Sunday, October 30, 2005
fugly shit!
after this typing this post , i'll climb up to my bed for my oh-so nice beauty sleep already . today i woke up around 9am , prepared myself and went for a swim with , xp , rene and xing . our mister ah di put aeroplane laa.. haa` its been years since i last swam.. okayy , i'm tanned ! my back hurts a little , my face is red . wahaha` ohh yupps , i learnt not to follow my mum to any big occasions so frequently anymore. ( like cousin's wedding eve's night and stuffs) OTHERS shot both my mum and me . wtf ! curious-ness of others wedding have became a real big mistake which lead to some not so nice comments . if that's the case.. its fine then .. i'll isolate myself . den mum and me should appear lesser at those occasions , so that we can make others keep quiet and make lesser comments . haha . i'm being sacarstic .. so what . i dont care . fook ~! anyway , tmr i'm having maths , eng and science remedial in school .. from 9 - 12 . i'll miss my bed !! ohh.. i'm having breakfast with chew and co. at mac tmr morning .. yippeess !! mmmms , i'm not going to penang to celebrate hari raya already .. because aunt says will have traffic jam . ner ner one.. if not , now i wont be here already.. i'll be there having fun . *nevermind wynny , there's always next time right ..* some warnings to all , PLEASE DO NOT TELL ME ABOUT DYING STUFFS , SUICIDES ATTEMPT OR WHAT'S THE POINT OF LIVING SO LONG . i HATE to hear all these .. what the hell` god give you life yet you never treasure .. wanna leave den leave .. freaking never think about others feelings . see.... these are those 70% of human beings who never thought of others feelings . *kepala-kosong* ohh... be happy for me ! i'm topping up my card tmr .. after such a long struggle . haha . yeah yeah yeah !! yesterday i dreamt about minnie , i dreamt about me playing with her and stuffs . but when i wake up .... " i have a dream ... a song to sing.." hee` okayy , gotta stop here already . nights everyone ! love all !! i miss BUM so much laa .
"I want to scream . I want to shout. I want to have faith and never doubt . I want to bend , I want to break, to sleep and never wake . To break down walls and to escape , be alone and hide my face . "
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taking pics in the hotel's toilet . weehee` =PpP 
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wynny and xueping . =)
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Saturday, October 29, 2005
i love to attend wedding dinners , to share the joy with everyone . no worries , no unhappiness . =)
the wedding dinner was a nice one .. although its a long related cousin's wedding , its still a nice one . i love my dress ! haa` did lotsa catching ups with some of my aunts . some pics above .. and blah blah blah ... the food is nice !! ice creamed - mango pudding !! mahaha` yummy !! *slurpp* anyway , today i woke up at 3pm .. i'm pro right ? thanks ... i slept around 12+ yesterday , den today no one woke me up , call me or msg me . so i went on sleeping till i'm happy . hee` after i woke up , wento bathe and prepare and went out for a quick hair-treatment . weehee` tmr i'm going for a swim in the morning , as for the noon's prog .. we'll see how . mmmms , just now my dad's car passed by suntec city .. guess what ran across my mind ? yupps , its sky garden . still remember everytime when i'm there , i'll named out those hotels i know around there . its been a long time since i last visited sky garden .. should i ?? yupps ! maybe i should .. will visit that place soon . =)) mum's asking me to go take the dont-know-what-bird-flu injection next week . godd!! knowing i'm oh- so scared of taking injection . because we're going to thailand for hols soon .. i'm so scared !! *screams around the house* hee` ohh.. i received a call from our dear MISTER TITUS today around 6+ when i reach home . haa` he's getting me chocs again , cos he'll be flying to canada and will be back on the 20th of Nov. yeah yeah yeah !! he said he'll get me some nice chocs from the airport and at canada . wahaha` i'm the happiest woman girl on earth !!okayy , i gotta stop here for today . sorry to BUM that i din msg you the whole day , because i spend half of my day sleeping . haha . nights everyone . love all !! <3
"I would always force myself to smile infront of you , even if it takes me a million ways to do it . "
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Friday, October 28, 2005
i saw 2 shooting stars at one shot , guess what i wish for ...
people , i'm back from my mini class gathering at sembawang park . i love 3A2/05 . you all rock my world man !! the gathering was a small but nice and memorable one . gransazers were there surprisingly .. the malays were there too . so everyine ate for break-fast den chit chat and wento walk around the park .. took some pictures too , but will upload if i have the time and if i remember . hee`had lotsa fun with the gransazers at the pool room and the playground . we played swing at the playground , they push so high . i almost touched the sky . *slaps forehead* den saw 1 shooting star .. i shouted like mad .. den the others looked up into the sky and the 2nd shooting star went pass and all were like so high . haa` i did wish for something , but due to my STM .. i forgot what i wished for . i'll try to recall it soon . hee` mum wento fetch me home , chew and heng took a lift home too . actually mum wanted to give edwin and jon a lift , but they wanna take bus .. mmms , school today was fun !! really very fun !! haa` first period was the stupid clean and shine , but to us its "come , lets slack . " so went back to class to slack for awhile and wento the hall with yeokling , as we're getting some certs . the prize presentation started and i saw BUM outside sitting at the railing , i was like ... oh myy.. why BUM sit at the railing dont wanna come in . den it was my turn to get the cert. me and benny went to the front and get it . "ODAC chairman" haa` i'm on cloud nine !! went up the second time again to get young nuitritionist award . i'm oh-so happy . wento look for BUM and talked for like 5 secs and went back into the hall . *THANKS BUM !!* and thanks to the others whom clapped for me . =)) during recess , i ran like mad around the school with yeok ling cause those participants for talentquest`05 din pass me their disc . ner ner one.. talentquest`05 started and i was so high !! woohoo~~ RDC rocks !! when it was ismail's turn to sing , me and yeokling went down to sit beside heng and we shouted like mad . we went crazyy for ismail laa . i think some people saw bahs . hee` den i was the only one shouting and clapping .. i was mad ! den after he finish singing , we actually plan to stand up tgt and clap .. but in the end , only i stand up and clap . haa` den after that , i shout , scream , clap and were so high . the voting was fun , cause the sensor not good .. so gotta press lotsa times . i vote like semangat2 . press here and there .. hee` the champion for talentquest`05 was RDC , their breakdance were nice ! *thumbs up !*
i seriously miss school so much . after school went lunching with , chew and yeokling .. after lunch went back to school again to get my books den when i reach home , i bath and faster climb up to my bed . ohh~ i so miss my bed in school . tmr having wedding dinner at Royal Palace Hotel at Orchard Road .. yeah yeah yeah !! den sunday , going swimming in the morning .. yippess !! ermm.. yesterday was an emotional night . the songs were sad and flashbacks was once again in my mind .. tears gushed out and i weeped quietly under my blanket . nevermind.. i gotta tell myself the same old thing again . *wynny . be strong , i know you can do it . go wynny !!* i want adidas jacket laa !! okayy , i gotta go sleep now . i wanna hug my bolster and bears so badly !! nights everyone . sleep well . love all ! i'm starting to miss BUM again . go go jia you !
Syafiq , Aidil , Kamil , Sheila , Firdaus , Sharifah . i'll miss you guys loads !! lets work hard together and strive for the future ya .. =)) take care and do remember us . 3A2/05 ("v")
"one step , two step , three step ... ... we once counted our footsteps together and you told me we're gonna go on counting till eternity ."
