boy's misery

2006-04-02T01:42:00.000+08:00

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God is so cruel to us .

2006-03-30T23:02:00.001+08:00

I'm so angry now , my blood is fucking boiling . Fuck you ! You suck!! Whatever.. I din have tuition today as my teacher isnt feeling well . So i headed home straight after school , bath and slept . Din have maths test today also , cause almost the whole of Gransazers were sent home due to their hair . Mrs Leong is soo fucked up . Chinese lesson was a total bitch too , she suck . Skipped Physics lesson and wento Mdm Wong's class to disturb people .. It was hell fun . Anyhow , received a call when i got home , something happen . I think they're gonna go find that bitch on Monday . Good !! That bitch ought to be taught a lesson , i hope she fucking get slap and lick the toilet bowl . Am having Speech Day rehearsal , NOT looking forward to it . No fun ! Still thinking if i wanna go see Gransazers peformance and BP Plaza tmr . Will be towning with Grasazers on Saturday too . Was talking to Melvin Chan about getting those hamsters earlier , he kinda agreed . So lets hope he'll get it soon , cause i'm so excited . =) And i think if that* is true , -you- can go and die . Everyday i wake up , i wished that it was -you- whom brighten up my day . But -you- weren't the one , -you- didn't even whisper a single word . I really dont know what to do if i were to bump into -you- on the streets . Should i smile to -you- or ignore it ? I really dont know . Be it hatred or what , i still miss you a lot . Goodnight people.. <3

"I went back to the place we met , hoping to see you again . "

God is so cruel to us .

2006-03-30T23:02:00.000+08:00

I'm so angry now , my blood is fucking boiling . Fuck you ! You suck!! Whatever.. I din have tuition today as my teacher isnt feeling well . So i headed home straight after school , bath and slept . Din have maths test today also , cause almost the whole of Gransazers were sent home due to their hair . Mrs Leong is soo fucked up . Chinese lesson was a total bitch too , she suck . Skipped Physics lesson and wento Mdm Wong's class to disturb people .. It was hell fun . Anyhow , received a call when i got home , something happen . I think they're gonna go find that bitch on Monday . Good !! That bitch ought to be taught a lesson , i hope she fucking get slap and lick the toilet bowl . Am having Speech Day rehearsal , NOT looking forward to it . No fun ! Still thinking if i wanna go see Gransazers peformance and BP Plaza tmr . Will be towning with Gransazers on Saturday too . Was talking to Melvin Chan about getting those hamsters earlier , he kinda agreed . So lets hope he'll get it soon , cause i'm so excited . =) And i think if that* is true , -you- can go and die . Everyday i wake up , i wished that it was -you- whom brighten up my day . But -you- weren't the one , -you- didn't even whisper a single word . I really dont know what to do if i were to bump into -you- on the streets . Should i smile to -you- or ignore it ? I really dont know . Be it hatred or what , i still miss you a lot . Goodnight people.. <3

"I went back to the place we met , hoping to see you again . "

I know , i'm nothing to you now .

2006-03-29T22:25:00.000+08:00

I'm having maths test tmr !! And i'm not prepared for it... I failed my previous one badly , darn badly . Fuck it laa.. Urgh! I so dont like today , i wento school and was kinda"bombed" by this woman with lotsa useless and fucked up stuffs . I just nod my head and never listens to what she say.. It just suck laa . PE , we were practising on how to play shotput , it was rather fun . But yeah , thanks to my back injury it was quite hard to play like the past . =( Was reading this month's CLEO during Mrs Leong's lesson . Kinda slack.. During recess , had an interview with Straits Time IN about some school stuffs . They will publish it next Monday in Straits Time on IN . Do check it out ya ! =) Chatted with Mister Etic in the noon just now , we rocks . *smiles* Had a very bad nightmare just now , was crying terribly when i woke up . It really haunts me.. I dont wanna have that nightmare again , it's enough . Yesterday , Dennis saw that someone again . I thought -you- were dead , but Dennis saw -you- again . What does it mean ? What the fuck are -you- doing ? What the fuck do -you- really want ? My life is messed up by -you- , seriously messed up . Dead ? Yes ! In my heart , -you're- dead . No matter what i do , -you- just wont show -yourself- and -you- do nothing about it . Fuck -you- !! If -you- dont like it or so , just say . Dont give me silence . I hate silence.. What more do -you- want me to do ? How much more tears -you- want me to shed for -you- ? Everything is about -you- now . Every night , it haunts me . Everyday , i lived in fear and tears . I'm drowned by the sorrows and my heart is shattered into million pieces already . My life is hopeless , meaningless , messed up and wretched . -You- are the pillar of my life , -you- can light up my life and make my happy again . -You- are the only one i want to see , the only shoulder i want to lean on and cry . For now , i miss you a lot . Goodnight . <3

"When the night falls , i'll have to leave too . "

now you are not by my side when i'm sad .

2006-03-28T22:40:00.000+08:00

*wails and scream* Wynny hurt her back again... Tsk tsk tsk... I dont know how i hurt it . It was so painful after i bathed this morning . So i started walking slowly and tried to stand up straight but it hurts like fuck . My eyes were slightly swollen this morning , quickly soothen my eyes with ice and it was better . Lessons were boring and uncomfortable , cause i cant sit up straight and my back hurts a lot . There was this time during Geography lesson , when i wanted to stand up and pick something i dropped on the floor . I stood up my back was so painful , i quickly sit down and tears welled up around my eyes . The pain was so unbearable .. Just like what my heart is experiencing . Anyway , today's Invesiture was okay . I was so nervous on the stage , but thanks to my Sister . He made me less nervous and kept smiling to me . He rocks! =) Headed home after school to rest and my back is better now . But still cant sit up straight.. Urgh! Ain't have time to visit the doctor and secondly i'm scared also . =( Having Speech Day rehearsal tmr , hope that everything can end early . I dont wanna stay in school for so long , i will get fruastrated . Today it's the "IO-day" , how miserable .. Heart shattered into million pieces when everything was silent . I couldn't believe everything went this way and nothing was done . Why is it this way ? Why cant everything just go smoothly and peacefully ? You always ask me not to tear for you and you'll always be by my side when i cry . Where are you now ? I made you bleed and mad , i'm sorry . I was unsure about everything concerning us , i dont ask much all the time . We just lived everyday happily , having each other as our companion . Sharing weals and woes , everyday lifes , sorrows and happiness to each other everyday . When i'm down , you were there to cheer me up . When i'm sick , you sent your concern every now and then . And when i'm lost , you guided me through my way . What have everything become now ? Disappeared in the air ? Stop saying all these nice words and making promises to me , i've had enough of it . My heart is tearing everytime i think about it and reminisce about the good times . Nothing matters now.. what matters is only your presence by my side . I wanto see you again.. Goodnight . <3

"You've found another pillar in your life , but where's mine ? "

abandoned love

2006-03-27T22:07:00.000+08:00

Tmr's is the Student Counsillors Investiture 2006 !! Clap for me okay.. =) I love all fellow counsillors . I'm tired now , my eyes hurts , my thigh ache and my back is so painful . Tmr is also another scary day for me , as it marks the day of the "IO" . I dont wish for "IO day" to arrive , but it's just tmr . Whatever i do , i'll still end up having a broken heart and think about those sad stuffs . Yesterday i slept around 2plus due to weeping and thinking of lotsa stuffs . Crying is all i do in the night before i sleep . I'm really speechless to talk about anything now.. My heart is bleeding , it's tearing . The feeling is miserable.. Goodnight. <3

"Without you by my side , everything seems meaningless . "

if we met each other later...

2006-03-26T22:59:00.000+08:00

25 March 2006 - Saturday

Woke up around 8am and prepared for school , was late for a little while . The rehearsal started and the Sec 4s are soo free . We only have to show our face for awhile and then we can get off the stage and do stupid things . A few Sec 4s were there only , so we had lotsa fun tgt . Sang that candle song , took photos and lotsa stupid things . Sec 4 counsillors rocks ! =) The fellow counsillors were nice too , they are so enthu in the song . After the rehearsal , played netball with Yeok Ling , Melvin Oh , Ridaudin , Azmil and some sec 1s . It was fun and darn hot .. After netball , left with Yuling and co to Macdonalds to get a drink . Saw Heng at Sun Plaza , so walked to Godma house with her . Saw Godpa on the othet side of the road while walking , shouted for him and waved then off he went .. Kenneth and Lil' Trina was at Godma house!! I so love them.. Played with Kenneth and when his Dad wanna bring him home , he was crying and asking if he could stay at Godma house with me . He's Dad agree and he ran back and hugged me then we played Initial D together . It was fun , i'm always the winner cause he dont know how to play.. *evil grins* Kenneth wento sleep around 4plus and of course i wento sleep too , till Edwin call me then i wake up . Edwin was going to Serangoon and i was praying so hard that he could actually bump into that someone . But Dennis bump into he that someone .. =( Blah blah blah... Fed Kenneth dinner and Godma , Sheng , Wj , Kenneth and me wento Sun Plaza cause Wj wanna change phone . Kenneth was soo noisy in the bus laa , kept singing "Oh Macdonald had a farm.." and made lotsa animals noises . Brought him to Macdonalds and awhile later , his parents brought him home . I so miss him laa.. Although he's noisy and stupid at times , but i still love him .. =)

26th March 2006 -Sunday

Mum woke me up around 10am and told me we're going down to my eldest uncle house to pray for my grams ( maternal side) death annivesary . I was so tired and my thigh were aching . Fucking painful.. Prepared and wento over to uncle's house , i was soo hungry laa . Waited for around 30 minutes and they start to eat , so i ate and left with Mum to Chinatown . SHOPPING!! But most of the expenses , Mum used my card to pay.. =( Mum say she'll return me those money soon . Let's hope she'll remember... Went over to Uncle's Ping house for dinner , Kor kor , Jie jie , Dennis Kor Kor and Ah jie was there too . After awhile they left , as they're going for dinner . Then Kor kor was showing me the action of singing , OHH!! They're going to sing and i cant go.. Aww..... =( Dennis Kor kor kept luring me out and asked me to get out of the house . But i cant laa , promised to have dinner together . I missed it this time.. URGH ~!! Left Uncle's Ping house around 10pm and i am so tired now.. Tmr is a long day for me , having rehearsal after school again . But i love rehearsal.. Yippess !! I should go and pack my bag after this entry . Monday bluessss.... =(

I took yesterday as the "IO-day" . I cried at night as my player plays those sad songs and all those nice memories flashed back . I wanna shout out your name , i wanna know why is it like that ? I think i know what you really want.. I knew it . I treated it as you were dead , but i just cant stop myself from thinking about it . Why do i always cry for you ? Why must you disappear the moment i need you ? Why cant everything go smoothly ? Why weren't you there for me when i needed you ? Nothing could be explained , only tears could soothe my heart ache . Everytime i tell myself to be strong and i can get over with it , but in the end i'm lying to myself . I dropped down to the lowest point my life everytime memories flashed back . I smile and told myself , it was all a fairytale . But my heart was shattering inside and it hurts so much . What is all this about ? Sighh.. And i still miss you alot . <3

"You brought me happiness and left me with sorrows . "

i could never find another like you.

2006-03-24T23:32:00.000+08:00

It's Saturday tmr ! *cheers* Am going to wake up at 8am , cause needa reach school by 9am . Today's Speech Day rehearsal was kinda dead , but i hope the next one will be better . Was once again assigned hall duty , for the past years i've been ushering in the hall . Hall is fun !! Mr Raj. spoke to me today , all thanks to that Chew LP . She wento complain about us , and so we have to get double . Bitch!! And thanks to some BTKs (bao toh kia), Mr Raj. also asked me about lotsa stuffs . To those BTKs , you all suck big time okay . Stop bothering about others and mind your own business laa . Maybe you're just jealous of the fun we have all the time . Fucking coward! Get a life alright!! Left school around 1530 and rushed home to get prepared and cabbed down to look for Godma . Had dinner at Sakura , with some others . Kang Wei was there , crapped a lot and sang alot . I got so tired after having the first round , wanted to doze off already . Sat down and rest for awhile , wanted to go for second round but was full already . So , went on chatting and singing with Kang Wei and did nothing . Godpa went too.. He asked me if i wanna go back to Haat Yai with him this coming June . wooo~~ Of course , I want to go with him ! GANBEH!!! Gotta tell him the news real soon.. Pink Lady , "my friend" and Haat yai.. Here i come !!! =) Mmmms , my eyelid hurts . I think is due to crying and rubbing it too much . Yesterday night , cried like hell and thought of so many stuffs . Everything that came across my mind just hurts and made my tears welled up my eyes . I just cant forget it and make myself not think about it . Sighh.. You made me mute and crazy , you made my heart numb and made me lost my way . I wonder , which side of the world are you at now ? I pray everyday just to know your presence and i shout out your name loudly everyday just to let you know , i'm still here for you . Please... I've had enough.. My heart cant take it any longer , my mind too . One day , everything will burst and it will lead to a misery . Goodnight. <3

My initial "W" .

Rotating it into an "M" is nice too..

Negative of the "W" is cool !

"You made me realised i'm nothing without you ."

my heart is crying.

2006-03-23T22:33:00.000+08:00

Tuition was cancelled today , of course i was so happy laa . Was actually napping till she message me and told me it was cancelled , den i was lazing on the bed and suddenly thought of cutting my hair . So wento prepare and got out to had my hair cut , and bought my new school shoes . Finally i got bought my school shoes , cause the older one is tearing and painful laa . Saw Godma too , wento look for her chatted awhile . Tmr is her birthday , shit ! I dont know what to get for her . Should be meeting her for dinner and i'm thinking of staying over at her house . But i'll need to bring all those barang barang over for school on Saturday . Ley Chey ahh.. Shall see how . Today i was late for school , okay i went for breakfast at macdonalds with some others . Then went back to school around 8:50am , saw Mrs Chang (VP) and still yaya talk to her like nothing . But nothing happen.. Then happily go for lesson . Ohh.. Wynny , you shouldn't do this anymore okay.. *nod head* That Chew LP never come today , i was happily singing and jumping around . Went down to do some homework with the others and was quite funny when CY crack some stupid thing . We linked up to a very long sentence and it was seriously funny . Leong's lesson was a disaster again , but i was reading the magazine and books she borrowed for us , so wasn't really listening to her . I love after school sooo much ! Had rehearsal with the fellow counsillors , trained them up for singing and they all did a good job . Keep it up , guys ! We sang the song with Aiman playing the flute , Justin Banana playing the piano and Alfian playing the guitar . Really nice ~ I love the guitar's tune so much .. Looking forward for Saturday's rehearsal.. Yipeess ! OM came to look for me after school and asked me about today's late coming . I was honest to tell him everything and he said no more next time . So Wynny , you heard it right ? =) He's nice laa , he's like a friend to me . Everytime he'll ask about my studies and other stuffs , chat alot and he's funny at times too . Mmmms.. Recently , Orh Chee Keong (Melvin Oh- i prefer calling him that..) isn't in really good mood . I dont know why , he seems worried , confused and sad . If i can see him tmr after school , den we shall have a good chat . Seeing my cousin so sad is weird laa , he's always disturbing me . And now , i'm the one disturbing and li siao-ing him . How weird laa..

My mood , better ? I guess so.. Maybe because i'm numb already ? Or is it because it's hopeless already ? I really dont know . I've seriously done what i could . I made you bleed and mad . How many million times have i told you not to do those stubborn things to hurt yourself ? You just dont get it in .. You think i'm happy when you're hurt ? I made you mad searching everywhere , but what's really in your mind ? Now what ? Everything is from bad to worst... Everyday i wake up hoping to spend it happily and not think about anything . But , what happens at night ? Everytime i look through those messages , my heart aches . Tears welled up my eyes .. Sighh.. My heart really hurts a lot.. You made me speechless , i dont know what else to say .For now , Goodnight.

"Hearing the voice of melancholy and fatigue . "

The warmth of your hand still linger around me.

2006-03-22T23:11:00.000+08:00

I'm anticipating for weekends !! But , yesterday i heard that i still needa go back on Saturday for the investiture rehearsal . Dang..~ Spoilt my weekends mood. Aww.. Still thinking that i wanna go for a swim to get back my tan . Nevermind.. Rehearsal isn't bad too , can play around with those fellow ones and get to know them well . But lets just hope that Mrs. Raja wont be there to see our rehearsal.. With her presence , the situation is kinda awkward and people tend to be very quiet . I dont know why.. But recently , I almost look for Mrs. Raja everyday just because of the rehearsal . This morning , wento look for almost all the teacher in charge of the counsillors to tell them those stuffs about the investiture . Tmr am having rehearsal after school again , make it a good one and maybe we wont have to go back on Saturday . =) Today school was tiring , maybe for the past few days it was tiring . Because Wynny cant get to sleep everyday , insomania ? I think so.. I toss and turn around on the bed till 4plus in the morning , then i get to sleep . Hell , I climbed up the bed around 11+ and toss and turn till 4plus .. It's quite disturbing . And yesterday , i was late for school with Chew . It's not because i woke up late , it was the bus timing . Fucking long laa.. Urgh~! Yesterday had rehearsal after school and received some messages , at least i got what i wanted to know . But , we still have to see what's the conclusion . As for today , things were same . Only that , i never receive any nonchalant messages . It is so confusing laa.. Anyhow , am thinking whether should i take part in this year's Dragon Boat Festival . Alfian was telling and asking me to join them and have fun together . Ohh.. We shall see how . I actually wanted to cut my hair today , but i overslept while napping . When i wake up , it's already 8pm . But i will go by this week.. Now , my form teacher is a liar . Serious! She's so ner ner ... She actually said that she wanna help the class pay $5 each for the class tee , today she say she's not paying because the $5 could be use to buy books . Narnia~ If she were to say earlier , then we could have confirmed everything earlier . If dont wanna pay , just say laa.. KNN~ The whole class was like so happy cause she was paying , now we all have to pay the full amount . Fine , we dont mind !! We shall prove to her that , even without her $5 we still can get the class tee done . She said that we , the chinese people are all against her . Hello , LEONG , you are the one against us laa . Today , She even say that Alfian is fat , cause he's in TAF . He's not fat at all okay ! Screw you , LEONG ! How can you say all that , didn't MOE teach you manners ? How did you actually nuture your children ? Teach them how to be bias , be unreasonable , lie to people and insult people ? What kinda form teacher are you ? Insulting your own students and saying all the bad things about them , you just suck laa . As she was preaching today , the whole class had their heads on the table and never listen to her . Just hate the way she talk to us . *plurghh* Drop that subject about her , it will just make my blood boil . Mmmms , things remained the same . I'm not in any good mood now . Goodnight people . <3

"I've done what i could do , the rest is up to you . "

I can see that you've taken root in my soul.

2006-03-20T23:03:00.000+08:00

Yesterday night , i didn't sleep well at all . I was just tossing and turning on my bed , my mind was already shut off but i just cant get to sleep . Around 4+ , i got to sleep and the feeling was just like shutting my eyes for a few seconds and my alarm rang . It's 6am.. Hell Shit! Was grumbling and groaning on the bed , but in the end still dragged myself up and prepared for school . Having a heavy heart , awaiting for some message . But to no avail , it was soo silent . Cheered myself up with chocolate cake this morning , it was nice .. The moment i stepped into the school , i told Chew that seeing the same old things is so bored . Nothing brightens up my day.. First thing , was grooming check .. Gransazers were all sent home , same to my cousin Melvin Oh . He was stupid enough to walk around when the school was having the grooming check , he was caught by the VP . How funny can he be... *shake head* Lessons were seriously bored , especially Mother Tongue . That Chew LP is so not nice , everything also our fault . There nothing we do that is right , looking at her face is so disturbing . Her chinese isn't good too.. Dont know how to pronouce words well . Hell ya , what kinda teacher is this ? KNN! Go lick my school shoe laa . *puke* But Physics lesson was fun , she didn't teach . So me and Bai was drawing behind and were making a fool behind . She drawed my initial on my hand , it was hell cool can . =) Anyhow , tmr am having tuition in the evening . I seriously need to take a nap before tuition starts , if not i'll doze off halfway . And i received some kinda heart-warming message today .. Was quite glad.. Mmmms , i guess i should stop here already . I wanna have a good sleep tonight . Goodnight readers. <3

Be there for me always , my dearest

"It can`t be , it probably isn`t , that`s what I believed . "

My heart is filled with your image and reflection.

