Tuesday, January 31, 2006
you brighten up my day whenever you smile at me .
Tuesday - 31.01.2006 ( third day of CNY)
Xuan woke me up and i went opposite to Kevin's house and slacked there for awhile till Qizhi was awake . 10th aunt arrived and so Mum started the mahjong session with them . haha . Qi zhi woke up , i helped him to wash up and fed him breakfast . Went opposite to Kevin's house to wake Zhan zhan up , he was already up . Brought him over and played around with them . En en went out to her granny's house . Around noon time , Zhan zhan and Qizhi went out with aunt and i was lazy to go out with them . So i left them with aunt , and i wento take a rest with Xuan . We then woke up around 4+ as 2nd aunt prepared lunch for us . And at the same time Zhan Zhan and Qizhi came back too . When they stepped in of the house , they shouted for me . And i was in the kitchen , being funny , the both of them wento search for me around in the rooms and they never even wento the kitchen . haha . Till i suddenly walk out and call for them , then they ran over and hugged me . haha . Zhan Zhan said : " i thought you were lost .." , Qizhi : " i go around but i cant find you . " Ohhh.... touched . Washed up for them then dress them up for the dinner . En en was back , wash her up and she's nicely dressed . haha . Zhi xiang kor kor (en en's dad , cousin) then said to me, smiling : "bii ny , why every year you come back they all will stick to you ah ? " *bii ny is my family name , 8th uncle gave me this name and the whole family start to call me that . =) * I then told Zhi Xiang kor kor " haha . dont know ehh , maybe i got mother's smell . " haha . Then we both hi-5 -ed and laugh . haha . I quickly wento bath and after changing , they cling onto me again and asked me which car am i sitting later . haha . Anyhoo , i saw Kuan Sis's son , which i din see for like 2 years . Named Yen and Jun , malay mixed chinese hunkies . haha . They were tall , tanned and cool . haha . Chatted with them for awhile and i was called to get up the car . The BIG BIG reunion dinner started , took some pics and had lotsa fun there . My table was like a bar , martel , red wine , vodka , wyborowa all there . Then i had a few glasses of each , but i had more vodka . haha . Hua ge sang two songs and he was so welcomed . People shouting for encore and stuffs . haha . I'm his Manager for that day , then there is this long long related female cousin whom wanted to sing duet with him . But too bad , he dont know how to sing . haha . When everyone's mood is up for some high dancing , Kevin , Yen and I changed all the oldies song to some very very high songs . Then , I asked Jun to be the lighting man . haha . Everyone got so high , even my 82 years old aunt was at the dance floor can . God ! It was hell load of fun ! Took some funny photo with Jun , Yen and Kevin . haha . We all wento "kop" the ice cream too . haha . The dinner ended and everyone went back to 2nd uncle's house . I carried En en and sat i-forgot-whose-car back . hee` The crowd at 2nd uncle's house was scaryy . haha . So most of the kids hide at Kevin's house and Kevin is sucha con-man . haha . Blahhh... Qizhi went back to KL and before he left , he hugged me and we did the handshaking thingy i taught him . hee` the other kids slept and i had a few cans with Kevin and Yen then wento sleep . We 3 actually wanted to go out for a drink , but Kevin's dad dont allow . Sad.. Yen actually wanna give me a ride on his new bike . varroom~ but too bad . We still have loads of them there.. haha . I start to miss Qizhi then i told Kevin about it , he then asked me to take Yen's bike down to KL . Shit him ! haha . Before i sleep , the scene of the BIG reunion dinner flashed across my mind . Aww... I miss everyone !
Wednesday - 01.02.2006
The previous night was cold , i din have any blanket . So i was shivering and coiling up like a worm . Brr~ The breakfast was a nice one .. En en woked up and we had ice cream together . haha . Went opposite to Kevin's house to slacked , talk crap and sleep . But Kevin was so noisy laa , he kept making those sissy sound . haha . Anyway , Kevin scored a straight 7A's for his end of year . And his dad , my uncle , gave him 7000RM . 1 A - 1000RM . Adding on , Kevin's grandparents , aunt and uncles gave him money too .. He became a rich ass laa . We played till 5+ , i went bath and ate dinner then preparing to leave Malacca . Left around 7+ , and lastly 2nd uncle told me to study well . Mmmms , so Wynny you should know what to do ya . =) 10th aunt and uncle sat our car back , so they talked alot and we laughed a lot . hee` When we reach Spore , i start to miss Malacca , those fun and of course all my cousins . *sob-sob* 4 days of fun is over just like this .. =( Am lazy to go to school the next day , as i'm really tired and i haven finish some of my work . So i told my parents and they never say anything . Mmmms , i really miss everyone there . When will be the next time we meet again ? I guess it will be next year .. G'night everyone . Take care ! Miss you all loads~
my lovely little boy . =)
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Sunday, January 29, 2006
One word from you that keep everything going on .
It's 03:18am now , everyone is in bed at i'm here blogging . I cant sleep laa.. Actually am going out with my cousin around 1+ just now , but he cant make it as he's tired . Narnia~ haha . Am messaging with Boy , he's at chinatown now . He's funny laa . I just finish doing my manicure , and while doing it i just remembered i've go hair-do appointment yesterday at 2pm . I slept till 5pm laa , and i forgot about it . haha . Hell shit ! Am suppose to go for a hair-do but end up having a do hair . haha . Crap !! Mum D.I.Y-ed her hair into some frizzy curls . That freako is working till 4am today . I'm so happy ! He's not going to M'sia with us and being nice , i needa help him kept all the red packets . Extra work .. Urgh !! Am waking up at 9am later and head to do some stuffs , then over to Rene's house for reunion dinner lunch . Leaving S'pore around 2pm and head down to K . Pilar . I'm looking forward to it ! *happified* =) I wont be back till thursday , i guess . People , do miss me okayy? I so wanto eat "ba-kuas" now . haha . I gonna gained 101kg during this fifteen days of new year . Nevermind , i'll have my ways to maintain . haha . My left eye is red and itchy , i dont know why . It was a sudden itch and i start to rub it then it was red . Wooo~ Better not rub it anymore , if not will have swollen eyes . haha . Okay , i gotta stop here already . Shall put myself to sleep and dream about my palace and prince . haha . Lastly , HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR ALL ! get more ang baos and share half with me . haha . =pPp G'night ! Miss me okay.. Love all ~!
