Saturday, February 26, 2005
saw you today , my heart broken into pieces again .
sad .. saw him at far east de long john jus now . hais .. dun feel like talking bout it .. i'm jus so sad when i saw him . i wanted to see him so badly and when i saw him . i wanted to cry . when i saw him , legs soften , hand shivering , mood change and tears welling up in my eyes . i kept cleaning away my tears , cos rene and xp is wif me .. den when he and his gang left , my mind is thinking
"is this da last time i gonna see him ?" i miss his voice , his backview and his sweet talks . hais .. he smiled to me jus now laa . so happy . jus now took train back and when i reach yishun , den took cab home . no mood . wanna break down soon . den when i reach home , i lock myself in my room and cried .. i cried and cried . i was so sad . hais . hated everything in da past . now , i shed my tears for him again . i kept telling myself "wynny , no more tears for him . no more!" its been da 174562th time i've been telling myself . arrggghhh !!! tml i wanna spend my day at kor's hse .. i dun care ! i wanna go find jie jie they all . i wanna go shout out all my sadness at da beach .. i wanna go play roller coaster . i wanna forget da past !! sigh ...i 'm tired now . my eyes is swollen now . nites !
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i came across this jus now ..
What hurts
- letting go of a person you've just learned to love
- reminiscing the good times you shared together
- trying to hide what you really feel
- trying to hide the tears that involuntarily fall from your eyes
- loving a person too much
- taking the risk to fall in love again
- hiding your relationship from someone else
- letting go, because everytime you see the person, you only fall deeper
- seeing the one you love crying for someone else
- the waiting also hurts like hell
- being denied in front of people
- Fighting for that one thing that would make you happy that is
- PRETENDING you're OK when inside you're dying
- PRETENDING to be strong.... and RECOGNIZING your weakness
- Lying in bed each night, thinking of that special person you can never have... - Being with someone you can't actually love...
- Pretending you don't love a person whom you actually love...
- Being in love... - letting go even if you really don't want to...having no right to say you are hurting because it was your decision
- Seeing the person you love hurt because of you... and not being able to help that person...
- having the courage to say I LOVE YOU to the person you love and finding out afterwards that things will never be the same again when he doesnt treat you with the same closeness as before - destroying the wall that you have set for yourself, leaving you weak and vulnerable
- admitting that you love someone despite his imperfections
- Making a promise and realizing that when the time has come for that promise to be delivered, the commitment is no longer there.
- The hardest thing about love believing it exists.
- After you've been hurt, learning to forgive, learning to trust and love again.
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Friday, February 25, 2005
if we hold on together .
yeapx .. things are much better now . =) today after school got ODAC . so fun ! but got one sec one ger and a sec two guy piss me off . wtf !! we all named da ger Apple and da guy Banana . lols ! today we teach them field cooking .. apple and banana same groups and some others laa . so spilted them up and they started cooking . den i when over to apple's grp to tell them to give their fruit dish a name . den tt fking apple talk back .. she say " the fruits already got a name wad ? " fk her laa ! dun tell me she dont understand what i'm talking about lo . she's such a mutha fker . feel like giving her one tight slap when she said that . argghh ! den apple's group and her group members attitude sux ! even an ant in da teh tarik oso dun dare to drink . omfg ! if in da jungle how ? haiyo .. den when those juniors are clearing up their stuffs , we all da seniors are gathering at a plae ad crowding tgt and gossip bput tt apple and banana . wahaha ! so bad huh .. den end of conclusion , all da seniors dun like da apple and banana . and heard tt apple talk back to most of us . all so pek chek bout apple .. den me and xcel did da 90 degrees position . ok laa , he stayed at da position for da longest . he win laa . i love all da juniors laa .. exp. for apple and banana . guess they'll be kick out . cos they dont show good attitude and they like so scaed of this and that . how to go hiking ?! ODAC ended at 5:30pm .. we stayed in da room and talk , take fotos and stuff laa . den after tt , played a lil' soccer and rest in da room .i drew my name in da room laa . da pic is above . haha . went home wif xcel and its so tiring .. hais . i love da kaleidoscope ! wahaha .. playing it whenever i'm free . yst nite , i took it out to da blacony and look up in da sky .. omg !! its so nice .. haha . love it so much . rem' last time i wrote i wanted a kaleidoscope necklance in my old blog ? bert saw it eh .. but ......... jus like that lo . tml going towning wif rene and xp . yeah ! taking neoprints tgt lo . but suddenly miss ah di eh .. dunno he come back alreadi not . haha . anyway , i'm tired now . slping soon . nitex everyone !
