lies within you.
I just watched Campus's result . Hell shit ! Yu Yang is out laa.. =( He's peformance today wasn't bad what.. Aww... *sob sob* Anyhoo , my Dad was back yesterday evening. Wento the airport with Mum around 5:30pm and i saw Boyboy(uncle KH's little boy) . He's so brave and funny laa . He saw Uncle KH inside waiting for his luggage , he ran inside to the luggage belt area and the police didn't notice it . haha . Then the crowd was like "wow.. look at the little boy.." And after awhile , 3 police uncles escorted him out like some big shot . haha . When he walked out , he wasn't afraid at all . He ran straight to me and hugged me . haha . I haven't seen him for years can.. hee` After the airport , we headed to Uncle Ping's house . Dad bought red wine , CHIVAS and Tequilla . How nice of him.. Took the bottle of red wine up to Uncle Ping's house . I saw Samantha , Shermaine , Sebast , Han Han and Kai Kai . All those kiddos whom always stick around with me.. haha . Had dinner with all those kiddos and was quite funny in the kitchen . haha . I so love them.. Ah Long kor kor was bad and ner ner-ish . We were chatting , then suddenly , he stood up and asked me "wanna go beat tiger?" I gave a question mark face and then asked him again, "beat tiger? where??" He answered "you very slow ehh.. outside lo.. haha.." Hell... I looked at him and he took out his cigarrete box from his pocket and waved it to me . Shitty him! I rolled my eyes at him and whispered "NARBEI" to him . haha . He's so bad laa.. Left around 11plus and i was dead tired . Quickly bathed and went up to my cosy bed then i visited lala land . =) Mum is changing phone soon , so am i . But i'm using my own salary to buy the new handphone . Meaning , i cant buy my digital camera . =( But at the moment i dont know what model to get . haha . If i cant come out with a decision , then i think i wont be having a handphone . haha . I mean it! Tmr am going to ESCAPE with Gransazers , Da jie , Pk , Chew and Heng . Then after that , will be slacking in Grans chalet . wooohoo~ They're all having fun there .. I wanna go there soon . haha . But tmr i needa wake up hell ya early , at 9am . Cause am meeting Chew and Heng then head down to Pasir Ris together . Edwin demanded me to reach there before 11:15am , if not he'll....................... haha . Better keep it a secret , if not it will ruin his reputation . wahaha` About my last entry , my primary school life , i really missed it so much . I wanna go back to those air-conditioned containers classroom to have lesson and play around . I also wanna hide behind the door always and open the door for teachers . haha . In my last entry , i forgot to mention Mr. Teo . He's a training teacher and he came to take us for lesson . haha . Will talk about it more some other time . Some of my close primary school friends will know what kinda trouble i always gave him . haha . Do check out for that entry ya.. =) Ohh , i've switced my online photo gallery back to my old one(mypicgallery) , multiply is just too laggy . And in my old gallery , i've updated those photos which was previously in multiply and some old photos were in too . So do check it out often eh.. Lastly , i'm gonna change my blog url soon and my blogskin(i know it's time to change. hee`) . Am thinking of my new url now , help me!! Tag my board and tell me alright... haha . Gotta stop here . Goodnight readers. <3
"Tell me you're that special someone . "
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Friday, March 10, 2006
searching for memories.
Reminiscing the good ole times in primary school were nice , young and dangerous . haha . Playing basketball after school is a must , playing around during chinese lesson is also a must . Seeing police uncles patrolling around the basketball court wasn't scary , playing a few shots with those uncles were retarded . Having the residents to complain to the school about us being noisy and naughty were like everyday's meals . Lastly , imitating teacher's action in the exam hall is also a must do . haha . Seeing those EM3(s) good friend fight and talked loudly in the canteen was irritating . Getting along well with EM3(s) friends were fun too.. They aren't those big bad bully afterall , they're friendly and have lotsa cranky ideas . Greeting the disipline master with a neat 90 degrees bow and a loud "good morning" was fantastic and cool . Having high socks , long skirt , canvas white shoes and heavy school bags were kinda cool that time , i reckon . Not bringing handphones to school , not being late for school , not pon-ing lessons , singing school's song and national anthem loudly were seriously the most deadly things . It's a good piece of shit afterall , you were actually tamed in your primary school . And when you step into the new world of secondary school's life , you were like a endangered animal which was just let out of the cage . You wanted to try so many new things , for example..