We all rocks ! =D
All those crap we shared together were fun..
Acting retard make us high .
So , get high with us !!
"Dont judge me with the past . Mind you , i`m living in the present now ."
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Saturday, January 28, 2006
Love isnt cruel .
Shall blog now to kill the time . Yesterday school was fun ! During Social Studies , we're all talking about the time to meet in the noon and stuffs. haha . Chem was fun !! Did practical and the whenever someone break something , the whole class will start to sing "Happy Birthday To you ~" in R&B style. haha . Darn cool ! Yeok Ling passed me a box of cookies . hee` The celebration started and i got sooo high !!! haha . Wento most of the teachers , shook hands and wished them . haha . During the quiz time , most of the counsillors were sitting at the back , and when we know the answer we all shouted and raised up our hands like some primary school kids . haha . When the band is peforming , we start clapping along and Mr Raj asked us to stand up and clap . So pai seh sia.. But after that , it was fun . haha . My dearest cousin , Mister Melvin Oh kept wishing me and we both were mad laa . haha . After school , rushed back home and prepared cause we're meeting at 2pm . Mum was a total turn off , ask me do last minute stuffs . And so we start to shout at each other , i dont freaking care and dont like to do last minute stuffs okay ! She's fucking driving me crazyy laa . Arrgh! Wento meet Gransazers at the train station . People present were , Xiang Wei , PK , Da Jie , Alex , Choon Yong , Edwin , Jon , Melvin , Elwin , Chew and Me ! haha . Me and Chew bought the same bottoms . Darn funny ! Wento Plaza Singapura and check for the movies time and it's sold out . So we went to Bugis and walked around , eat and slack . Melvin was funny , when we're walking in the veh crowded train station , one lower sec guy stopped and tied his shoelace . Therefore he blocked Mel's way , so Mel scolded : "Stop down and tie your shoelace in the middle of the path for what fuck ?" haha .Went back to Sun Plaza for dinner and Mum wento fetch me to Godma house to take something . Went over to 8th aunt house with 6th aunt , saw Jie jie (cousin-in-law) . haha . Wished her happy new year and wished the baby in her stomach happy new year too! hee`Around 15 mins later , we all left to the supermarket to buy new year stuffs. haha . People in 8th uncle's van were , 8th aunt , 6th aunt and my mum . Then people in kor kor's car were , biao sao , jie jie and me . haha . I call biao sao and kor's sister , jie jie . So its the same laa . They know who i'm calling.. hee` I became Jie jie's nanny , because she's pregnant and cant take heavy things , so i helped her carry the basket and stuffs. haha . After supermarket-ing , we went to Jalan Kayu's floral . And we're all talking about dogs.. hee` Reached home around 1:30am , bath and wento sleep . I love going out with them .. weehee`The baby will be delivered around 30th June , and named Haegen Ho Chen Jun ! Yeah !! My new love~ haha . I'll be going over to 8th aunt places more after Haegen is born , can play with him and take care of him . yeah !! Anyway , Boy finished his last day of working yesterday . He needa take a good rest , but now i guess he's at Esplanade celebrating . =) Update laterr...
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Thursday, January 26, 2006
when i stop smiling at you one day .
I just finish doing that fucking Bloody Sunday report writing . Screw that teacher ! Had tuition just now and it ws quite okay , for 15mins we studied about Astrology and some are quite true . After tuition , went out for dinner with my parents and my Mum is nagging here and there which i hated it so much . I admit i kept staring at her , but that's the way i could stop her from continuing . Then she'll go complain to my Dad and say that i'm naughty , defiant and other stuffs laa . And there start my preaching session . I abhor it so much ! School was quite okay , last two periods was free . But during counsillor meeting today , everyone became so fucked up , self centered and self protective . All of them acting like they din do anything wrong and never dare to admit . Chew , Yeok ling , Khai and me got caught for our socks . "Thanks" to Justin banana for mentioning about our attire . Get a life !! Of course chew , yeok ling and me got so pissed off and start to scold people whom block our ways and stuffs . I think the whole counsillor board people are all getting so fucked up and self centered . They only wanna save themselves , and they leave others in the lurch . Screw the whole damn counsillor board ! Something fun , during F&N lesson Edwin was talking about CNY , i then found out it's so near . I got high and start to make noise and being so excited . Yesterday after i offlined , Boy messaged me and our message content were nice and sweet ya . haha . Tmr is his last day of working.. Blessed ~ Tmr chinatown-ing with the GRANSAZERS is not confirm yet . Some needa leave early for reunion dinner and stuffs . Oh.. I dont know laa . I hope that Mum allows me to go tmr . But i think she'll be very very unreasonable to give me some stupid curfews . Okay tmr we'll be having CNY celebration in school , let get high ! =) Now , G'night everyone . Love all .
"Be it a good or bad ending , everything must come to an end . "
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Wednesday, January 25, 2006
the hurt is too deep , the pain is unbearable .
Wynny's mood is so very unstable . School today was kinda tiring , i din sleep well last night . Although i turned in quite early yesterday , but my mind wasnt in peace . But PE brighten up my day , 4a2 was cool and funny laa . We all started off with floorball and ended up with floorball rugby . haha . Thanks to Melvin and Edwin , whom misses their touch rugby training in primary school . haha . When they started the "rugby" , all of us threw the floorball stick on the floor and went with the flow . haha . During English lesson , Alex , Edwin , Heng and Me combined our tables and started our small meeting and conversation there . haha . Din do any assigned work .. So , i slept for about 15mins during Physics and Maths test was another catastrophe . Darn it ! CLD was fun !! Edwin got some punches from me , and we all were veh enthu in decorating our class with those ang baos . haha . When the bell rang for school dismissal , my leg was in a total hell painful state . Darn fucking painful and i could hardly walk . It wasn't numb or anything . The pain was around my ankle . Fuck it ! Sad thing , i din wento watch Memoirs of Geisha with Jie jie today as Uncle was sick so she needa take care of him . =( After school , was messaging with Boy and once again he's late for work . And he's "soon" was not so soon afterall . haha . Yesterday in the evening , went down to bugis . Again ~!! Because Mum was there , and i wanted to buy my bag . So went down to meet Mum and bought my stuffs . hee` I heard that most of my maternal side cousins whom stay in Singapore , have already went back to Malaysia to prepare for CNY . And here i am , studying for test , waking up early and going to school . I WANNA GO BACK WITH THEM ALSO !! Singapore seems so dead during CNY . I wanna go back and play with fire crackers , tour around in my cousin's motor , eat my fav. food and lastly , play with my little cousins ! CNY seems so far .... Ohh.. and i went mad with Joshua Ang , that I NOT STUPID guy . haha . And yesterday i actually heard some very shocking , unbelievable , outrageuos , scandalous news . They* are together , ohh god ! That's bad ! I mean , Wynny must give them her blessings right . Urgh ! Recently , my eyes isnt in very good situation , at times swollen and red and feeling itchy and painful . I dont wanna have swollen and red eyes on CNY . *praying hard* My back is giving me problems again , i think i bang into the door in the noon today . Blame on my blur-ness . haha . Okayy , i guess i gotta stop here already . Good night all ! Love you all loads ~
"Sometimes I think love is like tears we try to hide . Only truly apparent as it slips away . "
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Monday, January 23, 2006
I found something special in you , as the carousel turn .
