Thursday, December 30, 2004
sembwinds stones !! i love sembwinds !
yeah !! sembwinds stones can . i love sembwinds to da core . went to da concert today , they played so well lors . shouting my lungs out like hell , dancing wif da music . so fun ! i regret can .. i din wear contact lens den everything so blur , was looking ard da whole hall and hope to see him . but i cant c shit lor , so pek chek . gave up on finding him , after that da concert start . so fun , edwin sat bside me . we took lotsa pics wif his fone . but he cant send cos prepaid . hais . anyway , he died of my crappy-ness . cos every song da band play got meaning so i imagine lotsa things and i told him . he was like wtf* u crappy lil' shit . but he crap wif me too , kena da diseaes . towards da end , i was kinda tired . so was quiten down . but when sembwinds played da last piece i was so bloody high , shake here and there , cant sit still and talk and talk . edwin bth* but no choice , he sit bside me . so he gotta endure till da veri end . some more , asri they all in front kept telling us bout da soccer's result , den all so excited . betting on who's winning . den da whole thing ended , went home . cousins came . wohoo ~! happified . playing peek-a-boo . lil' kiddos game huh . but i like it ! i jus felt that got lotsa things to say bout today's concert . dunno how to say . kaes , anyway .. goin to kor's hse tml evening . yeah !! rem' my dress eh ? and digi cam .. gonna slp now lers . cousin went to slp lers . pang seh me seh . stupid them . =PpP nites . i miss you . come back to me .. will you .
to ben : i'll think about it . give me some time . thanks for telling me so much today . noe more bout those things lers . (:
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Tuesday, December 28, 2004
you light up my life - leann rimes .
opps ! i love that song you light up my life by leann rimes can . she stones~! anyways , today went back to sch for meeting again . do does booklet and stuff , da bloody cyber lab is fkin hot lors . air -con spoil . me and yu ling keep runing out to keep ourself cool . yuling that cheeky ger ahh , li siao siao . sec 1 nia so cheeky lers . she's cute laa , crap wif me . jie was late today , called her so many times yet she sleeping . she pig ! cos yst she "ton" den nvr slp . but eventually she was in sch at 11+ . after da whole meeting ended at bout 2+ , i went to play da piano den played twinklex2 lil' stars . ytss ppl sang the song out while i'm playin . so nice of them . den se use his flute to play . i played da piano , he played da flute . quite a nice combination laa . but he always come in late . haiyoyo . took cab home , cos rushing back for tuition . while goin to da taxi stand . so lingwei jie and she pass me da present . a t-shirt . veri nice ! thanks ! i brought her present too , but drop on da floor den spoil . is sand art bottle ... all da sand kena mix up lo . den not nice , dun dare to gif her . hais . hope she understand . =PpP tml goin for sch's band concert .. yeah !! but , i dunno wad to wear . siao liao laa . some more tml got tuition ah . cant slp till late late .. hmm .. i miss him . i want to see him again . but i know i'll cry when i see him . how ? no more new yr wif him .. no more hellos byebyes . no more !! saw my cousin online , he arh .. long time nvr online cos com kena virus . online lers , saw my dp say i veri tann wors . but he like that colour . nice one . (: my sch's teachers oso say i veri tann and cant reg. me . scarstic sia .. dun reg . me can talk to me . *eyes rolling* daddie is back .. gonna stop lers .
- why see him if you know you'll cry ? he asked you to be strong , in his mind you're a strong person . but why , now you are so fragile . crying every night on the bed . crying became ur everyday-will-do thing . you cried silently , not wanting people to know that you're sad . but how long can you go on acting ? crapping ard with friends and luffin on the outside . but crying and heart bleeding profusely in the inside . what to do ? you tell me ...
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all i needed .
It's my fault you broke my heart
You didn't ask for it.
I handed it to you
Expecting you to love me
Liked I loved you
But instead,
When you got enough feelings to take it from me,
You dropped it.
And it broke.
Leaving pieces everywhere.
When I tried to pick it up
You walked awayI gave up,
and walked away too,
With no heart, no soul,and bleeding hands.
All from you.
All I've got is me.
And that's all I want.
That's all I need.