2006-03-19T22:12:00.000+08:00

Annoucing Singapore's First Star Idol , BRYAN WONG !!!! *applause & fireworks* God!!! He won !!! He's cool .. Yeah !! =) Wynny hasn't been good today , she's slacking her day away . She only touch on one homework today , and she only wrote a few lines then that's it . She happily watched Full House and munched her chips away . *grins* As for maths homework , i'll do a few sums later . Am down with serious cramps today laa... Awww... So painful can . Stupid cramps..! Urgh! After this entry , i shall go and iron my uniform and skirt , if not tmr morning i'll be rushing like hell . And maybe i should pack my bag also.. Thinking about tmr is so empty , Social Studies is the first lesson , he's face just spoil my day . He's hair too.. Alien-ified. Then it is F&N , her naggings and voice make me sooo sick and tired . My day dont start well at all . Screw it ! Shall look forward for tmr morning , see if i receive any miraculous message or not . I really hope to received it . While watching Full House just now , i cried like nobody's business . The show is just soo touching and suits my mood . Yesterday , Edwin told me some stuffs about hanging around some places . It could be pretty scary .. I'm really scared yet hoping for something else . Sighh.. if nothing seems to change , den i think resting the problem will be the best . Maybe it's just another meal for him/her to consume and forget about it , nothing much what . Right not ,Wynny ? Happy moments dont last forever , memories do . Knowing it wont last , treasure it with your heart and cherish every single moment well . Dont wait till it's gone , then you start to search for it . It wont go back to you anymore , when it's gone , it'll never come back . You hear this , my dearest ? Tears seems to roll out so easily nowadays when emotion hits , tears also roll out easily when i see your reflection . Whatever i do , i think of you . My sky seems so dark , where's the rainbow ? Where is your candle to light up my dark and lonely cell ? Sigh.. Where are you? Shall stop here already.. Goodnight people . <3

tell me everything is true , my dearest .

"Why couldn`t I see you when you were right before my eyes ? "

the incomplete love

2006-03-18T23:42:00.000+08:00

I'm on hot boiling mood now . Just finished some shouting with my Mum , she's totally unreasonable . Fucking unreasonable! Cant stand the way she think and talk , her midset just suck big time . Whatever~ Today's BBQ at Sembawang Park was a total fucked up one . The park rangers said i didn't book it . Fuck you! I booked it and your company still called over and told me it's approved okay .

A-P-P-R-O-V-E-D !

KNN~!! Then they said someone booked the pit already and we have to leave or so.. Ya , i know we have to leave . But still , i kp to the park ranger before i leave . Hell ya ! Screw Sembawang Park's Board and fuck you park rangers !! But back up plan was to go Jason's house for BBQ , wasnt that bad . But on the way to his house , i was just making noise in the car and was so angry laa . Urgh ~!! BBQ started , it was fun . Then had some gossiping session and stuffs . There were lotsa stars above , Dennis kor kor den told me some stars story . Reached home around 11+ and i was tired laa , my eyes still hurts alot . Mmms , Met Mond Mond today to get some stuffs . Oh.. I'm bored !! Tmr will have to chiong for my homework . I think my freaking bro is working at gay pub now . He's working as a bartender and he didn't tell me where , so i told people he worked at gay pub . =) Anyhow , i got pissed off very easily today . PMS ? i guess so.. Ohh and today is Kim Long's birthday . Happy birthday !! Steal more stirers for me .. *evil grins*

Crying for you , seems to be a everyday thing .
Worrying and thinking of you makes my tears flow out uncontrollably .
Viewing through those text messages , brings back so much memories .
All those messages you sent in were seriously sweet and heart warming .
But all i could give you was silience , i got the urge to tell you so many things everytime .
But , there's just something stopping me .
All i could do is to wait , and go on waiting .
Where are you now ?
How have you been ?
How are your injuries ?
I always asked myself so many questions about you , my heart hurts a lot .
Without you , my life seems quiet and lonely .
Nobody to cheer me up when i'm sad .
Nobody to listen to my grumbles when i'm unhappy .
Nobody to wake me up in the morning for school ,
and nobody to call me and accompany me through the lonely night .
I miss you alot .
My dearest , i really miss you a lot . =(

"I want to die peacefully on that bed of roses . "

Love is really fragile.

2006-03-17T22:45:00.000+08:00

Touching my eyes softly is so painful . My eyes are painful , swollen , watery and red . I didn't know yesterday night's weeping could cause swollen eyes today . =( Woke up at 6:30 today and prepared for remedial , during remedial my eyes hurts and i was feeling really tired . During remedial , Haffiz was sitting infront of me , so i kept disturbing him and he kept laughing . After remedial , headed home , bathed and slept till 12:15pm and prepared for tuition . After tuition , prepared to go out to meet those few for movie in town . Was having MVC , darn painful laa . Took two panadols to ease the pain , but still having slight cramps . Stupid cramps ! And I bought new grey lenses and it was really uncomfortable , i dont know why but i guess it's my swollen eyes . Reached Orchard , and it was kinda bored . Bought the tickets for Your , Mine , Ours . It was a nice show , i made a fool in the cinema too . There's this part where the guy got promoted or so , he's whole team was clapping and being stupid , i dont know why i clapped with them . Then I laughed like hell and it was seriously embarassing laa . Headed home after the movie , my mood was down . Going home so early from town is so awkward laa . But we have so little people , cant do much . On my way home , am really feeling lonely and depressed . Wished that there's actually someone by my side that i could talk to . Mmmms.. Tmr am having BBQ at Sembawang Park with cousins . Messaged Mond Mond in the noon and he told me Zouk was fun last night . Aww... Sad laa . But... He promised to bring me there next time . =) Damn it ! My eyes is really painful . Urgh !! Dang... I gotta go rest now . I've got so much to tell my dearest . =( Goodnight world. <3

aint he cute ? his daddy brought him to style his hair . =)

"Hold my hand tight and never let go . "

maybe one day , i'll fall for you.

2006-03-16T23:36:00.001+08:00

My night is seriously ruin laa !! Urgh !! Didn't go to Zouk for ROMP cause last minute , Titus had something important to attend to . When he called and told me that , i was grumbling and making lotsa noise . Aww.. Nevermind . He said he's gonne pay back soon . So i'm looking forward to the next meeting . =) Yesterday , my night was a disaster too . Anyhoo , i woke up late for maths remedial this morning . So i rushed like hell and cabbed to school , wasted my money . Narbei! Received some unholy message and my eyes hurts .. Maths remedial was quite okay , Melvin Chan was having international meeting under the table , ZQ kp alot and i always have to punch him to make him shut up , Jon's calculator loves to show "error" , Nasri loves to throw those rubber dust around anyhow , Haffiz kept bio-ing his girl and i kept looking around , draw stupid things on the book , but i did pay attention . Our class was much better than the others , i seriously admit it . I was sooo hungry during lesson time , but after lesson i wasn't that hungry anymore . Weird , i know . Wento Mcdonalds with the whole lot and slacked there for awhile . Something stupid happened when i followed Heng to develop her photo . Okay , that stupid thing was done by me and i was so excited and worried . But it was just for awhile.. Headed home , bath and wento sleep till 3pm , Mum woke me up cause i'm going over to Uncle Mic's place to help him out . It was fun helping him there , "Happy Fishy" . It was seriously hot inside . Bth~ Left around 9plus , Dad drove me home and i was telling him about some bills stuffs and money matters . I'm going to get a new contact lens soon , i am really going to get it . My vision ain't that clear already , kinda blur and misty . Will be heading to town tmr noon with Gransazers and others . As for my mood , i guess it is still the same . I wanna go to Esplanade tmr . I wanna let everything dissolve in the sea . I wanna let the wind blow away my sorrows . I dont know what else to say anymore.. Goodnight people . <3

I miss you ; my dearest

"I can`t see the radiance in your heart anymore . "

come and take me away with you tonight.

2006-03-15T22:06:00.000+08:00

Oh.. Shitty ! I woke up this morning with a serious backache . I aches like fuck and it made me have to walk slowly and do things slowly today . Urgh ! So i actually packed my dressing table and study table , and i cleared lotsa unwanted stuffs and useless things . Decorated my notice-board and walls with lotsa photos . I came out with this idea , cause i wanna know that when i'm sad , i could just look at those pictures where i smiled radiantly and looked at those pictures which have lotsa nice memories . And the other reason for putting up those photos is , at least i know that they all will be with me when i need them . =) I took lotsa time to paste up those pictures and figure out where to put those pictures . Adding on , my backache really sucks . After awhile , i have to sit down and rest or lie down on my bed . The feeling is really shitty .. *plurgghh* I only had 1 slice of small kueh lapis and that's it . Lazy to eat and i think i'm going on a hunger strike now . Anyhow , my mood is still unstable . I think today was worst , i on-ed my handphone when i woke up and i leave it as i wento bath . Went i came out , i saw 2 messaged received and i quickly open and read . Tears rolled down uncontrollably and my heart was really painful . Called Edwin and told him , cause this current problem , he know it best . Sighh.. but messages didn't stop coming in . Everything was so confuse , unpredictable and heart - breaking . =( Every moment , i'm thinking about lotsa stuffs , my mind was flood with lotsa questions and memories . I miss it alot... I really do .. I felt sad for that person , it's like he lost another part of his life and searching it high and low for it . Thinking , what actually happen ? How come things suddenly became this way ? Hoping he will find it one day , but i guess... it wont go back to him anymore . This is a very crucial stage , a small message could change everything . We all dont know how the other side is doing and what is the other side thinking about . I've got lotsa uncleared doubts , i've left many things unknown and undone . Yesterday night was as usual , whine on my bed and thought of lotsa stuffs . Sighh.. I think tonight , i'll be sleeping with my tissue box beside me again . =( Needa wake up early for remedial tmr . Goodnight people .. I miss you. <3

"My tears will dry up one day , i cant cry for you all the time . "

you appeared in my dreams last night.

2006-03-14T23:34:00.000+08:00

Wynny ain't in any good mood . I'll update about outing today in a few days time . Wynny is sick and tired.. My mood was quite okay in the morning and in the noon , but as the sun sets and the sky turned grey , I dropped down to the lowest point of my life . I struggled to smile and made others less worried , but how long can it last ? The previous night wasn't spent well too , was snivelling under the blanket and reminiscing about the good old days . It was so hurting... Am feeble and baffled now , what should i do next ? Will i regret after every action? What will this cause ? Is my next move right ? Can everything be solved and forgotten in a nice way ? I asked myself loads and loads of questions , but i get none . My mind twirled like a maze and my eyes hurts like hell . Aww.. ain't in any mood to type any longer . Will blog when i'm in a better mood . Am gonna off my handphone tonight , i dont wanna weep in the middle of my sleep . I rather weep tmr , when i wake up . Goodnight!

14th March 2006 ; i miss you ...

"Never to turn back on your miserable path . "

the secret lies within you.

2006-03-13T23:43:00.000+08:00

I just watched Campus's result . Hell shit ! Yu Yang is out laa.. =( He's peformance today wasn't bad what.. Aww... *sob sob* Anyhoo , my Dad was back yesterday evening. Wento the airport with Mum around 5:30pm and i saw Boyboy(uncle KH's little boy) . He's so brave and funny laa . He saw Uncle KH inside waiting for his luggage , he ran inside to the luggage belt area and the police didn't notice it . haha . Then the crowd was like "wow.. look at the little boy.." And after awhile , 3 police uncles escorted him out like some big shot . haha . When he walked out , he wasn't afraid at all . He ran straight to me and hugged me . haha . I haven't seen him for years can.. hee` After the airport , we headed to Uncle Ping's house . Dad bought red wine , CHIVAS and Tequilla . How nice of him.. Took the bottle of red wine up to Uncle Ping's house . I saw Samantha , Shermaine , Sebast , Han Han and Kai Kai . All those kiddos whom always stick around with me.. haha . Had dinner with all those kiddos and was quite funny in the kitchen . haha . I so love them.. Ah Long kor kor was bad and ner ner-ish . We were chatting , then suddenly , he stood up and asked me "wanna go beat tiger?" I gave a question mark face and then asked him again, "beat tiger? where??" He answered "you very slow ehh.. outside lo.. haha.." Hell... I looked at him and he took out his cigarrete box from his pocket and waved it to me . Shitty him! I rolled my eyes at him and whispered "NARBEI" to him . haha . He's so bad laa.. Left around 11plus and i was dead tired . Quickly bathed and went up to my cosy bed then i visited lala land . =) Mum is changing phone soon , so am i . But i'm using my own salary to buy the new handphone . Meaning , i cant buy my digital camera . =( But at the moment i dont know what model to get . haha . If i cant come out with a decision , then i think i wont be having a handphone . haha . I mean it! Tmr am going to ESCAPE with Gransazers , Da jie , Pk , Chew and Heng . Then after that , will be slacking in Grans chalet . wooohoo~ They're all having fun there .. I wanna go there soon . haha . But tmr i needa wake up hell ya early , at 9am . Cause am meeting Chew and Heng then head down to Pasir Ris together . Edwin demanded me to reach there before 11:15am , if not he'll....................... haha . Better keep it a secret , if not it will ruin his reputation . wahaha` About my last entry , my primary school life , i really missed it so much . I wanna go back to those air-conditioned containers classroom to have lesson and play around . I also wanna hide behind the door always and open the door for teachers . haha . In my last entry , i forgot to mention Mr. Teo . He's a training teacher and he came to take us for lesson . haha . Will talk about it more some other time . Some of my close primary school friends will know what kinda trouble i always gave him . haha . Do check out for that entry ya.. =) Ohh , i've switced my online photo gallery back to my old one(mypicgallery) , multiply is just too laggy . And in my old gallery , i've updated those photos which was previously in multiply and some old photos were in too . So do check it out often eh.. Lastly , i'm gonna change my blog url soon and my blogskin(i know it's time to change. hee`) . Am thinking of my new url now , help me!! Tag my board and tell me alright... haha . Gotta stop here . Goodnight readers. <3

"Tell me you're that special someone . "

searching for memories.

2006-03-10T22:55:00.000+08:00

Reminiscing the good ole times in primary school were nice , young and dangerous . haha . Playing basketball after school is a must , playing around during chinese lesson is also a must . Seeing police uncles patrolling around the basketball court wasn't scary , playing a few shots with those uncles were retarded . Having the residents to complain to the school about us being noisy and naughty were like everyday's meals . Lastly , imitating teacher's action in the exam hall is also a must do . haha . Seeing those EM3(s) good friend fight and talked loudly in the canteen was irritating . Getting along well with EM3(s) friends were fun too.. They aren't those big bad bully afterall , they're friendly and have lotsa cranky ideas . Greeting the disipline master with a neat 90 degrees bow and a loud "good morning" was fantastic and cool . Having high socks , long skirt , canvas white shoes and heavy school bags were kinda cool that time , i reckon . Not bringing handphones to school , not being late for school , not pon-ing lessons , singing school's song and national anthem loudly were seriously the most deadly things . It's a good piece of shit afterall , you were actually tamed in your primary school . And when you step into the new world of secondary school's life , you were like a endangered animal which was just let out of the cage . You wanted to try so many new things , for example..

-ankle socks
-empty school bags
-shutting your mouth and not sing the national anthem or school song
-design your with school shoes with the coolest drawings
-messaging in class with your phone placed on the table and not hiding under the table
-hearing your message tone or ringtone rang up suddenly during lesson time
-talking on the phone with your friends during lesson time
-thinking of ways to avoid grooming check
-see ah lians and ah bengs settle problems outside school
-seeing people fighting in the toilets , canteen or outside
-first time ever seeing your classmate smoke in the toilet
-climbing over toilet cubicles
-throwing up wet toilet papers up to the ceilings and when those aunties nagged , you acted like you didn't know anything
-walked out of the classroom like it's your room whenever you want
-crush your homework , throw it into the dustbin and not having any regrets
-disturb the teachers , play prank on them
-locking up the classroom's door and not let the teacher in
-cheating during test or eating during exams.
-charging handphone in the classroom
-hiding handphones in the OHP
-being nasty to the drink stall aunty when she charged you extra 10cents for another cup of ice.
-roam around in the classroom block at night when you're having a camp

and the lists go on... that's all i can remember and what i've done before , i know there still loads more things i done before but at this moment i cant remember much . haha . ohhh.. I seriously miss my primary school days alright . I think i'll then.. Ohh yupps , i wento visit Andrew on Wednesday and he could hear me talking to him . He's tears rolled out too , but he didn't open his eyes . Let's just pray that he'll recover soon.. =) Goodnight everyone . <3

knowing your presence wont last forever.

2006-03-10T16:33:00.000+08:00

I just finished my tuition and my teacher bought me Ah Lian's CD ( Chen Wei Lian) . How nice of her.. haha . Actually last few weeks i was asking her if she could lend me the disc , as her son bought it . She said okay , then today she bought it for me . haha . When tution starts , she passed me the album and blah blah blah .. when tuition ended , she said the CD was for me . She bought it for me as a present . haha . woohooo~ But there's a deal behind laa , as usual , study hard , pass all subjects with flying colours , go to Sec 5 and stay happy . =) Am listening to the album now . How nice... weehee` Thanks a lot! Will be going out soon to OPSS to look for Godma and co. then we'll be having dinner together and i dont know what are the further plans . Waiting for Titus's call also . Latest update , GANBEH called me last night . Around 12+ , after i offline . I was reading some letters then the room's phone rang . I jumped up and answered it and i heard GANBEH'S voice . haha . We chatted for around 45mins and he's darn funny laa , he told me stuffs about his shop and some recent happenings . He told me stuffs about Pink Lady and said Pink Lady have got new features and new dancers . Pink Lady is a pub located somewhere near to his shop , and we always go there to slack , we knew quite a lot of dancers and people there too . The music , lighting and dancers were awesome and the crowd were stunning too.. I just love Pink Lady laa.. But too bad , i cant go there so often . I must take a plane over.. haha . Gotta go bath and prepare alreadyy.. Update later..

Things i wanna get soon :

-shimmer glimmer

-ice princess's stuffs

-"my lovely" notebook

dont act like a pathetic fcuker please..

2006-03-09T23:14:00.000+08:00

I didn't go school today.. haha . Mum approve to it . Yesterday , on the way back home , she asked me if i wanna go school the next day , i told her i'm still thinking . Then she told me , "dont wanto go then dont go lor.. last few days already , nothing much one laa. " I nodded and rejoiced.. haha . Yesterday , reached home , bath and went out to meet Da jie , Alex , Jon , Melvin and others then head down to Orchard . But Melvin was late , all thanks to his new contact lens . haha . So we all waited for him ay Yishun's platform and i saw Ah Di . haha . Was actually talking to Da jie , den when i turned around , i saw Ah Di . Shocked sia.. haha . Chatted with him and he kept asking me , am i happy , excited or whatever shit . haha . Ner ner ... He was going to the Cantonment , Cantoment or whatever-ment . haha . Anyhow , wento Far East for lunch and bought Edwin's present . After awhile , i left for TTSH . Around 7pm , Mum and i left TTSH and headed to Khatib for supermarket-ing . Nice laa .. I bought lotsa stuffs , cause holidays are near and i know i'll be lazy to go out and get food. But another point , i'll be lazy to cook myself even i'm at home . haha . It was 8:50pm after supermarket-ing , i quickly rushed Mum to drive faster as i wanna watch 9pm show . haha . But when i reach home and on the teevee , it just started . =) Slept till 1+ today , prepared and went back to school to return Progress Card with Chew . Had lunch in school then headed home , Chew came to my house and slack.. Till around 8:20pm , we left and wento meet Gransazers to celebrate Edwin's BIRD-day . haha . It was hell fun laa.. Was trying very hard to hide the cake , then i passed to Elwin , he was making a fool and we're exposed . haha . Sang birthday song along some roadside and had loads of fun . haha . While lighting up the cake in the shop , there's this little girl wanting to see the cake badly . She kept asking her Dad if she could see the cake , upon hearing this . I turned behind and show her the cake and talked to her . She was darn cute laa , she asked whose birthday issit and actually wanted to wish the birthday boy . But too bad , her mother brought her to the 7-11 to get some stuffs and we left . haha . She's really cute and sweett.. hee` As usual we walked into some ulu places , and i really like it a lot . On the way inside , we were chatting , making a fool , crapping and hell laughing . haha . I really love the way we bond together and have fun . haha . =) And my Dad messaged me when i'm eating just now , i thought which kind soul messaged me . haha . He was just asking where am i and others stuffs . Was messaging with Boy too and our content were really funny and crappy laa . haha . I'm not going to school tmr also . haha . Will be having tuition tmr noon , thinking of it make me sleepy . *oppps* My Satuday is free.. Anyone ?? Drinking , Supper , Towning ?? Buzz my cell alright , if not text me a message ya . haha . I'm tired already.. Goodnight people . <3

HAPPY 16TH BIRTHDAY EDWIN / NEH NEH !!