Today is my Mum's birthday ! Happy Birthday Mum! <3 I din sleep well last night , i cried again . Darn sad . And the song kept repeating in my player and in my mind . When the song start to play , i told myself "Wynny , you cant cry . no ... cannot !" But i was defeated , tears welled up in my eyes and rolled down my cheek . Wynny was hurt , heart-broken and sad . I cried for about 20-30mins and wento sleep . Kim Long messaged me around 1:45am and i paused for awhile , before opening my inbox to check who is it from . Why i paused ? I dont know.. I woke up 10 mins late in the morning today and i'm fucking rush . Social studies was kinda Q & A because Mr. Trevor told us this "SATI" story and i start to ask loads of questions . haha . After Social Studies was F&N practical and it was a total catastrophe and totally fucked up . Because Wynny went mad while preparing her ingredients . Then I received a message , and was so excited to see who is it from . Oh.. it's ROSEY . haha . Kinda shock laa , quite long never received those morning message from him already . haha . During practical , i was just blur and confused . Anyhoo , i just passed my practical . Reason being , i'm blur and dont know what i'm doing when i'm cooking . And i even forget about my first dish . haha . I admit , i'm blur laa . =pPp During Maths lesson , Edwin was NICE to remind me of someone and he sang " ai tio li , xim kia kia.. blah blah blah .." Screw that song ! My mood went low and i kept counting down for 2:10pm . After school , i received a message and was opening it quite reluctantly because i was thinking , maybe it's just some funny message . Ohh.. !! Amzingly , it's not ! wahaha` Was on cloud nine when i received the message . While waiting for the bus , chatted with Boy on the phone till i reached home . We were talking about some stupid things and arguing about some small and funny things . haha . He's down with sore throat and headache , due to massive inhaling of non-local cigar . haha . blah blah blah ... Met ER GE just now to pass him the company's letter and he passed me those other stuffs . haha .
He called and said : "nyy ah , later i go over to take the letter . "
Wyn : "Around what time will you reach ? "
Er Ge : "errmm... when i reach i call you . But i think in 5 minutes time ."
Okayy , so i waited for 10mins and he finally called . haha . Hu-jian-dao uncle ~ Ohh yupps ! Tmr is everything goes well , i should be catching a movie with Jie jie in the evening . I hope so.. Because tmr after school , that Justin banana wanna have meeting . Urgh !! Narnia ~ Spoil my mood . Lastly , i received a letter from GANBEH . Now , i gotta stop here already . Shall go and finish one more chapter of my storybook already . haha . Wynny says "Good Night everyone ! " Love all ~!
"When i hear your laughter , my heart melted . "
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What hurts
- letting go of a person you've just learned to love
- reminiscing the good times you shared together
- trying to hide what you really feel
- trying to hide the tears that involuntarily fall from your eyes
- loving a person too much
- taking the risk to fall in love again
- hiding your relationship from someone else
- letting go, because everytime you see the person, you only fall deeper
- seeing the one you love crying for someone else
- the waiting also hurts like hell
- being denied in front of people
- Fighting for that one thing that would make you happy that is
- PRETENDING you're OK when inside you're dying
- PRETENDING to be strong.... and RECOGNIZING your weakness
- Lying in bed each night, thinking of that special person you can never have...
- Being with someone you can't actually love...
- Pretending you don't love a person whom you actually love...
- Being in love...
- letting go even if you really don't want to...having no right to say you are hurting because it was your decision
- Seeing the person you love hurt because of you... and not being able to help that person...
- having the courage to say I LOVE YOU to the person you love and finding out afterwards that things will never be the same again when he doesnt treat you with the same closeness as before
- destroying the wall that you have set for yourself, leaving you weak and vulnerable
- admitting that you love someone despite his imperfections
- Making a promise and realizing that when the time has come for that promise to be delivered, the commitment is no longer there.
- The hardest thing about love - believing it exists.
- After you've been hurt, learning to forgive, learning to trust and love again.
Love ,
Wynny
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Sunday, January 22, 2006
When i needed you most .
Things were still so unstable till now . I wonder what's up in your mind . I wanted to cry , scream and shout . But can you hear me ? Where were you when i needed you most ? I always ask myself , had i fallen in too deep or am i just dreaming ? Should i , or shouldn't i ? I guess it was just a fairytale that hasnt started . Okay , Wynny aint in any good mood today . Went to cut my hair , like finally . And i quite love it , no more spilt ends and my texture was smoother . Dinner at OCC with Uncle Ping's family was not too bad . I drank a few glasses of beer and Mum stopped me . Anyhoo , being nice and obedient , i stop drinking . After eating , sent that freako to work and came back home . My coursework is still left undone , so is my maths homework . I'm in a no mood to do anything , i just wanna sleep till everything is over . I'm looking forward Chinese New Year , and everything was already planned . First day morning , we'll head down to my 2nd Uncle (father's side) house as everyone is gathering there this year . After that , then we'll head down to Big aunt(mother's side) house at K. Pilah in Malaysia . Of course , i'll meet my longed missed Mister Etic and Mister Heng there . Guess we'll drink till we're happy that night . Second day , we'll have a small reunion dinner at Big aunt house and then leave to Bahau to 3rd uncle's house to stay over for one night . I guess i'll be quite bored there , because nothing to do . Or maybe i'll gamble a little or aks Jane to bring me out at night . Third day morning , head down to Meleka !! weehee` woohoo~ My favourite place of all . Because i can see QI ZHI and EN EN . I so love them laa . Then we'll have a very BIG reunion dinner there . I wanna spend my chinese new year happily ! Sighh .. But now , i'm in this kinda mood . Urgh !Just pray that , everything will be solved before Chinese New Year and Wynny will be happy . Okay , i gotta stop here already . My mind isnt in any good situation now . G'night all . Love everyone !