-ankle socks
-empty school bags
-shutting your mouth and not sing the national anthem or school song
-design your with school shoes with the coolest drawings
-messaging in class with your phone placed on the table and not hiding under the table
-hearing your message tone or ringtone rang up suddenly during lesson time
-talking on the phone with your friends during lesson time
-thinking of ways to avoid grooming check
-see ah lians and ah bengs settle problems outside school
-seeing people fighting in the toilets , canteen or outside
-first time ever seeing your classmate smoke in the toilet
-climbing over toilet cubicles
-throwing up wet toilet papers up to the ceilings and when those aunties nagged , you acted like you didn't know anything
-walked out of the classroom like it's your room whenever you want
-crush your homework , throw it into the dustbin and not having any regrets
-disturb the teachers , play prank on them
-locking up the classroom's door and not let the teacher in
-cheating during test or eating during exams.
-charging handphone in the classroom
-hiding handphones in the OHP
-being nasty to the drink stall aunty when she charged you extra 10cents for another cup of ice.
-roam around in the classroom block at night when you're having a camp
and the lists go on... that's all i can remember and what i've done before , i know there still loads more things i done before but at this moment i cant remember much . haha . ohhh.. I seriously miss my primary school days alright . I think i'll then.. Ohh yupps , i wento visit Andrew on Wednesday and he could hear me talking to him . He's tears rolled out too , but he didn't open his eyes . Let's just pray that he'll recover soon.. =) Goodnight everyone . <3
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knowing your presence wont last forever.
I just finished my tuition and my teacher bought me Ah Lian's CD ( Chen Wei Lian) . How nice of her.. haha . Actually last few weeks i was asking her if she could lend me the disc , as her son bought it . She said okay , then today she bought it for me . haha . When tution starts , she passed me the album and blah blah blah .. when tuition ended , she said the CD was for me . She bought it for me as a present . haha . woohooo~ But there's a deal behind laa , as usual , study hard , pass all subjects with flying colours , go to Sec 5 and stay happy . =) Am listening to the album now . How nice... weehee` Thanks a lot! Will be going out soon to OPSS to look for Godma and co. then we'll be having dinner together and i dont know what are the further plans . Waiting for Titus's call also . Latest update , GANBEH called me last night . Around 12+ , after i offline . I was reading some letters then the room's phone rang . I jumped up and answered it and i heard GANBEH'S voice . haha . We chatted for around 45mins and he's darn funny laa , he told me stuffs about his shop and some recent happenings . He told me stuffs about Pink Lady and said Pink Lady have got new features and new dancers . Pink Lady is a pub located somewhere near to his shop , and we always go there to slack , we knew quite a lot of dancers and people there too . The music , lighting and dancers were awesome and the crowd were stunning too.. I just love Pink Lady laa.. But too bad , i cant go there so often . I must take a plane over.. haha . Gotta go bath and prepare alreadyy.. Update later..
Things i wanna get soon :
-shimmer glimmer
-ice princess's stuffs
-"my lovely" notebook
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Thursday, March 09, 2006
dont act like a pathetic fcuker please..