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Monday, December 27, 2004
a happy morning - but a freakin sad evening .
starts from da morning first , i was suppose to meet jie at 8:30am for breakfast . but yst nite , i played ard wif my fone and i play ard the world time .. so i save da time wrongly and its one hr earlier .. so i woke up 1hr earlier , call li jie and she say its jus 7:30am ! dan i fkin angry and walked toher hse and slcak till bout 8:45 came out wif her and ate breakfast . i'm meeting hi at 9:15am at da control station . so he ask me to call him up at 8:45 . i called him and he was late for bout 10mins . i waited for him wif jie and went he reached , he pass me da present and told me some stuffs like merry x'mas and a dunno wad new yr . i replied back thanks thanks thanks . den he left and i left for sch .. i cried after he left , i cried my way to school .so sad , regret everything . hais .what to do ? after that , meeting starts and i listen to everything . but my heart wasn't wif mi . its always on da present he gave me . soo keen to open it . but i din open till i reach home . after meeting , walk ard ind a sch and talk to some sec 1's . they came back to buy books and they tot i'm on duty to assist them . but i was not lo . i dress in red camp tee and a billabong shorts . what are they thinking ?? anyways , i still help them to do those stuffs . and at bout 2+ han came to sch and told me some of his stuffs . make me pek chek and wanna cry . but so many sec 1's ard me . cant cry ... i went to da toilet and cry , den came out wif a damn freakin fake smile . but thank god , those lil' kiddos dun noe bout it . after that reach home , cry like shit den stop awhile cos mummie is back . den act as nth has happen but i went back to slp and cry again . hais . knn !!! why he wanna do this to me ? i din noe he's this kind of guy . arggh !!! nabey ah !! shit you !! and that ger , u bitch ! fku . hate you like siao . anyways , took some pics today in sch .. its up . go to de linkies columm and blah blah blah ....
- knn ! hate you ah . bitch ! how could you do tis ? shit you . fku ! i hate you !!! dun wanna see you anymore . wynny hates you !!
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back from kor's hse .
uhh ... back from kor's hse . but kor was not at home onli yee mah and yee chang at home . so fun , i know everything that is gonna happne on his wedding day !! so cool ! i went to c kor's room . so nice !! i love that room . lie ond a bed and feel like slping , but cant laa . after jie jie(cousin's wife) and kor's(cousin) is married , i gotta call jie jie , biao sao . make her damn old . but i guess i wont call her tt so often , i'll still stick to calling her jie jie and kor - kor . (: some ppl thinks its weird callin cousins of cousins the other half jie jie and kor kor . but i think is alrite . kinda closer relationship rite? nvm . when i go kor's hse , i call kor's sister , jie . her bf - denise kor kor . i call his wife , jie jie oso . kinda mix up . when i call jie , both of them answer . :D i dont even call me real bro - kor . i call him eh ! siao eh . anyway . kor is my 8th aunt son . i'm closest to him too .
thurday nite ,
go kor's hse for buffet and prepare for tmr's wedding . take my dress and sandals too .
friday morning - 6:30am
reach kor's hse , take foto and help jie jie(kor's wife) to prepare some stuffs which is needed ltr .
friday - 7am .
leave da hse and off to da bride hse ! yeah !! here comes da groom !
friday - 8am
back to kor kor's hse wif jie jie , lunchin togather and slack all da way till next morning .
saturday - 10am
off to kor's hse again and prepare for da wedding dinner . rem' da dress again !!
my time planner for that day !! my dress in all at kor's hse now . waiting for the day to come den i'll be in dress again !! anyways , tml gotta go to sch at10am . before that meeting jie for breakfast and at bout 9:15am , meeting him to pass x'mas present ,. gonna cry again . haiz . wynny , no ! dun cry . show him u'r strong even w/o him . jia you !
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Sunday, December 26, 2004
happy christmas and merry new yr .
okies okies , i'm back from my x'mas celebration . soo fun !! tried to forget him but , when it's quiet and lonely , my mid flashes everything up again . fcuk ! but nvm , at least i enjoy myself . firstly , on x'mas eve . went to cousin chuan's hse on da evening . prepare stuffs and slack ard till bout 7+ almost everybody is there . start eating , playing , talking and watch movies . play all da way till bout 11+ we started taking fotos . and we took a family foto . real nice . i love that foto man !! den .. it was 11:55 . time to prepare for countdown . a quiet one . but we enjoy lo . we spend da first half hour of x'mas scrubbing da floor . cos we sprayed those coloured spray and it kinda stick on da floor . so mus wash away . me , rene and xy scrub da floor till bout 12:30 we went down to da block and stared playing sparkles and suddenly we shot a snowy mv . veri nice , fun to da max . next , onli left me , xp , lynsey , xy and rene there . we took a group foto in a funni way . we squat down and use da slippers as a stand , i put da camera ther and have a 10secs shot . luff and luff , kinda stupid act . some of da pics are uploaded at da bottom . played all da way till 1+ went up and bathe and rested on da sofa . movies maraton all da way till 7+ next morning . we watched , monster inc , shrek , and some dunno wad shows . but i slept while watching the terminal . that show so boring .. sian ah . slept on da sofa , so cosy . slept till 7+ kena disturb by all my cousins . den wake up , all go out wat breakfast at chong pang . after breakfast , went home and lie on my bed , sleep all da way till 1pm . went out to meet edwin , alex , jon , andy and joyce to buy present . we went to cwp to shop for present , shortly after we reached cwp jie oso reach lers . den we all bought da present and went down to joyce hse for a x'mas dinner . a nice one , veri fun . crap ard and play stupid stuffs laa . so suprised that edwin , alex and andy bought me present . edwin gave me a necklance wif a letter N . cos he everytime call me ni . next , alex gave me a box of chocolate , cos i love chocs . andy gave me a bracelet . joyce gave me a cup and candle . jie gave me a teddy bear , i've been eyeing for tt teddy bear a long time lo . thanks jie ! love ya loads ! . took some fotos ther too . uploading ltr . went home ard 10+ . a nice and fun day . but when i reach home , suddenly i tot bout our past . cried again . haiz . but i really enjoy my x'mas .