Does Wynny look different in the picture ? Maybe it's the new hair cut .
"Someday you`ll look and we`ll be gone... but tomorrow may bring rain , so I`ll follow the sun . "
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Saturday, January 21, 2006
When sadness fills and people got heartbroken .
Got back from Bugis with loads of bags . haha . Mummy and Daddy brought me to Bugis to get my new year's clothes , as promised . Dad came home and drive us over there . Start to shop around and i bought lotsa clothes . laughs . Mum gave me $100 (it was my pay) , and i paid for almost everything . Bought two blouse for that , total $28 . I so love the clothes i bought !! weehee` wahaha` Gonna get more bottoms , hands on stuffs and footwear . That's it !!! Then i can spend my new year happily . haha . Bugis was really crowded , loads of people walking in that small and crowded place . Darn hot can . Went for dinner at The Banana Leaf , this indian restaurant . The food is nice .. haha . Anyhoo , yesterday in school i kept telling Alex , i'm "Wynderella`" . haha . Too bored during lessons . Also went out with Gransazers , da jie and chew around 2pm . It was fun ! Watched The Heirloom , fugging scary laa . After the movie , went to have dinner at some kuku place . I din eat my dinner because , i'm lazy to move . haha . I admit i am really lazy . Some of them smoked , and of course i did my job and that is too light up those cigars for them . haha . After dinner was pooling for them , i was bored laa . But da jie and some others acc-ed me and talked to me . haha . As the clock tick , it was already 10+ .. Mum called to kp as usual . We left around 11+ and in the train we were talking about stupid stuffs . So noisy ! haha . Messaged with Boy , and yesterday he actually wanna go town , but he was dying his hair so he din go . He got a new hairstyle , gotta see it soon . I hope . hee` Cabbed home with Jon at Yishun , being a gentleman , he paid for the fee . haha . Actually i wanted to pay , cause the last time he paid for it . As i wanted to pay , he pushed away my money and said "Nonsense ahh.." . haha . Wento sleep straight after i bath .. Awww.... I felt so confused , stupid , negative and stressed up . Lots of things have been racing through my mind , have been thinking of ways to solve it . But none was good enough.. At times , i was free from all these shit , how free should i be . Felt so disturbed everytime those stuffs raced through my mind and it was tearing me apart . Wynny din have this kinda feelings for along time already , why is it happening again ? And dont lie to me if you're up to some no good businees , be truthful and i'll forgive you . Dont be too good to me , if you have other motives . Be a understanding and resonable one , if not you shall perish . Bless Wynny . I've seen enough of heart breaking scenes from primary school till now , i admit some was a total fucked up one . But others were really heart breaking and sad . I've heard lotsa stories about guy lying to love ones about having third party and stuffs . What the fuck is up to them man ? Maybe they haven tasted the feeling of being heart broken . I shant get so worked up . Wynny , relax , relax . Okayy , tmr is my Mum's bday . Will be having dinner with Uncle Ping's family , and that freako wont be present . Being a nice and obedient daughter , i shant disturb her tmr . So i shall sleep till dinner time , if i can . Oh .. No , i still have got coursework and maths homework left undone . I will find time tmr .. haha . Okay , I gotta stop here already . Nights all . Love everyone !
"The candle was lit , the aroma filled the air . After the flame blew out, something was still there . "
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Thursday, January 19, 2006
Wipe your tears and start afresh .
Just for today , i'm not stress by my homework . haha . I finished half of my maths homework just now while having tuition . hee` Was suppose to meet Mum after school at Northpoint today to bank in my money . But i forgot why , she changed her mind and insisted to go tmr . So i headed home straight after school , i reach home freaking early around 1:45pm . I so miss the smell of my bed and so i quickly wento bath and climb up to my bed . wooohoo~ Slept all the way till 6:15pm and prepared for tuition .. School was kinda fun today .. Mrs Raja talked to my class today about our D&T and F&N , she kept stressing on our coursework . I was listening when she's talking to the F&N students , but when she's talking to the D&T students , i was trying to find network in the ava room cause was sending message . haha . Imagine hiding under the table trying to search for network . haha . Before i went in for maths lesson , my laughter could be heard as chao shi bang into the door while her uniform is stuck at the handle . haha . I was laughing and laughing non stop .. After she came back from the toilet , i start to laugh again . haha . Lesson started and i found this scary yet cute creature on my table . At first , i was blowing at it hoping that it wont fly and bite me . haha . But to my amusement , that was a freaking fake creature . NARNIA ~ So i started playing prank around , i threw to Heng and i wailed like it was real . haha . Then she passed to the person beside her and we started playing behind . There's this moment where XW stand up to block us , Edwin said : "Hey Boy.. Sit down .." I wanted to repeat what he said , so i said " Hey Boy.." Edwin and me together got shock and looked at each other . haha . Because all sensitive to "Boy" that word . haha . Chinese lesson was a total fucked up one , Mrs Chew LP is so ner ner . I dont like her lesson . Fuck it ! The whole day in school i was playing with the fake creature and scaring people . haha . Tmr am going out with Gransazers and chew to shop , watch movie and have dinner . hee` The day that Edwin is counting down for a very long time . haha . Ohh , yupps ! Boy is currently working now . Should be happy for him , but he gotta wake up early that's the part he hates most . haha . Good luck then =) I'm also restricted to eat chocolates now . Because when i eat chocolates , i dont eat my meals well .haha . Anyway , i gotta stop here already . That Stupid ROSEY is so bad , he wants to send me to IMH . haha . G'nigh world ! Love all .