I didn't go school today.. haha . Mum approve to it . Yesterday , on the way back home , she asked me if i wanna go school the next day , i told her i'm still thinking . Then she told me , "dont wanto go then dont go lor.. last few days already , nothing much one laa. " I nodded and rejoiced.. haha . Yesterday , reached home , bath and went out to meet Da jie , Alex , Jon , Melvin and others then head down to Orchard . But Melvin was late , all thanks to his new contact lens . haha . So we all waited for him ay Yishun's platform and i saw Ah Di . haha . Was actually talking to Da jie , den when i turned around , i saw Ah Di . Shocked sia.. haha . Chatted with him and he kept asking me , am i happy , excited or whatever shit . haha . Ner ner ... He was going to the Cantonment , Cantoment or whatever-ment . haha . Anyhow , wento Far East for lunch and bought Edwin's present . After awhile , i left for TTSH . Around 7pm , Mum and i left TTSH and headed to Khatib for supermarket-ing . Nice laa .. I bought lotsa stuffs , cause holidays are near and i know i'll be lazy to go out and get food. But another point , i'll be lazy to cook myself even i'm at home . haha . It was 8:50pm after supermarket-ing , i quickly rushed Mum to drive faster as i wanna watch 9pm show . haha . But when i reach home and on the teevee , it just started . =) Slept till 1+ today , prepared and went back to school to return Progress Card with Chew . Had lunch in school then headed home , Chew came to my house and slack.. Till around 8:20pm , we left and wento meet Gransazers to celebrate Edwin's BIRD-day . haha . It was hell fun laa.. Was trying very hard to hide the cake , then i passed to Elwin , he was making a fool and we're exposed . haha . Sang birthday song along some roadside and had loads of fun . haha . While lighting up the cake in the shop , there's this little girl wanting to see the cake badly . She kept asking her Dad if she could see the cake , upon hearing this . I turned behind and show her the cake and talked to her . She was darn cute laa , she asked whose birthday issit and actually wanted to wish the birthday boy . But too bad , her mother brought her to the 7-11 to get some stuffs and we left . haha . She's really cute and sweett.. hee` As usual we walked into some ulu places , and i really like it a lot . On the way inside , we were chatting , making a fool , crapping and hell laughing . haha . I really love the way we bond together and have fun . haha . =) And my Dad messaged me when i'm eating just now , i thought which kind soul messaged me . haha . He was just asking where am i and others stuffs . Was messaging with Boy too and our content were really funny and crappy laa . haha . I'm not going to school tmr also . haha . Will be having tuition tmr noon , thinking of it make me sleepy . *oppps* My Satuday is free.. Anyone ?? Drinking , Supper , Towning ?? Buzz my cell alright , if not text me a message ya . haha . I'm tired already.. Goodnight people . <3
HAPPY 16TH BIRTHDAY EDWIN / NEH NEH !!
"Attention ? Is that all i want ? "
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Tuesday, March 07, 2006
haven i pay enough attention to you ?
My Dad is flying off tmr again , this time to China . He'll be flying off early in the morning , i wanted to go and send him off . (so that i can skip school..hee`) But he said , it's too early and i cant wake up . haha . And i dont know when he'll be back cause i forgot if i've asked him before , so in order not be get scolded . I shan't ask.. haha . Actually i didn't wanna go to school today , but i remembered i needa hand in the Chemistry Project to Ah Tan . So i dragged myself outta that cosy bed of mine and wento school . I was almost late , i was so scared and worried can . I dont wanna stay back for those stupid and fucking detentions class . So Chew and me quicken our steps and finally we reached school and we're not late. haha . *phew~~* Lessons were boring as usual . Chinese lesson was so sucky .. Ewww.. Assembly was very bored , it was Mrs Chang's talk . She told us stories which almost make me stepped into lala land . Rushed home after school , bath and.... SLEEEEEPPP !!!! haha . The feeling is really nice . wwooolaalaa~ Slept till 6:25 , woked up and prepared for tuition . I didn't have dinner today , cause the rice look kinda mouldy . haha . So i ate coconut slices and it's really nice.. My Dad bought it from K.L , really nice . haha . I just told my Mum i'm not going to school on Friday and she agreed to it . But she says , i needa go down to the hospital that day . Yes , i will go down . Because i wanna visit Andrew too... I really hope he'll be concious soon , and smile like he always do . =) Tmr is soooo boreddd.. I guess i'll rush back home to sleep again . Ehhh.. No no ! I must go visit Andrew. Right !! Anyhoo , when my Dad return from China .. I shall pester him to
- get a new fan in my room
- new dressing table
- bring me to watch Disney On Ice( i know it's impossible. haha.. )
OR
- get me a new cell =)
Alright ... I just remembered , i'll be getting my Progress Card tmr . Bless me okayy.. I want the holidays to come soon . I want to go Sentosa .. I wanna take a ride on motorbikes . I want Andrew to recover soon . I dont want to wake up so early in the morning and miss my bed so much . I dont want to hate my cell so much , but i got to . I dont want to hate my form teacher , but she made us hate her . I dont want to go blind with my expired contact lens , but i'm lazyy and moohlaahh-less to get a new pair . Even if i've moohlahhs , i'll be lazy to get it . haha . I'm tired already . My mind is shutting down soon.. Goodnight readers. <3
"Can i still see you , if tomorrow never comes ? "
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Monday, March 06, 2006
till now , i still dont understand.