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the family foto !! i love this pic man . 
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act cute can . lols
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ohh , its so high . falling anytime . the jenga !
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snowy mv - cast : wyn and rene ( the mains) camerawoman : xueping . snow sprayer : xinying . asst . producer : lynsey .
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*tada* peek -a- boo
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so proud of da dirty slipper .
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the hu's cha bors .
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the squating gers .
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Friday, December 24, 2004
i love my school's sec ones and i love their parents !
to day i went back to sch and help out in da sec one registration . mr raj say smile all times . i was like ... oh dammit !! smile ? how to smile seh ? but i keep telling myself wynny , u gotta smile . no choice lers . juz smile kaes ? s-m-i-l-le ! and i tried fake smiling but some teacher spotted it , so i stop and i gave my best smile all da way . ohh .. i love my schools sec ones and their parents can . they are damn cute and their parents all so kind and polite . love them manz . i love those malay mamas and papas . i greeted them and they are so kind and polite lo . they like pat on my shoulder and like say "thank you!" omg ! so sweet of them . den i met one malay papa , he talk to me like fren seh . den i talk to him like keep smiling and joking ard . after that , he recgonise me and when his son is in da class and he's in da canteen . he came to me and said " oh , u're wynny right?" i nodded and i smiled to him . and i walk to help out in other places . den i went to help out at da bookstore side , i went down da queue and talk to all da parents . it was fun lo . i love it !! but happy times passes so fast lo . and it was like 11+ and da whole sch was kinda blank lers . so i went home too . den rush home , bath , change and get out to meet jojo first . den meet rene and xy . jojo is so sweet , she gave me a handpone accessories thingy . so nice lor . somemore bhind got da wordings "wing" . dun u think it looks like "wyn" my name . after tt , me , rene and xy went to shop for those stuffs and they came my home . have a fun time doin da bottlex thingy . nice one lo . den .. rene staying at my hse today . xy went hom eocs her mummie dun allow . anyway she will be here tml morning . den we'll be havin breakfast together den do some stuffs and head down to cousin chuan's hse together . we'll be having x'mas countdown there wif all my cousins . and we're gonna sabo some one tml lo . c who is tt sway kia , anyway , if u are da sway kia . let me tell u this , me and rene have been eyeing u for a long time and i think its time to...... ....... ..... sabo you !!! bo bian one lors . have fun man !! jojo jus send me a song name i think of you . shits ! tears roll down uncontrollably lo . haiz . i cant cry anymore . and everytime i am like telling myself : wynny u cant cry anymore . no ! no more . but i still cant control .
wad a failure !! stupid wynny . stop crying , will you ??
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Wednesday, December 22, 2004
the day when i only smile infront of da camera .
hmm.. went swimming today at 10am . i was too tanned lers . but i love da colour of my skin . some kind like copper tone ler . i wan it to be nicer . after that , when to eat long john at northpoint . i saw my primary sch's choir performing outside northpoint . wth* their voices were good lors , shocked to c mrs low there . as in so long ler , she's still da conductor . but realli those lil' juniors voices were nice . den , after ling john went back to sch to practice the dance steps for sec 1 orientation camp . a nice one . took some pics .. u can view it at da bottom . and i gave my best smile in front of da camera . but i dun think tt's da best i can give . haiz .a bout 4+ fifi and my went to sunplaza to buy some snakcs . fifi ride me there , so damn scary lo . fifi : i din buy insurance . really ! . bout 2 big gulps back . den at 5+ all went home . when i reach home , i uploaded all da fotos and published it . now , tears roll down my eyes . se , say that he thinks he(b) dun wanna meet me . wtf* he dun wanna see me anymore ? is that what he really think ? is it ? omg* u mean everything i did for him , he din appreciate it . i did lotsa things for him in da past . dun feel like typing , cos if i type out it will be a long one . he msged me at 7+ tis morning and told me he's not free on 24th . how ? he will be working all da way till dunno when . but i guess is 30th . after 30th i'll be veri busy . i dun wanna meet him after 30th cos on 31st onwards i gotta attend kor's wedding and i dun wanna be sad . haiz . anyway , i juz hope to see him on da 24th . that's all i wan . yst nite while i'm lying on my bed , i cried again . i cried like nobody's business . i dunno why i cry . after i hugged da mashi maro he gave me , tears roll down my eyes . i cried and cried ...