Stupid creature ~
Wynny played a prank a Haffiz while he is sleeping . haha .
Lastly , the creature still love me . =pPp
"When life and love have torn apart your heart , where do the shattered pieces lie ?"
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Wednesday, January 18, 2006
What is the feeling like , when you lose a pillar in your world ?
After typing this post , i shall get back to my study table to finish my homework . haha . Today school wasn't that bad , PE was very very fun . The teamwork and co-operation 4A2 have is fantastic ! woohoo~ After PE , our class starts to get lethargic . haha . During that stupid CLD lesson , Alex start to tell me about his future wedding plans and stuffs and of course i start to day dream . haha . I tell him things like " i be your flower girl . i help you blow bubbles and throw flower when you have your first march in . i help you do your wedding slideshow ." And i went on and on.. haha . WYNNY ! STOP DAY DREAMING LAA !! haha . Straight after school , went down to RedHill with chew to collect our pay . It's so far and freaking tiring laa . Went back to Sembawang to have lunch , and i met my Lao Da after parrting with chew . He's still my caring , concern and understanding Lao Da . haha . Reached home , bath and slept till around 9pm . Watch Love Conture and almost cried .. Emotional Wynny . =( I saw Jie Jie (biao-sao , cousin-in-law , kor's wife) on Monday outside LJS . haha . I so miss her laa . She pregnant , 4th month alreadyy . weehee` So excited to welcome the baby . wahaha` Am meeting up soon to watch Memories of Geisha with her . *total happification* Mummy is bringing me to buy new year's clothes at ICONS . That shop that Titus kept talking about , as if he's paid for advertising . haha . I found out i've been singing the same song in school everyday , i guess that song suits my mood then . I'm so excited for Chinese New Year , but it seems so far away .. Am looking forward to this friday , going out with the Gransazers to watch movie . hee` Okay , i gotta stop here alreadyy . Shit ! I'm tired already , how to do my homework . haha . G'night world . Love all!
"Tears are the rinse water of an unhappy heart ."
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Tuesday, January 17, 2006
I see your shadow everywhere .
My eyes are red and swollen now . I think is my contact lens again .. Hell shit ! Anyhoo , today school was okay . Mrs Leong was on MC and we had free period . What we did during free period ? haha . Taking pictures , gossiping and advising people . haha . During Chem lesson today , was a total slacking lesson . Heng and me was discovering new things is Jon's phone . haha . I mean , we're just being concern . wahaha` Sidek's lesson was slacking too . I was singing Yang Chen Lin's song for the whole period and being so drama . haha . Went home after school and Mum start to make noise the moment i was home , so i quickly bath and wento sleep . haha . PEACE~ Yesterday chew din go to school , she's sick . So i spend my duty time with YeokLing , we're so bad laa . haha . She gave me sweets ~ weehee` I had loads and fucking loads of maths homework . So i told myself , i needa finish it . I messaged my sister and ask if he wanna go do homework . haha . So we met around 6+ together with JJ . I kept looking around and wasnt in the mood to study laa . But i still managed to finish it.. Thanks to my sister . haha . Dad wento fetch me around 9+ , i reached home , packed my bag and wento sleep . Was so tired can .. I think , sooner or later .. Mum will drag me to the salon already . haha . Because my hair is always in a mess after i bath.. and i dont comb it , hair flying around and i dont clip it up or so . haha . Then Mum kept saying that she's gonna drag me to the salon to cut my hair . I dont mind laa.. haha . Am spending too much time tying my hair every morning . hee` Bring me to the salon soon , mum ! =) Boy is down with flu , cough and headache . Screw the weather .. He just replied my message . He had been sleeping from 10+ in the morning yesterday till now , 10:15pm . So longg laa .. Ohh, and this friday will be going out with Gransazers .. They said they wanna go CONDOMANIUM or CONDOMANIA . whatever shit is that .. But i know that's not a good place .. I'm still young okayy . haha . I've uploaded some photos , go view it ! Anyway , i gotta stop here alreadyy . My bed is calling for me .. G'night world . Love everyone !
"I want to crawl into my dream world and stay there , so that the pain yesterday brought won`t carry on to tomorrow . "
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Sunday, January 15, 2006
You must be retarded .
My ahma's chalet was a nice and fun one . haha . i so love all my cousins .. Brought Shaun and Raynerd out to cycle.. haha . They are so cute ! Shaun brought his dinosaur along and he's cute laa . Raynerd's english is powerful . haha . Looked for Claire and Edwin at the playhouse and darn fun . haha . Cut the cake and took some family photo , so cool can . Went out to cycle around midnight and it was so cool . Out butt hurts , when ever we have humps to go over .. We'll all say " shit ! " haha . Slept around 3+ and it was so cold !! Brr.... Drank VODKA and others.. NICE! And i got ROSE into some shit things , my mum started to kp at him and i felt so bad . Shit ! I guess mum din talk sense too , she just thought her way . Fuck it ! See , she ner ner . Now , I felt so bad and i kept apologise to ROSE although he said "nvm" . I still feel very bad . Sorry ROSE =( I still feel very bad laa . Gawd ! Anyway , I'm rushing my coursework now . So tired ! I will get my pay soon . I wanna go buy new year clothes , new school bag and i dont know what else . haha . Today is a veh cold and windy night , i need some ward hugs !! Okay , gotta stop here already . Some shout-outs below . Nights all . Love everyone ..
Yeok Ling : hey , thanks for tolerating all my shitty craps during the camp eh . And i know you miss me alot after the camp .. haha . I miss you too~ wahaha` anyway , thanks a lot for everything eh . =)
Chew : Although i din spend much time with you in the camp , we still give each other hugs . haha . Do take care of yourself and i'm always here for you . Dont call me Mummy or i'll whack you ! hee`
Sister : My da bian sister , really thank you for helping me in the Treasure Hunt that day ehh . And course , Hello panda , MARS and cotton candy. haha . Thanks for making not so tired when you call me "da bian" . haha . Thank you , you da bian ! =pPp
Heng tai : Oh , you rocks ! Thanks for singing and crapping with me in the camp and taking stupid photos . haha . Your chocs is nice~ Go sing together soon okayy. Take care ! =)
Lastly , my cousin Melvin Oh ..Thanks for kping with me and yeok ling to make us not so tired and of course your XXL mentos . haha . Thank you !