"Attention ? Is that all i want ? "

haven i pay enough attention to you ?

2006-03-07T22:29:00.000+08:00

My Dad is flying off tmr again , this time to China . He'll be flying off early in the morning , i wanted to go and send him off . (so that i can skip school..hee`) But he said , it's too early and i cant wake up . haha . And i dont know when he'll be back cause i forgot if i've asked him before , so in order not be get scolded . I shan't ask.. haha . Actually i didn't wanna go to school today , but i remembered i needa hand in the Chemistry Project to Ah Tan . So i dragged myself outta that cosy bed of mine and wento school . I was almost late , i was so scared and worried can . I dont wanna stay back for those stupid and fucking detentions class . So Chew and me quicken our steps and finally we reached school and we're not late. haha . *phew~~* Lessons were boring as usual . Chinese lesson was so sucky .. Ewww.. Assembly was very bored , it was Mrs Chang's talk . She told us stories which almost make me stepped into lala land . Rushed home after school , bath and.... SLEEEEEPPP !!!! haha . The feeling is really nice . wwooolaalaa~ Slept till 6:25 , woked up and prepared for tuition . I didn't have dinner today , cause the rice look kinda mouldy . haha . So i ate coconut slices and it's really nice.. My Dad bought it from K.L , really nice . haha . I just told my Mum i'm not going to school on Friday and she agreed to it . But she says , i needa go down to the hospital that day . Yes , i will go down . Because i wanna visit Andrew too... I really hope he'll be concious soon , and smile like he always do . =) Tmr is soooo boreddd.. I guess i'll rush back home to sleep again . Ehhh.. No no ! I must go visit Andrew. Right !! Anyhoo , when my Dad return from China .. I shall pester him to

- get a new fan in my room
- new dressing table
- bring me to watch Disney On Ice( i know it's impossible. haha.. )
OR
- get me a new cell =)

Alright ... I just remembered , i'll be getting my Progress Card tmr . Bless me okayy.. I want the holidays to come soon . I want to go Sentosa .. I wanna take a ride on motorbikes . I want Andrew to recover soon . I dont want to wake up so early in the morning and miss my bed so much . I dont want to hate my cell so much , but i got to . I dont want to hate my form teacher , but she made us hate her . I dont want to go blind with my expired contact lens , but i'm lazyy and moohlaahh-less to get a new pair . Even if i've moohlahhs , i'll be lazy to get it . haha . I'm tired already . My mind is shutting down soon.. Goodnight readers. <3

"Can i still see you , if tomorrow never comes ? "

till now , i still dont understand.

2006-03-06T22:08:00.000+08:00

I'm suppose to do my maths homework actually , but am waiting for the correction liquid to be dry . So i came up to update .. haha . I think the correctiong liquid will take half an hours to be dry .. haha . Anyhow , i did see Kenneth and Lil' Trina on Sunday morning for breakfast . I didn't really sleep well as I was sleeping with Godma on the bed cause Godpa wasnt at home . But the bed was so hard and the pillow was hard too.. I regrettd for not pulling the "ti-lam" over that night , if i did so .. i wont have to toss and turn on the hard bed . haha . Okay , Kenneth was funny . He actually kinda forgot me .. Ner ner . Who is the one whom always talk to you about your digimons , pokemons , bey-fking-blade and power rangers ? Who always smuggle Vitagen or Yakult for you ? Who always pat you to sleep ? haha . You better remember okayyy .. haha . Yesterday Godma , Mum , Wj and Me wento the hospital around evening time . On the way to the hospital , my Mum start to wail , complain , whine and sigh to my Godma saying how sad and miserable her life is . And she said we , as her children , dont even wanto help her with the house chores . Hello Mrs Oh , for godsake .. your oh-so precious son isn't working and he fucking sleeps all day , stuck in front of the computer , glue his eyes onto the teevee and eat like a hungry ghost all day long . Why cant he help you do the chores ? I know you'll say that i'm comparing , i'm a girl and when i'm married next time and blah blah blah.. Narbei!! She also complained to Godma about my social circle . She just fucking judge a book by it's cover . Cannot like that okay ?! Hell ya.. She said that , i became rebellious when my Dad is not in Singapore . And hello Mrs Oh , I only wento to Godma's house to stay ,you also agreed to it YOURSELF!! What is there to be rebellious about ? So when your son dont come back home , he isn't rebellious laa . Shitty ! And so throughout that 30minutes of journey , she was complaining to my Godma . And i kept quiet , because Godma was there and she's trying to help me too . Heck laaa.. While she's talking , i was nodding my head and giving lotsa funny faces . She cant see my funny faces unless she look into the rear view mirror . *poo-poo* While having dinner at the hospital , i was queuing up to help 6th aunt buy some dessert . Then this small little girl and aunty wanted to cut into the queue , so i stared at both of them and the auntie saw it . So she said : "sor li ah . " And she pulled her daughter away , then i smiled at them . Then the queue was fucking long and their service sucks . When it's my turn , i told them what i wanted and that auntie said : "oh.. no more or lae ly. " What the hell ?! I stomped off angrily and make noise to my Godma . *hhhrrmmppffff* Left the hospital and wento fetch my Dad , ohhh... waited for so longg laa . When i reached home , i was dead tired already . Quickly compile that Chemistry project thingy and wento sleepp... I love my bed so much laa . Serious okayy.. After sleeping on Godma's bed , i realise how nice and cosy my bed is . haha . Godpa was back yesterday night too and i heard that his luggage was overloaded and needa pay extra cash . haha . I hope there's lotsa finger-lickin' stuffs in there . hee` I was reluctant to wake up for school today , i know laa.. since when Wynny is reluctant to wake up for school right ? haha . I dragged myself up cause i needa pass up the Chemistry project today . Ya laa , that Ah Tan never come .. So i cant pass to him . Stupid FlatTop ! haha . I am so lethargic today laa , almost doze off . Was wearing this Yellow Ribbon and it was fun . haha . Had lunch and came back home to sleepp .. And i just got a shocking and heart-breaking news .. My cousin , Andrew is in the ICU at TTSH now . He actually mixed Ecstasy with some unknown alcohol and he went high . And went those Ecstasy(s) run out , he'll go and buy cough syrup and gulp it down . So the night before , he was drunk and 4th Aunt dragged him home . Unknowingly , he went out of the house and jumped down from the 5th floor . Fuck you , Andrew ~!! Now , he's backbone was seriously hurt and hard to recover , his rib- cage and lungs were damaged badly . 4th Aunt was terribly upset and depressed .. Although i aint that close to Andrew , i seldom see him that much . But during gatherings we did talked and crapped together before . I pray hard that , he'll be concious soon and recover soon . Will visit him on Wednesday , wanted to go tmr but am having tuition . Ohh.. Andrew . You better be well , and turn over a new leaf alright.. =) I gotta go and sleep for now . I can hear my hear calling for me .. Goodnight people . <3

"I still dont understand why does tears still roll down my cheeks in the night . "

the grumbles of a little woman.

2006-03-04T22:47:00.000+08:00

Am currently at Godma's house now . Godpa isn't around , HE WENT BACK TO HAAT YAI !!!! How sad.. He never bring me along . I guess he'll sure meet GANBEH there , i've got stuffs to pass to GANBEH too . Urgh !! Nevermind , Godpa better remember to get me some nice and finger lickin' stuffs back . haha . My Godpa is nice laa . Last december , when we went back to Haat yai , i was craving for beef sticks . As he know i love beef sticks from young , so he actually wento check out at the shopping mall under our hotel to see if they sell it . But they dont . Then Godpa , took a tuktuk down to a further shopping mall to get it for me . How sweet of him laa .. hee... Wento watch Big Momma's House just now with Gransazers and Da jie , it was nice and effin' funny . But a little like The Pacifier.. haha . but still , must watch it !! Ate Macdonalds for dinner and i saw my Lao Da . He's still so cool and handsome laa . haha . When i turn back and saw him , i was like a little children wailing for their parents . haha . My Lao Da is the best okayy.. He always asked me if i've got any probs in school , about my school work and other stuffs . haha . Was messaging with Boy on the way to Godma's house , and i forgot what we talked about . But it was something funny too.. haha . I'm thinking of buying a hamster or a puppy , but i know Mum wont stop nagging . She say , if i've got a hamster .. i wont dare to touch it or play with it . Cause last time i've a few too , then i din dare to touch them . haha . And they gave birth to loads of hammies which was a disaster . haha . And for puppy , if i were to put it at my back balcony , i'm scared it might start chewing up those plants . haha . Mum said , it would turn the whole house upside down . Awww... I guess i'll just have to perish those thoughts of having a hamster or a puppy . =( But Melvin Chan is getting a hamster for his project , but it wont be so soon . But i'm trying to persuade him to get those hamsters earlier .. haha . A very irritating and disturbing news , my freaking brother stopped working already . Because he's preparing for his poly life . How stupid ! It's still long.. If he never work , it means i couldn't have the room to my self . I cant use the computer for long as he'll make noise and ask me to let him use it . He's sucha ass wipe . Urgh!! Anyway , i really hope to see Kenneth and Lil' Trina tmr for breakfast . =) I gotta stop here already . Goodnight readers . <3

"when she tells you she's scared , you better buzz her cell and keep her company . "

you're only lonely.

2006-03-04T17:19:00.000+08:00

My Dad left last night .. =( I'm so shock and sad .. I din know he's leaving so soon , i thought he's leaving only on Tuesday . But anyhoo , he'll be back on Sunday . Yesterday school was fun , i reckon . On they way to school , Boy called me and we chatted all the way till i reach school . Then he was actually telling me those stupid school life of his , and he also ask me lotsa stuffs which i dont know . And he said that , i know nuts . Stupid old man ! But i argued till i win laa , expected . =x But it's still nice of him to call me in the early morning .. haha . Mr Trevor din turn up for lesson as he's got something important on . Chemistry was at the lab , and we had no lessons . There's this part where Edwin and Andy was talking , then I misunderstand their topic . They were actually talking about some disgsting things , but i thought it in another way and made a fool outta it . haha . I actually love my class 4A2 loadss . We're planning to get a class t-shirt but the problem is they cant decide on the colour . Quite fucked up . But we're gonna settle it asap . Rushed home after school for tuition , tuition was kinda tiring cause i din take nap . So i was counting down every moment . haha . After tuiton , bathe and wento sleep . Ohh... How nice .. =) Wanted to go for a drink with Mr Titus , Sherr Jie Jie and others , but yesterday i was kinda tired . My eyebags were heavy and my eyes could close anytime . So i din go but i promised to be there the next time .. haha . Today , Saturday , was freaking bored laa . I woked up at around 1:30pm , did nothing but stared blankly out to my balcony , waiting for someone to buzz my cell and ask me out . Am going over to Godma's house later but before that , am going to watch Big Momma's House at Sun Plaza with Gransazers and Da jie . I'll be staying over at Godma's house tonight , so i can meet my cranky Kenneth and lil' Trina tmr morning . haha . I miss them so much laa~ ! This week , i dont think i'll be meeting Boy . As you see , he've been sleeping from yesterday morning after we hung up till now , he's still sleeping . We actually promised to meet up soon but.. haha . Nevermind . I should start editing my coursework soon , if not i'll sure do badly . Stupid coursework , fuck it !! Ohh yuppps , who wanna bring me ro watch Disney On Ice ?? haha . But sadly , i dont think i will be free that March holiday . I guess , i have to miss it laa . We shall wait for next year's Disney On Ice . haha . I shall go and prepare now . Some shout outs before i go ..

Mister Etic : hey , you should know how much i miss you right ? we're both so far apart , (he's at jb and i'm at spore. =D ) but you always text me a message and brighten up my day . maybe it's because we do not have that much of age gap and we share almost the same character, thinking , attitude and playful-ness . haha . everytime people could spot us playing a fool at the backyard , we crapped like nobody's business and you always know how to cheer me up . i guess we'll have to meet on next year's new year already . lastly , as my cousin , you rock my socks !! haha .

Seith : you're at Australlia now , and i miss your at-night-sing-along-session and prank calls . haha . you always prank call me when you know it's time we have to meet . you always have new ideas to prank call me , and i'm always so stupid to be punk'd by you . your at-night-sing-along-session rocks ! i guess you're having a good time over there , but dont forget me alright ? remember our deal ? you'd better remember , if not i'll smash your head into the toilet bowl . haha . And thanks for the flowers on Vday , you're really nice and sweet . Do you still remember how we met ? haha . It was totally funny and stupid , we should just keep to ourselves okayy . Take care and stay cool . =)

Sherr Jie jie : Woman !!! I miss you ... despite flying around all the time , you never forget to text me messages , e-mail me to ask me to take care or tell me how much you miss me . haha . you always asked Titus to take care of me and being nice , he always do it . how i wish i could fly around with you too , to accompany you while you're alone in those unfamiliar countries . but i guess , that will be a few decades later . haha . and thanks for your advices everytime , you're really nice . love you loadss! <3

Titus : thanks for always smuggling me out in the night . haha . i know it's all crapp .. but , you always helped me and gave me suprises . your non- stop chocolate supply , idiotic prank calls , funny emails and uncool act always surprised me . we always have stupid ideas like , having a duck rice eating compettiton when the rice sucks big time . and having this sisters love , when you acted like my big sister . haha . when i'm really down , you were always there to cheer me up and give me advice . you and Sherr Jie jie really brighten up my life and you two really rocks . lastly , THANK YOU !!

Xiao Bomb : sighh.. you've left us for one year plus already . i do miss you alot .. i miss the times we went fishing in a whole big group , the times when you help me with my art works , the times you reminded me about some small important stuffs and giving me your full support in everything i do . you always never dissapoint me in everything you do , but the greatest dissapointment you gave me was to end your life in such a stupid way . you always told me not to give up till end . but what now ? sigghh.. i always think of you when i look at the photos , cards and gifts you gave me . those photos were still nicely placed on my dressing table , reminiscing the good ole times were really nice . i will never forget the last thing you told me the night before you leave this world . "wyn , if you've got new friends you cannot forget me ." never will i forget you , xiao bomb . i miss you dearly..

"you still don't get the whole picture right. "

you'd better be well.

2006-03-02T21:38:00.000+08:00

Everything is fine now , i guess . I received that miraculous call this afternoon while taking my nap . =) Was actually suppose to go down to TTSH today , but i overslept so i missed visiting aunt again . Should go down this weekend , i promise . My Dad is flying off next tuesday , I'm not happy at all . Mum is not flying with him and they both almost turned the whole house upside down just to search for that particular fucking green bag . And she went into my room and make a whole fuss about my gifts , flowers , bears and cards i placed on my table . She start fuming around and threatened that she would throw away everything on the table . By all means , do it Mum . I'm daring her , so what . It's not like i never place those things nicely , i placed it nicely and arrange everything nicely can . KNN~!! Just because of the stupid fucking green bag . Screw it ! They dont even care if my freaking brother treats the house as a hotel . If he's happy he can check in and stay for a few days , if not , he'll check out and spend the night and his gay friends house . And my parents just keep their mouth shut like they've got thousands of towels stuck in their mouth . How stupid is it ! Urgh !! Anyway , tmr is Qin Yu's birthday . I dont know what to get for her , but i guess i'll get her something memorable . Just now had a conversation with Ah Di and we talked about parent's mindset . We used tv screen as example and when he told me the LCD and plasma thingy . I was laughing my ass out laa . haha . What the hell .. And Chuan is leaving for China tmr , and he'll be flying around oh-so often laa . I also wanna join him . I asked him , if i could squeeze into his lugguage . haha . My Saturday is so empty now ... Someone buzz my cell and ask me out on Saturday! My cash drawer is empty already , i think i should go withdraw money soon . Aww.. I dont feel like using my account's money . =( I'm getting tired again . Goodnight people . <3

"I left a place for you in my heart . "

if i can see you again.

2006-03-01T22:32:00.000+08:00

Screw MSN just now for corking up . Fuck it ! Anyway , today's Cross Country was okay . Went back to school to help Mr Tong then we took a van down and had lotsa fun in the van . When we reached Macritche(whatever the spelling is) unload those stuffs and wento switch duty with the counsillors . Was doing the recording of positions for lower secondary students with Mdm Rahimah . Wasnt that bad . But upper secondary rocks more , i told everyone whom i know that they did a great job . =) My cousin , Mister Melvin Oh ran despite having a half recovered leg and my sister sprained his leg while running . After finishing calculating the marks , ran over to Mr Raj. and cheered for the others . And my class guys , Gransazers , ran in together in a straight line . How funny can they be ? And after the whole Cross Country have ended , Chew , Heng , Me and Gransazers wento Thomson Plaza to have our meals . Ling Ling (Su Ling , Alex's Sister) joined us too , she's like a little sister to us . Our gang was quite big at the food court as A1's guys were with us too . Left Thomson Plaza around 12:30pm , and everyone took 980 back . In the bus , we were all deciding where to go . We've got lotsa choices like , Sembawang Park , swimming , cycling , ESCAPE , sentosa , play pool and the list carry on.. But in the end they went pooling and the girls went home to sleep . I slept from around 1pm till 6plus . My room was quite warm , i wanted to on the air-con . But i know i'll get it from Dad for on-ing the air-con in the noon . I'm gonna complain to Dad and ask him get a newer fan , as my current fan dont blow up to my bed . It blew below , on the lower bed . I will ask him to get a new fan for me , i dont care . As i sleep , i kept dreaming and waking up . I felt that my dreams were so real , but when i opened my eyes . I found out , it was just a dream . I snivelled again on my bed , and i really felt so hurt . Sigghh... Watch Teman Anugerah just now and wept again . I still haven receive that miraculous call . I still haven got any news to please my heart . One day have already passed and nothing have been updated . As time passed by , i'm getting worrier and worrier . Nothing could explain my feelings now.. It lingers around my mind every moment and i couldn't stop worrying and thinking about it . Tommorow aint a good day too , unless i receive that miraculous call later tonight . If not , my mood will still be the same . I dont look forward to night time as everytime it became a jarring halt . =( Goodnight people . <3

"I want to dream of you tonight again . "

wipe away all my tears.

2006-02-28T21:59:00.000+08:00

Tmr will be Cross Country day , i'm not looking forward to it anymore . Today's Science paper equals to a piece of dead shit . Am helping Mr Tong tmr during the run and needa report to school at 7am . Haven got any plans where to go after Cross Country tmr , if there's no programme i guess i'll head home and sleep . Was actually in normal mood today , those usual hyper and funny mood . But when i was taking my nap in the noon today , around 4pm Boy called me and I missed that call as i thought it was my alarm clock . But i called back , and he told me some very shocking and dog - worrying stuffs . And i started crying and crying , then some messages came in , my tears gushed out like a river . I quickly phoned Chew , but she din answer as she was busy , so i phoned Edwin and told him those stuffs . I guess he dont really understand what i say as i'm crying and talking at the same time . I am really sad , heart-broken , speechless and dead worried . Sighh.. What is the solution to solve the problem ? I dont know. What more can i do ? I dont know too .. Should anything happen ? I hope nothing will happen . I could only wait for that call and pray for miracle . =( My mood went super low and i had tuition today , was trying very hard not to think about it . But it disturbed me a lot.. After tuition , watched tv and started crying again . Then Mum and Dad came home , i wiped away my tears and wento wash my face . I'm seriously worried and sad , every moment i look at my handphone or think about it , my tears roll out . I really hope that everything will be fine , and nothing will happen . Sighh.. My eyes are really pain now , i really wish to have a good rest . Goodnight world. <3

"All i want is to have you by my side . "

set your heart a place..