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Thursday, October 27, 2005
screw those popups !!
its 10:20pm now .. i just woke up around 9+ and i'm feeling tired again . maybe is my flu bahs . *praying - flu , flu go away ! come again another day ..* tmr is my last day of school already , ohh... i'll bemissing everyone for 2 months . today when i was walking down to my basement .. i saw a BLACK CAT !! den i was like "uh ... fugly shit ! how am i suppose to walk over ! stupid black cat !! " i quickly run pass it and my hands were cold and feet were almost like jelly . hee` school was quite fun today .. saw BUM in the morning .. but just a few seconds laa , we got no fate . den was waiting for BUM's message but to no avail , i din receive any ... =( after school .. was talentquest`05 rehearsal . its so warm and my uniform is making me so uncomfortable . so me and yeokling called sister to bring us some school shirt to change . den sister broght us 2 shirts and the size is darn huge and i mean really HUGE . no choice laa . so we wento change and get back to work .. i tell you ..... me and yeok ling have been running from the stage up the the ava room to and fro like mad . no walkie talkies , microphone sucks ! and ava quite slow . the rehearsal was alright laa , me and yeok ling is back stage co-ordinator . haa` we rock the stage laa ! weehee` after the rehearsal went out to sun plaze with yeok ling and jing lan to get smthg to eat den while walking out the hall , the bball guys (xcel , ziyang and co. ) is so li siao .. they all stand in a straight line , bowed to me and called me "da- sao " da sao ?? hello ? what the hell ? so i laugh like mad at them and heck it and went out off sch . after we bought our stuffs , went back to school again . the shirt is so darn large and i needa keep folding up .. haa` stayed in the hall and see those people practice their items . godd !! bless me tmr .. i dont want things to cork up , i need walkie talkies !! =)) left school arouud 5+ with yeok ling and sister was bhind us . when we were walking pass the bball court outside our school , xcel , ziyang and co. was there again . this time , more people join into the line . so they formed a straight line again , bowed and called "da-sao " . i shut them up with " go home laa ! " yeok ling is nice , she acc-ed me to wait for the bus .. haha . she's my best co. and of course chew laa . reached home , bath and wento sleep . ohh... i just love my bed so so much !! oh yupps ! people , must clap for me tmr k ? haa` i just received a call from k. pilah informing me and mum that my big aunt got into an accident and she broke her leg . ohh... lets pray for her . i miss her so much ! okayy , gotta stop here already .. i wan my bed now!! nights everyone . love all ! i miss BUM loads ! stupid bum bum .. =)
"I dont want sorries anymore , because i once said so many sorries to you , yet you didn't accept and appreciate it . i'm starting to hate sorries now . "
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Wednesday, October 26, 2005
street soccer is soo fun !! we rocks !
after blogging , i wanna go to my oh-so comfy bed already . i'm so tired now , din have my beauty sleep in the noon today . woke up around 6:15am today .. yupps ! its so darn fking late . so i jumped off my bed , wento the bathroom , bath and prepared myself den i rushed outta the house . *wynny is so smart and clever today , she forgot to bring her money once again . haa` i was penny-less . i dont care laa . wento school and today got the street soccer compettion for all sec 3 . wooosshh` its so fun ! the girls against the girls , and the guys against the guys . my team consist of 5 person , chew , lau sai , yeokling , jocelyn and me ! haha . our group name is "we rocks !" we were the first to start off the game in the rain laa and we're also the first to lose . haa` cause ... we were all playing a fool den our opponent love shouting , which we hated it so much . whenever they shout , we would have this irritating feeling . eww... shucks ! game only ma , lose den lose laa . after our game , wento sit on the ledge and watched the whole game and was shouting like mad ! mahaha` every team , sure got a few people we know de . so can anyhow shout . haha . its so fun ! the rain became heavier but it din affect the game . i'm having so much fun there .. hee` after the game , was feeling so wet and sticky but i din bring extra clothes to change . so wento clean up and dry myself and wento the d&t room to look for edwin and co. and we crapped there . after school was helping out in the talentquest`05 damn boring . wanted to doze off laa . left school around 4:30pm and went home .. around 6+ i went out again to meet mum in sun plaza cause she's going to school to meet mrs raj. blah blah blah .... i dont like the time there when thet are talking . cause my parents talk bird and i din care baout them . i only answered to mrs raj . when she asked me qns or stuffs , but i never answer my parents . mum is no anti-climax laa .
mum : " is wyn still with _ _ _ _ _ _ _ ( yupps , she mention his name.)
mrs raj : " i'm not sure . i dont think so . i never see them tgt recently . "
mum : " ohh.. okayy . so wyn , are you still with him ?"
wyn stares at mum with that not happy look .
hello mrs oh , we're talking about results now . why are you so anti-climax to ask those things ? god !! please laa .. sometimes you just never use your brains . mrs raj den ask me to tell my parents everything and my whereabouts everytime . i say i did . den my parents started their where-got-tell-us look and conversation . urgghh!! cannot stand ahh .. anyway , i din know i'm the ODAC chariman . wahaha` friday i'm going to collect my cert. clap for me k ? =)) but i'm so tired , i dont wanna go school . i wanna sleep .. i miss my bed everytime . ohh yupps , i hate egoistic , demanding , not understanding , never care , no concern , brainless , unreasonable and non- appreciative guys ! you guys suck !! eww.... *plurrggh* okayy , gotta stop here now . i'm missing my bed now . of course , i gotta admit .. i miss BUM too !! =)) nights everyone ! love all !! <3
"Missing a person isn't the hardest part , knowing you once had broken my heart is what that hurts deeply . "
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Tuesday, October 25, 2005
i think i - byul
after i finish blogging yesterday , my house was once again fcuked up by her . she came home and started shouting the hell out of her lungs and dont know what she wants laa . she came to attack me first .. so we started shouting and screaming at each other .what the fcuk ! my dad's a total useless one . he din do anything , he just sit on the chair and watch . after the show finish , he go into the room . ter ner ner` "part - one" was she came in shouting and asking all those brainless and useless question . den she went into the room to cry and she rang up godma . - there she start her broadcast system . she told godma so many stuffs and cried to godma , she even ask godma to take away me and that fcuker name off that thailand thingy . godma if course tried to help us laa , den after she hung up with godma . "part - two" she came out and scolded me and that fcuker . bloody hell~ i cried like fcuk and almost lost my voice cause not only she is shouting . the whole thing lasted for 30mins or so ... was so tired cause was standing , crying , and shouting which wasted so much of my energy . she even talked about [him] and i was like , "hello , this is a family thing . why mention [him] ? " after everything ended , i cried .. cause , i feel quite bad shouting at the both of them . but hey ... nevermind . chatted on the phone with BUM and wento sleep . "metro~ , go go jia you !" when i was resting just now , godma called up and she talked to me . i cried laa , den she say she'll help me about the thailand thingy and ask me not to lose my temper so easily although i seldom do so last time . she even said " why suddenly will lose temper lehs? you very seldom lose temper de what . " i just said i dont know . today when i wake up , both my eyes is swollen and its kinda worst and obvious . i kept looking into the mirror and tried pat warm water on it to make it "de-swell" . but nothing helps .. i got no choice but to go with that swollen eyes . reached school and people started asking .. blah blah blah ... i kept sleeping in school today , cause i din sleep well yesterday . i've go heavy eyes bags and dark eye rings . screw it ! anyway , was chatting with george just now and that ex of his (kel) is so fcuked up .
friend : eh .. kel , you not with george anymore ?
kel : no .
friend : why ? who ended it ?
kel : george . i dont know why .
hello kel !! what the fcuk now? you did so many wrong things and even played with george heart , what you mean by you dont know ? go tell people the truth why you both ended laa . are you afraid that people might say you're a bitch ? see... stupid asshole . dont know how to think before doing anything . i hate this kinda people . *ishk....* mmmms , tmr having interclass soccer compettition . wooosshh` i wanna play soccer !! i want my class to win . hee` nowadays school is so boring ... i wanna stay at home and slack . i wanna go penang to celebrate hari raya !! faster ~ i'm very proud of myself .. cause i actually finish doing a power pt. presentation in a veh short time and i'm quite satisfied with it . =)) ohh .. i haven cut my hair , gonna do it real soon . and .. recently , heard from some of my frens .. others is asking around bout "the past relationship" , the others never ask me . they wento ask my friends .. poor thing ~ gee` okayy.. gotta stop here now . nights everyone ! love all !! <3
" The longer a relationship is alive, the longer it takes to get over its death. But, for all things, there is a time."