"My arms no longer reach out for you . "
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Saturday, January 14, 2006
My love being thrown away .
Wynny is back again .. haha . Wynny is back ~!! Okay , anyhow the Sec. 1 camp wasn't too bad . I have fun almost all the time .. haha . Yeok ling was always with me cause we took the same class and chew was at another class . So Yeok ling will be the one doing stupid things together with me . haha . Heng tai passed me chocs .. hee` The camp started and i was like so bored , because my class mood wasnt up yet . Till around noon time , the games started , i kept shouting and shouting because some of them cant hear me . When playing "Floating Ball" i totally was exhausted and lost my voice . Was shouting and counting loudly .. Narnia~ But at last , my class got in FIRST ! haha . Taught them cheers and other stupid things... haha . My class leaders rocks okayy.. Treasure Hunt was a total shit . But thanks to my sister and dearest cousin Melvin Oh . They helped us alot.. and I ran around the school like a mad one . Screw it ! Me and Yeok Ling slept in the ava room at first , den after that we both wento sleep at the benches outside the ava room . Darn uncomfortable .. Lastly , went back into the ava room and it was already 4+ . We needa wake up at 5am .. Of course we woke up and was like a total zombie . I had dark eye rings and people kept asking me what time i sleep . haha . The second day , my voice became hoarse .. I dont care laa . Went on shouting and singing .. haha . Only Yeok ling can stand my craps . haha . Ask Edwin to buy me Pink Dolphin .. Wooo~ Darn nice! haha . My back hurts and my waist hurts too .. cause in the ava room i kept knocking into the edges of the table . You know how painful is it ? I tell you , it's very pain ! I repeat VERY PAIN ! Asked Melvin Oh to get some lozenge , cause my throat is realy dry and painful . Dinner was funny , Mdm Vani is bad . haha . I started promoting our "Sweet and Sour Fish" . haha . Sang some songs to promote it .. haha . Second night , i slept on the table outside the ava room with Yeok ling and chew. haha . We were so tired and slept after we bath . haha . The night is very cold .. I woke up in the middle of the night to slip myself into the sleeping bag . haha . Woke up and felt better , but my voice was a total disaster . Sister passed me Hello Panda and MARS choc! wahaha` weehee` That's so heaven man ! Ate the MARS during lunch and ohh... soo nice !! I know i'm having sore throat and eating that MARS will worsen it . haha . I dont care laa . During lunch time , Melvin Oh passed me MARS choc and XXL mentos . haha . He darn funny laa . But i gave that MARS to Yeok ling . haha . Han wei passed me sweets too . haha . CCA Open House started and i became mad ! wahaha` Cotton candy was nice .. I love Jarad too ~ Debriefed for the camp and i was so sad~ haha . Me and Yeok ling still thought we had one more night to stay.. haha . We so miss the camp laa =( Anyhoo , the camp was nice , fun and of course a good one . I missed the fun i had with Yeok ling , those funny talk me , chew and yeokling had , stupid actions and songs of promoting dinner . And Yeok ling is promoting her "Lao Pa" to me . We both had muscle cramps around cause we kept punishing ourselves when we say vulgarities in the camp . We'll do 5 squats .. and imagine how much we both scold.. haha . Boy messaged me and i'm bad not to reply him due to doing some stuffs and running around . My bill is gonna shoot up high . Because , those campers missed home and i needa lend them my phone to call back . Aww.. How sad ! Okay , i gotta stop here alreadyy.. Read my next entry for more . Pictuers Below ~ =)
Nights all...
Little Jarad and Wynny . Look like brother and sister huh ..
Yuling and Wynny
"Heng tai - hood"
Narnia-ers
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Tuesday, January 10, 2006
Let's get drunk !
It's a cold and windy night . Wynny is cuddling this hot cup noddles sitting infront of her computer eating her DINNER . wahaha` yupps! It's dinner . Mmmms , i wento Bugis today and it was cold .. So cold . Walked around Bugis and bought a shirt and hands-on stuffs . Seperated from the guys as me and chew wanna shop and dont wanna guys to stand outside waiting . haha . It was fun laa . Crapping as usual.. Boy messaged me around 3plus and i was rejoicing . He told me he's going over to Bugis with his friends to get new year's clothes . So once again , i started to make noise around . haha . Call Ting ting jie too .. But she's working .Wento Parco to walk around and i saw a few familiar faces . I forgot their names . hee` Saw Elwin with his girlfriend , the world is so small . His girlfriend is my friend.. haha . I forgot again who wanted to go Orchard . So they were all walking to the train station already , i quickly message Boy and told him i'm leaving Bugis already . Then he replied : " i going down orchard also . my friend going there. i go far east buy clothes . " wahaha` So i went high again and start to make stupid noise . Wento TAKA and was playing around children section . haha . It was hell ya fun . haha . I admit i was like a 5 years old children again . But i dont care laa . Left Orchard around 8+ and din wento meet Boy , because ... Edwin knows . Sorry Boy.. =( We took train down to Marina Bay and back again , so the gang was asking me if i wanna get down at Orchard to look for Boy . haha . The gang was gan chiong-er than me ... But i din get down at Orchard .. Mmmms , the feeling wasnt good . It felt like fuck ! Reached home , bath and started pack my back for the camp . My bag is very light . haha . Anyway , i'm having serious pain at the extreme right , above my waist a little . I dont know what happen .. Have been in pain for the past few days . When i walk , it's pain and even when i sit down . Will i have appendix ? Fuck ! I dont wanna have appendix !! I dont wanna stay in hospital !! Pray for me okayy .. Sighh.. Okay , i gotta stop here already . Nights world . Love all . Miss everyone !! Miss me okayy ?
"How can I trust my heart , when it’s let me down before . "
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Shall i take the long way there ?