2006-02-27T22:43:00.000+08:00

Am currently blogging at 6th aunt house , using Jason's laptop . I dont think i'm gonna go home early today as my Mum just sat down to play mahjong with my uncles . And i'm having Science exam tmr , but i'm not studying . Fucking enjoying life now uh , Wynny . But i will at least read through a little later . haha . Today i had my Maths and Geo-fking-graphy paper , Maths paper wasn't that bad . But taking Geo paper was a total disaster , the paper was 45minutes but i practically used around 5mins or maybe make it nicer , 10minutes to finish the paper . With loads of craps and i spend the remaining "useful" time to do stupid things , and rest . Yesterday wento Partyworld with Kor kor , Jie jie , Dennis Kor Kor , Jie Jie(2) , Fishy , Hua Ge and Jason . It was darn fun laa... Sang lotsa songs and we're all so high . Dennis Kor kor and me always do sign language when it's not our turn to sing , we'll make the whole mtv into sing language and laughed like some assholes . haha . Din know he knew so many funny actions .. haha . We ended the session by singing "Wo Hai Neng Ai Shui" , the atmosphere was darn darn cool . I was standing on the sofa and waving my hand like i'm at a concert . haha . We must meet up soon for more singing. haha . Just booked the barbeque pit on 18th March'06 for our family gathering . woopeedoopeedoo~~!!! Currenly am watching "Full House" korean drama , it's so nice laa . Rain so oh-so effin' cute can . I'm mad about that show !! *screams & shouts* Wednesday will be our school's cross country day . yippess !! And this morning was messaging with Boy till i start my Maths paper and we argued about some funny dates for a very long time . But in the end , I WON !! expected laa .. =x haha . He was trying very hard to win me , but too bad . haha . Then just now we were talking about contact lens , and another deal was made , we'll see who gets infection first . haha . I'm getting my new contact lens like so soon laa . Ner ner .. Loser to buy chocolate . Dont care !! hee` Good news !! My dad will be flying over to China next week for a few days , maybe 4 days . I'm not sure . Then after coming back to rest for a 2 days , he'll be flying to M'sia again . Mum is deciding whether to follow him or not , so i'm persuading Mum to fly around with him . Enjoy laa , right ? haha . wooohoo~ Late late towning , late late supper , late late drinking session and late late partayee . Anyone ?? haha . Okay , i guess i gotta stop crapping already . Shall go and read up on my Science and go into my beauty sleep. Goodnight all. <3

"Your alluring smile captivates my heart."

the way you broke my heart and walked away.

2006-02-25T23:53:00.000+08:00

I'm back from Godma's house already . Took a nap and Mum called Godma to go support her for her peformance tonight . So Godma woked me up and we wento Sembawang CC to suport Mum . Saw Aunty Tan , she's the woman whom i always call for at the childcare everytime when it's bathing time . haha . I'll shout " Aunty , pom pom !!" and she'll say "take your clothes , which shampoo you want ? tasmanian devil one or tweety bird ? " haha . I missed her so much laa , she's still so cool and steady . haha . Boy was at Yishun just now , but i was at the CC . So we din meet again , it's so rare for him to come Yishun . Aww... We always missed it . Anyhoo , am supposed to stay at Godma's house tonight cause i wanna meet lil Kenneth and lil Trina tmr . But , tmr am studying with Gransazers in the noon . Just now i saw this long lost partner of mine , lots of memories came back and i kept quiet and reminisced . Saw Sabun too , he was smoking outside 7-11 with his friends . Was chatting with Mond Mond just now and he's such a ner ner laa . We argued about this particular topic , then we talked about morning jog , lastly he told me some contract when i'm 20years old . He better mean it . I'm gonna count on him . haha . And I wanna go ROMP @ ZOUK this 16 March , Mr. Titus and Sherr jie jie told me about it , they're asking if i wanna go with them . I want I want !!! But the final decision always lies on my Mum.. Sighh.. Okay , i needa tell me dearest that , " i really dont know what's up in your mind , please get everything done soon . i'm sure you dont wanna have negative outcome. =) you rock ! " i gotta go sleep now . Ohh yupps , do check out my photo album . =) I'm really tired . Goodnight world* <3

"This time , i waved goodbye and sweared never to turn back . "

crushed love.

2006-02-25T13:23:00.000+08:00

Am currently at Godma's house now , because this morning i went to school for math's remedial . And i thought it's been a long time i last seen Godpa , so came over to pay a visit . How nice of me right ? i know .. =) Woked up so unwillingly and my head hurts like hell .. Met Gransazers at Mac and had breakfast , wento school together in a big gang . haha . Maths remedial was fun , Mrs Wee gave us worksheet to do ourselves then did and listened to mp3 and other stuffs . haha . After remedial wento play at the see-saw behind the canteen , so fun ! We all were like little children playing there . haha . Yesterday went kbox , then wento drink with my dad and his friends . It was darn fun.. Had Chivas and Tequilla , played some funny dice game too . Reached home almost 5 already , bathed and wento sleep . Was messaging with Boy too and he always tell me the same thing . I mean sometimes old people are like that and we cant blame them right ? haha . Should I go ?! Urghh!!! I'm so confuse laa... =( Recently , i kept telling Mum that my future husband were those whom own a aeroplane , then we'll take the plane to like Shanghai for dinner , or say stay in New Zealand for the weekends and stuffs . And my husband's house is as big as 2 soccer field and have swimming pool , garden or maybe a small playroom . haha . Mum asked me to go to sleep and dream about it . haha . I know laa , it's like a wont-come-true and uselees thinking . haha . But it's cool laa . hee` It's a Saturday today and i'm at Godma's house feeling so alone . I wanto go out , enjoy , zhou siao and feel the breeze . But i guess , in the end i'll be studying for my Maths test on Monday . How sad.. *sob-sob* Okay , update laterr .

"You squashed my heart like a squashed tomato."

if the rain could take all my sorrows away..

2006-02-23T22:47:00.000+08:00

For that last few days , poor Wynny has been seriously sick and tired . Screw Pizza Hut or Breadtalk . I was up with fucking food poisoning , so i either lie on the bed or rush to the toilet . Gransazers all got it too ~ Sighh.. But i was recuperating at 8th aunt house , with Jie jie . So for the two days of recuperation , Tuesday and Wednesday . Jie jie took care of me , cooked porridge and macaroni for me and reminded me to take medicine . haha . So nice of her.. *hugggiess* Visit the clinic and the doctor banned me from eating oily food , spicy food and dairy products for one week =( how sadd.. Anyway , was watching SCV most of the time and everytime i'll fall asleep , Jie jie's bed is so comfortable . Wooo~~ On the second day , went out with Jie jie to have lunch and Northpoint . But my lunch looked so plain , some soup thingy . Am craving for CADBURY chocolate , KFC , vanilla puffs , spicy cutlet , hello panda biscuit, and loads more . Urgh ~!!!! But am trying very hard to make a deal with Dad to buy me chocolate when i'm fully recovered . haha . Anyhoo , Monday was funny . Gransazers were all having tummy ache , of course chew , heng and me got it too . Then during F & N lesson , a few of them rushed for toilet . So we all start to discuss about how those bowels come out , the spluttering sound and by walking down the stairs make your bowels wanto burst out too(according to Jon) .. haha . Shant elaborate any further , or else you people might throw up . But we all had lotsa disgusting and stupid ideas . haha . And Monday night , my fever was freaking 38.8 degrees . I wailed for my parents and they gave me KOOL FEVER . That shit dont work laa... Ner ner . Am still experiencing a little tummy aches now and then , but i'm strong . haha . Okay , we all know that Wynny is crapping . haha . I had CADBURY chocalate today !! Woopeedooo~~ So nicee... And no wonder i still rush for toilet . haha . Okay , shall stop here alreadyy . Goodnight all . <3

"when you say nothing at all . "

letters to you

2006-02-19T23:43:00.000+08:00

To my dearest ,

i dont know what else to say now . at times you light my life and made my day , but at times you spoilt my day and hurt me so much .. i really wonder is everything true ? or is it just a lie ? i do hope everything will go fine. you might feel nothing now , but there's something happening . you know ? i know you care , but is that the way you care for me ? as days passed by , things are getting lesser and lesser . one day , we might end up having nothing to say . and it will lead to a misery.. please...

Love,
Wynny

you always smile at me and took my heart away .

2006-02-17T23:21:00.000+08:00

Wynny didn't go to school today as she experienced cramps and headache . Rested and woke up around 10+ , used the computer and went out around 2pm to meet Gransazers at Yishun MRT station . Wento Orchard to get Jon's present and walked around.. The moment we reach Somerset , Alex reminded me something.. How nice of him .. Called Rene and went so high acting like a tai tai . haha . We bought shirt and boxers for Jon.. Saw LEVIS watch and EVERLAST watch . So ROSEY , start saving okay ? haha . Crapped around a lot and it's really fun . Took photos too , really nice . haha . 7 person squezzing in one machine , making a hell inside . haha . Will upload soon.. Rushed to the hospital around 7:40pm , as visiting time is over at 8pm . I reached the hospital , den went for dinner with Mum . As usual , i had my dinner only , for the whole day i either drink water or eat sweets . Took bus back with Mum and talked alot , but i just quarelled with my mum as she lost her marbles and start shouting . Boy wento Admiralty today , while i'm at Orchard . So we din meet up again ...Anyway , i'll be buying new contact lens soon . I wore my current contact lens for more than a month , i guess is one month two and a half weeks . XW also the same , so we'll see who gets infection first . haha . Tmr am going over to 8th aunt house to see 7th aunt , then i guess will be going to the hospital again . I'm tired already . Goodnight all ! <3

"i pray hard that whatever you say to me is true . "

leave silently.

2006-02-16T21:55:00.000+08:00

Now , i so hate my freaking brother . Okay , he actually strike TOTO . But its was just a few hundred dollars .. Now my dad found out that his few hundred dollars was almost finishing . Hell yaa.. He fucking spend the few hundred dollars away in just a few days . Then today when my dad called back and asked him , he raised his voice at my dad . IDIOTIC ASSHOLE! I so hate him laa .. Urgh !! Anyway , school were okay last few days . At times i was deep in thoughts and at times i was crappy and had stupid actions . Recently my dad kept saying that i'm naughty and bad , but i din do anything wrong . So i always shout around the house saying : "wynny rocks ! you stone ah . mummy ruby ah . i'm not naughty... neither am i bad . ohh father , please forgive all my wrongdoings . " And i became so drama , but my dad woke me up from my drama dreams by saying : "go and sleep before you dream , dont dream when you're not even sleeping . silly girl . " *shattering sound* my dreams were shattered .. Aww.. stop it . It's too over , Wynny . haha . Tmr is FRIDAY ! I so love Friday , as i could sleep my ass off during the weekends . But tmr after school , am going out with the GRANSAZERS to get Jon's present . We're celebrating his birthday this Sunday .. =) I just found out , i din have my dinner for 2 days already . So i only ate during break and lunch , i'm not hungry at all . haha . And i admit i'm lazy to have my meals , i will stop halfway while eating and push my plate away . Then being nice , Chew and Yeokling will feed me . hee` Okay , i guess i gotta stop here already . I heard my bed calling for me already ! Goodnight world ! <3

"I always see you in my dreams , but can we meet in reality ? "

always loving the way you smile .

2006-02-14T21:44:00.000+08:00

Oh.. after this post i'll seriously go up to my bed . I'm dog tired . Was almost late for school today , cause i took my own sweet time in the morning to dry my hair . But in the end , my hair wasn't dried at all cause i was day dreaming.. How stupid right ? Saw Sister and Vincent on the way to school , then Vincent called Chew over and left me and Sister . So i saw this box of thing on Sister's hand . I thought it was cake , and i was thinking , oh maybe it's one of his brother's birthday . Then Sister passed that box to me and asked me to keep it . I was like stunt , stent , stone laa . I kept saying the same old thing and of course Sister replied the same old thing . I accepted in the end , and i really appreciate it alot alot . Sister , you rocks ! =) He seriously rocks .. Mmmms , school as usual but today we were all talking about what to do after school . As for those whom is attached , we never count them in . So all the singles gathered and discuss.. During Maths lesson , the class kept asking Mrs Wee about her marriage life and so she only get to go through a few questions . My class is so co-operative .. Assembly , i got high and start to shout and scream like mad . PE teachers is so cool can . wooo~ Kor kor and Hua ge played a prank on me . I mean they really cheered me up . They messaged me and asked me if i received their flowers , cause they said they sent a flower to me and it's on the way to my school . Then they ask me to wait and the delivery man will sent the flower to my school very soon . Hell load of shit ! haha . But they are still nice .. =) Rushed home straight after school , and went out to meet Edwin , Nicholas , Chew and Andy . All of us were single except for Nic . Saw Kim Long at the station , he kept asking me to intro girls to her . Ner ner .. Had fun on the way to Marina Square . Marina Sqaure is sooo big laa . Still remember last year , one of my long related cousin got married at Marina Mandarin . And me and my other cousin were wearing gown , so we walked through the crowded Marina Square . It was seriously so pai seh laa .. Went to the Esplanade's roof top . On the way there , my mood wasnt really good . Now , they all see the confuse side of Wynny . Nic kept telling me not to be sad . Edwin kept giving me advices and asking me not to cry . I din cry .. Mmmms , looked for Jane too , chatted awhile with her and went to look for the rest . The scenery at the rooftop is still so nice . Saw lotsa couples there and saw this guy whom is trying very hard to take out the rose from the plastic bag . He was shoo-ing away the plastic bag at his back . Darn sweet laa .. I was seriously in a dilema at that time . Edwin starts to analyse my situation , Chew helped me reply messages while Andy and Nic kept asking me to cheer up . They were so nice.. hee` Left around 7+ and was rushing over to TTSH , reached there wento visit Aunt and rested for awhile . Reached home around 9:30pm , and i received two bouquets of flowers . It was placed outside my doorstep.. It was from Hazi and Seith , Seith was in Australia . So he actually called back to Singapore to ask his friend sent the flowers over . And Hazi was my neighbour last time , he's now staying at Emerald Condo . How sweet of them . =) Couldn't take the picture of the flowers as my Dad took the camera out already . Mum din question me at all , she just said :"wahh.. give me one leh . i dont have leh.. share share laa . " Ner ner .. Dad said :"your presents a lot huh.. " . I'm having tuition tomorrow !!!!!! How sad .. I dont want ! I wanna sleep .. I wanna slepp !! Okay , gotta stop here already . Some pictures below ~ Goodnight ! Happy Valentine's Day all !! <3

take a picture before opening it ..

take a look , what's inside the box .

the one and only "Princess" cap ..

my favourite Mickey and Minnie mouse . hee`

crown bracelet . woohoo~

lastly , a box of rocher . =)

"Walk with me through the dark , will you ?"

i wrote my love on your hand .

2006-02-13T23:03:00.000+08:00

The radiant smile , cheeky laughter and stupid actions are starting to disappear from Wynny's life . Valentine's day is tomorrow.. so what ? I dont find Valentine's day any special now . I find it rather a hard day to get over with . I'm thinking of going to a quiet place alone , but i'm afraid of being alone . Rubbish~ Woke up so reluctantly this morning , and my mood was dead . My eyes were painful . I was staring blindly into the air , looking depress . I hardly smile , my mind was twirling . When reaching the last period , my heart was thumping faster and faster . I dont know why too . Most of the people's answer were "Yes.." While mine was a half yes and no . I start to lose my marbles and start whimping . After school , rushed home then rest for awhile and went out to meet mum again . Ate dinner are 6th aunt house and we took the van there , the van was cool . Reached TTSH and something came into my mind .. I still remember seeing a LDA(lion dance association) guy on Saturday . Then mum was saying " hospital also got lion dance ah ? " What the hell ? So i replied "He's a LDA people laa . come here visit his brothers or family cannot mehs ? " So mum and i start to talk about LDA stuffs and some other shit . I'm use to calling them LDA people . =) Was messaging with Boy all along and dinner wasnt nice . I din eat as i'm sick of the hospital food . So i only had one meal today.. Yesterday night wasnt nice too . When i was listening to the radio and trying to sleep , the station played sad love songs . So i cried and cried , thinking about those stuffs just hurts me so much . When i so wanto rest my mind and heart , shits happens . Sighh.. I need to get some sleep now . Goodnight all . <3

"As the clock strikes twelve tonight , i wished for roses . "

sometimes , smiling seems so hard .

2006-02-12T22:39:00.000+08:00

Shall do my maths homework after typing this post , i reckon . Wento Godma's house and PSP is sooo fun !! I so love playing with Bobby's (shall start calling him Alan) PSP . It rocks laa .. Rene's hair was funny , looked like she took a bike without wearing helmet . My mood when down at some times , i meant SUPER DOWN . Lotsa things start to raced through my mind and i kept very quiet . Sighh... This moment when i stand up , i have a good and positive answer . The next moment i sit down , i got a very cruel and negative answer . What the fuck is all this ? Wento look for Kor kor at 6th aunt house , they are all looking through flowers for Valentine's day . Hell ya.. Those flowers are so nice laa . How i wish...Urgh ! Nabey ~ Should have ask them to get one for me on my birthday last year . Nevermind .. Giving me this year , isnt too late also . Jie jie then asked me , have i been crying everyday . I smiled at her and asked her why . She told me , " can see so clearly , i always know if you cry or not . your eyes always show it out . " Mmms , Cried yesterday night as my player plays "Yuan yuan ai zhe ni" . Tears flowed like water tap during the chorus . Sighh.. This morning woke up around 11+ , bath and went out to the hospital with Mum . When i was in the car , i then remember Monday is just tomorrow . Fucking fast laa .. So , i start to think and think about it . My conclusion was a mess.. Was messaging wth Boy , but whatever way he tried to cheer me with dont work . The answer mostly seems negative .. When we reach TTSH , went to see Aunt and i cried bitterly as Uncle Ping told her lotsa touching stuffs . Now , i get the feeling of seeing your love ones lying down there and you cant do anything . =( Wento 8th aunt house to see how the guys were doing as they bought Ferrero Rocher and wrapped like a bouquet for their love ones . Hua ge then told me : " if you get flowers that day , rent it to me can ? if she dont accept i pay you 50% , if she do i pay you full price . " So i told him : "must see if got people give me flowers a not laa . but people give it to me then i sell to you , very bad leh . No no.. cannot . I'll keep the flowers . " The Rocher were nice laa . Went back to the hospital with Dennis kor kor around 7+ and left around 9+ . I seriously gonna break down soon . I dont eat well , i always have those food which harms the gastric . Tomorrow ... My Monday . What will it be like ? Should i cry my Sunday night away? Or cry my Valentine's day away ? I know you people will say " why so stupid , keep crying ? dont cry laaa .. " But... Sighh .. I do hope for a miracle . I seriously do . The feeling isnt good when you are crapping and laughing , while your heart is tearing . My heart is painful , so painful . Let's pray that tomorrow will be a better day for me . Wynny , Please ... I know it's hard . But stay strong ..

"Why say you love me , when everything isn't true ? "

say "i love you" , and mean it .

2006-02-11T00:17:00.000+08:00

Wynny is in total depression state . She isn't stable in her mood and thinking . What the hell is happenning ? Sighh.. At times i'm sad , tired and stressed up . My mind is in a total mess . I cant think anymore , it might explode anytime . Everything just happen on the same time and I couldn't take it . Crying alone is all i do in the night , and the next morning when i wake up i'll try my best to tell myself it's a better day . But deep down in my heart , it's tearing , struggling and crying out loud . I smile to people , but my heart is crying inside . I crapped around as usual , but my heart is struggling . Why the fuck is everything happening now ? I dont get it . Why ? I always ask myself . Can everything come to an end ? I want my mind to take a good rest.. Monday is coming up so soon and things are still in a mess . You always told me the same thing , but what was the conclusion ? Tears or Joy ? You tell me .. I always told you what i hoped for , but you always can get it or you always forgot about it . How ? Do you feel what i feel ? I hope so.. I seriously hope so . =( Tears are much easier to flow out recently as emotions hits . Valentine's day is coming and i'm not looking forward to it . Some guys are preparing flowers , gift , planning where to go , where to have a romantic dinner and other stuffs . While for some fortunate girls , they're waiting for that day to come and receive presents . I'm here crying almost every night . Valentine's day ? It might just be another day i spend sleeping at home . I seriously pray to God that things will change for the better . I wanna sleep already . My heart aches , it's so painful . Heal me , can you ? Good Night .