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that's me !
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Thursday, February 24, 2005
who should i believe ? is this what we call a friend?
hais . school today was ok , cos kinda sleepy and my eyes is swollen due to crying during da past nights . people asked me , "wyn , u cry last night ah ?" i replied " no laa ! siao .. why cry ?" but .. hais ... den i came home , sleep and woke up at bout 6:30pm for tuition . jus now , i called chew to ask bout da f & n thing . den , i heard jie's voice so i asked "jie , atay at ur hse ah ?" den chew say , "yeap!" so i ended da call . den i felt kinda lost , confuse and stress . (A) tell be bad things bout (B) . (B) tells me things bout (A) too . so who should i believe . hais .. who can undestand my situation . sometimes i see others with their best frens , its really diff from how me , chew and jie were . i dunno y ... for example jenn .. she's got her besti frens like bernice and pris .. they were so fking sweet and u can sense da true frenship between them . but when it comes to mine ... i felt so sad , so confuse ... who can understand my feelings now ? frenship really hurts ... feel like crying now . wyn , y so fragile now ? shed ur tears so easily .. i cried when my daddy scold me bcos of da uniform .. its da slightest scolding .. yet tears rolled down my cheeks . next , not knowing how to do my coursework ; i cried again . i jus open up my textbook and tears is dripping onto my book . yst , becos of some small stuffs i cried .. den i stop for awhile .. after tat i understand i was in da wrong .. i cried again ... now , frenship .. i shed my tears again . wyn !!! no more tears !! no more tears !! why shedding again ?! u're sucha loser .. cry for da slightest thing , shed ur tears for something whom the others dont care bout . i jus hate it everytime i cry for da slightest thing . hais .. i gotta stop here . i type animore .. tears dripping like fk ... nitez .. hope tings will get better !
- that anonymous whom i know : thx for everything . i appreciated da things u gave me , but why are u spending all ur money away like this ? i'm really afraid that u spend all ur money away .. anyway , a big thank you to you .. =)
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Monday, February 21, 2005
tired out , i need some rest .
hoos ... tired out . woke up unwillingly again den prepare for school . have my life run today . sharks ! mr tong say we gotta complete it i 15mins time . wtf ! cos last week all da ODAC members walk throughout da whole thing . wahaha . but today we all managed to reach within 15mins lo . haha . but mr tong din come today .. haha . it was fun though . but lesson was ok laa . till chem. so tired ah .. wanna doze off . *ring!!* after school ! i was alert again . but kinda sad laa . dunno y , moodswing and some flash back of memories . hais . den 30mins of chem. remedial . zhou siao .. haha . after remedial , stayed in school for awhile den went home . online , reply mails and help jo wif her blog . *tada* her blog is done .. and today is my jiejie's b'day wors . ting : happi b'day !!miss you loadss ! i'm tired now .. poofs ~ off i go .. missing you all loadss everyday ..