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Monday, October 24, 2005
fking angry ! blood boiling ..
fcuk you mister ! what the fcuk has gone into you that make you become so fcuking kpo ? its over already .. why you wanna care so much ? why you wanna know so much ? fcuking go care about yourself bfore you wanna care about me laa . bloody bastard ! i raised my voice at you . yes , because the person called and you said you wanted to talk to him and know about it . then , when i pass the frigging phone to you , you bcame fcuking mute and never talk . what the fcuk mister oh ? i'm hating you so much now , as much as i hate your the other one . i tried to tolerate and not to be furious , but you all fcuking dont know the limits . and when i flare up , you all made noise . fuck you !! my life became more and more fcuked up by you and you . next time , i wont tell you all anything or talk much to the both of you . i dont want my life to be fcuked up anymore and i dont wished to lose my temper and listen to those useless and fcuking irritating naggings . next is my fcuked-up-brainless-nefarious-and-irritating brother . he's the same as the both of them which is mention above. what kind of fcuked up family i have ? that fcuker actually on the lights , blast the radio like fcuked and sang so fcuking loudly in the mid of 3am yesterday night . what the fcuk mister ? you go no school but i have can .. you dont wanna sleep , i want can .. bloody fcuker ! on all the lights like you're afraid of the dark , blast the radio like you're fcuking deaf and sang like a total gig . i wanna slap you freaking tight on your stupid face and make you my dog man ! i want you to bark when you see me , i want you to fcuking go chase the bottle when i throw and shout "go doggy!" and when you come back , i'll pat on your head and say "good doggy ! here's your food.." just stop disturbing me from my sleep and stop making my life so fcuked up laa . i make sure you get all this after your o's . on the lights laa , on somemore ! blast the radio , blast louder ! sing laa , sing for all you want now . bastard ! godd!! i cant stay in this house for long . i wanna go over to stay at godma's house soon . what kind of fking life is this ? i cry everytime after we shouted and screamed at each other . everyday when i reach home , i faced it . fook you all ! now , i'm hating you all so much that i can actually forget about ur stand in my life and my heart . i seriously dont wannt face this anymore and i'll lose my temper more if i stay on longer . i dont fcuking care about how you all think now .i always think for your feelings when i reach home late or do smthg wrong . but fcuk ! have you all ever thought about my feelings ? why 70% of the human beings dont fcuking think about other's feelings ? i dislike this kind of human beings !! damn shit ! anyway , gotta go for now . *stormed off*
if i were to leave the house one day ...
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Friday, October 21, 2005
When you look into my eyes and watch my heart shatter, does it break yours too, even crack it a little?
i'm back from a nice and sumptuous steamboat dinner !! gee` dinning tgt with edwin , jonathan , jie , andy , melvin , dennis , tian , tian's brothers and brother's fren . a total of 12 people laa . started eating from 5:30pm till 9+ . haa` was fun laa . loads and loads of fun !! took somepics of the cigars when they're having their puffs .although i hate dont really like people to smoke, but i love the way the cigars is lighted up and.. yuppss.. i just love it . hee` helped dennis and co. light up their cigars , its so fun !! haa` was the phone operator of jon and edwin's phone . tian's 2 small little brothers were so darn cute .. so darn good in the para para thingy . haa` tian's a nice girl laa , dennis's a nice boyfriend . they are so compatible . =) i left home around 12:45pm today , while waiting for bus .. i received edwin's call and my mood change laa . but after awhile its okay ler . met them at sembawang mrt .. den took train down to orchard to stroll around . i love BREAD PAPA . it rocks !! *yum yum* wanted to eat famous amos , but ... i guess we'll let george buy it bahs . haha` walked around at orchard and my feet hurts , muscle ache and that fking sandals sucks laa . i wanna buy new sandals already !! left orchard around 4+ and headed down to marina for dinner . i'm missing everyone now . sigghh .. last week's saturday , i was at york's hotel with all the cute lil' babies amd cousins . anyway , tmr i'm going down to somerset with chew to get smthg done den .... i dont know where are we going to . *aimless freak~* den sunday , i GUESS i'm going for morning jog and swimming . lets just hope that xing never put aeroplane . =pPp msged BUM today .. god !! mister bum actually called me just now on the way back , but my phone fking got no network . so i cant receive any calls .. sorry BUM !! when i'm waiting for bus , i received a few message and felt so guilty . sighh... i made BUM worried again . =( while in the train , on the way back , me and jie was recording our voices in jon's phone . we recorded the ringtone " jon ! ting dian hua ! pick up ur fone !!" and the mesage alert tone "jon , got message , got message! SMS !! faster faster .." lastly , its the alarm tone " what time already still sleeping? wake up laa! late already !!!" haha` it's so frigging fun !! woosh` i still haven had my hair cut and i wanna go for treatment rebonding , or rebonding treatment . $$$$$~~!!!! okayy , i think i gotta stop here den .. ohh .. wait ! some scoldings ..
what the fcuk ! if you think you dont wanna it anymore or its useless can just return it laa . dont leave it there to collect dust can ? wah rao~ cant stand it man ! sometimes people just got no brains to think , where's your bloody heart ? where's your fking brains ? now i know the yaya-papaya's logic . god !!
i'm done ! nights everyone ! take care . love all!! <3
the lighted cigar `
smoking harms your health . smoke less ..
this was once written on my hand . i love it !!
"It's just about now , when the tears start to fall , I wonder if I'm gonna make it at all . this is not about trying to go back in time , this is not about where I'll be a year down the line , its just moment to moment , surviving somehow.. this is not about then , this is just about now . "
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Thursday, October 20, 2005
There`s a girl in my mirror crying tonight, and there`s nothing I can say to make her feel alright.
yupps! back to update for today .. gonna be a quick one . cos i'm pro . right? bum ! hee` today i skipped school , quite successfully . i'm not sure if my parents know a not . they dont care laa . i cant wake up .. excuses ! haa` actually my fking phone went low batt in the middle of the night laa . den i woke up ard 3+ and walked all the way to the living room to check the time and found out that its still midnight , so went back to sleep again . woke up again , ard 6+ i guess . i look out the window.. its still quite dark . was already sitting on my bed , den when i stretch my leg out to the stairs .. i had muscle ache . lied back on my bed and rest for awhile and i nv wake up till 7:20am . *ishk..* haa` chew called my house and i told her i'm not going school . slept till around 3+ .. hee` i told you i'm in need of sleep . den woke up bathe use computer den dinner time ! was worrying almost the whole day laa . stupid bum bum ! anyway , tmr is promotion day . promotion day = holiday !! so i'll be out from noon till night . haa` who cares ! i'm just talking shit ! i'm so energetic now .. bless me to get some sleep later . =)) was quite angry just now when browsing through dad's phone . SALLY !! please stop msging my dad for fcuk sake . he's old already laa , just dont fcuking bother to message him anymore and dont fcuking disturb him anymore can ? and better dont let me find out further more , if not .. you'll be fcuked all the way to hell !! please laa , one after another . i wonder what is so attractive about my dad . he aint so handsome and attractive . better not let mum know .. shhh... and , i hate third parties from young . through some of my aunts experiences and stuffs when i heard from young . i told myself , i hate third parties , next time if i get into any relationship i wont let third party come in . but but but ........ okay , i suck ! and mum is totally "zhong nan qing nu" . she's making me to hate her . fcuk !! from now , i'll cut down my converations with her , bro and dad . i'll isolate myself in the study room , computer room and my room . i'll only come out for high tides , meals and answering the phone . if not , i'll be in the room doing my own things and the " DO NOT DISTURB THE PRINCESS!!" door hanger will be hanging there . i'll try to go out often to either meet my cousins , frens or maybe stay at godma's house . i wont wanna stay at home whole day . okayy , now to a sad part .. today is the last day i'll be chatting with BUM . cos mister bum needa study for o's and really cant do badly . i'll wait till o's end laa . its really sad laa , like losing someone so dearly . godd! the emotional side is getting up soon , shant say anymore . =)) i gotta stop here already . night everyone ! take care . love all !! <3
"It hurts the most when you can actually feel your heart breaking."