" I can`t go on anymore if you weren't waiting for me at the ending point . "

do you even know if i'm dead ? i really wonder..

2006-02-10T23:24:00.000+08:00

I apologise for not updating the last few days . As i'm really busy and tired out . And i aint in any good mood from Wednesday till now . Anyway , Monday i was late for school . Reached Sembwawang at 7:20am then Chew and me went for breakfast together at Mac . It was fun laa . Ate for around 1 hr , saw Jia Yuan there . Had detention after school and was quite fun . Went for check up too.. Tuesday , was catching a movie with Chew . And i got a call saying Aunt was in the hospital . Wento visit her after the movie and saw lotsa familiar faces . My cousins.. Kor kor brought me in to see Aunt and i cried and cried . And while watching movie , i cried too . We watched I Not Stupid Too . It was so sad.. I wanto watch it again !! Went for dinner with Jie jie , kor kor , Dennis kor kor , Jason and Hua ge . Reached home around 1+ , bath and wento sleep . Am dead beat . Wednesday , woke up late and Mum drove me to school . After school , rushed home , bath then went out to the hospital again . Ah long kor kor was funny laa . He always make joke outta the blue.. Ate dinner with them , then sent Jane home . I was so sad on the way back .. Kor kor's car passed by a very familiar place at Orchard , behind Somerset MRT . Aw.... Tears was on the verge of flowing out . Reached home , messaged with Boy and i wento sleep . Yesterday.. My heart wasnt with my the whole day . I was lost , waiting for miracle , looking at my phone almost after every minute . But i end up with.. Nothing . Nothing.. All i had was tears and sorrows in the night , i cried like there's no tomorrow and my heart really aches . Chew , Yeok Ling and me wento buy some stuffs after school and we saw this two sec one girls . They always love to walk pass my class and look at the guys then start to point point at them . It's so disturbing . You can actually hear their comments and they tried to flirt around with Gransazers . Gross~ So we were laughing about something and they stared at us . Chew was clearing her throat and one of them said "kao pei.." Very good . She's fucking finding troubles for herself.. Chew went into 7-11 to look for them . While they two girls push the blames around.. What kinda friend they both have . Shitty..We left after staring at them.. They look so scared and innocent . Went back to school and the girl apologise to us . Ner ner~ The two girls were really fucked up and they're seducing chinese male counsillors . Watch out guys .. haha . Had welcoming tea for Sec. 2 counsillors too , played water activites and i got so wet and so cold . Reached home , bath and wento sleep from 7+ till this morning . This shows that , i'm seriously tired and needs a lot of sleep . Today , i was still the same . Everything i did today wasnt with a full heart , my souls linger around everywhere and i dont even know what i'm thinking about . Wento the hospital today with that freaking bro of mine . He got his O' levels result today .. He did well and he wants to study Banking stuffs at Ngee Ann . Heck him . Tmr am going over to Godma's house for gathering . I'm not having any mood.. Sighh . Should i be normal , hyper active or the present me . Sad , tired and stress up . Shall see tmr .. If i were to cry infront of you , dont be shock . My heart do aches and it's really tearing up . I'm tired now . Good night ..

"You always love to play hide and seek with me when i needed you most . "

now that you are gone.

2006-02-05T22:41:00.000+08:00

Actually was suppose to have soccer game with Titus and his friends today , at 8am . But i overslept and woke up at 10am . wahahah~ Titus din call me up , he only message me and told me next week there's one more game . haha . Sorry Titus .. =) So i watched tv , practice my dance and then i received a call from Kim Long . He asked me to meet him for brunch and he called Ah Di along too . Met up with them around 11:30am , ate at BLK 769 . They were talking about their secondary school life and stuffs . Went off around 1pm and wento meet Gransazers at Yishun MRT station . Everyone reached and they wento eat BK and after BK we head to Chew's house . Played card , and keep singing songs there . "live" concert ! haha . Left around 5pm and the guys wento play at the playground and they were having loads of fun . haha . Darn funny .. Walked to Northpoint and took bus home with Jon , it was drizzling and i thought of some unhappy things . =( Then i received Boy's message , how nice of him . haha . So he cheered me up and lalala` Received a call from Seith too .. He's leaving today to Australia . Ohh.. I will miss you Seith . Do call me often okay . =) Boy told me he's going to Sembawang MRT to meet his friends , but too bad .. I'm already at home . So din get the chance to meet him.. Mmmms , i haven finish my homework and i must do it later . I must !! I'm havinng serious pain on my appendix side again . When i sleep , turn , laugh or walk , it really hurts . Should i go to the doctor tmr ? or should i wait for a few days more to see how the pain goes.. We shall see how . I gonna stop here already . My mood aint good now . Gnight all . Loving you all.. <3

"I trade all my yesterdays for one single tomorrow just to see you again . "

i want to dance on the bed of roses.

2006-02-04T12:28:00.000+08:00

ESCAPE was fun !! woohoo~! Went out to meet them around 10:30am at Yishun MRT station . People present were , Alex , Andy , Edwin , Melvin , Jonathan , Elwin , Chew and Heng . Crap a lot in the train and when we reach ESCAPE it was drizzling . But we still bought the tix and went in.. The first station we went was Haunted House , fugging scary laa . Two freaking human ghost scaring you.. Melvin was very brave , when the human ghost raise his hand up , Melvin shoo~ his hand off . haha . Melvin , Alex , Chew , Heng and me were in one group and throughout the walk inside , i was just screaming and screaming . haha . Darn scaryy laa ... Waaa~!! Second staion was Pirate Ship , darn fun laa . We screamed like hell again and did stupid things . But the person in-charge of that game was a total bitch . She talk to us in a very unhappy tone . KNN !! Thrid station was Wet and Wild .. woohoo~ Sat with Chew and Melvin was brave to sit alone . haha . I was so wet laa.. But it was really fun . hee` Got down and was so cold .. Brr~~ Jon decided to take another time , so we ran in to take another time again . haha . The second time wasnt that scaryy. haha . After that , we wento the toilet to dry ourselves and the auntie was irritating laa . Urgh ! Fourth station , Heng , Chew and Me wento take the Pirate Ship again , while the guys wento queue for Go-Cart . haha . We get to play the Pirate Ship and the guys din get to play theirs . Cos , when they are queuing , it start to drizzle . haha . Went for lunch and after lunch was Yakult Ride .. I so love it . Have been pestering them to take that ride the moment we step into ESCAPE . haha . They say , it was like a 6 years old taking that ride .. Narnia ~ But it was fun okay .. Elwin was beside me and he got hell loads of crapp . haha . We both wear slippers and scared that it might fly out somehow . So we kiap-ed tightly and laughed like mad.. haha . It start to rain again and we decide to go to the Haunted House again . This time all of us went in together. haha . Darn funny laa . Wasnt scary at all.. Jon kept scaring Elwin and they both made a fool inside . haha . After Haunted House , we wento Flipper . Nicee ~~ Spining around and shouting out like mad . haha . But it lasted for awhile only . That was our last game of the day and i left with Alex , Jon , Chew and Melvin . My leg hurts , i guess i sprained it while sliding on the floor . haha . Messaged with Boy all the way till i reached home and after bathing , went out with Dad to his friend's house . Ate dinner there and played with Nigel .. hee` When i'm leaving , Nigel came to hug me . haha . So sweeet ~ Am going over to Chew's house tmr , everyone is going too . haha . Shall sleep soon .. Mmmms , just hung up the phone with Boy and he answer the call and said , "this is the singtel telecom anouncement service... blah blah blah .." What the ?! haha . Then we talked about some stupid and funny stuffs , he's an old man laa . haha . Ner ner~ But it was fun talking to him on the phone when he tells you about those stories and funny things . haha . It's been hard on him this few days till CNY end , as he reach home late , sleep late and wake up very early . So , thousands of reminder to ask him drink more water to prevent dehydration . And i got thousands of reminder from him too , for lotsa things . haha . Okay , i gotta go to sleep already . Boy said he'll call me later , let's just pray that i'm not asleep . haha . G'night all . Love you all . <3

Jane and Wynny

Wynny and Chew . we're so wet..

"You gave me warmth when i'm cold . You cheer me up when i'm down . "

showering me with your love

2006-02-03T13:26:00.000+08:00

I'm so so tired now.. But am waiting for something , so shall blog to kill time . Mmmms , i just got back from a dinner at Paya Lebar . Kor kor and Jie jie (cousin-in-law) went too , we sat together and we had loads to talk about . Then Jie jie peel the prawns for me and in return , i accompany her to the ladies . haha . Am so excited about the baby in her stomach , HAEGEN HO CHEN JUN . weehee` Anyhoo , yesterday i reached home around 3am . fucking late and tired . Because yesterday i skipped school to finish up my coursework , and i went back to hand up my coursework in the noon . Then Mum drove me to 8th aunt house , we slacked there and decided to stay for dinner . While 8th aunt prepare the dinner , Mum and me went to 2nd uncle (dad's side) to visit him . I saw raynerd , shaun and hazel there . I so miss raynerd laa . He's also leaving for Dubai that night . So we sat awhile and they left to the airport .. Ohh.. how sad .. Raynerd will be back 2 years later . =( Mister Guan looks better in home clothes and that messy hair after bath . haha . Went back to 8th aunt house for dinner and crapped with kor kor and jie jie then went up to watch scv . Dennis kor kor and jiejie (kor's sister) came back and we all got so high again . hee` We watch a concert then Dennis was doing acne mask then we sang , dance and jump like nobody's business . Whilst , Mum , 8th uncle and Winson played mahjong downstairs and Winson just came back from England . woo~ I was quite tired around 1 am but the concert was getting higher , so we dance and crap around and the whole house can hear my laughter . Because Dennis kept making stupid faces and he forgot he is doing the acne mask .. haha . Reached home , bath and climb up to my bed , I then received a message from Boy so messaged for awhile and i fell asleep . Woke up around 6am today , i fucking sleep for 2hours plus only . So reluctant to go to school , but i still drag myself up . School was okay today , i kept thinking about last Friday . I go around telling people that we'll have CNY celebration and stuffs . haha . I so miss last week can.. =( Ah tan din come today , and Edwin suddenly thought of going to ESCAPE tmr . So sudden ~! But we wento ask around and it's confirm that we're going tmr . haha . Geog lesson was like a laughing session for chew and me , as before we entered the class we saw some sec ones doing some stupid actions . Then chew and i kept imitating and then we laughed . haha . Sidek even ask , what are we laughing about . haha . I dont bother to tell him anything , so i act as i never heard him . After school , ate with Gransazers and went home . Bath and sleep till dinner.. Woohoo~ I'm going to ESCAPE tmr ! weeehee` I haven pack my stuffs for tmr.. hee` Am so tired now.. Aww... I'm starting to miss my cousins again . And yesterday was Mister Etic's birthday . Happy birthday Etic ! you rock my world even when you're 80 years old . =pPp Tmr is also my cousin's birthday . Happy Birthday Mister Melvin Oh Zhi Xiong ! dont get rape again by other guys okay ? haha . wahaha ! Recently , i'm pestering Dad to buy me new digi cam . I want those very slim ones so that i can bring it around with me . Easier . Disney on Ice is so nice right ? I wanna watch !! Shall pester people to bring me there.. haha . Okay , i think i shant go on anymore . Gnight world ! love you all.. <3

"You will always search for me when i'm lost , and you always wipe away my tears when i cry . "

parting is the hardest thing to do .

2006-02-01T23:57:00.000+08:00

I'm back !!! How sad.. =( I miss everyone there . I seriously had a very very good time there .. Aww... am such a wimp now . Yupps , shall share my good times with you all now . On Sunday , which is the first day of CNY , mum woke me up arboud 9+ and i regretted for not sleeping early the previous night . hee` So , prepared and wore my new clothes . weee` Wento Rene's house for the reunion and was quite fun . They wanted to play poker when i was about to leave for m'sia . haha . Anyhoo , first stop in m'sia was K. pilah , big aunt's house . It was a freaking 5 hours long journey , i was listening to songs , sleeping or looking out for cows or kampung chickens along the road . haha . Reached K. pilah around 5:30pm and the moment i stepped into big aunt's house , i saw ah girl , yao yao and all . But someone was missing , guess who ? Yeah .. it's Mister Etic . haha . He's at the new house resting , but i called him and he came over . I so miss him can . When we saw each other , it was funny . We started the conversation like ,

*taps on Wynny's shoulder*
Wynny: "ehh.. its you ! "
Etic : "Yeah.. me !"
*BIG HUG !*

haha . Envy the cousin-love between us ? haha . Talk a lot with him , even during dinner time we were still talking . We've got lots to catch up . Mister Heng arrived around 7+ then it was great ! Mister Etic , Mister Heng and Me ! We 3 got loads to share and laugh about.. haha . Etic told me he wento print a shirt and i so love it . The back was printed " Lonely Prince" , and the front was he's chinese name . How cool ! Drank a few cans of beer and it was already 10pm . Am not staying at big aunt's house this year , cause her leg is injured . So it's time to leave big aunt's house .. How sad . Etic told me , most probably he'll be at Melacca for the BIG reunion dinner . (He din turn up in the end , as he's parents is going somewhere else. ) Parted sadly with them and went my Dad's car drove ahead , i kept looking back and waved at them . Tears all cloted around my eyes.. =( It's been a year i last met Mister Etic and Mister Heng , i guess the next meeting will be one year later too .. Headed down to Bahau , 3rd uncle's house . Saw so many little cousins , but i din really play with them as i was dead beat alreadyy . That's all for the day , it was a very fun and happy one . How i wish i could stay at Big aunt's house that day .. Mmmms , i love them =)

Monday - 30.01.2006 (second day of CNY)

I forgot who woke my up , but i was stung by a few idiotic mosquitoes . Ate breakfast then went out with 6th aunt , Mum , Dad , 3rd Uncle , 3rd aunt and Little Tina . We went to 7th aunt place in Kermayang . Reached there , talk crap with Ah Boy and left to have my hair-do with Mum and 6th aunt . haha . I so love the new hair-do . Went back to 3rd uncle's house , packed my stuffs and we left to Melacca with Uncle Ping's family and Kuan Sis . hee` I so love the journey down to Melacca . It's my favourite place of all ! wahaha` Xuan was with me in the car and we were crapping behind and she's sucha freezer . Kept bombing me with those cold questions . haha . Reached Melacca around 9:30pm and the moment i got down the car , i saw QI ZHI !! , ENEN and ZHAN ZHAN playing outside . I ran over , Qi zhi ran over to me and *BIG HUG* haha . I so love him !! Then Qi zhi said my hands were cold , because the car was really cold . haha . En En hugged me too , then Zhan Zhan patted his two palms on both my cheeks said "Happy New Year ! " haha . Dont you love them too ? hee` Went in to greet 2nd uncle and aunt , and others . Played fire crackers with the 3 little kiddos . haha . I was like a kid too , like i had the excitements of a 5 years old kid when i hold the fire sparkles . haha . Zhi Qing kor kor (qi zhi's dad) was teaching me how to play certain kind of sparkles . It was fun .. Woo~ Bathed and went opposite to Xiao Yun Jie's(2nd uncle daughter, cousin) house . Saw Kevin , that dumb dumb whom always have cranky stuffs to do . haha . He changed a lot can , more handsome , new specs which make his eyes look bigger , new hairstyle to make him look taller and lastly , new dressing sense that makes him cool-er . haha . Chatted with him for awhile den went back to 2nd uncle's house . En En is so funny laa , she ran to me and look eye to eye with me then she make that stupid kissing sound when we dont even have any body contacts . haha . Qi zhi was also another one , i walked out of the room to the living room , he was also there . So we had eye contacts from the moment i walked out of the room . Then i was already very closed to him , he then came closer to me and we sticked out foreheads together then i hugged and carried him . haha . Zhan Zhan was heavy laa , and he kept wanting me to piggy back him . I was exhausted after piggy-ing him around . After that , the 3 of them crowded around me and combed my hair . haha . Patted them to sleep around 2am and i wento sleep after a can of beer with Kevin . haha . That night i was really tired , but i cant sleep . Lotsa stuffs suddenly raced through my head and most of them were negative stuffs . I felt someone stroking my hair , and went i turned back , i saw Qizhi . I accidentally woke him up when i dropped my specs . Then he was stroking my hair when he thought i was asleep . haha . How nice of this 5 years old kiddo . =) So i patted him to sleep and i slept too . Started to look forward to the next day for the BIG reunion dinner . hee` Then i found out , actually those little kiddos whom followed me , Qizhi , Zhan Zhan and En en . They never really follow their parents , as they wont go and look for their parents or stuffs . They just followed me around the house like i'm the leader of the gang . Kiddo gang.. haha . Love them !

you brighten up my day whenever you smile at me .

2006-01-31T12:59:00.000+08:00

Tuesday - 31.01.2006 ( third day of CNY)

Xuan woke me up and i went opposite to Kevin's house and slacked there for awhile till Qizhi was awake . 10th aunt arrived and so Mum started the mahjong session with them . haha . Qi zhi woke up , i helped him to wash up and fed him breakfast . Went opposite to Kevin's house to wake Zhan zhan up , he was already up . Brought him over and played around with them . En en went out to her granny's house . Around noon time , Zhan zhan and Qizhi went out with aunt and i was lazy to go out with them . So i left them with aunt , and i wento take a rest with Xuan . We then woke up around 4+ as 2nd aunt prepared lunch for us . And at the same time Zhan Zhan and Qizhi came back too . When they stepped in of the house , they shouted for me . And i was in the kitchen , being funny , the both of them wento search for me around in the rooms and they never even wento the kitchen . haha . Till i suddenly walk out and call for them , then they ran over and hugged me . haha . Zhan Zhan said : " i thought you were lost .." , Qizhi : " i go around but i cant find you . " Ohhh.... touched . Washed up for them then dress them up for the dinner . En en was back , wash her up and she's nicely dressed . haha . Zhi xiang kor kor (en en's dad , cousin) then said to me, smiling : "bii ny , why every year you come back they all will stick to you ah ? " *bii ny is my family name , 8th uncle gave me this name and the whole family start to call me that . =) * I then told Zhi Xiang kor kor " haha . dont know ehh , maybe i got mother's smell . " haha . Then we both hi-5 -ed and laugh . haha . I quickly wento bath and after changing , they cling onto me again and asked me which car am i sitting later . haha . Anyhoo , i saw Kuan Sis's son , which i din see for like 2 years . Named Yen and Jun , malay mixed chinese hunkies . haha . They were tall , tanned and cool . haha . Chatted with them for awhile and i was called to get up the car . The BIG BIG reunion dinner started , took some pics and had lotsa fun there . My table was like a bar , martel , red wine , vodka , wyborowa all there . Then i had a few glasses of each , but i had more vodka . haha . Hua ge sang two songs and he was so welcomed . People shouting for encore and stuffs . haha . I'm his Manager for that day , then there is this long long related female cousin whom wanted to sing duet with him . But too bad , he dont know how to sing . haha . When everyone's mood is up for some high dancing , Kevin , Yen and I changed all the oldies song to some very very high songs . Then , I asked Jun to be the lighting man . haha . Everyone got so high , even my 82 years old aunt was at the dance floor can . God ! It was hell load of fun ! Took some funny photo with Jun , Yen and Kevin . haha . We all wento "kop" the ice cream too . haha . The dinner ended and everyone went back to 2nd uncle's house . I carried En en and sat i-forgot-whose-car back . hee` The crowd at 2nd uncle's house was scaryy . haha . So most of the kids hide at Kevin's house and Kevin is sucha con-man . haha . Blahhh... Qizhi went back to KL and before he left , he hugged me and we did the handshaking thingy i taught him . hee` the other kids slept and i had a few cans with Kevin and Yen then wento sleep . We 3 actually wanted to go out for a drink , but Kevin's dad dont allow . Sad.. Yen actually wanna give me a ride on his new bike . varroom~ but too bad . We still have loads of them there.. haha . I start to miss Qizhi then i told Kevin about it , he then asked me to take Yen's bike down to KL . Shit him ! haha . Before i sleep , the scene of the BIG reunion dinner flashed across my mind . Aww... I miss everyone !