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Sunday, February 20, 2005
back to blog again !
yeaps ! i'm back to blog after years of laziness . haha . anyway , i summarise laa eh ..cos kinda lazy to blog everyday .. haha .
wad a day ! freaking hell .. wasnt in good mood in da morning . den reach school slack . during ms yen lesson , she fking confiscated my fone . arggh !! cried like water tap when she took my fone away . den she say after school she'll return me my fone .. but its like 5 more hrs lo !! so i cried and cried laa . den it was after school , reach home bath and waited for tuition . after tuition , i online HW ask me i cry in school ah .. den i was like how u noe ? den he say , "you cry a lot ppl noe ah .. a lot ppl tell mi also . " den i was like "huh?!" . but anyway , heck it .. cried on da 17th again ! msged wif mister etic till nite and sleep .
ODAC is cancelled ! wtf !! arggh ! nvm .. went to school as usual den after school went to eat wif alex , se all . den change back wof SE . cos i needa go back to school at 5pm for da sec one meet da parent stuffs . so left sp at 2pm den when i reach my doorstep i rem' SE sin take out my keys when we change bag .. wtf ! so i called tt freako to be home erarly and open da door for me .. luckily tt freako was at YJC for some stuffs . so he came back 30mins later... open da door and i rush to bath and check my mails , den rush to school again . humpx .. busy me . met joyce and went to schol tgt then on da way to school heavy rain . argghh !! ran to school and was wet .. fcuk ! i jus bath lo , hair not even dry den wet again .. dried myself in da toilet and took da vest and wore da tie like some gong kias and ruxh to da hall for duty assigning . den i was doin registration of 1T1 and 1T2 . quite free , veri few parents came onli . so can take some other duties laa , like ushering and stuffs . quite fun laa . me, joyce and alfian were da oldest of all . but still acting like da smallest of all . haha . during da session crap wif mr cheong , uncle ong , mr tong and some other teachers .. so fun seh! haha . mr chong , mr cheong (OM) , mr soh and uncle ong owes me and joyce a dinner . haha . mr seow sent me and joyce home , so i reached home at 9pm . slept at 11pm . early seh . wahaha .
woke up and watch xun yi cao , online and bath den go over to aunt hse . cos having gathering there . yeah !!!! wohoo ! reach aunt's hse at 5pm and help out in tasting da food . haha . den ppl start cming in till7pm .. no more lo .. after we finish dinner . me , rene , xing and kw went down to play basketball . but da fricking bball no air .. so i was calling frens to ask if they have . but none of them have . so bo bian , ran to sp de sportslink and ask da uncle help us pump . haha . play and play lo .. till 11pm all went up to rest den peeps start going home . but i stayed at aunt hse.. haha . a short but fun day ..
woke up ate breakfast wof aunt and all , den went to mummie;s frens hse for awhile den called kor to see if he's at home or if yee mah is at home . cos wanna go visit them .. haha . but kor said he wanna come our hse . so he came wif jie and ah jie . haha . den i followed them to uncle ping;s hse , gamble there . haha . till 9+ , kor fetch us to jason's hse and slack lo .. reach home at 12am . iron y clothes and off i go to sleep . i sprained my leg a lil' laa . hais . old injury ... pain pain ah ..gotta stop here .. update laters !tata ...i miss you all -
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Wednesday, February 16, 2005

my cousins .. big aunt's granchildren .
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i really miss all my cousins .. i'm gonna break down soon .
omg .. i miss my cousin more and more as da days pass by . how ? i miss my cousin soo much that i cried in da nite . wth ... i wanna see all of them . first time missing my cousin soo much .. hais . i'm one whom treasure family gatherings a lot . even going out with my cousins , i treasure it a lot . i may look like i dun care or wad . but deep down inside , i really treasure it . when i was in m'sia wif my cousins , i was treasuring bits of da time to catch up wif my cousins . cos u wont noe when is da next time i'll see them . i'm so sad to part wif them . hais ... i jus miss them so much and wish i could turn back da time . last week's de now , i am at big aunt's hse wif mister etic and mister heng . i miss da days . anyway, school was ok today . drag myself up for school , cos having PE today . and we played netball , we won laa . yeah ! huat ah ! haha . den was quite tired but tried not to sleep and i manage it . =) bell rangs and recess is over , i saw li shan while i was walking up to da hall . den i smiled at her and she came over to hug me and ask me how am i ? den i hug back and said i was fine and ask her is she lonely on v-day ? den she say yeah and we both luff . haha . so sweet of li shan to hug me . =pPp tml i'm getting a prepaid card .. cos , sending too much overseas sms makes my bil explodes . and i'm wanting for one for long , and miss fifa agreed to give me hers . haha ! wohhoo !! i'm waiting for mister etic to be online , but i'm sleepy now . hais ... i promise him lers , so mus wait . good nite ! love everyone !