I'm suppose to do my maths homework actually , but am waiting for the correction liquid to be dry . So i came up to update .. haha . I think the correctiong liquid will take half an hours to be dry .. haha . Anyhow , i did see Kenneth and Lil' Trina on Sunday morning for breakfast . I didn't really sleep well as I was sleeping with Godma on the bed cause Godpa wasnt at home . But the bed was so hard and the pillow was hard too.. I regrettd for not pulling the "ti-lam" over that night , if i did so .. i wont have to toss and turn on the hard bed . haha . Okay , Kenneth was funny . He actually kinda forgot me .. Ner ner . Who is the one whom always talk to you about your digimons , pokemons , bey-fking-blade and power rangers ? Who always smuggle Vitagen or Yakult for you ? Who always pat you to sleep ? haha . You better remember okayyy .. haha . Yesterday Godma , Mum , Wj and Me wento the hospital around evening time . On the way to the hospital , my Mum start to wail , complain , whine and sigh to my Godma saying how sad and miserable her life is . And she said we , as her children , dont even wanto help her with the house chores . Hello Mrs Oh , for godsake .. your oh-so precious son isn't working and he fucking sleeps all day , stuck in front of the computer , glue his eyes onto the teevee and eat like a hungry ghost all day long . Why cant he help you do the chores ? I know you'll say that i'm comparing , i'm a girl and when i'm married next time and blah blah blah.. Narbei!! She also complained to Godma about my social circle . She just fucking judge a book by it's cover . Cannot like that okay ?! Hell ya.. She said that , i became rebellious when my Dad is not in Singapore . And hello Mrs Oh , I only wento to Godma's house to stay ,you also agreed to it YOURSELF!! What is there to be rebellious about ? So when your son dont come back home , he isn't rebellious laa . Shitty ! And so throughout that 30minutes of journey , she was complaining to my Godma . And i kept quiet , because Godma was there and she's trying to help me too . Heck laaa.. While she's talking , i was nodding my head and giving lotsa funny faces . She cant see my funny faces unless she look into the rear view mirror . *poo-poo* While having dinner at the hospital , i was queuing up to help 6th aunt buy some dessert . Then this small little girl and aunty wanted to cut into the queue , so i stared at both of them and the auntie saw it . So she said : "sor li ah . " And she pulled her daughter away , then i smiled at them . Then the queue was fucking long and their service sucks . When it's my turn , i told them what i wanted and that auntie said : "oh.. no more or lae ly. " What the hell ?! I stomped off angrily and make noise to my Godma . *hhhrrmmppffff* Left the hospital and wento fetch my Dad , ohhh... waited for so longg laa . When i reached home , i was dead tired already . Quickly compile that Chemistry project thingy and wento sleepp... I love my bed so much laa . Serious okayy.. After sleeping on Godma's bed , i realise how nice and cosy my bed is . haha . Godpa was back yesterday night too and i heard that his luggage was overloaded and needa pay extra cash . haha . I hope there's lotsa finger-lickin' stuffs in there . hee` I was reluctant to wake up for school today , i know laa.. since when Wynny is reluctant to wake up for school right ? haha . I dragged myself up cause i needa pass up the Chemistry project today . Ya laa , that Ah Tan never come .. So i cant pass to him . Stupid FlatTop ! haha . I am so lethargic today laa , almost doze off . Was wearing this Yellow Ribbon and it was fun . haha . Had lunch and came back home to sleepp .. And i just got a shocking and heart-breaking news .. My cousin , Andrew is in the ICU at TTSH now . He actually mixed Ecstasy with some unknown alcohol and he went high . And went those Ecstasy(s) run out , he'll go and buy cough syrup and gulp it down . So the night before , he was drunk and 4th Aunt dragged him home . Unknowingly , he went out of the house and jumped down from the 5th floor . Fuck you , Andrew ~!! Now , he's backbone was seriously hurt and hard to recover , his rib- cage and lungs were damaged badly . 4th Aunt was terribly upset and depressed .. Although i aint that close to Andrew , i seldom see him that much . But during gatherings we did talked and crapped together before . I pray hard that , he'll be concious soon and recover soon . Will visit him on Wednesday , wanted to go tmr but am having tuition . Ohh.. Andrew . You better be well , and turn over a new leaf alright.. =) I gotta go and sleep for now . I can hear my hear calling for me .. Goodnight people . <3
"I still dont understand why does tears still roll down my cheeks in the night . "
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Saturday, March 04, 2006
the grumbles of a little woman.