Wednesday - 01.02.2006

The previous night was cold , i din have any blanket . So i was shivering and coiling up like a worm . Brr~ The breakfast was a nice one .. En en woked up and we had ice cream together . haha . Went opposite to Kevin's house to slacked , talk crap and sleep . But Kevin was so noisy laa , he kept making those sissy sound . haha . Anyway , Kevin scored a straight 7A's for his end of year . And his dad , my uncle , gave him 7000RM . 1 A - 1000RM . Adding on , Kevin's grandparents , aunt and uncles gave him money too .. He became a rich ass laa . We played till 5+ , i went bath and ate dinner then preparing to leave Malacca . Left around 7+ , and lastly 2nd uncle told me to study well . Mmmms , so Wynny you should know what to do ya . =) 10th aunt and uncle sat our car back , so they talked alot and we laughed a lot . hee` When we reach Spore , i start to miss Malacca , those fun and of course all my cousins . *sob-sob* 4 days of fun is over just like this .. =( Am lazy to go to school the next day , as i'm really tired and i haven finish some of my work . So i told my parents and they never say anything . Mmmms , i really miss everyone there . When will be the next time we meet again ? I guess it will be next year .. G'night everyone . Take care ! Miss you all loads~

my lovely little boy . =)

One word from you that keep everything going on .

2006-01-29T03:06:00.000+08:00

It's 03:18am now , everyone is in bed at i'm here blogging . I cant sleep laa.. Actually am going out with my cousin around 1+ just now , but he cant make it as he's tired . Narnia~ haha . Am messaging with Boy , he's at chinatown now . He's funny laa . I just finish doing my manicure , and while doing it i just remembered i've go hair-do appointment yesterday at 2pm . I slept till 5pm laa , and i forgot about it . haha . Hell shit ! Am suppose to go for a hair-do but end up having a do hair . haha . Crap !! Mum D.I.Y-ed her hair into some frizzy curls . That freako is working till 4am today . I'm so happy ! He's not going to M'sia with us and being nice , i needa help him kept all the red packets . Extra work .. Urgh !! Am waking up at 9am later and head to do some stuffs , then over to Rene's house for reunion ~~dinner~~ lunch . Leaving S'pore around 2pm and head down to K . Pilar . I'm looking forward to it ! *happified* =) I wont be back till thursday , i guess . People , do miss me okayy? I so wanto eat "ba-kuas" now . haha . I gonna gained 101kg during this fifteen days of new year . Nevermind , i'll have my ways to maintain . haha . My left eye is red and itchy , i dont know why . It was a sudden itch and i start to rub it then it was red . Wooo~ Better not rub it anymore , if not will have swollen eyes . haha . Okay , i gotta stop here already . Shall put myself to sleep and dream about my palace and prince . haha . Lastly , HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR ALL ! get more ang baos and share half with me . haha . =pPp G'night ! Miss me okay.. Love all ~!

We all rocks ! =D

All those crap we shared together were fun..

Acting retard make us high .

So , get high with us !!

"Dont judge me with the past . Mind you , i`m living in the present now ."

Love isnt cruel .

2006-01-28T18:27:00.000+08:00

Shall blog now to kill the time . Yesterday school was fun ! During Social Studies , we're all talking about the time to meet in the noon and stuffs. haha . Chem was fun !! Did practical and the whenever someone break something , the whole class will start to sing "Happy Birthday To you ~" in R&B style. haha . Darn cool ! Yeok Ling passed me a box of cookies . hee` The celebration started and i got sooo high !!! haha . Wento most of the teachers , shook hands and wished them . haha . During the quiz time , most of the counsillors were sitting at the back , and when we know the answer we all shouted and raised up our hands like some primary school kids . haha . When the band is peforming , we start clapping along and Mr Raj asked us to stand up and clap . So pai seh sia.. But after that , it was fun . haha . My dearest cousin , Mister Melvin Oh kept wishing me and we both were mad laa . haha . After school , rushed back home and prepared cause we're meeting at 2pm . Mum was a total turn off , ask me do last minute stuffs . And so we start to shout at each other , i dont freaking care and dont like to do last minute stuffs okay ! She's fucking driving me crazyy laa . Arrgh! Wento meet Gransazers at the train station . People present were , Xiang Wei , PK , Da Jie , Alex , Choon Yong , Edwin , Jon , Melvin , Elwin , Chew and Me ! haha . Me and Chew bought the same bottoms . Darn funny ! Wento Plaza Singapura and check for the movies time and it's sold out . So we went to Bugis and walked around , eat and slack . Melvin was funny , when we're walking in the veh crowded train station , one lower sec guy stopped and tied his shoelace . Therefore he blocked Mel's way , so Mel scolded : "Stop down and tie your shoelace in the middle of the path for what fuck ?" haha .Went back to Sun Plaza for dinner and Mum wento fetch me to Godma house to take something . Went over to 8th aunt house with 6th aunt , saw Jie jie (cousin-in-law) . haha . Wished her happy new year and wished the baby in her stomach happy new year too! hee`Around 15 mins later , we all left to the supermarket to buy new year stuffs. haha . People in 8th uncle's van were , 8th aunt , 6th aunt and my mum . Then people in kor kor's car were , biao sao , jie jie and me . haha . I call biao sao and kor's sister , jie jie . So its the same laa . They know who i'm calling.. hee` I became Jie jie's nanny , because she's pregnant and cant take heavy things , so i helped her carry the basket and stuffs. haha . After supermarket-ing , we went to Jalan Kayu's floral . And we're all talking about dogs.. hee` Reached home around 1:30am , bath and wento sleep . I love going out with them .. weehee`The baby will be delivered around 30th June , and named Haegen Ho Chen Jun ! Yeah !! My new love~ haha . I'll be going over to 8th aunt places more after Haegen is born , can play with him and take care of him . yeah !! Anyway , Boy finished his last day of working yesterday . He needa take a good rest , but now i guess he's at Esplanade celebrating . =) Update laterr...

when i stop smiling at you one day .

2006-01-26T23:14:00.000+08:00

I just finish doing that fucking Bloody Sunday report writing . Screw that teacher ! Had tuition just now and it ws quite okay , for 15mins we studied about Astrology and some are quite true . After tuition , went out for dinner with my parents and my Mum is nagging here and there which i hated it so much . I admit i kept staring at her , but that's the way i could stop her from continuing . Then she'll go complain to my Dad and say that i'm naughty , defiant and other stuffs laa . And there start my preaching session . I abhor it so much ! School was quite okay , last two periods was free . But during counsillor meeting today , everyone became so fucked up , self centered and self protective . All of them acting like they din do anything wrong and never dare to admit . Chew , Yeok ling , Khai and me got caught for our socks . "Thanks" to Justin banana for mentioning about our attire . Get a life !! Of course chew , yeok ling and me got so pissed off and start to scold people whom block our ways and stuffs . I think the whole counsillor board people are all getting so fucked up and self centered . They only wanna save themselves , and they leave others in the lurch . Screw the whole damn counsillor board ! Something fun , during F&N lesson Edwin was talking about CNY , i then found out it's so near . I got high and start to make noise and being so excited . Yesterday after i offlined , Boy messaged me and our message content were nice and sweet ya . haha . Tmr is his last day of working.. Blessed ~ Tmr chinatown-ing with the GRANSAZERS is not confirm yet . Some needa leave early for reunion dinner and stuffs . Oh.. I dont know laa . I hope that Mum allows me to go tmr . But i think she'll be very very unreasonable to give me some stupid curfews . Okay tmr we'll be having CNY celebration in school , let get high ! =) Now , G'night everyone . Love all .

"Be it a good or bad ending , everything must come to an end . "

the hurt is too deep , the pain is unbearable .

2006-01-25T22:19:00.000+08:00

Wynny's mood is so very unstable . School today was kinda tiring , i din sleep well last night . Although i turned in quite early yesterday , but my mind wasnt in peace . But PE brighten up my day , 4a2 was cool and funny laa . We all started off with floorball and ended up with floorball rugby . haha . Thanks to Melvin and Edwin , whom misses their touch rugby training in primary school . haha . When they started the "rugby" , all of us threw the floorball stick on the floor and went with the flow . haha . During English lesson , Alex , Edwin , Heng and Me combined our tables and started our small meeting and conversation there . haha . Din do any assigned work .. So , i slept for about 15mins during Physics and Maths test was another catastrophe . Darn it ! CLD was fun !! Edwin got some punches from me , and we all were veh enthu in decorating our class with those ang baos . haha . When the bell rang for school dismissal , my leg was in a total hell painful state . Darn fucking painful and i could hardly walk . It wasn't numb or anything . The pain was around my ankle . Fuck it ! Sad thing , i din wento watch Memoirs of Geisha with Jie jie today as Uncle was sick so she needa take care of him . =( After school , was messaging with Boy and once again he's late for work . And he's "soon" was not so soon afterall . haha . Yesterday in the evening , went down to bugis . Again ~!! Because Mum was there , and i wanted to buy my bag . So went down to meet Mum and bought my stuffs . hee` I heard that most of my maternal side cousins whom stay in Singapore , have already went back to Malaysia to prepare for CNY . And here i am , studying for test , waking up early and going to school . I WANNA GO BACK WITH THEM ALSO !! Singapore seems so dead during CNY . I wanna go back and play with fire crackers , tour around in my cousin's motor , eat my fav. food and lastly , play with my little cousins ! CNY seems so far .... Ohh.. and i went mad with Joshua Ang , that I NOT STUPID guy . haha . And yesterday i actually heard some very shocking , unbelievable , outrageuos , scandalous news . They* are together , ohh god ! That's bad ! I mean , Wynny must give them her blessings right . Urgh ! Recently , my eyes isnt in very good situation , at times swollen and red and feeling itchy and painful . I dont wanna have swollen and red eyes on CNY . *praying hard* My back is giving me problems again , i think i bang into the door in the noon today . Blame on my blur-ness . haha . Okayy , i guess i gotta stop here already . Good night all ! Love you all loads ~

"Sometimes I think love is like tears we try to hide . Only truly apparent as it slips away . "

I found something special in you , as the carousel turn .

2006-01-23T22:06:00.000+08:00

Today is my Mum's birthday ! Happy Birthday Mum! <3 I din sleep well last night , i cried again . Darn sad . And the song kept repeating in my player and in my mind . When the song start to play , i told myself "Wynny , you cant cry . no ... cannot !" But i was defeated , tears welled up in my eyes and rolled down my cheek . Wynny was hurt , heart-broken and sad . I cried for about 20-30mins and wento sleep . Kim Long messaged me around 1:45am and i paused for awhile , before opening my inbox to check who is it from . Why i paused ? I dont know.. I woke up 10 mins late in the morning today and i'm fucking rush . Social studies was kinda Q & A because Mr. Trevor told us this "SATI" story and i start to ask loads of questions . haha . After Social Studies was F&N practical and it was a total catastrophe and totally fucked up . Because Wynny went mad while preparing her ingredients . Then I received a message , and was so excited to see who is it from . Oh.. it's ROSEY . haha . Kinda shock laa , quite long never received those morning message from him already . haha . During practical , i was just blur and confused . Anyhoo , i just passed my practical . Reason being , i'm blur and dont know what i'm doing when i'm cooking . And i even forget about my first dish . haha . I admit , i'm blur laa . =pPp During Maths lesson , Edwin was NICE to remind me of someone and he sang " ai tio li , xim kia kia.. blah blah blah .." Screw that song ! My mood went low and i kept counting down for 2:10pm . After school , i received a message and was opening it quite reluctantly because i was thinking , maybe it's just some funny message . Ohh.. !! Amzingly , it's not ! wahaha` Was on cloud nine when i received the message . While waiting for the bus , chatted with Boy on the phone till i reached home . We were talking about some stupid things and arguing about some small and funny things . haha . He's down with sore throat and headache , due to massive inhaling of non-local cigar . haha . blah blah blah ... Met ER GE just now to pass him the company's letter and he passed me those other stuffs . haha .

He called and said : "nyy ah , later i go over to take the letter . "
Wyn : "Around what time will you reach ? "
Er Ge : "errmm... when i reach i call you . But i think in 5 minutes time ."

Okayy , so i waited for 10mins and he finally called . haha . Hu-jian-dao uncle ~ Ohh yupps ! Tmr is everything goes well , i should be catching a movie with Jie jie in the evening . I hope so.. Because tmr after school , that Justin banana wanna have meeting . Urgh !! Narnia ~ Spoil my mood . Lastly , i received a letter from GANBEH . Now , i gotta stop here already . Shall go and finish one more chapter of my storybook already . haha . Wynny says "Good Night everyone ! " Love all ~!

"When i hear your laughter , my heart melted . "

2006-01-23T18:39:00.000+08:00

What hurts

- letting go of a person you've just learned to love

- reminiscing the good times you shared together

- trying to hide what you really feel

- trying to hide the tears that involuntarily fall from your eyes

- loving a person too much

- taking the risk to fall in love again

- hiding your relationship from someone else

- letting go, because everytime you see the person, you only fall deeper

- seeing the one you love crying for someone else

- the waiting also hurts like hell

- being denied in front of people

- Fighting for that one thing that would make you happy that is

- PRETENDING you're OK when inside you're dying

- PRETENDING to be strong.... and RECOGNIZING your weakness

- Lying in bed each night, thinking of that special person you can never have...

- Being with someone you can't actually love...

- Pretending you don't love a person whom you actually love...

- Being in love...

- letting go even if you really don't want to...having no right to say you are hurting because it was your decision

- Seeing the person you love hurt because of you... and not being able to help that person...

- having the courage to say I LOVE YOU to the person you love and finding out afterwards that things will never be the same again when he doesnt treat you with the same closeness as before

- destroying the wall that you have set for yourself, leaving you weak and vulnerable

- admitting that you love someone despite his imperfections

- Making a promise and realizing that when the time has come for that promise to be delivered, the commitment is no longer there.

- The hardest thing about love - believing it exists.

- After you've been hurt, learning to forgive, learning to trust and love again.

Love ,

Wynny

When i needed you most .

2006-01-22T22:28:00.000+08:00

Things were still so unstable till now . I wonder what's up in your mind . I wanted to cry , scream and shout . But can you hear me ? Where were you when i needed you most ? I always ask myself , had i fallen in too deep or am i just dreaming ? Should i , or shouldn't i ? I guess it was just a fairytale that hasnt started . Okay , Wynny aint in any good mood today . Went to cut my hair , like finally . And i quite love it , no more spilt ends and my texture was smoother . Dinner at OCC with Uncle Ping's family was not too bad . I drank a few glasses of beer and Mum stopped me . Anyhoo , being nice and obedient , i stop drinking . After eating , sent that freako to work and came back home . My coursework is still left undone , so is my maths homework . I'm in a no mood to do anything , i just wanna sleep till everything is over . I'm looking forward Chinese New Year , and everything was already planned . First day morning , we'll head down to my 2nd Uncle (father's side) house as everyone is gathering there this year . After that , then we'll head down to Big aunt(mother's side) house at K. Pilah in Malaysia . Of course , i'll meet my longed missed Mister Etic and Mister Heng there . Guess we'll drink till we're happy that night . Second day , we'll have a small reunion dinner at Big aunt house and then leave to Bahau to 3rd uncle's house to stay over for one night . I guess i'll be quite bored there , because nothing to do . Or maybe i'll gamble a little or aks Jane to bring me out at night . Third day morning , head down to Meleka !! weehee` woohoo~ My favourite place of all . Because i can see QI ZHI and EN EN . I so love them laa . Then we'll have a very BIG reunion dinner there . I wanna spend my chinese new year happily ! Sighh .. But now , i'm in this kinda mood . Urgh !Just pray that , everything will be solved before Chinese New Year and Wynny will be happy . Okay , i gotta stop here already . My mind isnt in any good situation now . G'night all . Love everyone !

Does Wynny look different in the picture ? Maybe it's the new hair cut .

"Someday you`ll look and we`ll be gone... but tomorrow may bring rain , so I`ll follow the sun . "

When sadness fills and people got heartbroken .

2006-01-21T23:34:00.000+08:00

Got back from Bugis with loads of bags . haha . Mummy and Daddy brought me to Bugis to get my new year's clothes , as promised . Dad came home and drive us over there . Start to shop around and i bought lotsa clothes . laughs . Mum gave me $100 (it was my pay) , and i paid for almost everything . Bought two blouse for that , total $28 . I so love the clothes i bought !! weehee` wahaha` Gonna get more bottoms , hands on stuffs and footwear . That's it !!! Then i can spend my new year happily . haha . Bugis was really crowded , loads of people walking in that small and crowded place . Darn hot can . Went for dinner at The Banana Leaf , this indian restaurant . The food is nice .. haha . Anyhoo , yesterday in school i kept telling Alex , i'm "Wynderella`" . haha . Too bored during lessons . Also went out with Gransazers , da jie and chew around 2pm . It was fun ! Watched The Heirloom , fugging scary laa . After the movie , went to have dinner at some kuku place . I din eat my dinner because , i'm lazy to move . haha . I admit i am really lazy . Some of them smoked , and of course i did my job and that is too light up those cigars for them . haha . After dinner was pooling for them , i was bored laa . But da jie and some others acc-ed me and talked to me . haha . As the clock tick , it was already 10+ .. Mum called to kp as usual . We left around 11+ and in the train we were talking about stupid stuffs . So noisy ! haha . Messaged with Boy , and yesterday he actually wanna go town , but he was dying his hair so he din go . He got a new hairstyle , gotta see it soon . I hope . hee` Cabbed home with Jon at Yishun , being a gentleman , he paid for the fee . haha . Actually i wanted to pay , cause the last time he paid for it . As i wanted to pay , he pushed away my money and said "Nonsense ahh.." . haha . Wento sleep straight after i bath .. Awww.... I felt so confused , stupid , negative and stressed up . Lots of things have been racing through my mind , have been thinking of ways to solve it . But none was good enough.. At times , i was free from all these shit , how free should i be . Felt so disturbed everytime those stuffs raced through my mind and it was tearing me apart . Wynny din have this kinda feelings for along time already , why is it happening again ? And dont lie to me if you're up to some no good businees , be truthful and i'll forgive you . Dont be too good to me , if you have other motives . Be a understanding and resonable one , if not you shall perish . Bless Wynny . I've seen enough of heart breaking scenes from primary school till now , i admit some was a total fucked up one . But others were really heart breaking and sad . I've heard lotsa stories about guy lying to love ones about having third party and stuffs . What the fuck is up to them man ? Maybe they haven tasted the feeling of being heart broken . I shant get so worked up . Wynny , relax , relax . Okayy , tmr is my Mum's bday . Will be having dinner with Uncle Ping's family , and that freako wont be present . Being a nice and obedient daughter , i shant disturb her tmr . So i shall sleep till dinner time , if i can . Oh .. No , i still have got coursework and maths homework left undone . I will find time tmr .. haha . Okay , I gotta stop here already . Nights all . Love everyone !

"The candle was lit , the aroma filled the air . After the flame blew out, something was still there . "

Wipe your tears and start afresh .