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Tuesday, February 15, 2005
skip school today ..
hmms .. din go to school today , cos have fking cramps early in da morning . so decided not to go to school . so i slept till 2pm and wake up , but in da middle of my sleep i was msging wif mister etic . so i sleep while waiting for his reply . haha . den woke up and online , till 6pm prepare for my tuition . till 7:30pm i finish my tuition online again and slack till now . chatting wif mister etic now , guess he'll be coming to s'pore during da march holidays . haha . yippee!! yst , in school mister etic msg me and we started chatting from 9am till i reach home . haha . school is quite boring laa , and noe wad ? mr raj and ms julia chia is engaged . from today onwards we gotta call her mrs raj . haha . wth ! sembawang sec "achar!!" haha . looking forward to sunday , going for a movie i guess . yeah !and yeaps , i received some presents yst laa . i like everything i received . thanks guys ! but , i'm sick of ferrero rocher . haha . but , still a big thank you laa !ermss ... ok . gotta end soon . i miss lotsa people . i miss all my cousins in malaysia . i wanna go back malaysia !!!! i miss mister etic and mister heng crappy-ness . okok , i'm sleepy . love everyone .
- anonymous : pls laa , you tag my board and din leave ur name . u're from my school . jus tell me who r u laa . i wont despise u or wad mahs . =) jus tell me who are you k ? or e-mail me laa . (if u're reading this , pls ...)
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Monday, February 14, 2005

en en .. cute lil' chubby cousin .
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qi zhi . my lovely lil' cousin . i miss him loadss !
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me and yao yao .
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me with yao yao and mei mei.
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clockwise from bottom left : freako , wynny , mister heng and mister etic .
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me and my mister etic!
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Sunday, February 13, 2005
back from m'sia ! i miss my cousins there ..
hm .. i'm back from m'sia after4 days of fun . summarise all eh ..
woke up at 10am . so tired . hmm .. den , bath and change . yeah ! wear new clothes . haha . den pack my stuffs and off we go to chuan's hse . saw almost all my father's side cousins , play mahjong laa . candy jie helped me . haha . cos i'm still quite blur or maybe very blur with those tiles . shing and i was so engrossed with da show whoch was shown da nite before , which is all bout mahjong . so while playing , me and shing kept saying those words and phrases they ysed in da show . haha . den .. at bout 1pm left chuan's hse and da next destination is k.pilah in m'sia . my big aunt hse . so excited to go there cos i'll get to see my big aunt and my sweetlovely cousins . we reached there bout 5+ . ate dinner and i played wif my lil' cousins while mister eric(etic) and mister heng is at the other hse . eric and heng are my besticousins eh .. i love them loadss . number one crapper . crap with me while gambling , even while eating . wth ! you guys rocks man . love ya all . we slept at bout 3 am .. was talking and gambling all nite . cant laugh out loud cos lil' babies are slping .. but .. we still laugh out loud . haha .