Wells , i'm back to blog again . Haven been blogging for the past few days cause i'm dead tired and lazy . hee` Anyway , XW's birthday at Sentosa wasnt that bad . Although it's raining , but we still had fun . The moment i woke up , i looked outside my window and it's raining . And my mind struck the Adidas Jacket . So , wento prepare and i wore that jacket out .. It was really cold outside . Brr... Dad drove me the the train station to meet Edwin and Nic , and awhile later Dajie , Alex and Mel reached . So we all headed down to Plaza Singapura to get XW's and Jorrie's present . Went over to Sentosa around 2+ and blah blah blah ... Had a nice talk with Da Jie , and she told me a lot of stuffs . I seriously felt better after that .. Walked around in the soggy sand with puddles of water around .. haha . That was fun ! I was using the pink umbrella Edwin bought from HT .. It's veh nice . haha . And of course , i din forget to sing "Little Umbrella . " haha . Elwin was there too , and he sang the full version for me . haha . Left Sentosa around 6+ and wento had dinner at Harbourfront Mall . Okayy , Wynny lost her money . I forgot where it dropped . But it's lost laa . Urgh !! And was messaging with Boy till he fall asleep , and i was dead worried thinking what happen to him again . Stupid Idiot ! I reached home around 9+ , bath and did my maths homework . Then this time , i wento sleep feeling worried again . Stupid Boy ! The next morning , the alarm clock rang.. I was thinking " today Ssturday or Sunday ? No need to wake up so early laa.." Awhile later , i then remember it was a freaking Monday . Of course i woke up unwillingly to prepare . And i received Boy's message , telling me to wake up for school and he apologise for falling asleep the previous day . haha . My eyes was very dry and painful , i dont know why . But i guess is my contact lens .. So in school , i kept blinking my eyes and it was painful . After school was bad ! It was raining cats and dogs and Wynny cant go home . haha . Saw Jojo and walked out of school with her . Finally , i reached home , bath and qucikly wento sleep . Woke up for tuition and my mood wasnt right . I dont know why .. I just felt depress ? or maybe in a lost of mind . I then skipped my dinner , so once again i only had one meal yesterday . Had a nice chat with Mond Mond and he told me lotsa advices .. He's a nice guy . haha . A very good friend afterall . =) Today , Now , Its 12pm and i just woke up . I know i should be sleeping now , but , i just cant sleep . I'm going out with Chew , Edwin and some others later to Bugis . THE SEC. 1 CAMP IS TOMORROW !!! woohooo~~ Yesterday during recess , i got high laa . Before i start to eat , i shouted the Food Cheer . haha . Anyway , i still haven pack my bag for tmr's camp . Take it easy girl . Titus bought me chocs !! yeah !! And it was from , New Zealand . weehee` We're gonna meet up soon with Sher jie jie . haha . Oh yups ! I received the parcel from GANBEH and i got this veh nice photoalbum . The pictures we took together , when we were younger . Ohh ... sweet and nice childhood memories ah . It's very very nice . He made it himself . wahaha` Lastly , Heng bought me the Crown Necklance . hee` See... I told ya all that Heng will buy me that . haha .Okay , i gotta stop here and go prepare already . Update laterr.
" The tears will fall . The pain will decrease . It takes time , to have your heart come to peace . "
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Saturday, January 07, 2006
And you never thought of the consequences .
It's Saturday and i'm freaking home at around 3pm .. Woke up so unwillingly to prepare . Actually was suppose to have breakfast with Reena and Chew , but in the end was cancel because i'm too tired to wake up . So i skipped breakfast today.. Around 7+ , Reena messaged me and said that Oraganising Commitee needa reach school BY 7:15am .. That Justin banana never message and tell us laa . But around 7:15am , Reena was still at home . haha . So we all never attend that meeting .. wahaha` Around 7:45am , i left and wento meet Chew .. When i reach Sembawang , it was almost 8 already . And i saw Reena walking to school , and some others going to Macdonalds . haha . So no rush laa ... Me and Chew took our time to walk to school , and i forgot what we're talking . But i know we're crapping a lot and it was drizzling.. haha . So i started singing my "Little Umbrella !" woohoo~ The meeting started and it was a total boring shit . I almost slept in the AVA room , and when it's Michel's turn to speak .. God damn it ! I was so sleepy laa . He's talking a whole hell crap and being nice , i kept answering him , nodding my head and kept agreeing to whatever shit he says . This make the meeting end faster .. After meeting , was having breakfast with Chew .. Special Delivery.. haha. Saw Edwin and he kept saying "Boy ahh.. boy boy ! " haha . So i shut him with "kp .." hah a. Went up to the hall to look for seniors and were having fun there . hee` Stayed in school till around 1+ and left with Lf and Cyn . Saw Samuel in school too , Jarad went also .. But i missed it . Stupid .. Jarad is a real cute little boy can . He is Samuel's youngest brother . haha . During the Sec 1 campfire night , i think i'll take a pic of Jarad . wahaha` I took my nap as usual and it was so nice ... Then it was my Dad's call which woke me up , because my room dosent have a phone .. So i needa climbed down and walk out to the living room to answer the call . Then followed by a few incoming messages , Sister was funny laa . He asked me , why am i so guai staying at home when it's a Saturday . haha . I really wonder .. I'm having serious headache after my nap . I dont know why too .. My sprained leg still haven recover , my sprained toe is getting worst and i had bruises all around my thigh and feet . haha . I myself dont even know how i got those bruises .. haha . Just hung up the phone with Boy and he was talking a hell load of crap which i dont really understand . haha . He kept repeating the same old thing . Old man are like this ! wahaha` Anyway , tmr i am most probably going to XW's party at Sentosa i guess .. But wont stay for long , i haven finish my Maths homework , my F&N coursework and i'm gonna miss lessons for 3 days because of Sec. 1 camp . Mr Raj. said that , all homework to be handed in on Monday .. This means , i needa rush all my assignments on weekends . If not , i'll do it in the camp when it's lights off . We always have our ways to do things during lights off . haha . Pray that my headache will go away soon , i really hate it . It's killing me ! *pray hard* Ohh , and i think i'm not getting the Adidas watch alreadyy.. ROSEY ROSE ! YOU SEE THIS ? haha . But am looking for other nicer watches . hee` Okayy , i gotta stop here already . Nights all . Love everyone !
" You can close your eyes to things you don`t want to see , but you can`t close your heart to things you don’t want to feel . "
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Friday, January 06, 2006
You dont love me , no more .