Am currently at Godma's house now . Godpa isn't around , HE WENT BACK TO HAAT YAI !!!! How sad.. He never bring me along . I guess he'll sure meet GANBEH there , i've got stuffs to pass to GANBEH too . Urgh !! Nevermind , Godpa better remember to get me some nice and finger lickin' stuffs back . haha . My Godpa is nice laa . Last december , when we went back to Haat yai , i was craving for beef sticks . As he know i love beef sticks from young , so he actually wento check out at the shopping mall under our hotel to see if they sell it . But they dont . Then Godpa , took a tuktuk down to a further shopping mall to get it for me . How sweet of him laa .. hee... Wento watch Big Momma's House just now with Gransazers and Da jie , it was nice and effin' funny . But a little like The Pacifier.. haha . but still , must watch it !! Ate Macdonalds for dinner and i saw my Lao Da . He's still so cool and handsome laa . haha . When i turn back and saw him , i was like a little children wailing for their parents . haha . My Lao Da is the best okayy.. He always asked me if i've got any probs in school , about my school work and other stuffs . haha . Was messaging with Boy on the way to Godma's house , and i forgot what we talked about . But it was something funny too.. haha . I'm thinking of buying a hamster or a puppy , but i know Mum wont stop nagging . She say , if i've got a hamster .. i wont dare to touch it or play with it . Cause last time i've a few too , then i din dare to touch them . haha . And they gave birth to loads of hammies which was a disaster . haha . And for puppy , if i were to put it at my back balcony , i'm scared it might start chewing up those plants . haha . Mum said , it would turn the whole house upside down . Awww... I guess i'll just have to perish those thoughts of having a hamster or a puppy . =( But Melvin Chan is getting a hamster for his project , but it wont be so soon . But i'm trying to persuade him to get those hamsters earlier .. haha . A very irritating and disturbing news , my freaking brother stopped working already . Because he's preparing for his poly life . How stupid ! It's still long.. If he never work , it means i couldn't have the room to my self . I cant use the computer for long as he'll make noise and ask me to let him use it . He's sucha ass wipe . Urgh!! Anyway , i really hope to see Kenneth and Lil' Trina tmr for breakfast . =) I gotta stop here already . Goodnight readers . <3
"when she tells you she's scared , you better buzz her cell and keep her company . "
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you're only lonely.