woke up at bout 12pm , bath and change and my brunch is steamboat wif big aunt's family . nice nice . but i was kena stick by one of my lil' cousin . she jus sticjs me like superglue and wont let me off when i'm eating . hell ya ! no choice .. mister heng and mister etic is sitting beside me , so .. they help me to get food and stuffs laa . haha . thanks eh ! after brunch , its gambling time . i won . at first i only use RM5 to play , den in da end ... i won RM20 . haha . misten heng wasnt tt heng anymore . =) after that , left k. pilah and headed to bahau , 3rd uncle hse . but i cant forget how i parted mister heng and mister etic . hmm .. but it wasnt so sad laa , cos we'll meet on sat for a big reunion dinner in malacca . reached 3rd uncle's hse den play and stuffs . but din gamble after tt , after all my gambling kakis are still mister etci and mister heng . haha . at bout 9pm went to 7th aunt hse and yeap ! finally saw ah boy , with his gf . haha . den saw ppl pl aying fire crackers .. so fun . like national day ah . haha . went back to 3rd uncle's hse at bout 12am . slept at 2am .
woke up and was doing nothing till 3pm .. kor finally arrived wif his wife and parents . den its ang bao time . i called kor's wife "biao sao" and she gave me da ang bao . haha . so weird to call her " biao sao" , call her "jie jie" better . left for malacca at 8pm , on our way to malacca was fun . 6th aunt telling us her funny stories . haha . laugh all da way . den when we reach malacca , my 2nd uncle's hse i saw my cutesweetlil' cousins . they were cute . one name qi zhi and another name en en . played with them like hell , but en en sleep earlier . so played wif qi zhi like hell . he jus cant get to sleep laa . so i was in da room wif him till he sleep . he's so cute . resembles he's father so much . his father is my real good cousin . when i was young , he's father dotes on my a lot . haha . den .. qi zhi slept at bout 2am and i went to sleep too .
kena disturb by lil' qi zhi at 10am .. he woke me up by playing his power rangers toys beside me . haha . cute lil' boy . love him loadss ah .. went to bath and ate brunch with qi zhi and en en , but i was eating and feeding them at the same time laa . after brunch , played wif them and brounght them along to da shopping centre .. haha . they were so "guai" nvr run ard in da shopping mall . =) went back to 2nd uncle hse at 5+ den change and prepare for da big reunion dinner . yeah !! i can see mister etic and mister heng . at bout 6:15.. mister etic and mister heng's family reached uncle's hse . den i was like busy and walkign ard here and there . so din really talk to them . its 6:30pm ! everyone left uncle's hse and headed over to da restaurant . i was shock them mister etic is driving .. wtf !! fancy driving a car at da age of 18 . he look so suave man ! omg ! when we reach da restaurant , i catch up wif some of my cousins anx took fotos wif them and da dinner started .and da whole restaurant was booked by my uncle . haha . me and mister etic was kinda the photographer laa , we took fotos here and there and was crapping like shit while taking foto . and we both took a foto sing his hp , wasnt tt clear laa but its ok .. we both oso take pics wif our digi cam . yeah ! nice one .. so i was sticking ard wif mister etic and mister heng throughout the whole dinner laa . and and da best part was .. they played some disco song and everyone was dancing like siao . so fun .. but , mister etic , mister heng and me was like standing at da side and watching . mister heng kept asking me to join in da dance but it was like , so many ppl dancing . imagine all my aunts and uncles dancing disco . wah rao ! some more my another cousin is da lighting man . on-ing and offing lights like real disco . haha . qi zhi and en en was also dancing .. they look so cute . haha . da dinner ended at bout 12am , everyone is back to uncle's hse for more fun . but mister heng left first cos he'll be going back to KL , and followed up was mister etic . he was leaving too , sad ah .. he's driving back laa. suave ah ! said good bye wif mister heng and mister etic . and qi zhi and en en was wanting me to carry them , so i carried them and took daddie's car back to uncle's hse . and i dun wanna go back to s'pore tt nite so i was asking daddie not to go home tonite den go back on sunday laa . he answered a "hm.." so i played wif qi zhi and acc. him to sleep . when he sleep , i went over to kelvin's hse and watch tv laa . and it was 3 am , daddie told me we'll be going back soon . den i was like huh ! no ! but he say its better to go home now den to be stuck in da jam . no choice , i pack my stuffs and put everything on daddie's car at bout 4am we left uncle's hse . i cried in da car , i miss qi zhi, en en and all my cousins . hais . so sad ... reach home at bout 6am and off i went to sleep . i miss qi zhi and en en a lot ! i really miss them a lot ! when can i meet u all again ?