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fifi .. wad are u doin bside da dustbin ?
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fifi and asri . yoz !
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fifi and joyce
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me and ju .
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me and suhailah .
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fifa is on da fone !
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asri and me .
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fifa and me .
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Tuesday, December 21, 2004
poor princess finally noe that there's still a glimpse of light for her .
hmm.. after tuition view my blog , den got one passer by tag me .. sat some caring things . so touching . can go c if u wan . ren jian you wen qing . den my cousin and frens oso leave me some caring de msg . thanks a lot !! juz now go browse thru jieshi's blog , she's sad too . hao ke lian . den suddenly saw my name wif a msg , read it and felt dissapointed cos i made her sad . sorri jie shi . last time i used to solve her love probs de , now i cant solve my own prob . zhen shi bai . haiz . miss hazel so much . hope to c her soon . (: yst he replied my msg at 11+ dunno he working a not cos neve ask him . den he say that he's working all da way till sat , mayb after sat he'll be free . hais . means most probably i cant meet him on da 24th lors . haiz . sad .. but he say he'll confirm wif me again . hope that i can c him on 24th . wynny pray hard ... our cousins x'mas gathering is coming soon . i'm still in tis mood . how ?? i wanna be happi on that day , i wanna smile da whole day . but dun think i can . ltr fake smile kena spotted den die ah . haiz . kor's wedding is coming soon oso , i wanna gif my best smile on that day too . i wanna smile to all my cousins , kor and jie frenz all da aunties and uncles . i'll b at da reg counter . everybody will c mi .. if i dun smile it dun look good rite ? hmm... haiz . on da 30th dec' nite will be goin to kor kor hse to prepare for his wedding stuffs . den next 31st dec' morning here-comes- the- bride ceremony . den can slack ard at his hse all da way . after that . 1st Jan' wedding dinner at orchid country club ballroom . foto taking wif all my cousins and treasure the time well . if not cant c them till like mayb new yr ?? its damn long , i love all my cousins can . i wanna c them everyday , i love family gatherings . but my mummie side dosent have family gathering that often . cos most of them in m'sia , hard to meet up . and tis yr de chinese new yr we're having gathering in m'sia at 2nd uncle's hse . yeah !! meet all my mummie side cousins up lo . its been yrs that everybody gather together . lotsa foto takings again . hmm. shant go on anymore if not i'll be crazy about it . gotta slp lers . byebye .
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Monday, December 20, 2004
hide all my sorrows in da water .
went to wild wild wet today , damn fun . i kept running ard in da water and shouting when i play those thrillin things . nice one ! i've bcome more tanned , face red red lers . but tml ok liao . having tuition tml , haven do her work ahs . siao liao . nvm laa , tml morning can do . hmm... yst help tingting do her blog , dan half way she bcome my jie jie . pro seh . i'll take care of her de . fang xin lo ! den ermms ... juz now on da way home . i heard that song [wo rang ni zou le - wilber pan] . wah rao !! almost cry in da bus . haiz . juz now he msg me at bout 4+ , but i din c it till 6+ . cos where got ppl bring hp along into da water dehx . so when i saw it , total happification !! it was jus a greeting laa . but still happi , after tt i msg him and ask if whether is he working on 24th dec or not . he nvr reply , guess he is working bahx . hmm ... pray wif me that he's not working can . going swimming on wed lo !! dan got tuition after tt .. humpz .. sianz . i found out tt recently , i engaged in water a lot . like swimming and stuffs . dunno y eh . hmm... i missed those days wif him so much , how i wish da time would turn back . i really treasure him a lot . but he... he ... ended it like that . some more now so cold to me . haiz . still rem' last yr de dec' i fell in love wif him , dan every nite wait for him to finish working dan msg wif him .. dan do all those stuffs for him . haiz . how i wish the time now is last yr . but is over lers , damn sad . cryin like fcuk , suddenly the tears cant be controlled . wanna roll juz roll down anytime . haiz .. wondering how is he now ?? ta you xin shang ren ler mahs ? ta shi bu shi zhen de ai guo wo ?? humpx ...