My Dad left last night .. =( I'm so shock and sad .. I din know he's leaving so soon , i thought he's leaving only on Tuesday . But anyhoo , he'll be back on Sunday . Yesterday school was fun , i reckon . On they way to school , Boy called me and we chatted all the way till i reach school . Then he was actually telling me those stupid school life of his , and he also ask me lotsa stuffs which i dont know . And he said that , i know nuts . Stupid old man ! But i argued till i win laa , expected . =x But it's still nice of him to call me in the early morning .. haha . Mr Trevor din turn up for lesson as he's got something important on . Chemistry was at the lab , and we had no lessons . There's this part where Edwin and Andy was talking , then I misunderstand their topic . They were actually talking about some disgsting things , but i thought it in another way and made a fool outta it . haha . I actually love my class 4A2 loadss . We're planning to get a class t-shirt but the problem is they cant decide on the colour . Quite fucked up . But we're gonna settle it asap . Rushed home after school for tuition , tuition was kinda tiring cause i din take nap . So i was counting down every moment . haha . After tuiton , bathe and wento sleep . Ohh... How nice .. =) Wanted to go for a drink with Mr Titus , Sherr Jie Jie and others , but yesterday i was kinda tired . My eyebags were heavy and my eyes could close anytime . So i din go but i promised to be there the next time .. haha . Today , Saturday , was freaking bored laa . I woked up at around 1:30pm , did nothing but stared blankly out to my balcony , waiting for someone to buzz my cell and ask me out . Am going over to Godma's house later but before that , am going to watch Big Momma's House at Sun Plaza with Gransazers and Da jie . I'll be staying over at Godma's house tonight , so i can meet my cranky Kenneth and lil' Trina tmr morning . haha . I miss them so much laa~ ! This week , i dont think i'll be meeting Boy . As you see , he've been sleeping from yesterday morning after we hung up till now , he's still sleeping . We actually promised to meet up soon but.. haha . Nevermind . I should start editing my coursework soon , if not i'll sure do badly . Stupid coursework , fuck it !! Ohh yuppps , who wanna bring me ro watch Disney On Ice ?? haha . But sadly , i dont think i will be free that March holiday . I guess , i have to miss it laa . We shall wait for next year's Disney On Ice . haha . I shall go and prepare now . Some shout outs before i go ..
Mister Etic : hey , you should know how much i miss you right ? we're both so far apart , (he's at jb and i'm at spore. =D ) but you always text me a message and brighten up my day . maybe it's because we do not have that much of age gap and we share almost the same character, thinking , attitude and playful-ness . haha . everytime people could spot us playing a fool at the backyard , we crapped like nobody's business and you always know how to cheer me up . i guess we'll have to meet on next year's new year already . lastly , as my cousin , you rock my socks !! haha .
Seith : you're at Australlia now , and i miss your at-night-sing-along-session and prank calls . haha . you always prank call me when you know it's time we have to meet . you always have new ideas to prank call me , and i'm always so stupid to be punk'd by you . your at-night-sing-along-session rocks ! i guess you're having a good time over there , but dont forget me alright ? remember our deal ? you'd better remember , if not i'll smash your head into the toilet bowl . haha . And thanks for the flowers on Vday , you're really nice and sweet . Do you still remember how we met ? haha . It was totally funny and stupid , we should just keep to ourselves okayy . Take care and stay cool . =)
Sherr Jie jie : Woman !!! I miss you ... despite flying around all the time , you never forget to text me messages , e-mail me to ask me to take care or tell me how much you miss me . haha . you always asked Titus to take care of me and being nice , he always do it . how i wish i could fly around with you too , to accompany you while you're alone in those unfamiliar countries . but i guess , that will be a few decades later . haha . and thanks for your advices everytime , you're really nice . love you loadss! <3
Titus : thanks for always smuggling me out in the night . haha . i know it's all crapp .. but , you always helped me and gave me suprises . your non- stop chocolate supply , idiotic prank calls , funny emails and uncool act always surprised me . we always have stupid ideas like , having a duck rice eating compettiton when the rice sucks big time . and having this sisters love , when you acted like my big sister . haha . when i'm really down , you were always there to cheer me up and give me advice . you and Sherr Jie jie really brighten up my life and you two really rocks . lastly , THANK YOU !!
Xiao Bomb : sighh.. you've left us for one year plus already . i do miss you alot .. i miss the times we went fishing in a whole big group , the times when you help me with my art works , the times you reminded me about some small important stuffs and giving me your full support in everything i do . you always never dissapoint me in everything you do , but the greatest dissapointment you gave me was to end your life in such a stupid way . you always told me not to give up till end . but what now ? sigghh.. i always think of you when i look at the photos , cards and gifts you gave me . those photos were still nicely placed on my dressing table , reminiscing the good ole times were really nice . i will never forget the last thing you told me the night before you leave this world . "wyn , if you've got new friends you cannot forget me ." never will i forget you , xiao bomb . i miss you dearly..