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Wednesday, February 09, 2005

it's da kaleidovision !
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Tuesday, February 08, 2005
yeah ! its cny tmr !
yst in da middle of da nite , my fone went dead flat . fcuk ! i was lazy to walk down and charge my fone , but i rem' faiz watch is wif me and i put it somewhere on my bed . when i look at the watch its 5:30am .. so i use da watch to have an agar-logy of da time i'm suppose to wake up . but in da end , i woke up at 6:15am . wtf ! almost late . rush down to bath , change , comb hair and stuff . it was so rush , i repeat .. so rush . i took da bus and headed over to meet jie all . thank god i wasnt late *wipe off da sweat* phew ~ den walked to school and found out i di nbring my tie , argghh !! was so gan chiong and msg-ing ppl asking whether they have any etra tie or not . thank god , cynthia save ma . haha . thanks ya ! dun feel like doing duty , so i told joyce i not going to do duty . jie told me she dun wanna do duty oso , so i tot ok at least someone acc. me . but in he end , due to her stead tempt-ness she went to do da duty . so i gave a wtf-tot-u-say-dun-wanna-do-then now-u-wanna-do-again face . so i walked unwillingly to da side gate and sat down , but joyce's cookies brighten me up (: anyway , i'm not angry wif jie or wad laa . jus .. u noe . after duty went back to da class and wrap da hamper , it was quite fun laa . den headed to da hall for concert , throughout da concert my heart was thumping veri fast . cos , he's coming back to school . sharks !! i dare not look behind da hall , i kept asking ppl to help mi look . so after da concert i was looking ard , wanting to see him but feell uneasy too . wtf wynny !! joyce went off after da concert and bout 10 mins later she called me and told me , she saw him and he's on da way to school . i say ok . and my heart thumped faster and faster . den a few mins later , jo called and told me , he's coming in soon . he' s jus outside da gate . omg ! my heart is dropping out soon . shits !! lastly , da last person whom informed me bout he's arrival is lee fong . she called me and say she saw him and he's out side da staff room . i was outside da general office can ! anyway , i got to see him from far . tt she din come along wif him . blessed ! went to have lunch wif edwin all , saw peggy chattd wif her too .den went to mos to find jo and stuffs den blah blah blah ... reached home , bath , online , do laundry , pack my clothes for tmr and off i went for my beauty sleep . had a bad dream ... hais . tml i going to big aunt's hse !! will be back on suday .. wohoo ! i need my pillow now ! happi new yr anyway !
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Monday, February 07, 2005
cny is coming !
yeah !!! cny is coming . wohoo!! i love it . anyway , today went to school as normal den study and stuff . but kinda tired , wanna sleep but scared teacher scold . so i endure all da way till after school , but i was damn alert after school .went to watch da cny concert rehearsal , quite boring . *yawns* den left school at bout 4+ reach home bathe and watch princess diaries II again . yeah !! guess tml nite having dinner wif edwin all , bt tink mummie wont let .. hais . ok , i'm tired . hais .... hope THEY wont appear in school tmr . i dun wanna see THEM in school .