- xiao bomb , xiao bomb !! i miss you a lot . i really wish u can come back now . i'm sorry that i neglected you for a period . but u act as u din mind at all , but i noe inside , u're crying and crying . i missed those days we went cycling , fishing , crapping and do lame stuff 2gather . why you wanna do that to urself lehs ? leave ur frens and family jus like that . tot u say u'll send me off to meet jesus first ?? but why u go so early ?? he still dun wanna meet you , but u force him to take you wif him . why ? why like that ? everytime when i take out the foto that me , u , bai , lyn and loo loo take together de . tears roll down my cheeks . reminscing those good times we spend together and listening to each other sorrows was so nicce . now , dunno where are they now ?? haiz . come back ah xiao bomb !! come back !
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Sunday, December 19, 2004
swimming away my sadness .
today early in da morning went to swim wif xp , xy , kw , ah di and rene . all my cousins . everybody swam but rene din , cos ... have a nice time swimming there . ah di booked out in da morning , rushed back home den went to meet us lers . he li siao here and there lo , at least i smile but it was quite fake . haiz . ah di new bout wad happen to me , and advice me . thanks a lot ah di . he named me [ben-ben] (gong kia) when he saw me . dunno y he called me that , and dunno y i answer oso . today he kept saying i'm blur , cos he tell me lotsa things and most of e times i was like "huh?" or "really?" . if not dan i will be like not listening to him laa , like an austic child . so he kept luffing at me laa , but i din luff . juz cant luff e hell out . after swimming , we all were sitting at e cafe and discussing where to go . ah di went home , xp , xy , kw , rene and me went to northpoint to meet ah chuan kor kor to discuss bout e x'mas eve party and pass him e propasal thingy . after a while xp left , den we all went to starbucks for some drinks , nice one !! i had caramel frapucchino . nice !! at bout 3+ we went to shop for the things we need to make e x'mas present . so i spent away wad i have today , i brought $20 out and left $1 . wtf* mum came to fecth me and rene home after that . den.... after tt do some stuffs and off for a wedding dinner . i saw cheryl chan there !! that [i not stupid] (selina) ger . she pretty , her fig. is good lors . and then blah blah blah... till 11+ reach home and sit infront of the com . still cant forget that thing . haiz . made me so sad ... i hope i can forget that thing on 24th dec , cos having x'mas eve party on tt day . dan after tt is kor kor's wedding , lotsa my cousins will be there . i hope i can give my best smile , cos i'll be at e reg counter wif jie . so i wans to smile at everyone who come . can i ?? after tt , i can think all i wan bout it .. looking forward to 24th dec and 01 jan' 05 .
- xiao bomb , zhe me ban ?? u noe my feeling now ?? i wanna talk 2 you , i wanna tell u losta things . can u come back ?? if not , i dun mind you bring me wif u .
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Saturday, December 18, 2004
wad a sad and pathetic day .
rene stayed at my hse yst nite , dan chatted and stuffs . actualli wanted to finish a 500pieces puzzle . but gave up half way . haiz , so at bout 2+ we slept lo . dan woke up today at bout 12+ , still a bit tired laa . dan we set off wif tt freako to sch and take his n'level result . saw yunyu , me and rene was like .. wtf* she change like shit lo . like lian man . wah rao , i hope wenwen wont be like that 4 yrs ltr when i see her . wenwen has such a nice and pure image in all of our eyes lo . okok , that freako got 4points laa . after that me & rene went to thomson for prata , nice one . but e mee goreng sucks . so i onli eat e plain prata lo , after that went to thomsom plaza to pee . din c kai ma there . so went off to novena and waited , after tt went for dinner...and stuffs laa. dun wana talk bout it . long story ... jus reach home not long ago . haiz . i'm sad like fcuk and cry like fcuk e whole day whenever i'm alone . juz cant stop e tears from rolling down .
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it ended .. [17.12.04] 12:05:05AM
it ended .. me and his relationship ended like that . sad to e max , crying like fcuk . omg !! juz cant stop e tears from rolling down my cheeks . all our memories flashed back in my mind , all e things i've done for him flashed back too . i bought his x'mas present , wanted to meet him on e 24th to giv him . pray wif me that his not working on that day . i guess i'll cry e moment i c him , but i'll try to act strong . haiz . how i wish everything was a dream ... he keeps telling me that we can still keep in touch , but i was thinking can we be as close as the past ?? no !! we cant !! oh lord , take me with you . i can leave tis world anytime . i dun wanna face this harsh reality . it hurts . my heart is being stab by a dagger and is bleeding profusely now . stop the blood , will you ? i got lotsa things to say about me and his relationship . but at e moment , i dunno y i juz cant start . i dunno where to start . maybe in other entries i talked bout it . haiz . is he happi now ? or is he sad ? did he really love me before ?? can god tell me the answer ??
wynny can die anytime , wynny can leave this world anytime , wynny wants to meet jesus now .
dear jesus , take her with you .