2006-01-19T22:29:00.000+08:00

Just for today , i'm not stress by my homework . haha . I finished half of my maths homework just now while having tuition . hee` Was suppose to meet Mum after school at Northpoint today to bank in my money . But i forgot why , she changed her mind and insisted to go tmr . So i headed home straight after school , i reach home freaking early around 1:45pm . I so miss the smell of my bed and so i quickly wento bath and climb up to my bed . wooohoo~ Slept all the way till 6:15pm and prepared for tuition .. School was kinda fun today .. Mrs Raja talked to my class today about our D&T and F&N , she kept stressing on our coursework . I was listening when she's talking to the F&N students , but when she's talking to the D&T students , i was trying to find network in the ava room cause was sending message . haha . Imagine hiding under the table trying to search for network . haha . Before i went in for maths lesson , my laughter could be heard as chao shi bang into the door while her uniform is stuck at the handle . haha . I was laughing and laughing non stop .. After she came back from the toilet , i start to laugh again . haha . Lesson started and i found this scary yet cute creature on my table . At first , i was blowing at it hoping that it wont fly and bite me . haha . But to my amusement , that was a freaking fake creature . NARNIA ~ So i started playing prank around , i threw to Heng and i wailed like it was real . haha . Then she passed to the person beside her and we started playing behind . There's this moment where XW stand up to block us , Edwin said : "Hey Boy.. Sit down .." I wanted to repeat what he said , so i said " Hey Boy.." Edwin and me together got shock and looked at each other . haha . Because all sensitive to "Boy" that word . haha . Chinese lesson was a total fucked up one , Mrs Chew LP is so ner ner . I dont like her lesson . Fuck it ! The whole day in school i was playing with the fake creature and scaring people . haha . Tmr am going out with Gransazers and chew to shop , watch movie and have dinner . hee` The day that Edwin is counting down for a very long time . haha . Ohh , yupps ! Boy is currently working now . Should be happy for him , but he gotta wake up early that's the part he hates most . haha . Good luck then =) I'm also restricted to eat chocolates now . Because when i eat chocolates , i dont eat my meals well .haha . Anyway , i gotta stop here already . That Stupid ROSEY is so bad , he wants to send me to IMH . haha . G'nigh world ! Love all .

Stupid creature ~

Wynny played a prank a Haffiz while he is sleeping . haha .

Lastly , the creature still love me . =pPp

"When life and love have torn apart your heart , where do the shattered pieces lie ?"

What is the feeling like , when you lose a pillar in your world ?

2006-01-18T23:01:00.000+08:00

After typing this post , i shall get back to my study table to finish my homework . haha . Today school wasn't that bad , PE was very very fun . The teamwork and co-operation 4A2 have is fantastic ! woohoo~ After PE , our class starts to get lethargic . haha . During that stupid CLD lesson , Alex start to tell me about his future wedding plans and stuffs and of course i start to day dream . haha . I tell him things like " i be your flower girl . i help you blow bubbles and throw flower when you have your first march in . i help you do your wedding slideshow ." And i went on and on.. haha . WYNNY ! STOP DAY DREAMING LAA !! haha . Straight after school , went down to RedHill with chew to collect our pay . It's so far and freaking tiring laa . Went back to Sembawang to have lunch , and i met my Lao Da after parrting with chew . He's still my caring , concern and understanding Lao Da . haha . Reached home , bath and slept till around 9pm . Watch Love Conture and almost cried .. Emotional Wynny . =( I saw Jie Jie (biao-sao , cousin-in-law , kor's wife) on Monday outside LJS . haha . I so miss her laa . She pregnant , 4th month alreadyy . weehee` So excited to welcome the baby . wahaha` Am meeting up soon to watch Memories of Geisha with her . *total happification* Mummy is bringing me to buy new year's clothes at ICONS . That shop that Titus kept talking about , as if he's paid for advertising . haha . I found out i've been singing the same song in school everyday , i guess that song suits my mood then . I'm so excited for Chinese New Year , but it seems so far away .. Am looking forward to this friday , going out with the Gransazers to watch movie . hee` Okay , i gotta stop here alreadyy . Shit ! I'm tired already , how to do my homework . haha . G'night world . Love all!

"Tears are the rinse water of an unhappy heart ."

I see your shadow everywhere .

2006-01-17T22:11:00.000+08:00

My eyes are red and swollen now . I think is my contact lens again .. Hell shit ! Anyhoo , today school was okay . Mrs Leong was on MC and we had free period . What we did during free period ? haha . Taking pictures , gossiping and advising people . haha . During Chem lesson today , was a total slacking lesson . Heng and me was discovering new things is Jon's phone . haha . I mean , we're just being concern . wahaha` Sidek's lesson was slacking too . I was singing Yang Chen Lin's song for the whole period and being so drama . haha . Went home after school and Mum start to make noise the moment i was home , so i quickly bath and wento sleep . haha . PEACE~ Yesterday chew din go to school , she's sick . So i spend my duty time with YeokLing , we're so bad laa . haha . She gave me sweets ~ weehee` I had loads and fucking loads of maths homework . So i told myself , i needa finish it . I messaged my sister and ask if he wanna go do homework . haha . So we met around 6+ together with JJ . I kept looking around and wasnt in the mood to study laa . But i still managed to finish it.. Thanks to my sister . haha . Dad wento fetch me around 9+ , i reached home , packed my bag and wento sleep . Was so tired can .. I think , sooner or later .. Mum will drag me to the salon already . haha . Because my hair is always in a mess after i bath.. and i dont comb it , hair flying around and i dont clip it up or so . haha . Then Mum kept saying that she's gonna drag me to the salon to cut my hair . I dont mind laa.. haha . Am spending too much time tying my hair every morning . hee` Bring me to the salon soon , mum ! =) Boy is down with flu , cough and headache . Screw the weather .. He just replied my message . He had been sleeping from 10+ in the morning yesterday till now , 10:15pm . So longg laa .. Ohh, and this friday will be going out with Gransazers .. They said they wanna go CONDOMANIUM or CONDOMANIA . whatever shit is that .. But i know that's not a good place .. I'm still young okayy . haha . I've uploaded some photos , go view it ! Anyway , i gotta stop here alreadyy . My bed is calling for me .. G'night world . Love everyone !

"I want to crawl into my dream world and stay there , so that the pain yesterday brought won`t carry on to tomorrow . "

You must be retarded .

2006-01-15T23:42:00.001+08:00

My ahma's chalet was a nice and fun one . haha . i so love all my cousins .. Brought Shaun and Raynerd out to cycle.. haha . They are so cute ! Shaun brought his dinosaur along and he's cute laa . Raynerd's english is powerful . haha . Looked for Claire and Edwin at the playhouse and darn fun . haha . Cut the cake and took some family photo , so cool can . Went out to cycle around midnight and it was so cool . Out butt hurts , when ever we have humps to go over .. We'll all say " shit ! " haha . Slept around 3+ and it was so cold !! Brr.... Drank VODKA and others.. NICE! And i got ROSE into some shit things , my mum started to kp at him and i felt so bad . Shit ! I guess mum din talk sense too , she just thought her way . Fuck it ! See , she ner ner . Now , I felt so bad and i kept apologise to ROSE although he said "nvm" . I still feel very bad . Sorry ROSE =( I still feel very bad laa . Gawd ! Anyway , I'm rushing my coursework now . So tired ! I will get my pay soon . I wanna go buy new year clothes , new school bag and i dont know what else . haha . Today is a veh cold and windy night , i need some ward hugs !! Okay , gotta stop here already . Some shout-outs below . Nights all . Love everyone ..

Yeok Ling : hey , thanks for tolerating all my shitty craps during the camp eh . And i know you miss me alot after the camp .. haha . I miss you too~ wahaha` anyway , thanks a lot for everything eh . =)

Chew : Although i din spend much time with you in the camp , we still give each other hugs . haha . Do take care of yourself and i'm always here for you . Dont call me Mummy or i'll whack you ! hee`

Sister : My da bian sister , really thank you for helping me in the Treasure Hunt that day ehh . And course , Hello panda , MARS and cotton candy. haha . Thanks for making not so tired when you call me "da bian" . haha . Thank you , you da bian ! =pPp

Heng tai : Oh , you rocks ! Thanks for singing and crapping with me in the camp and taking stupid photos . haha . Your chocs is nice~ Go sing together soon okayy. Take care ! =)

Lastly , my cousin Melvin Oh ..Thanks for kping with me and yeok ling to make us not so tired and of course your XXL mentos . haha . Thank you !

"My arms no longer reach out for you . "

My love being thrown away .

2006-01-14T23:05:00.000+08:00

Wynny is back again .. haha . Wynny is back ~!! Okay , anyhow the Sec. 1 camp wasn't too bad . I have fun almost all the time .. haha . Yeok ling was always with me cause we took the same class and chew was at another class . So Yeok ling will be the one doing stupid things together with me . haha . Heng tai passed me chocs .. hee` The camp started and i was like so bored , because my class mood wasnt up yet . Till around noon time , the games started , i kept shouting and shouting because some of them cant hear me . When playing "Floating Ball" i totally was exhausted and lost my voice . Was shouting and counting loudly .. Narnia~ But at last , my class got in FIRST ! haha . Taught them cheers and other stupid things... haha . My class leaders rocks okayy.. Treasure Hunt was a total shit . But thanks to my sister and dearest cousin Melvin Oh . They helped us alot.. and I ran around the school like a mad one . Screw it ! Me and Yeok Ling slept in the ava room at first , den after that we both wento sleep at the benches outside the ava room . Darn uncomfortable .. Lastly , went back into the ava room and it was already 4+ . We needa wake up at 5am .. Of course we woke up and was like a total zombie . I had dark eye rings and people kept asking me what time i sleep . haha . The second day , my voice became hoarse .. I dont care laa . Went on shouting and singing .. haha . Only Yeok ling can stand my craps . haha . Ask Edwin to buy me Pink Dolphin .. Wooo~ Darn nice! haha . My back hurts and my waist hurts too .. cause in the ava room i kept knocking into the edges of the table . You know how painful is it ? I tell you , it's very pain ! I repeat VERY PAIN ! Asked Melvin Oh to get some lozenge , cause my throat is realy dry and painful . Dinner was funny , Mdm Vani is bad . haha . I started promoting our "Sweet and Sour Fish" . haha . Sang some songs to promote it .. haha . Second night , i slept on the table outside the ava room with Yeok ling and chew. haha . We were so tired and slept after we bath . haha . The night is very cold .. I woke up in the middle of the night to slip myself into the sleeping bag . haha . Woke up and felt better , but my voice was a total disaster . Sister passed me Hello Panda and MARS choc! wahaha` weehee` That's so heaven man ! Ate the MARS during lunch and ohh... soo nice !! I know i'm having sore throat and eating that MARS will worsen it . haha . I dont care laa . During lunch time , Melvin Oh passed me MARS choc and XXL mentos . haha . He darn funny laa . But i gave that MARS to Yeok ling . haha . Han wei passed me sweets too . haha . CCA Open House started and i became mad ! wahaha` Cotton candy was nice .. I love Jarad too ~ Debriefed for the camp and i was so sad~ haha . Me and Yeok ling still thought we had one more night to stay.. haha . We so miss the camp laa =( Anyhoo , the camp was nice , fun and of course a good one . I missed the fun i had with Yeok ling , those funny talk me , chew and yeokling had , stupid actions and songs of promoting dinner . And Yeok ling is promoting her "Lao Pa" to me . We both had muscle cramps around cause we kept punishing ourselves when we say vulgarities in the camp . We'll do 5 squats .. and imagine how much we both scold.. haha . Boy messaged me and i'm bad not to reply him due to doing some stuffs and running around . My bill is gonna shoot up high . Because , those campers missed home and i needa lend them my phone to call back . Aww.. How sad ! Okay , i gotta stop here alreadyy.. Read my next entry for more . Pictuers Below ~ =) Nights all...

Little Jarad and Wynny . Look like brother and sister huh ..

Yuling and Wynny

"Heng tai - hood"

Narnia-ers

Let's get drunk !

2006-01-10T23:37:00.000+08:00

It's a cold and windy night . Wynny is cuddling this hot cup noddles sitting infront of her computer eating her DINNER . wahaha` yupps! It's dinner . Mmmms , i wento Bugis today and it was cold .. So cold . Walked around Bugis and bought a shirt and hands-on stuffs . Seperated from the guys as me and chew wanna shop and dont wanna guys to stand outside waiting . haha . It was fun laa . Crapping as usual.. Boy messaged me around 3plus and i was rejoicing . He told me he's going over to Bugis with his friends to get new year's clothes . So once again , i started to make noise around . haha . Call Ting ting jie too .. But she's working .Wento Parco to walk around and i saw a few familiar faces . I forgot their names . hee` Saw Elwin with his girlfriend , the world is so small . His girlfriend is my friend.. haha . I forgot again who wanted to go Orchard . So they were all walking to the train station already , i quickly message Boy and told him i'm leaving Bugis already . Then he replied : " i going down orchard also . my friend going there. i go far east buy clothes . " wahaha` So i went high again and start to make stupid noise . Wento TAKA and was playing around children section . haha . It was hell ya fun . haha . I admit i was like a 5 years old children again . But i dont care laa . Left Orchard around 8+ and din wento meet Boy , because ... Edwin knows . Sorry Boy.. =( We took train down to Marina Bay and back again , so the gang was asking me if i wanna get down at Orchard to look for Boy . haha . The gang was gan chiong-er than me ... But i din get down at Orchard .. Mmmms , the feeling wasnt good . It felt like fuck ! Reached home , bath and started pack my back for the camp . My bag is very light . haha . Anyway , i'm having serious pain at the extreme right , above my waist a little . I dont know what happen .. Have been in pain for the past few days . When i walk , it's pain and even when i sit down . Will i have appendix ? Fuck ! I dont wanna have appendix !! I dont wanna stay in hospital !! Pray for me okayy .. Sighh.. Okay , i gotta stop here already . Nights world . Love all . Miss everyone !! Miss me okayy ?

"How can I trust my heart , when it’s let me down before . "

Shall i take the long way there ?

2006-01-10T11:58:00.000+08:00

Wells , i'm back to blog again . Haven been blogging for the past few days cause i'm dead tired and lazy . hee` Anyway , XW's birthday at Sentosa wasnt that bad . Although it's raining , but we still had fun . The moment i woke up , i looked outside my window and it's raining . And my mind struck the Adidas Jacket . So , wento prepare and i wore that jacket out .. It was really cold outside . Brr... Dad drove me the the train station to meet Edwin and Nic , and awhile later Dajie , Alex and Mel reached . So we all headed down to Plaza Singapura to get XW's and Jorrie's present . Went over to Sentosa around 2+ and blah blah blah ... Had a nice talk with Da Jie , and she told me a lot of stuffs . I seriously felt better after that .. Walked around in the soggy sand with puddles of water around .. haha . That was fun ! I was using the pink umbrella Edwin bought from HT .. It's veh nice . haha . And of course , i din forget to sing "Little Umbrella . " haha . Elwin was there too , and he sang the full version for me . haha . Left Sentosa around 6+ and wento had dinner at Harbourfront Mall . Okayy , Wynny lost her money . I forgot where it dropped . But it's lost laa . Urgh !! And was messaging with Boy till he fall asleep , and i was dead worried thinking what happen to him again . Stupid Idiot ! I reached home around 9+ , bath and did my maths homework . Then this time , i wento sleep feeling worried again . Stupid Boy ! The next morning , the alarm clock rang.. I was thinking " today Ssturday or Sunday ? No need to wake up so early laa.." Awhile later , i then remember it was a freaking Monday . Of course i woke up unwillingly to prepare . And i received Boy's message , telling me to wake up for school and he apologise for falling asleep the previous day . haha . My eyes was very dry and painful , i dont know why . But i guess is my contact lens .. So in school , i kept blinking my eyes and it was painful . After school was bad ! It was raining cats and dogs and Wynny cant go home . haha . Saw Jojo and walked out of school with her . Finally , i reached home , bath and qucikly wento sleep . Woke up for tuition and my mood wasnt right . I dont know why .. I just felt depress ? or maybe in a lost of mind . I then skipped my dinner , so once again i only had one meal yesterday . Had a nice chat with Mond Mond and he told me lotsa advices .. He's a nice guy . haha . A very good friend afterall . =) Today , Now , Its 12pm and i just woke up . I know i should be sleeping now , but , i just cant sleep . I'm going out with Chew , Edwin and some others later to Bugis . THE SEC. 1 CAMP IS TOMORROW !!! woohooo~~ Yesterday during recess , i got high laa . Before i start to eat , i shouted the Food Cheer . haha . Anyway , i still haven pack my bag for tmr's camp . Take it easy girl . Titus bought me chocs !! yeah !! And it was from , New Zealand . weehee` We're gonna meet up soon with Sher jie jie . haha . Oh yups ! I received the parcel from GANBEH and i got this veh nice photoalbum . The pictures we took together , when we were younger . Ohh ... sweet and nice childhood memories ah . It's very very nice . He made it himself . wahaha` Lastly , Heng bought me the Crown Necklance . hee` See... I told ya all that Heng will buy me that . haha .Okay , i gotta stop here and go prepare already . Update laterr.

" The tears will fall . The pain will decrease . It takes time , to have your heart come to peace . "

And you never thought of the consequences .

2006-01-07T23:30:00.000+08:00

It's Saturday and i'm freaking home at around 3pm .. Woke up so unwillingly to prepare . Actually was suppose to have breakfast with Reena and Chew , but in the end was cancel because i'm too tired to wake up . So i skipped breakfast today.. Around 7+ , Reena messaged me and said that Oraganising Commitee needa reach school BY 7:15am .. That Justin banana never message and tell us laa . But around 7:15am , Reena was still at home . haha . So we all never attend that meeting .. wahaha` Around 7:45am , i left and wento meet Chew .. When i reach Sembawang , it was almost 8 already . And i saw Reena walking to school , and some others going to Macdonalds . haha . So no rush laa ... Me and Chew took our time to walk to school , and i forgot what we're talking . But i know we're crapping a lot and it was drizzling.. haha . So i started singing my "Little Umbrella !" woohoo~ The meeting started and it was a total boring shit . I almost slept in the AVA room , and when it's Michel's turn to speak .. God damn it ! I was so sleepy laa . He's talking a whole hell crap and being nice , i kept answering him , nodding my head and kept agreeing to whatever shit he says . This make the meeting end faster .. After meeting , was having breakfast with Chew .. Special Delivery.. haha. Saw Edwin and he kept saying "Boy ahh.. boy boy ! " haha . So i shut him with "kp .." hah a. Went up to the hall to look for seniors and were having fun there . hee` Stayed in school till around 1+ and left with Lf and Cyn . Saw Samuel in school too , Jarad went also .. But i missed it . Stupid .. Jarad is a real cute little boy can . He is Samuel's youngest brother . haha . During the Sec 1 campfire night , i think i'll take a pic of Jarad . wahaha` I took my nap as usual and it was so nice ... Then it was my Dad's call which woke me up , because my room dosent have a phone .. So i needa climbed down and walk out to the living room to answer the call . Then followed by a few incoming messages , Sister was funny laa . He asked me , why am i so guai staying at home when it's a Saturday . haha . I really wonder .. I'm having serious headache after my nap . I dont know why too .. My sprained leg still haven recover , my sprained toe is getting worst and i had bruises all around my thigh and feet . haha . I myself dont even know how i got those bruises .. haha . Just hung up the phone with Boy and he was talking a hell load of crap which i dont really understand . haha . He kept repeating the same old thing . Old man are like this ! wahaha` Anyway , tmr i am most probably going to XW's party at Sentosa i guess .. But wont stay for long , i haven finish my Maths homework , my F&N coursework and i'm gonna miss lessons for 3 days because of Sec. 1 camp . Mr Raj. said that , all homework to be handed in on Monday .. This means , i needa rush all my assignments on weekends . If not , i'll do it in the camp when it's lights off . We always have our ways to do things during lights off . haha . Pray that my headache will go away soon , i really hate it . It's killing me ! *pray hard* Ohh , and i think i'm not getting the Adidas watch alreadyy.. ROSEY ROSE ! YOU SEE THIS ? haha . But am looking for other nicer watches . hee` Okayy , i gotta stop here already . Nights all . Love everyone !

" You can close your eyes to things you don`t want to see , but you can`t close your heart to things you don’t want to feel . "

You dont love me , no more .