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Wednesday, October 19, 2005
A teardrop is insignificant in a pool of water, but it can touch the soul as it runs down someone`s face.
okayy , actually today its thursday today .. but MR TITUS wanna know what happen on wed . so lets change the dates of posting and talk about yesterday first . mr titus , i'm NICE right? geez` yesterday things and somerset was alright .school was quite okay , i cried again . heck it . but i fking forgot to bring my money out . so i'm penny-less . i din eat from moring till night around 8:45pm . hungry me .. =( george was again with me .. he rocks laa ! * your problem , my problem ?* but he owe me FAMOUS AMOS cookies . its a deal between us . yupps , although legs were so fking tired and pain .. i still have lotsa fun . i saw mister melf , he rocks too can . his jacket and cap .. woosh` darn nice sia . SAVE $$ SAVE $$ SAVE $$ . around 8pm was break time .. once again , cigars were lighted , crapping can be heard and bernard's voice can make you laugh . aaron was a heavy smoker .. he smoke like dont know what . after one stick , he took out another one . so we had a deal , 5 hrs one stick . DEAL ! joseph came to talk to me and he's funny laa . okay , he promised to take me for dinner sometime after he's stuffs is finish cause he smoke infront of me , forgetting i dont like people to smoke in front of me and the smoke pollute my hair . =) so , its another DEAL ! i heard bernard singing and heyy , not bad laa . you guys rock my world !! reached home around 9pm and was so tired .. bath and wento sleep . BUM never reply my message , guess lala land took BUM away . yesterday , on my bed these words came across my mind .. "bao bei , i'm sorry " , "bao bei , sleep already?" all these "bao bei" stuffs . over and over . again and again , its always came into my mind which made tears roll out . weeped for awhile and wento sleep .. mum and dad knew about my results and gave me some not very nice face . i hate to face and talk to them now . arghh... dont know what they are thinking now . taking my name outta those trips ? scold me ? dont care about me ? by all means , suits them laa . gotta stop here now .. more updates later . =) take care !! <3
"I could fill a thousand pages telling you how I felt and still you would not understand, so now I leave without a sound except my heart shattering as it hits the ground."
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Tuesday, October 18, 2005
well , i'll let this slip off then .
i'll try to make this a short one as wynny is really tired and having headache laa . geez` today i skipped school sucessfully .. but dad was so annoying . when i sleeping , he keep coming into the room to take mp3 , ask me about the computer stuffs and kp about this and that . i nv answer him laa . all the while i only listen abit here and there . woke up around 11+ prepared myself and went out to sembawang to meet chew and co. yeah ! i changed phone edwin .. he took n-gage and i'm using his samsung phone now . =)) went down to somerset .. not bad laa . bernard and gang was quite good . george is a nice guy laa .. den others were alright . one thing common .. they all smoke . haa` when break time , you can see those buggars smoking there . pollute my hair .. haa` got someone offered me some job , but i'm not gonna take it . =) reach home ard 10:30pm .. its so tiring today . nevermind... thanks BUM for accompany-ig me . you rocks ! i think i gonna stop here now . nights everyone ! love all ! <3
NIGEL SIM ! SHAWN HOI ! CLAIRE TOH ! HAZEL HOI ! NOEL SIM !
"Loneliness and remorse are flames, often tiny, but sometimes sparked to renewed growth by the simplest of things."
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Monday, October 17, 2005
Falling so hard, so fast this time.
i'm having this oh-so-tired-but-cant-sleep mood now . having swollen eyes and its darn fking painful . why ? i dont know .. mmmms , woke up at 6am .. yups , i woke up late and i rushed like hell . school sucks today !! its sucks totally.. i cried . mmmms ... not for relationship . den my mood went down down down .... in school those images and things kept arouse in my mind . felt so uncomfortable and wanted to puke into that person's face . ewww... *plurgh* after school , wento top-up my card . but my cellphone was spoil laa . i had a hard time reading messages . but nevermind , tmr i'll get another one . =) i'm skipping school tmr .. to let my eyes rest , to regain all my energy and power and to do some other stuffs . but , i'll go down to sembawang ard 1pm tmr .. i reached home ard 5pm today . on the way home , i saw MISTER TITUS !! weehee` he waiting for me at my basement to pass me the chocs he bought . hee` chatted for awhile den went home . thanks titus ! darn tired ~ i was waiting for my dinner till i fall asleep on my oh-so comfy bed . just as i was sleeping so soundly , mr cai rang up my house to ask for my full-name and i/c number . why ? because ... i'm going to thailand !!!! =) although nv strike lotterty , but i dont know laa . i can go !! den my freaking bro dont know my full name and i/c number .. he sucks laa . so he wake me up lotsa times , i answered the fone in a very furious tone . mr cai and god ma should know if i'm disturbed in my sleep , i'll sound very furious . after answering the call , i threw the phone down darn hard on the floor and went back to sleep . woke up ard 9+ , ate dinner and do up my nails . geez` i'm happy with my nails now . *jumps around* anyway , lets just hope bernard's side will go on well . i'm hungry now ! nvm ... i wont go to the kitchen now . i'm scared.. anyway , i think i'm cutting my hair soon , this time will be quite short . guess i'll feel lighter and no need to fuss up about my hair anymore . yeaps ! man.... i miss NIGEL SIM so much now . he's cute face , kinder suprise and noisy laughter . god ! nevermind . er ge's wedding , lets just pray to see all of them ya . geez` okayy , i gotta stop here now . nights people ! love all !! <3
NIGEL SIM ! SHAWN HOI ! CLAIRE TOH ! HAZEL HOI ! NOEL SIM !
"They say "life must go on," and during the day that's largely true. But when the sun sets, life again comes to a jarring halt."
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Sunday, October 16, 2005
my nails are fragile , just like my heart .
okay. sorry peeps and annoymous.. yesterday i posted the wrong time . hee` thousand apologies . =) okayy , i woke up around 12+ today .. i slept around 4+ yesterday . after i wake up , wento bathe, trim my nails , and eat my brunch . after my brunch , was actually settling down to do up my nails . den mummy came into my room and asked if i wanna tag along to 6th aunt house . i kept shaking my head and said "no, dont want." den after awhile , she walked out my room . den i thought for a few seconds .. i ran out and shout : " mummy ! wait ! i wanna go !!" mum said : "just now ask you , shake head . now run out . " geez` so wento 6th aunt house and saw 6th uncle .. he's still the same . still very ... err... demanding . I hate demanding guys !! had a short chat with him .. god ! he's chinese veh "chim" i kept asking him to explain the meaning . den when to aunt's room with mummy to look at some clothes . no long later , 8th aunt came with , kor kor and jiejie(biao - sao) . called back to m'sia to order clothes from my cousin . haha . she'll be sending those clothes in soon . we're all planning to celebrate hari raya in penang . hee` we all taking bus back .. den from penang to bahau , den bahau i think to malacca den back to singapore . i'm still not sure bout the details . =)) left 6th aunt house ard 5+ , den slack at home till now . i'm sucha slacker !! *shakes head* but i'm not the only slacker . BUM is also one .. we slack tgt laa .*memory card , ah gong , tong hua , telepathy , shake hands , civilised people , hao ma .* haa` tmr i'm getting back my papers already .. pray for me . and also .. pray for godma and godpa . i really wanna go thailand . =pPp anyway , dad wento put another tatoo on his arms yesterday at BUGIS . i ask him , he still say .. its fake one , patse-on de . den today i see , red red and got a bit swollen . fake one .. wth` dad agreed to bring me to that somewhere soon .. yeah yeah yeah !! he better remember . hee` i wanna go town soon . i want to go and buy this this and that . i wanna go and admire my bits and pieces necklance !! i wanna go admire my adidas jacket also !! haha . okayy , i needa stop here now . nights everyone ! love all !! <3
NIGEL SIM ! SHAWN HOI ! CLAIRE TOH ! HAZEL HOI ! NOEL SIM !
"I close my eyes and told myself , i wont cry tonight . "
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THE OH'S FAMILY TREE ! i love everyone laa .