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Friday, December 17, 2004
why on me ?
why ?? why on me ?? cant we get back together ? jiu zhe yang , we break lers . why ? today is the 17th !! our 6mths , why on tis day ?? i dun wanna end tis relationship ! i dun wan . can we take it as i dream ? how i wish i can be strong ... how i wish the wind can clow away all my sadness ... how i wish ... continue tmr , too sad to continue ..
she cried ... and she cried ..
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Tuesday, December 14, 2004
thinking about the time we spent together were great ,
i didn't know it will end up this way .
i cherished every minute and second with you .
how i wish i could breakaway from this harsh reality ,
and never come back again .
my mind kept flashing about our past ,
those words and promises you made to me .
i cried , and i cried .
i know it is all my fault ,
all these were made up by me .
i deserved punishments ,
but not this way .
dear Father , i pray that nothing will happen to us .
i pray to you that you could heal up my sorrows .
thank you dear Father Lord .
i wanted to tell you lots of things when i run into you ,
but it ended up into million of tears .
my heart was one again broken and bleeding profusely .
heal my sorrows and stop the bleeding of my heart will you ?
wynny wrote this when all those memories were flashed in her mind .
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why does it hapen to me ?
why !!! why like that !!! yst when we msg , our feeling is like so cold and distanced . like e first time i noe u . why !!! cant we be like in the past ? where happiness is fill and lotsa fun around . i really wish to sleep and never wake up . i dun wanna face this harsh reality . yst , u keep telling me not to be sad . but , how can i not be sad ? how ? my love for u is so deep , yet u spoil it . i noe u still haven give me ur ans bout whether to continue or not . but , ur words and actions show me already . i really dun wish to end this relationship . pls !! i wan e true ans from u , dun feel nei jiu and dun sympathise me . i want you to think carefully . haiz . u said , u're gonna waitfor the day where the both of us go to e beach in the nite , feel the breeze and look at the stars . u said u're gonna be by my side no matter wad . but now , u're the one leaving . i'm still waiting for it . i believe one day we can go to the beach togather . y r u backing out at this time ?? why ?? juz ended like that ?? how i wish yesterday is a dream , a dream that never come true . how i wish the wind could blow away all the sadness around us . i pray to Lord that nth will happen to our relationship and the both of us . can we be like in the past ?? how i wish ... ... ... juz finish my tuition , during my tuition my mind kept flashing bout our past memories . i dunno y , i juz cant concerntrate well . i wish to spend my x'mas , new'yr and everything wif u . u're the light of my life . i never thought that one day u'll leave me . i never thought we would end it this way . can we take it as a dream ?? haiz . yesterday nite din slp well , whenever there's a incoming msg , i hope that is u . but is not . everytime there's a call , i answer it quickly and thought it was u . but is not . i'm ready for the answer anytime . i guess i can take it . for ur sake , i'll try to be happi . but i'm happi on the outside , heart broken and crying bitterly on the inside . when i took e mrt today , how i wish i could c u . i wan to tell u how much u meant to me . but i din c u , fate din make us meet today . i believe i'll get to meet u soon . i believe!! today u'r working , guess u'll finish work at 5+a.m . i'll wait for u , no matter wad . i'll wait for u . i noe is worth it . all the tears i've shed for u is worth it . thinking bout the nights where i worried for u , i cried for u is all worth it . i dun care i ppl say , i juz noe it's worth it . i really wish we can continue our relationship . i cant help but to cry silently in the night . i miss u , i need u . i want u . dun leave me can . how i wish ... ... ...
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our love should be strong than anything else . the times we've gone through, those ups and downs we've overcomemakes our love stronger . wynny pray... ... ...
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Monday, December 13, 2004
heart sank down deeply .