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Sunday, February 06, 2005
finally .
yeah ! i changed my blog again . but tis time round , i add two blogs de stuffs together . =)) so happi and contented . anyway , bout two days nvr blog . on friday , after school was ODAC . it was so fun . played red indian , watched soccer and crapping around . mdm cheah was sick tt day eh , she came for awhile den she went back home to rest . so.. it means no government lo . no more tuck in shirts rule and its our world man . we're all so united . ODACians rocks my socks . but , yst nite i was damn fking sad . hais . dun wish to talk bout tt issue anymore , it jus hurts me whenever i tot of it . today , was soo boring . stay at home da whole day rotting . but went out for dinner wif mummie and daddie jus now . went to sembawang shopping centre da giant to but new yr food . mummie bought lotsa things and of course i bought some too . supermarket-ing is soo much fun . i'm bored now .. something excites me . know wad ? i'm so excited to go malaysia and meet up wif all my cousins during newyr ! yeah ! i'll be leaving on wednesday morning . first , go to big aunt hse at K.Pilar . den stay for one night . next go to 3rd uncle hse in Bahau , stay for one night again . Lastly , go to 2nd uncle hse at Malacca for a big big reunion dinner . yeah !!! i'm looking forward to it . wohoo ~~~!! i love all my cousins . and my family is having reunion dinner on monday nite , weird huh . anyway , maybe going for a dinner wif edwin all on tuesday nite . but , all deciding on where to go . hais .. brainstorm ! as da days pass by , i promise i'll forget him . and i'll forget him totally . cant believe he did that to me . fking guy ! heck him . i'm tired lo , gonna slp soon . nitex everyone .
I screamed your name for days
hoping you would come back
I tried so many ways
to get you to cut me some slack
I took the heat for you because i miss you too much
thats when i realized that this isn't just a crush
I'd do anything for you
I did anything you wanted me to do
I don't see why you left
I'll have to take a guess
Because to think that
I would hurt you
thats something I would never do
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Thursday, February 03, 2005
forever love
hmm ... a few days nvr update lerr so summarise . my days are quite well laa , boring school hours and sleeping .
tuesday 01.02.05
da nite before was talking to ben and he was very sad and stuffs . den tuesday during recess , he went back to school for da past time to see his frens and pass me letter . den his frens all like cant bear to see him leave . sad scene seh ~ den after recess , while having eng lesson i wan msg-ing wif him den half way nvr reply , cos doing mindmap . until after school i msg him and ask him is he at da airport , he say gonna reach .. den my fone black out wtf! fone went dead flat . hais . used joyce hp to reply his msg . sent two onli , den i told him i'll msg him when i reach home . enxt , i went to read da letter he gave me , it was so sad and touching . cried when i was reading it . when i reach home it was like 5:30pm . den i charge my fone and on it , i heard da msg tone and went to see da msg it was sent by him at 5:21:37pm , it goes :
haiz .. i will be leaving soon .
take care hor . my flight will bepart at 5:40pm ...
i was like blur den i look at da time .. it was 5:40pm . i quickly sent him a msg , but i noe he already in da plane . so i called his hp , and it wad like leave a msg after da tone stuff . but after a while i received one more msg by him sent at 5:23:35pm.
got to go in da plane ke hais .
see you online next time .
hmm ... *speech-less* sent him an email and went to eat dinner and sleep .
wednesday 02.02.05
went to school as usual , den during CL period went to da library for da all star prog . it was fun laa , den reach home and went to sleep till 10pm like tt . wake up , eat dinner and do eng hmwrk . went back to sleep again . today .. wake up bath and study chemistry today got test . da test quite hard eh , tml got MT and physics test . hais . but yeah !! tml having ODAC physical training . but i was sad too , next friday juniors coming in . but i cant be present on tt day , i'll be in malayia . so sad ah . wanted to cry da momnet mdm cheah say ODAC open hse next week . hais . anyway , i think some thing happen between me , jie and joyce frenship . but we din voice out anithing . but in our hearts it is quite hurting laa . dunno wad the hell cork up laa , we jus think that , tt person should think before she talk . if not she'll hurt one's heart . hais .. nvm laa . if tt person wanna change for da better she'll change . sad ah ..
respect.the.princess
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