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clockwise from top left : shing , rene , nigel , hazel , claire and wynny
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claire and wynny
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NIGEL SIM !! i love him ! <3
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NOEL SIM !! he's acting stupid . aint he cute?
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shing and shawn .
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Saturday, October 15, 2005
i love everyone in the oh's family tree ! <3
god ! i'm so happy today .. i tried to put my mind at east the enjoy today to the max . yupps , i really enjoyed myself . i told myself , i MUST blog today . gee` today i woke up around 11+ , and prepared myself for NOEL SIM'S FIRST MONTH buffet . the moment i wake up , i looked at my cellphone .. (1 message received) i opened it and tada` wanted to reply , but my prepaid is totally low with no credits . i'm sorry bum . so quickly prepare and went out to meet lyn at the station , after that we met shing and xing at amk station and went down to orchard . searched for YORK'S HOTEL and we reached there ard 2pm and saw ah ma sitting outside with kai wei . so wento call her den we went up to 21st storey for the buffet . when we reach , i was searching for NOEL SIM ! haa` i was sitting beside him . he's sooo cute !! den we all were so fking hungry , so went off to get our food . i saw our used-to-be-oh-so-handsome cousin , mister guan ! he became so old and this time jane dao(his wife) din come with him . he's so handsome and cool last time in his guards of honour . goddd !! but now , its not too bad laa . just that he needa change his hairstyle . mmmms , so we ate and played around with the kids . we took some photos and i'm in love with NIGEL , SHAWN , CLAIRE , HAZEL , NOEL!! they are so cute and below 8yrs old. SHAWN actually bcame so high . reynerd wento DUBAI with his parents . CLAIRE is so sweet and gentle , she's small too . haa` she came over to our table and called : " ah yi .." den we were all like : " dont call ah yi , call jiejie . " haha . NIGEL's eye lashes is long and he's so handsome . he wore a adidas shoe . cool ! i love him so much !! "kinder suprise !" SHAWN went so high with my camera and starting playing with his pillow . NOEL is small and cute ... i love all of them . its 4:30pm , everyone is leaving . ah ma is leaving too . although ADRAIN SIM dua gao (noel's daddy , my cousin in law) say its okay to stay there .but ah ma is leaving , so we needa leave also . haa` we called him dua gao cos he's a guards of honour also and he actually escort mr. president bfore . and in hokkien , they call it dua gao . he's young and cool too . geez` after playing , me , rene , xing and lyn wento walked ard orchard . we wento far east to have the fried mars bar . its fking nice . i miss the taste now .. den we walked around orchard , i saw that minnie mouse . okay , i admit i really miss it a lot . den i saw that bits and pieces necklance , its fking nice . it stated " 5 letters $70 " . come come come ... lets count. W-Y-N-N-Y . ohhh... its 5 letters ya . $70 ya ... haa` people , buy that necklace for me okay ? =p wento ADIDAS , looked at the jacket , fook ! $139 .. darn nice . and i want the pink stripped adidas t-shirt . SAVE $$ SAVE $$ SAVE $$ !!!! bought a tote bag for $10.30 .. around 10:30pm , wento starbucks and slack . rene , me and xing was talking about our family .. den we drew our family tree out and even dreamt about have a condo where we all lived tgt and blah blah blah .. its really nice laa . i'm still dreaming about it now . haha . left town around 11:15pm , cos bobby needa reach home by 12am . he's the male cinderella , we call him boberella . geez` so i walked lyn home , den asked ah di to send me home . haha . on the way back was funny , we were talking about lotsa stuffs and suddenly i saw a cat , den i screamed and ran hide behind him .. forgetting he's afraid of cats too . haa` but he act brave .. he protect me . but i scared him ahh , cos i suddenly scream .. haha . afterall , he's nice to send me home . he's a nice cousin . haha . when i reached home , wento checked my cell .. ohhh... 4 msg received . but cant reply .. no choice , gotta wait ... tmr i'm so frigging free . where should i go ? should i asked mummy to bring me out , den ask her to buy those stuffs for me ? hee` wanted to go for morning jog and swimming , cos all my tann fading soon .. but in the end cancelled . nvm ... i'm missing NIGEL , SHAWN , CLAIRE , HAZEL and NOEL now ... godd !! lets pray that we'll see them on er ge's wedding . yupps , i'm tired now . will upload pics later . nights everyone ! love all ~!! <3>
"Treasure what ever you have now . Because when you lose it , it is very hard to get it back . "
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Friday, October 14, 2005
that's not what i wanted .
its gonna be a long entry .. lets talk about yesterday .. yesterday's paper was like wtf!! and to the woman who actually is copying behind . you better owe up laa . f&n paper ends at 9.30am while d&t ends at 10.00am . so after f&n paper end , we all went to the canteen to chat and talk about the time and venue , cause we needa confirm on today's outing . so we were like talking about some movie stuffs den dont know which bugger talked about having supper . den we all suddenly agreed to have supper and agreed to meet 9:15pm and the bus stop and head down to thomson for prata . around 1pm , went out to watch GOAL!! with chew and sister's gang . its so frigging nice and i was screaming and shouting everytime when theres a goal . the show was really nice and i learnt something too . before the show start , i saw "bum" wasnt really clear cos i'm blind ya . but according to my research , its him . =p after the show , wento chew house to collect her stuffs as she's staying at my house . sleepovers~ around 9pm , we left the house and walked down to the bus stop to meet edwin and co. and all took bus down to thomson . mr melvin wore like some funny chapalang people . supper was fast and nice .. after supper we all walked around some bungalow houses and i was the video woman . i was playing with mel's handphone and started video-ing , taking pics and voice recording . its a short walk , but a scary and dark one . around 11pm , we were all preparing to go home , we ran from one ulu place to the 980 bus stop . its nice ... seeing the whole bunch of chapalang people running to the bus - stop . annoucing First - EDWIN , Second - ANDY ,Third - HENG , Fourth - ME ! WYNNY ! , Fifth - CHEW , Sixth - JONATHAN , Seventh - ALEX , and the always-last-man-wannabe Eighth - MELVIN !! when we reached the bus - stop , everyone was pespiring like fcuk and was luffing too . its really fun laa ! hope that we'll have more suppers in time to come . =)) reached home around 11:45pm , bath and wento sleep . chew was tired too , so we just *pak* feel on the bed and wento lala land . woke up ard 10:45am this morning , prepare and went out . we met the same old people but this time one more added , [him] . the thing on [his] finger made me tizzy . me and chew were late laa , like for 15mins . headed down to BUGIS , for movie . on the way there , chew was telling me things about [him] and singing songs to me . while i was typing down a poem in mel's phone . after i finish typing , alex wanted to read it . so he read it and told me its very sad . mmmms , maybe its just my mood . reached BUGIS and wento some ulu places and bought the tix for "wait till you are older." again ~?! yupps .. me and chew watched it again with them . on the way to that ulu place , we need to cross 2 busy traffic roads . you should know i this dum dum dont know how to cross roads without using the traffic lights . so i cling on the chew's arm and she walked me over . its real scary .. den chew told me , : "if those things never happen , you should be holding onto his hands now and he'll cross the road tgt with you ." i just smiled . the show start around 3:25pm and but its like only 1+ when we bought the tix . so went back to parco for a walk .THE EDGE ?~! okayy , i wanted this, this and that . i wanna save $$ . i want freshbox tee !! any of those tee will be nice .. heez` we went back to that ulu place for the movie and after the movie , wento look for dennis and his =p stead . den awhile later , i left with chew they all cause wasnt in good mood . i dont know why also . the moment i step into the arcade , i was like so confuse , pissed off and angry . when leaving , alex is so nice and he cared so much bout da jie . he walked pass this lolipop stall and bought a lolipop for her . knowing that she loves lolipop . ohh .. that's nice . me and chew also asked for one . yeah!! he bought us lolipop !! yippeess !! that lolipop is so frigging nice . i want that lolipop again ! red colour !!!! people , buy me that lolipop when you go parco okay ? i want the stars shaped , red colour de . geez` okayy .. shant be so high . after leaing , i went to esplanade's rooftop to soothen my mood . was looking at the bridge ... thinking about the bad times i had there . it reall hurts my heart . 06-08-2005 & 08-08-2005 .. the things that happen on the bridge is really not nice . i walked to the front , den front the front to the back to look for you . searching hi and low for you in the crowd.. heart thumping so fast and nervous . next , watched the countdown fireworks in such unhappy mood . fireworks was once my favourite and the thing i love to watch most . now , i dont like to watch fireworks anymore . *stomps feet* okayy .. i'm angry . in the next few days post , i guess i'll talked bout this kinda stuffs more . its been in my heart for quite a period of time .take it or leave it . be it you like it or not . -cooling.down.in.process.- left around 6:30pm and went home , reach home and blah blah blah ... ohh yeaps ! tmr(saturday) i'm going to my nephew's full month buffet at YORK'S HOTEL ! weeeeheee` its a baby boy ! god ! i love NOEL !! cant wait to see him .. geez` i think i wont be home early tmr .. or maybe wont come home . ehhh... below is a pic of the lolipop and my pathetic back , i guess the previous one was too small . mmms , i'm tired now . gonna stop here for today .. nights everyone ! take care . love all !! <<33
BUM: i din know what had cause to make those things happen . its not your fault .its just moodswings .. i hope you'll understand . the situation now is not any better . it just hurts me, i know you feel hurt too . can things dont be that way ? but if you wish to heck care about this , i've got nothing to say . but , i'm sorry .