haiz . today is a very sucky day , sweetie msg me and we talk bout some stuffs . dan after that he told me his feeling has faded slightly for me . *tears welled up in my eyes* i ask him why and gave him to choose whether to continue or to stop e relationship . i cried and cried bitterly . he say he needs time to think bout it . i'll give him all e time , but i hope he will continue da relationship . i dun wish to end the relationship , really . y suddenly like tis ? our 6mths coming le eh , dan now like tis ? i wish i could spend my x'mas wif u , my new yr wif u , my every event wif u . humpx... i've been crying for u da past few hours . thinking bout our relationship and thozz past memories kept flashing in my mind . i juz cant stop crying . 5mths+ de relationship , u juz wanna end it like tt ? haiz . hope i'll receive a call from u soon to let me noe bout ur decision . so cold and lonely now . u left me alone in da darkness . i dun blame u , is all my fault . i'm sorri bout all that . sorry . *crying every moment*
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Thursday, December 09, 2004
no title . [title-less]
today have my tuition wif doreen , din finish her hmwrk . din kena anything laa , cos i really dunno how to do mahx . haha . so she teach me again lors . one and a half hour is realli fast . juz two chapters dan da tuition ended . fast seh . haha . dan juz back from TTSH cos tt freako(my bro) had dengue . take my time to go there after tuition . took my mp3 wif me , acc me thru da journey . and on da way there , i rem' sweetie's ah gong is in TTSH oso . means i can c him ay TTSH ! haha . yeah !! my dinner was two sandwiches , haha . cool huh . on da 5th dec went swimming wif xp and rene . din realli swim laa . haha . slackin there lo . dan after tt xp went home , me and rene were waiting her rene's cousin 2 buy his bubble tea . dan both of us were doin da hu's family youngster standard position , and it is squatting . haha . it invented by ah di laa , our dear cousin . haha . cos everytimr when he's waitng for ppl , he'll be squatting de . haha . so we squat outside a computer shop while waiting laa . dan we tot of ah di , da next day is ah di's b'day . so we tot off goin to visit him and wish him laa . so i msg him and he's at home . dan after tt me and rene walk pass a cake shop , dan tot of buyin a small cake for ah di . cos we got no much money left , dan i bought a small doreamon cake for me lo . brought rene's cousin home . dan rene follow me to ah di's hse dan when we reach there , he's about to go out . dan me and rene was lke standing outside his hse dan pass him da cake , walked down wif him to da road and ask him how to walked back to my hse . dan he showed me a ur-hse-is-so-near-yet-u-dunno-how-to-go-home face . not angry or buai song face laa . haha . dan he told me walk straight and blah blah blah.... after tt he went 2 meet his fren dan me and rene walked straight , while walking we tot tt lynsey is at home . dan we go back ah di's hse again and talk talk wif lynsey . dan watch tv there . haha . kinda bo liao huh . haha . yst me sweetie was working , he din tell me dan wah rao ~ so worried for him dunno where da hell to find him . haha . dan at 4.30+ in da morning he msged me and tell me he finish workin le . but i was slpin laa , till tis morning i msg him lo . dan he's working now again . haiz . ke lian ah . anyways , jo jo bought smthg for me . she in korea now . haha . love her manz , still rem' me . haha . dan chel bought smthg for my sweetie oso . haha .tis sat edwin is havin a chalet , dunno whether can go or not . haiz . i'm lookin forward to kor(not my bro . my cousin) and jie wedding . cos i can meet all my cousins again and its snappin time . haha . i dunno y , but i juz love da feeling of meeting upall my cousins . haha . i miss ah boy kaes . hope he turn up for kor's wedding . dunno whether he can come or not cos his dad(7th uncle) jus pass away . haiz . hope to c him soon . gotta end lo , nth to write lers . and yepps , tml maybe goin to watch shutter wif my cousins . haha .
sweetie : everyday will till so late , xin ku ni lers . jia you oh !! hope to c ya soon .
p/s : wynny hate copyright-ters . u people should noe who u r , wynny hate u all . u all sucks to da max , copy people's wishes and stuff . fk u all !!
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Monday, December 06, 2004
dreaming of you - selena
i love that song dreaming of you by selena . leandra sang tat before but i din notice it laa , i notice it on da plane back to s'pore . i took valuair airlines back , one of da air stewardess sang tis song but their version laa . so i fell in love wif tis song . haha . today went to sch at 9+ to c jie in her netball match wif yss . yss netballers are soo cocky n sucky . juz dun wanna talk bout it lers . saw yuling , and kinda found out tat she's cute laa . haha . and shouted to reena and told her i miss her . gave her hugs , and of cos my bao bei jing lan got da hugs too . is a muz do thing to hug jing lan , cos everytime when we c each other we'll hug hug . haha . um.. da match ended at 11+ dan we went for lunch at mac . saw yuling , reena and da bytch there . fkup man , hate her fkin face . bash her up !! arbish ~!!! after tat , saw asri & fifa's gang outside cavana . join them again dan luff and do stupid things 2gather . haha . next , went to juwairiah's hse wif da gang to take smthg . played wif ju's lil' bro salaudin . he's cute , haha . love him to da max . he's a lil' boy whom burps loudly . haha . finally da whole gang went back to da sch for meeting , da SC meetin . have a fun time at da meeting . haha . after da meetin when to eat dinner wif them at.. cavana again . haha . kinda bored lers . have lotsa fun there too . haha . i love da way we sat down and waited for everyone's food to be up , dan we sang food cheer and eat 2gather . haha . is great los . maybe next week we're goin wayang-ing 2gether . haha . lookin forward to it . and i'm gonna get smthg for my sweetie as a x'mas present . haha . rene's gonna get me a present too . haha . tml i'm gonna start my tuition . haiz . sianz ah . gotta end here . ciaos .