It's Saturday tmr !! yeah !!! I'm having the Sec 1 camp meeting tmr at 8 in the freaking morning . Stupid ! My sleep ... Wasted sia ! Am meeting Reena and Chew for breakfast tmr . I should sleep early today .. For this week , Wynny is very guai . She never loiter around after school , she just came straight home . Unless , there's something she needa do . wahaha` Huggies for Wynny !! =) I am oh-so very pissed off with my freaking brother laa . Fcuking Retard ! Go fly kite laa ... Urgh ! Anyway , i kinda sprained my leg again . Due to my playful-ness.. Shitty ! Cause i fell on the .... mmmms , better not say . It's so embarassing . hee` My leg is kinda pain now ... Aww.. =( Ohh , and i've bought my contact lens .. I can see everything clearly already . No more squinting of eyes . hee` Am so playful in school laa , in the Mr Tan Seng Choon class .. I'm called Joycelyn . Cause , me and chew change name . haha . Then i kept seeing Ah Tan around , so i kept greeting him and he kept calling me Joycelyn . I always forget i've changed my name . haha . In his lesson , i'm always behind crapping with chew and heng . But i got take down notes ehh .. haha . Yesterday we had our very first cheena lesson with Mrs Chew LP , so told the whole class that we should greet teacher when ever we see them . So i kept seeing her , and i kept greeting her in those cheena piang style . Eeee... Darn gross ! *slaps head* School wasnt too bad with all those crapping and shit i done . Thanks to Elwin , i start to sing "Little Umbrella" almost everyday . Then chew will echo " ah.. little umbrella .." wahaha` Mrs Leong's lesson is full of new vocab words ! But i always never copy down . Our class only 2 people copied those vocab words.. haha . Ohh yupps ! Boy is found laa .. He lost his handphone , that's why he didn't reply me . Thank god , yesterday he got my number again from Edwin and he messaged me . After thousands of apologies , den i decided to forgive him . haha . And that make me start to sing " Little Umbrella" again . haha . Sec one camp is coming !! I'm anticipating !! Okay , i gotta stop here already . My bed is calling for me alreadyy ... Night everyone ! Love all~! "OHH.. LITTLE UMBRELLA ~~"
"And I was left alone to picked up those shattered pieces of my heart . "
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Wednesday, January 04, 2006
When everything I've believed in seems untrue .
School was quite fun today and I'm bad to fall asleep during Physics . haha . And my Chemistry teacher is that funny Mr Tan Seng Choon , he look so comical with his stupid flat top hairstyle . Eeeeww , he jokes with my class but no one laugh . haha . PE today was a story-telling time by our very famous Mr Tamil . After school wento eat with Edwin and co. i always have the urge to go back . Because they wanted to go to eat at the place which i'm very reluctant to go . Elwin was there too , he's freaking crappy laa , sang those stupid old song . "Little Umbrella~" haha . Reached home , bath and i quicly climb up my oh-so cost bed .. wooo~ Slept till 8+ and i had a nightmare . Stupid ~! I was really scared laa . My very own dinner was at 11pm . hee` And that is why i have gastric recently .. On tuesday , I only ate a bun and that's all for the day . haha . Anyway , am quite worried now . Because Boy is no where to be found , i wonder where is he . He din reply my messages and i cant get through his line . He better be safe .. *praying very hard* Tmr am having tuition at 6pm , Aww.. there goes my nap !!! And my maternal side is once again having the very big family reunion dinner this coming chinese new year at Melacca . I can see everyone again !! weehee` People like QIZHI !!! En En , Qing qing , Mister Etic , Heng , Kevin and some other .. they are people i missed so much laa ! haha . Okay , gotta stop here already . Nights everyone !!
"We should always learn to enjoy life ."
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Tuesday, January 03, 2006
Now i need you by my side .
I just woke up , YES !! It's 11:14pm now , i'm gonna force myself back to sleep later . haha . Anyway , a very nice show just ended at Wynny's house . The title of the show is called "I Dont Give A Fcuking Damn To You ! " This whole thing started because that freako in my house is such a fishmonger . So , if you're a fishmonger .. Wynny dont give a fcuking damn to you . Then that freako wento complain to my dad and he threw the house phone on the floor . haha . He got scolded while i'm happily chatting in MSN . wahaha` Stupid freako ! Dont fcuking think that you're always right . Fcuking egoistic man .. Go lick my toilet bowl laa . Okay , school today was fun . When the clock strikes 6am , and when i happily pulled myself outta bed . My handphone started ringing , messages start to come in to ask if i wake up already , or so . haha . Then when i'm on my way to school , i then needa inform them . haha . Was quite touched laa . Then in school today , received quite a number of message asking me how was school . haha . School was fun ! I mean i'm having loads of fun today . hee` I cant wait for the orientation camp !!!!! wahaaa` And i got a few bruises and cut . My left hand got a cut , right thing got bruised , toes kena sprained , then both feet darn painful cause of that stupid school shoe . haha . I even got my hand scald in school today . haha . " see laa Wynny , play laa.. play somemore .. " hee` Then today , Boy messaged me and told me he was an ex convict . So replied him " ohh .. we always have that yellow ribbon thingy waiting for you .." haha . He was speechless .. haha . Yesterday night , i only fall asleep at around 4+ .. I was crying laa . Because of something i saw a few days ago , I really cant believe it . And the moment i thought of it , my heart really cracks . So tears rolled down yesterday when i thought of it . It was one of my love ones .. Sigh ... I guess , this thing will haunt me for a long time . Mmmms , i gotta stop here already . Nights everyone ! Love all ..
" Oh , please .. Give me a reason to believe . "
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Monday, January 02, 2006
Each and everyday , i wanna have you next to me .
The stirer that we kop-ed from Cloud 9 .
weehee` it's so fun !!
I just finish folding a whole fcuking load of clothes . Wasted my time .. Anyway , yesterday and today was the same .. I woke up at 5pm today . This is the last time i can ever wake up at this kinda happy time . hee` Slacking infront of the computer till dinner time . Life became so aimless .. I am not looking forward to school reopen . I miss my sleep , my bed , xiong xiong !! Lastly all the fun i have during my holiday .. I needa reach school at 6:45am tmr .. It's fcuking early can . And my head hurts now . I dont know why .. I really needa sleep already . Okay , Nights everyone . Bless me for tmr . Love all ! <3
"And i said to the world , i'll never let it end . "
The chocolate BUNG gave me . Yummy~
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