the lolipop alex bought for me . yum yum`
"To love someone , its not just about happiness ."
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Thursday, October 13, 2005
The blur image of her childhood
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Wednesday, October 12, 2005
sometimes "Sorry" isn't the best word .
just came back from studying . only studied 2 chaps , i've got 7 more to go . *wynny , you can do it !* mmmms ... woke up ard 12pm today , bath , prepare and went out for movie with chew at LOT 1 . on the way to LOT 1 , chew asked me some question bout [him] and we started talking bout lotsa stuffs about the past . *slaps forehead* wento watch "wait till you're older" by andy lau . god !! he's so fking handsome and that little boy boy is so cute . i love his attitude man . mmmss , the show lasted for ard 1hr 15mins and in that show i heard one sentence and almost break into tears . "sometimes the person you love dont say sorry to you , but they said it to another woman/man . " the show was nice .. wanna watch it again . =) after movie , wento study at mac and awhile later , kia jin and gang came over cause he wants to revise with us . so studied for awhile , den started slackingg .. vincent came and he treated all of us . me and chew asked him for fries and started talking bout movie . if i'm not wrong , i think tmr all of us going for movie . there is ard 7 of us going . geez ... i'm still not sure whether i'm going or not , cause i got no $$ . tmr my paper ends at 9:30 .. darn early . mmms , and today .. that stupid bum bum din reply my message for 5hrs+ . that's so bad ! anyway , on sat i'm going for xue li jie jie's baby full month at orchard . dont know which hotel .. mmmms ... cant wait to see the baby ! exams will be over soon , i gotta start to think bout my life , my future and my love already . i've been putting all this behind and tried to not think about it . okay , i failed .. now , my waredrobe is in a mess . all those chapalang clothes is everywhere . i need people to help me fold my clothes and tidy my waredrobe . i hate to fold clothes and tidy up my waredrobe . ohh... mum is so fking naggy ! she's restricting me to go out in the evening and using the computer . what the fcuk! other than using the com and going out at night , what can i do at home? stare at you ? listening to ur naggings or stare at the bloody freako ?
mum: " from now, dont suka suka go out ah."
wyn: "where got suka suka , i informed you and dad . and i reached home bfore the curfew. what's wrong with you ?"
mum: " i dont care if you reach home bfore or after the curfew , i just dont want you to go out at night and den when u reach home , you'll stuck infront of the com."
wyn: "if you dont care den dont give me curfew and stop all your naggings. what you expect me to do ? do sewing ? watch tv? or sit at the balcony like a fool? please laa , i'm tired of everything now . just go into ur room and stop nagging ."
she continued nagging and i wasn't listening to her . i just dont get her laa . she change so fast , she've got many faces at different time . and my dad acts like some idiot . when my mum is at home , he'll yell at me saying : " why so gan chiong , reach home den use computer?" fk ! when mum's not at home you nv even say this . now , you yell like fk here . i even eat my dinner , watch tv and bath before i touch the com can . dad is sucha good actor . i dont hate them . they just do things in such stupid ways which i cant stand . okayy , i shall stop here for today . i needa go
study already .and below is the pic of my pathetic back. mind my drawings . i know it suck . =) nights everyone ! love all ! <3>
"sometimes , memories is nice. but sometimes , it just hurts so much when you think about it."
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Tuesday, October 11, 2005
The hardest part about walking away from you is knowing you'll never run after me.
i just came back from sembawang park . went there with godma and the others . its a very big buddism occasion whereby they send the 9th godess away .. so its filled with lotsa of people holding joss stick walking around , waiting for the goddess car to arrive . its damn long and thank god i got my storybook to acc me . ohh .. godma still haven strike lottery . ohh... still left one more week before the deposits date is closed . *strike lottery, strike lottery!!* today i reached home ard 1:30pm and started to pack my table , bags and wento sleep . i slept till ard 5:30pm , woke up , prepared myself and wento candy jie's house to collect the storybook . i'm so gan chiong to collect them as i'm so excited to read it . so i went over ard 6:45pm , get the books and went off to sembawang to meet chew for dinner . the books were great !! woohoo~ " THE ALCHEMIST by Paulo Coelho" and "MISTER GOD , THIS IS ANNA by Fynn" . now , i'm reading that mister god.... its really nice . will talk more about the book next time . mmms, today's paper ... maths was alright while geography was a total shit . i've got no paper tmr !! yeah !! yippeess !!!! *jumping around* i'll be going out for a movie tmr afternoon , den in the evening i'll be mugging outside that same old place again . =)) and i'm so smart that i din bring my f&n textbook back . its total fking hell now .. nvm , lets just pray that the book will appear tmr . ohh yupps , i SWEAR , i wont go home late alone at night anymore . its fking scaryy to walk alone on the overhead bridge and the pavement . allah! i was so scared and was walking very fast . mum told me there's a man at our basement there sitting . den he'll look at you in a very pervertic sight and smile like fk. so i look around and walk very fast . a few days back , someone prank called my house too . he said he's ah hock and wanted to meet up with my mum . den mum ask him , who are you ? he said :" you come out laa , den you know." mum scolded him like hell and he nv called again . eeewww ... its scaryy uhh . sigghh...if only ......... mmmss ~ i'm gonna finish those two books within 3weeks . bless me ! maybe in school , sometimes u'll see me holding that book , walking around and reading . *nerdified* heck ! i just wanna finish it soon . my eyes really hurts .. fcuk ! i shant cried so much yesterday night . i should save it till today .. cos tmr no school and i cant sleep to very late and my swollen eyes wont be that obvious . tears still never stop flowing every night . the moment i lied on my bed , i stared onto the ceiling .. den tears start rolling and cant stop . looking at my dressing table , the lil' bear , fotos , ring and the names i drew on those nice coloured paper ... i only can tell myself the same old sentence . urrghh... it so not wynny . lets drop this subject for now . ohh.. i'm tired now . gonna sleep soon . nights everyone . love all!! <3
you once told me , after the ring is stuck onto my finger , nothing will happen to harm us .
you once told me also , if i cant see , you'll be my eyes . you once told me so many things ....