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Saturday, December 04, 2004
new blogskin ~!
*tada* new blogskin . i lurve it man !! kinda bored of e previous skin lers . so change it lors . haha . 2day went sentosa wif xp jie & rene . dan sibei sianz lors . some more e sun 2day wasnt good enuff 4 tanning . onli get abit tan , skin abit red red laa . haha . when i was queueing up for bathing , i called mummie dan she say we'll be go to RH(raffles hotel) tonite . dan i was happi till siao . cos my sweetie is working there dan i can c him . dan it was still early , so we slack at orchard tillbout 7+ i called mumie again . FCUK ! she was at home lors . i ask her y she nv go RH she say dun wanna go . wah rao !! sianz 1/2 . walk ard at orchard , dan rest at pastamania . suddenly , i saw a familliar face . guess who ?? i saw huang yida . tt singer u noe . wah rao , e 1st time i wasnt confirm tt its him . but he walk far far away lers . dan i was like searching for a guy who wear black top , havin a sling bag n is short . cos tt was how yida look like . dan keep searching n searching . finally he walk back , rene confirm tt its him . haha . happification ! after tt , slack ard at herren till 8+ dan go home . sianz ah . anyways , ling wei is my darling jie jie and i'm her darling mei mei now . oso dunno y come out wif this . and onli she noes bout my dreams which i kept it to myself for lotsa yrs . haha .rem' my choc huhs !! haha . i'm tired lers , gonna slp soon . tml goin for swimming wif e same ppl . yeah !!
sweetie: xin ku lers . everyday work till so late dan next morning gotta wake up early and work again . ke lian arz .muz take good care lehx . i'll always be wif u dehx . jia you !!
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Friday, December 03, 2004
really sad . .
uh.. i'm sad . veri sad . 7th uncle pass away on friday in k. pilah in m'sia . and friday , i'm still in thailand . i'm onli back on sunday nite . din noe how 2 react when i received news . back on sunday nite , received a msg tt says report 2 sch at 8am e next morning 4 camp . wtf . 8am? so tired . went 2 slp after bathing . woke up unwillingly e next morning . mummie says we'll be goin back wif 6th aunt on tuesday morning 2 m'sia 2 attend e funeral . on monday morning , went 2 sch 4 e SC camp . it's kinda boring at e beginnig but , it bcame much better after tt . i received a call from mummie while practising e dance of tt song "superstar" . mummie says , we gotta leave 2nite . omg ! means i have 2 leave e camp earlier . at bout 7.30pm , i left e camp wif hugs and hands shaking , left unwillingly . took a cab back home . reach home , bath ,change and left again . veri tired . slp on e bus on da way back . our bus is at 11pm . reach kermayang(my 7th uncle's hse in m'sia) at 4am . we alighted outside some shop and called 7th aunt hse and ask some1 2 drive us in . after a few mins , ah boy's fren drove us in . btw , ah boy is my cousin , 7th uncle's 3rd son . when we reached e hse , 7th aunt cried and hugged mummie . i cried too laa . dan when 2 look at my 7th uncle . he's in a coffin , the coffin has not sealed up yet . so can see his full-body , he's smartly dressed up . everybody is slpin . ah kian kor kor ,(7th uncle 2nd son) woke up and join us outside . after awhile ah boy woke up , din regconise him at 1st . cos is like i din c him for 3 long bloody yrs . dan after tt , he talked 2 me , uh-huh . i recgonise his voice . haha . dan it was 6am le . damn tired , went 2 rest . dan blah blah blah .... on tuesday i don do much , juz help out abit . dan slack and talked wif ah boy . ah boy is such a nice chap . love talking 2 him . we love crapping , cos we're cousins wad . ((: on wed , last day of funeral , woke up at 7am dan ate breakfast and help out in some lil' things . 7th uncle will be buried in meleka . is veri far from his hse , about 3hrs of car travelling . we sat zhi xing kor kor's car 2 meleka . dan i tot i can go and see my 7th uncle's graveyard . and maybe could talk more wif ah boy . dan siao liao , we din go . dunno y . our car is juz bhind ah boy's they all de lorry . dan suddenly we seperated . sad sia . when we meleka , 2nd uncle's hse . we rest and i played wif all my lil' cousins . they r cute . they recgonise me . haha . but my mind kept flashing e scene of zhi xiang kor kor's car n ah boy's lorry seperated . dan bcame sad again . haiz... juz cant b happi laa . haiz . i missed e 2nd n 3rd day od SC camp . shits !! hate it . haiz . i miss ah boy , my dear cousin . guess we'll have 2 wait for 3 yrs ltr dan we can meet each other again .
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