"you still don't get the whole picture right. "
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Thursday, March 02, 2006
you'd better be well.
Everything is fine now , i guess . I received that miraculous call this afternoon while taking my nap . =) Was actually suppose to go down to TTSH today , but i overslept so i missed visiting aunt again . Should go down this weekend , i promise . My Dad is flying off next tuesday , I'm not happy at all . Mum is not flying with him and they both almost turned the whole house upside down just to search for that particular fucking green bag . And she went into my room and make a whole fuss about my gifts , flowers , bears and cards i placed on my table . She start fuming around and threatened that she would throw away everything on the table . By all means , do it Mum . I'm daring her , so what . It's not like i never place those things nicely , i placed it nicely and arrange everything nicely can . KNN~!! Just because of the stupid fucking green bag . Screw it ! They dont even care if my freaking brother treats the house as a hotel . If he's happy he can check in and stay for a few days , if not , he'll check out and spend the night and his gay friends house . And my parents just keep their mouth shut like they've got thousands of towels stuck in their mouth . How stupid is it ! Urgh !! Anyway , tmr is Qin Yu's birthday . I dont know what to get for her , but i guess i'll get her something memorable . Just now had a conversation with Ah Di and we talked about parent's mindset . We used tv screen as example and when he told me the LCD and plasma thingy . I was laughing my ass out laa . haha . What the hell .. And Chuan is leaving for China tmr , and he'll be flying around oh-so often laa . I also wanna join him . I asked him , if i could squeeze into his lugguage . haha . My Saturday is so empty now ... Someone buzz my cell and ask me out on Saturday! My cash drawer is empty already , i think i should go withdraw money soon . Aww.. I dont feel like using my account's money . =( I'm getting tired again . Goodnight people . <3
"I left a place for you in my heart . "
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Wednesday, March 01, 2006
if i can see you again.
Screw MSN just now for corking up . Fuck it ! Anyway , today's Cross Country was okay . Went back to school to help Mr Tong then we took a van down and had lotsa fun in the van . When we reached Macritche(whatever the spelling is) unload those stuffs and wento switch duty with the counsillors . Was doing the recording of positions for lower secondary students with Mdm Rahimah . Wasnt that bad . But upper secondary rocks more , i told everyone whom i know that they did a great job . =) My cousin , Mister Melvin Oh ran despite having a half recovered leg and my sister sprained his leg while running . After finishing calculating the marks , ran over to Mr Raj. and cheered for the others . And my class guys , Gransazers , ran in together in a straight line . How funny can they be ? And after the whole Cross Country have ended , Chew , Heng , Me and Gransazers wento Thomson Plaza to have our meals . Ling Ling (Su Ling , Alex's Sister) joined us too , she's like a little sister to us . Our gang was quite big at the food court as A1's guys were with us too . Left Thomson Plaza around 12:30pm , and everyone took 980 back . In the bus , we were all deciding where to go . We've got lotsa choices like , Sembawang Park , swimming , cycling , ESCAPE , sentosa , play pool and the list carry on.. But in the end they went pooling and the girls went home to sleep . I slept from around 1pm till 6plus . My room was quite warm , i wanted to on the air-con . But i know i'll get it from Dad for on-ing the air-con in the noon . I'm gonna complain to Dad and ask him get a newer fan , as my current fan dont blow up to my bed . It blew below , on the lower bed . I will ask him to get a new fan for me , i dont care . As i sleep , i kept dreaming and waking up . I felt that my dreams were so real , but when i opened my eyes . I found out , it was just a dream . I snivelled again on my bed , and i really felt so hurt . Sigghh... Watch Teman Anugerah just now and wept again . I still haven receive that miraculous call . I still haven got any news to please my heart . One day have already passed and nothing have been updated . As time passed by , i'm getting worrier and worrier . Nothing could explain my feelings now.. It lingers around my mind every moment and i couldn't stop worrying and thinking about it . Tommorow aint a good day too , unless i receive that miraculous call later tonight . If not , my mood will still be the same . I dont look forward to night time as everytime it became a jarring halt . =( Goodnight people . <3
"I want to dream of you tonight again . "
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