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Monday, October 10, 2005
will you be the one holding me tight when i fall ?
just watched incredible tales .. its fooking scaryy and it make me screams around the house . ahh!! although i read the story before , its not so scary .. but when its flim , its so scaryy . mmms , yesterday was nice . wento study with the "live concert pro and dragon slayer knight" . revised on physics and it was quite okay . den wento causeway point for dinner at SWENSEN !! weee` its wenjing's birthday . being his real god sis , he called me for dinner .. god ma and godpa also . when i reached there , godma was queuing up already .. phew` i'm not that late . i ate till i'm so full ! the choc ice cream float and chicken is nice ! *yummy* after dinner , bought the ice cream cake back to god ma house . we wento walk ard at the night market den headed to godma house . oh yupps... godma and godpa say they're gonna sponsor me for the trip back to thailand this end of nov , IF they strike lottery . what the.... so everyday please pray hard for me that my god ma and godpa strike lottery . =)) going back to thailand with my godpa is fun .. he's a thai and the places he brought us to is so fun and nice . i'm anticipating !! urghh .... *wynny chanting "strike lottery , strike lottery!!"* the ice cream cake is so yummy ..and playing with the dry ice is so fun ! maaa` today's paper was okayy .. but i was just too tired and eyes was so frigging pain . while doing the chemistry paper , i stared at the ring which is hanging on my necklance .. *sky garden , fountain , promises , rings in hand* all came back to my mind .. almost broke into tears . sighh .. den i was telling myself "god ! wynny hu wei ni ! what the hell are you thinking ?do your exam !! " after the paper , wento cwp again to look at some stuffs with chew , heng , edwin and andy . den rush back home for tuition till 1:30pm . wento have my beauty sleep and "the dream" was so lomantic and lovely . woke up , prepared myself and went out to study at sembawang . today is kia jin's bday , so when he reached there .. me and chew wento get a small cake for him .. den lighted the candle and sang happy birthday for him . he blushed and thank us shy-ly . geez` den studied till 8:30pm and went home .. okayy , later i'll need to study my geography and a lil' of maths . i really must study . *wynny must study !! and she must study seriously!* oh .. this is a real good new , listen carefully huh ... wynny!!! got her billabong lanyard !! weeehee~ its rocks !!! thanks to the dragon slayer , tears stopper , shoulder lender , human punchbag and the ohso steadypompeepee knight !! =)) anyway , i'm going over to chuan's house tmr to get the books .. that's sad that he cant find "Little Prince" book . mmmms , i want it badly !! aww.... i'm so gan chiong to get those books tmr . and that stupid ter ner ner edwin is gonna get the adidas jacket ! screw him!! nvm , i'll ask him for one as a x'mas present . =pPpP -recently i'm psycho-ing friends around me , to change their handphone profile name to either , "wynny rocks`!" or "ilovewyn`" . i'm so self - obsessive . fwee` okayy , i shall stop here for today .. WYNNY GOTTA STUDY !! nights everyone . love all !! <3
"Every time I see you, I fall a little more. Every time you walk away my heart breaks even harder."
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Saturday, October 08, 2005
GASTRIC PAIN ! shucks !!
yesterday's supper was goood !!! although is so frigging late and i reach home ard 5+ den i quickly run up my oh-so comfy bed and entered lala land . woke up around 12+ and was online chatting till mum suddenly called and ask if i wanna tag along with her and auntie sharon to changi beach club, nobody date me out .. so i agreed and wento bath and prepare . yeah ! auntie sharon's lorry !! yeah ! after 15mins , mum called again and i went over ot the bus-stop and waited for her . the lorry was here , but i saw someone special behind the lorry.. den we both said : "ehh.. why are you here?" maa` its our dear mister TITUS!!he changed so much sia . much more handsome and cool . i climbed up the lorry and started crapping with titus . sitting at the back of the lorry was cool and so much fun . we recorded video and took lotsa pics using titus's phone . the wind was darn big .. my hair was like flying around . we reached changi beach club and walked to the cafe to rest for awhile . opposite the cafe was the sea .. and some kelong bridge . damn nice ! den i told titus : "next time i wanna take my wedding photo on that bridge." mum added in and said : "call him titus kor kor . not titus .. he's older than you . he 21 you 15." me and titus : " titus kor kor , wynny mei mei." wtf... eeewww..... call him titus better and he call me wyn better . so we had our walk around the club den around 6+ , wento joo chiat to look at some stuffs . den on the way back , the wind was so cold .. titus den started telling me some stupid story and he said he's gonna get me that mickey mouse tee . mister titus , you better remember. =) titus was great and he rocks too . he's a veh good guy .. although he's naggy at times about my life and stuffs . he still cares for me alot and he's like a brother to me . hee`he'll ring up me house line once in a while to check if i'm okay or so . mmmms , when i reach home ... i was thinking whether to go to "that place" den dad told me we're going to polo club . so okayy , i change my mind . but around 9+ , dad said its too late and we're not going already . what the hell! nvm ... i came online and chatted den look for some of my baby photo, will post later .. i'm having fking gastric pain . it hurts so much .. god!!! okay , i gotta go rest now . it hurts ..
pic 1 - chubby ;
pic 2 - oh mummy ! the candle is burning my dress ;
pic 3 - wait ! i haven smile.. ;
pic 4 - yeah! little wynny`
"do you even care ? do you actually hear it ? i find it very hard to do so . "
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Friday, October 07, 2005
you actually 'rock' my world again by doing that .
god! retarded KFC bugger . his face .. now my mind got he's retarded face . *plurgh* that guy actually followed me and raidah into Watson and asked for number . what the fcuk! speak also can speak properly .
retarded bugger - stands infront of wyn.
retarded bugger : "you want my number?"
wyn: "huh?"
fat friend (retarded bugger friend) : " can he have your number? he wants your number. "
wyn shakes head , smile and left. retarded bugger was another side of the shelves looking over . eeeewww... his face was really scaryy . ohh ! shant talk about him anymore . *goosebumps* just now , went out to study with raidah and fifa . okayy , i actually studided 2 chaps . i wore my dance t-shirt just now . its my first time wearing it to other places when i'm not dancing . yeah ..today's paper was alright ... english was okayy . the passage seems hard but the questions were easy . den social studies was stupid .. i stared at the bloody paper for 30mins and was thinking about other stuffs . i dont know how to do source based and i wrote a hell shit out . section B was okay , but i also added some crap in . i din go orchard today .. gransazers no more power . so never go . thought of going for a swim tmr with xp , but i also thought of going to "that place" tmr evening . sighh ... i'm confused ! anyway , i fell in love with that song , "Because Of You - Kelly Clarkson" . it rocks !! woosh` i've been singing that song after i download it . been crying for the past week , tears is still rolling down uncontrollably . i kept asking myself why and kept thinking why will it happen on me ? being stupid and dumb to only find out the whole thing recently . why din i ask myself all this question last time ? how much blood had my heart dripped out ? how much tears have i cried ? i laughed like mad in the day , i cry like hell in the night . heal my heart , take away all my sorrows . =) i'll be going out for supper later .. yeah yeah yeah !! so zai .. ask only den on the spot agree already . think meeting at 3am under my house . SUPPER !! maaa` my back still hurts .. injection ?? NO !! mmmms ... i think i gotta stop here already . nights . love all !! <3 *counting down to 3am*
"I used to smile when I told people you were mine, but now i can't even smile and say your name at the same time."
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Thursday, October 06, 2005
go .. go ahead and do it ! DONT REGRET ..
just finish tidying up my table , i'm happy with my table now . neat and clean .. =) will be mugging for my social studies later . just now , wento mac to study and was quite okayy . din really absorb much as lotsa things is in my mind revolving around. i was reading and writing the notes den suddenly , things came rushing into my mind and i started to throw my pencil on the table and close my book . went over to talk to raidah for awhile and went back to study again . chew and me were totally broke , no money for anything . but we're clever .. we got free dinner . thanks to sister . =) i left around 8:15pm and was totally disappointed .. sighh ... nevermind . today school was okayy , english paper was alright .. maths paper no comments . when i was doing maths paper , that adidas watch came across my mind . bloody` made me so distracted . anyway , i hurt my back again . its just so accidentaly .. i was practicing my dance den was trying to do "jump, turn and bend back." but while bending backwards , i cant feel the floor and my hand kinda cacat . my body just "pak" landed on the floor.. ouch!! it was darn painful .. i think i'll go to the doctor by this week . mmmmss , should i go orchard tmr ? or stay at home to sleep ?? okayy , i gotta stop here now . nights all . take care . love all ! <3
"Till death , do we part . "
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Wednesday, October 05, 2005
Dont you feel anything ?
okay, after blogging i needa go start my darn fking revision for maths already . i'm not in fking good mood now. why ? i dont fking bother to say.. fkup! just now wento study at mac with chew till 8+ and i left furiously, bcause mum called and fk me up for nothing. ter ner ner... chinese paper was quite a disaster, i forgot some of the format while doing formal writing. den while writing compo , i just anyhow write and the dictionary din not help at all. shant talk much about today anymore. what the fcuk! i hate it when things are this way laa. fine, if you think it that way den suits you ah.you never fking bother about anything.. you just walk one step count one day. nevermind.. okayy, i gotta stop here now. but shit, i'm sleepy now. uhohh... night all . take care . love all ! <3
sorry for my vulgarities.
Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
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Tuesday, October 04, 2005
I want that white colour adidas watch !
okay , today i woke up early . yeah ! i woke up at 5:15am .. preapared myself and left for school . anyway , i was dumb yesterday night . i got no handphone with me , so i use a darn fking big alarm clock to wake me up . i set the alarm and left it beside my bed . i went for my beauty sleep and around 1:30am i woke up suddenly and looked at the clock . i was like FCUK! late already .. wtf! why never ring ?! so i quickly go down and on the lights , wanting to bath and stuffs . my freako bro then woke up and ask , "so early mehs?" den i looked at his handphone time.. its fking 1:30am only .. god!! i quickly ran to off the lights and back to my beauty sleep again . what the .. i treasure my sleep so much man ! maaa` okay , i'm dumb . =) today's lesson were alright , i wanted to doze off so badly during sidek's lesson and english lesson . shant talk much about what happen after school .. its so hurting and errmmms ... ya , its just so painful . siggh .. thanks jorrie , ee wen and xue ting for those messages and the mentos . =) of course i wont forget to thank RAIDAH ! my poet partner .. =] rushed home as i'm meeting chew for study at 5pm . i cant take it but to cry on the way back . i cried in the cab.. i just cant control my tears anymore . met chew and ate at mos burger , the situation was awkward . thank god my huo huo[fire] (cherryn) was there . so i crapped and acted like mad with her . i'm named bing bing (ice) . after eating , wento mac and started revising on my chinese . den awhile later , hamdan , yat and jeff came over to talk to us . so i kinda slack awhile . blah blah blah .... my "sister" came and we crap for awhile and i left . i walked darn slowly to the bus stop as i'm very lethargic and feeling down . reached home around 9pm and i never touch my book again . i should study more later .. hope i can absorb . bless me for my exams tmr .. i'm so tired now . sigghh .. i wanna sleep , but i also wanna study . *sheesh* oh yupps , today is BUM'S BIRTHDAY ! HAPPY BIRTHDAY BUM !!! "live concert pro!" maaa` will get you a present soon . =) felt much more better after chatting with yi xian just now . she told me lotsa stuffs and lotsa encouragements . thanks a lot ! lastly , DONT contact me through my old number(9199****) anymore . okayy , i gotta stop here already . i needa go study for my chinese paper tmr . bless me ! nights to all . take care !
I WANT THAT WHITE COLOUR ADIDAS WATCH !! ANYONE WANNA SPONSOR ME ?? its $85 . =]
"When the world judges Love, they too often forget the pain their verdict brings."
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Sunday, October 02, 2005
1st October 2005 . bedah rocks !
okayy , yesterday i woke up ard 10am . called raidah to confirm the time we're meeting . we're meeting at 11:30am sembawang mrt . so i wento bath and prepare .. den i leave the house . i was at the doorstep while mum is sitting in the dinning room , while i close the door . mum asked :" you going out with [him] ah? go where ah ?" den i was like ..lost for words . so i just smiled and gave my usual naughty look . god ! on the way to the basement , i was on the verge of crying . but i controlled and told myself "hey wynny , crying the public ?? no way man !" reached sembawang mrt and raidah was there too . so we took the train down to wdlands and shop for fifa's gift . we walked around the level for dont know how many times den we bought her gift . ard 12:45pm , we wento wdlands mrt station and hang ard for awhile den left to fifa's house . ohh .. i'm so engrossed with BEDAH !! she rocks !! although i'm scared of her , but her action and pose rocks !! " bedah ! balik sekarang! " " aku cakap balik !!" maaaa` its so fun disturbing her . okayy , i'm so bad . i left fifa's house around 6+ and went for a "live concert !" okayy , wento istana park to have a stroll and its like my legs got bitten by a few fking mosqutioes . fku mosquitoes !! "live concert!!" woohoo~ " jay chou !!! lee hom !! forever love !!" god !! that concert rocks ! oh yupps , and fk that aunty who is riding that bicycle .. what your fking problem man . who the hell know you ? what the fcuk ! leg cramps and muscle ache sucks !! blah... i reached godma's house around 9+ .. its over my curfew . i told mum i'll reach here by 9pm . but , she din kp .. phew~ anyway , just now while i was downstairs , while waiting for the lift . i looked around , but i dont see [him] . i thought [he'll] be somewhere around . i guess [he] dont know bahs . never mind . when i reached , god ma asked : " why so late den reach ? go out with [him] ah ?" so i gave the same old naughty face and started singing " bu ming bai , bu ming bai .." but godma was funny , after i bath.. i was wearing a shorts den she was like looking around on my butt and she asked : " girl ah , where's your butt? why no more butt ? " so i replied : "what the.... what you talking about ?" den godma wento take the measuring tape and measure my waist .. ohh its fking hell "25" . den she was like crazyy and said : "haiyoo .. no butt somemore waist bcome "25" , last time "26" lehs . you take EXTRIM ah ? " i replied : " i never take EXTRIM , i took EXHAUST . " cause godma wasnt the only one whom said those (no butt..) i really dont know why bcome "25" ah sia . mum also said.. but mum's conclusion was i got suck up by LOVE . mmmmms , put on more weight or stay on with this weight ?? comments please !! tag my board and tell me . =) tmr i needa hand in my 60marks coursework , yet i haven finish my fking decision making and stuffs . bless me !! den my exams is like on Wednesday , but now i'm stil fking playing ard and disturbing people . god !! ohh .. and recently i dont know what or who influence me "mother fcuker" this word . i just say it out when i'm very disappointed or angry with something . shit ! i shant use such violent words .. better get it off fast . i cried yesterday night on the bed , god ma was in the room too . but she's on her bed while i'm on the "ti-lam" on the floor . so she cant see .. i cried cause , its 1st October ! its so sad and fking hurting to spend it this way . cant help it but to cry like fcuk .. looking at the place we once laughed and had fun together hurts . the road back home hurts too .. stars .... what's the secret in it ? what does 3 stars mean ? sighh ... what do i always do when i have a bus ticket in my hand ? ring .. where is it now ? still holding on tight ? how could all this happen ? you were so important to me , i heart you like anything . but , why wanna let the importance vanish ? why harm the relationship ? why ?? tell me !! chance ? hopes ? i smile and crapp like nobody's business outside , but who understands my heart inside ? mmmms , let time prove everything bahs . i forgot to say .. godma ROCKS once again ! i love her to bits ! godpa too .. but godpa kinda crap but i never laugh . cause his crap is not funny .. i'm fillial to them .. =] there will be some scoldings below . i dont know i'm scolding one person or more than one person . mind my vulgarities ehh . thanks .
what the fcuk ! you assholeS ! mother fcukers .. what the hell got into your mind to do it man ? fcuk ! i hated it now . its FUN right ? so much FUN arhh ? fking hell ! go eat my dog's poo laa .. maybe after eating , you'll be smarter den my dog . "go mickey , go bite !" "yeah .. clever mickey . here's your dog food!" maaaa` god damn it laa ! go use some of your fking brainS to fking think about it and fking do some reflections laa . stupid moronS ! *plurgghh*
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