2006-01-06T22:32:00.000+08:00

It's Saturday tmr !! ~~yeah !!!~~ I'm having the Sec 1 camp meeting tmr at 8 in the freaking morning . Stupid ! My sleep ... Wasted sia ! Am meeting Reena and Chew for breakfast tmr . I should sleep early today .. For this week , Wynny is very guai . She never loiter around after school , she just came straight home . Unless , there's something she needa do . wahaha` Huggies for Wynny !! =) I am oh-so very pissed off with my freaking brother laa . Fcuking Retard ! Go fly kite laa ... Urgh ! Anyway , i kinda sprained my leg again . Due to my playful-ness.. Shitty ! Cause i fell on the .... mmmms , better not say . It's so embarassing . hee` My leg is kinda pain now ... Aww.. =( Ohh , and i've bought my contact lens .. I can see everything clearly already . No more squinting of eyes . hee` Am so playful in school laa , in the Mr Tan Seng Choon class .. I'm called Joycelyn . Cause , me and chew change name . haha . Then i kept seeing Ah Tan around , so i kept greeting him and he kept calling me Joycelyn . I always forget i've changed my name . haha . In his lesson , i'm always behind crapping with chew and heng . But i got take down notes ehh .. haha . Yesterday we had our very first cheena lesson with Mrs Chew LP , so told the whole class that we should greet teacher when ever we see them . So i kept seeing her , and i kept greeting her in those cheena piang style . Eeee... Darn gross ! *slaps head* School wasnt too bad with all those crapping and shit i done . Thanks to Elwin , i start to sing "Little Umbrella" almost everyday . Then chew will echo " ah.. little umbrella .." wahaha` Mrs Leong's lesson is full of new vocab words ! But i always never copy down . Our class only 2 people copied those vocab words.. haha . Ohh yupps ! Boy is found laa .. He lost his handphone , that's why he didn't reply me . Thank god , yesterday he got my number again from Edwin and he messaged me . After thousands of apologies , den i decided to forgive him . haha . And that make me start to sing " Little Umbrella" again . haha . Sec one camp is coming !! I'm anticipating !! Okay , i gotta stop here already . My bed is calling for me alreadyy ... Night everyone ! Love all~! "OHH.. LITTLE UMBRELLA ~~"

"And I was left alone to picked up those shattered pieces of my heart . "

When everything I've believed in seems untrue .

2006-01-04T23:48:00.000+08:00

School was quite fun today and I'm bad to fall asleep during Physics . haha . And my Chemistry teacher is that funny Mr Tan Seng Choon , he look so comical with his stupid flat top hairstyle . Eeeeww , he jokes with my class but no one laugh . haha . PE today was a story-telling time by our very famous Mr Tamil . After school wento eat with Edwin and co. i always have the urge to go back . Because they wanted to go to eat at the place which i'm very reluctant to go . Elwin was there too , he's freaking crappy laa , sang those stupid old song . "Little Umbrella~" haha . Reached home , bath and i quicly climb up my oh-so cost bed .. wooo~ Slept till 8+ and i had a nightmare . Stupid ~! I was really scared laa . My very own dinner was at 11pm . hee` And that is why i have gastric recently .. On tuesday , I only ate a bun and that's all for the day . haha . Anyway , am quite worried now . Because Boy is no where to be found , i wonder where is he . He din reply my messages and i cant get through his line . He better be safe .. *praying very hard* Tmr am having tuition at 6pm , Aww.. there goes my nap !!! And my maternal side is once again having the very big family reunion dinner this coming chinese new year at Melacca . I can see everyone again !! weehee` People like QIZHI !!! En En , Qing qing , Mister Etic , Heng , Kevin and some other .. they are people i missed so much laa ! haha . Okay , gotta stop here already . Nights everyone !!

"We should always learn to enjoy life ."

Now i need you by my side .

2006-01-03T23:14:00.000+08:00

I just woke up , YES !! It's 11:14pm now , i'm gonna force myself back to sleep later . haha . Anyway , a very nice show just ended at Wynny's house . The title of the show is called "I Dont Give A Fcuking Damn To You ! " This whole thing started because that freako in my house is such a fishmonger . So , if you're a fishmonger .. Wynny dont give a fcuking damn to you . Then that freako wento complain to my dad and he threw the house phone on the floor . haha . He got scolded while i'm happily chatting in MSN . wahaha` Stupid freako ! Dont fcuking think that you're always right . Fcuking egoistic man .. Go lick my toilet bowl laa . Okay , school today was fun . When the clock strikes 6am , and when i happily pulled myself outta bed . My handphone started ringing , messages start to come in to ask if i wake up already , or so . haha . Then when i'm on my way to school , i then needa inform them . haha . Was quite touched laa . Then in school today , received quite a number of message asking me how was school . haha . School was fun ! I mean i'm having loads of fun today . hee` I cant wait for the orientation camp !!!!! wahaaa` And i got a few bruises and cut . My left hand got a cut , right thing got bruised , toes kena sprained , then both feet darn painful cause of that stupid school shoe . haha . I even got my hand scald in school today . haha . " see laa Wynny , play laa.. play somemore .. " hee` Then today , Boy messaged me and told me he was an ex convict . So replied him " ohh .. we always have that yellow ribbon thingy waiting for you .." haha . He was speechless .. haha . Yesterday night , i only fall asleep at around 4+ .. I was crying laa . Because of something i saw a few days ago , I really cant believe it . And the moment i thought of it , my heart really cracks . So tears rolled down yesterday when i thought of it . It was one of my love ones .. Sigh ... I guess , this thing will haunt me for a long time . Mmmms , i gotta stop here already . Nights everyone ! Love all ..

" Oh , please .. Give me a reason to believe . "

Each and everyday , i wanna have you next to me .

2006-01-02T23:14:00.000+08:00

The stirer that we kop-ed from Cloud 9 .
weehee` it's so fun !!

I just finish folding a whole fcuking load of clothes . Wasted my time .. Anyway , yesterday and today was the same .. I woke up at 5pm today . This is the last time i can ever wake up at this kinda happy time . hee` Slacking infront of the computer till dinner time . Life became so aimless .. I am not looking forward to school reopen . I miss my sleep , my bed , xiong xiong !! Lastly all the fun i have during my holiday .. I needa reach school at 6:45am tmr .. It's fcuking early can . And my head hurts now . I dont know why .. I really needa sleep already . Okay , Nights everyone . Bless me for tmr . Love all ! <3

"And i said to the world , i'll never let it end . "

The chocolate BUNG gave me . Yummy~

I am missing the excitement i have at Boat Quay .

2005-12-31T23:58:00.000+08:00

weehee` HAPPY NEW YEAR ALL !! haha . Wento meet alex , lw and melvin and Sembawang MRT Station . I was late laa. haha . Headed to J8 to have dinner at PASTAMANIA . Met Reena when we're at the platform waiting for train down to Orchard . haha . We alighted at Orchard and wento look for edwin and co. at Far East Plaza . haha . Our gang of people is huge , or maybe we've got lotsa people laa . haha . Headed to Cine , i forgot for what .. Dennis and Tian wento have their puffs and i helped Tian to light up the cigarette . hee` They know i love to light up cigarette . haha . After their puffs , we headed to Heeren .. and i was wanting for balloons badly cause i saw people holding balloons . haha . Slacked outside Heeren , the guys played spray and were mad . haha . Went to sit outside HMV and i saw this family having balloons , so i asked Edwin to get for me . haha . yeah !! I GOT ONE BALLOON !! Was having fun with that balloon , Da jie helped me tie on my hand . haha . Okay , i was like a 5 years old child . But i dont care . haha . The guys wento TAKA to do something while we wait for them . It's 11:15pm already , wanted to go Esplanade to watch fireworks , but din have time . Aw... =( But Orchard wasn't too bad laa . Only the Bangladesh spoil everything . haha . Walked to Centrepoint and slacked for awhile , den asked Da jie to buy BACARDI . hee` I called Ah Di but i cant get through his line . BAD ROSE ! haha . Nahh .. it's because he's phone network jammed , or some other things . haha . After awhile , i got through his line , then he was at Boat Quay .. So i left the others and wento check for the trains with Da jie and Alex , they both left first cause it's the last train already . And the bloody train dont go to the place i wanna go . So i walked to the Taxi stand alone , was fugging scary . Because got loads of Banglas !! FCUK YOU ALL BANGLADESH ! Then this stupid Caucasian snatch the taxi away .. GO FCUK YOURSELF WITH CACTUS , STUPID ANGMOH ! Wasted my time waiting , so i walked down the path to Plaza Singapura . Loads of Bangladesh too .. got sprayed by them . Stupid !I decided to walk back to Somerset , on my way back i saw Melvin . Not our GRANSAZERS Melvin . It's Edwin's friend .. haha . Let's call him Boy . haha . He was going to Serangoon to drink with his friend and was also taking cab . So i followed him and his friend and we walked to some veh ulu place to wait for cab . Saw Banglas then Boy told me : " hey , your abang adek . go say happy new year laa . " Stupid him . haha . Am still holding the balloon then Boy asked me , why i dont wanna throw away the balloon . haha . Hailed for a cab and he let me go first , cause he know i'm rushing for time . haha . And he asked me to call him when i reached there . So when i reached Boat Quay , Ah Di was at the bridge with his friends already . haha . Ermm.. He payed for my cab fare . haha . ROSE IS NICE !! =)) He introduced me to his friends and hand-shaking were scary . haha . I dont know why .. He kept telling me " This is _______ (his friend's name) " Then he'll tell his friend , "This is my cousin .. " haha . His friend's name were funny , got lotsa "LONG" . I cant remember all their names laa . Wento this ktv pub name Cloud 9 .. wooo! so smoky . Like in lala land .. haha . Ah Di threw away my balloon .. So bad ! haha . This guy name .. Erm.. I guess is Kim Long . He entertained me , he's the only one entertaining me . Cause only we dont have huge generation gap . And also because Ah Di kept walking in and out for i-dont-know-what . haha . Kim Long kept telling me that i'm young laa , dont know what young girls cant go to that kinda places or so . Then he also said his heart is good and stuffs . haha . We kept arguing about the stuffs we have . He was saying , he've got PUMA jacket . I showed him mine . He said he've got Nike bag , i showed him my bag . haha . Lastly he showed me his Urban Tee , i then told him .. It's useless . haha . All craps laa .. He kopp-ed the i-dont-what-is-it-called-thing for me . haha . Got star shap and heart shape . It's bad to steal things . hee` But he stole it for me . haha . There's this time , police came cause some fat lady banged into the toilet bowl and had her head crack . wahaha ~ haha !! I'm so bad to laugh at her . haha . But it's seriously funny laa . So Ah Di brought me down to not let the police see me inside . haha . It's fun running away from police . wahaha` Mond Mond was at Lighthouse , he messaged and called me when he's leaving . He asked me to go home early .. haha . It was nice of him laa . =) My phone then went low batt . hee` Left the smoky lala land Cloud 9 around 4:30am and slacked at the Golden Cafe . Then that funny Kim Long was sitting beside me and he's drunk laa . He look fugging stupid when he's drunk . haha . "Bu yao tui wo .." haha . He's still smart to remember to set alarm .. haha . After awhile , someone booked cab and we wento wait for the cab . Saw lotsa Bangladesh again , then i told Ah Di " hey , your best friend .. " he replied " your favourite .." haha . Went over to Lighthouse for awhile cause i think Ah Di wento find people . Got into the cab and headed home . On the way home , i was like looking around .. People around me were sleeping already . I'm still so awake .. haha . Ah Di ask me something which i forgot what . Then i replied him with "hmm.." and he asked me what does it mean . haha . Cause by the time , i'm lazy to speak up already . hee` Reached home around 6am , bath , message around to let them know i reached home safely already . haha . It was really fun laa . I was in the adidas jacket . haha . That smoky lala land was really cold know .. And that Kim Long still pass me ice . haha . My hair stinks cause of the smoke .. Eeeww .. haha . Was so curious about this and that , so i kept asking Ah Di why like this and that . Saw a few drunk ones and was feeling a lil' scared but i've got bodyguard . haha . Ahdi protected me .. hee` Was standing behind him laa . Cause those drunkards were really scary .. Thank god Ah Di wasn't drunk , if he was then i guess i'll be lost . haha . Anyway , really had loads of fun . I WANNA GO AGAIN !!!But i guess it wont be so soon ... Cause i find it hard laa , like if i'm follwing then Ah Di cant really go to the place he wanna go . And he's afraid that fights might happen and i wont know what to do due to my gong-ness . haha . I'm missing the excitements i have at Boat Quay , like seeing drunkards , looking out for funny people . haha . Lastly , still needa thank ~~rosey~~ AhDi laa .. He paid for my cabbed fare there and back home . hee` Okay , gotta stop here already . Update more later .. =)

"It's a new year , can i take last year as a dream ? I really wonder . "

Say bye bye to 2005 , and welcome 2006 !!

2005-12-30T23:59:00.000+08:00

Oh... I'm back to blog . haha . Tmr is my last day working already .. Aww... That's sad right ? Mmmms , will miss all my colleague there . People like , Elise , she's the oldest (better not let her see this) but she always want me to call her "jie jie " . And she always have lotsa funny and act - young actions , like imitating Japanese or those Caucasians language . haha . I always talk to her in Hokkien , this makes my Hokkien better . haha . She's veh fun to chat and joke with laa . hee .. Next is Hanis , she's veh funny at times , love to make funny noises and her chinese is veh good . haha . After her is Joannie , this 21 years old mummy , her kid is already 5 years old . haha . She's fun to joke with also .. haha . We always eat together and she always wanna ask me buy student meal . haha . Lastly is my supervisor , Jenny , this workacholic can work and forget to eat . haha . Quite strict at times , but when we joke together , she's always the one laughing non- stop . haha . Ohh , i forgot my good good fren there , Aileen , we always crapped together cause we always get to do the same thing together . haha . So we did those things and other funny things . haha . And we both always countdown the time together .. Weehee`Okay dong , last few days of working was quite okay .. haha . There's one day where me and Aileen needa wrap up the ESTEE LAUDER thingy , and Jenny kept saying we fail . So we needa wrap it all over again . haha . Aileen was like saying " we wrap till the shop close . then go home . " haha . It's like 7pm only , wrapping that stupid thingy only took us 15 mins .. haha . I think my Hokkien improved a lot man .. haha . Tmr is new year's eve , am going to town for countdown after my work and meet Gransazers . hee` After meeting them , i think will go look for ROSEY ROSE . haha . Not gonna be home early , i guess . haha . Wanna have fun already laa .. After that , it's school reopen and stuffs . Then i wont have time to enjoy . haha . Ohh , and recently i or maybe we (my colleagues) spotted this Mr. nice guy .. haha . He's working so near to our shop and he always walk pass our shop . wahaha` There's one time he came into our shop and i served him . woohoo~ From then onwards , when ever he walk pass , those colleagues that see him will "*cough* nice guy *cough* " haha . Then i'll look out and smile . haha . We all call him " Mr. nice guy . " haha . Okay , lotsa copyright-ers recently ya . Those fkup ppl with no fcuking brains to think . Ewww.... Pui ~! And lastly , GANBEH called me on Thursday midnight , so its Friday morning laa . haha . He called and he only said "hello , wyn" den the line was cut . bloody shit ! Then just now he called and we chatted for like 10mins or lesser than that and the line was cut again . Fcuking hell shit ! Anyway , i gotta stop here already . Nights all . Love everyone !! <3

Someone to have and hold ,
With all my heart and soul .

Dont be a silly little fucker infront of me .

2005-12-27T23:44:00.000+08:00

I actually wanted to blog around 11 + and now it's like 01:35am , but when i open up my Blogger i became busy chatting with 6 people at a time . haha . Now decrease to 4 people already . haha . Woke up at 3pm .. den my maternal side god bro Jun was here , so we crapped all the way till dinner time . Went down to meet Edwin to get my presents . haha . He rocks ! He's my nek nek .. haha . He bought me two presents , one is from malaysia , cause that time he went so he bought for me . And the present look like someone shitting , and the shit came out in a funny way . haha . Then the next one is *drumrolls please* HE BOUGHT ME THE CROWN BRACELET !!!! weehee`I love it so much laaa . hee` Went for dinner and Sembawang Shopping Centre , then mum was talking about Tom Yum Soup , den i quickly add in "Haadyai one nicer .." haha . Was crapping with Jun all the time and wento Ping unce's house to slack . haha . That's all for today .. Am working tmr !!! BORING !!! My leg is still veh painful .. Stupid shit !! I got veh angry , piss off , furious and fed up just now . Stop saying that Wynny have a boyfriend can ? Hell ya . Where is Wynny's boyfriend then ? What the fcuk ! WYNNY HAVE GOT NO BOYFRIEND !!! And stop irritating me with all stupid questions , or actions . I seriously HATE it to the core ! If you people have freaking brains , PLEASE GO AND THINK ! Thank you . =) Thanks to Edwin , cause just now when i got fed up .. i told him everything and he told me lotsa MEAN stuffs . haha . Okay , i gotta go sleep now . Pictures below .. =)

the crown bracelet Edwin bought for me . =))

side view of the "thing" Edwin bought for me in m'sia .

look like someone shitting right ? wahaha`

Heng and Wyn =)

Melt me with chocolates .

2005-12-26T23:10:00.000+08:00

Am back from work .. Just finish watching Super Funkies , darn sad sia ! Last episode already .. =( Anyway , today work was boring .. darn boring . But i saw Ben Yeo today .. The Channel U hunk .. weehee` He's darn cool and handsome laa . But ... He's with his girlfriend or wife . Ner ner .. Spoil everything . haha . Knocked off around 10:10pm and saw my friend waiting for bus too , so we chatted all the way from my workplace till i reached Khatib . Woosshh` am very very tired ! Tmr having off .. Thank god ! =) But i guess will be meeting Gransazers up for i-dont-know-what . haha . I fcuking sprained my leg again i think .. it's very pain .. Cause that day i ran veh fast to Outram Park MRT Station . Then i found out , the station was opposite . So i ran all the way there .. and my leg is fcuking pain so i started limping into the platform area and it's really veh pain . It's still painful now . Bloody hell !! Haven recover , sprain again . Stupid ass !! Will stop working on 31st December 2005 and then i'm gonna go cut my hair . Prepare my school stuffs and get enough SLEEP !!!! I miss my sleep .. Oh and i got something to scold .. Some fcuking customers are really fcuking unreasonable and impatient . They fugging did last minute shopping and hurry you to do those wrapping stuffs . Fku m'am or sir !! Go wrap yourself then , dont wait laa . What the fcuk ! And afterall , i needa place a smile on my face and say "thank you " while they give me fucked up faces . Hell shit ! Cannot stand man !! Plurggh `!! Ohh , and Wynny is having cramps now .. veh pain !! The medicine ran out again , but mum is going to get it tmr . =) I am tired now .. Nights all . Love everyone !!

" When you've missed the time , there's no way you can turn it back . "

What a GREAT christmas !

2005-12-25T23:36:00.000+08:00

oh.. this year's christmas wasn't fun like last year's . This year's christmas eve was quite okay laa . Was working yesterday till 10pm and i left the place quick . Took a cab down to Wisma Atria , fcuking traffic jam and my cab fee is like $7+ when it's suppose to be around $3+ all the time . The moment i got off the cab , i got sprayed by this group of guys whom walked pass . Then i quicken my step and squeeze my way to the nearest traffic light , but fcuk ! when i reached the traffic light , people start spraying while waiting . I was so foamy laa .. Outside TAKA was a lil stupid , I walk alone it was scary . And i was attacked by this group of Ah Bengs whom have hair colour ranges from Purple , Orange , Gold and some stupid colours . There were around 7 people in their group , they all attack me , and it's only me . What the fcuk ! So i was like screaming : " ahh!! dont spray me . i'm innocent .. ahh !!" Then one of them replied : " Merry Christmas ! hohoho ~ " Ho your stupid ass ahh .. My hair was covered with foam . And before they left , they "bua" (rubbed) their foamy hand on my shoulder because they spray me and some others sprayed them . I was like running through the crowd laa . Got asked a few times .. but i hecked and just say "i no handphone .." and i quicken my steps . Then i saw JOJO ~ and friends . haha . They a lil' crazy laa .. Sisi sprayed me then after that she told me to be "mei mei .." (pretty pretty) haha . Was very fun laa , but when i saw Bangladesh , my mood went down . I was so scared laa .. Then i kept holding on to Jo's hand then she kept telling me not to be scared . haha . Squeeze my way to Wisma and the fcuking indian security guard started to bark at me , because i ignore him . haha . Then while walking outta Wisma , i saw Seith and his friends .. all guys laa . He called me : " wyn wyn ! remember me a not ? i Seith laa . " den we started talking and i was in the middle surrounded by his friends and him . Cause got lotsa Bangladesh and his friends all asked me to stand in the middle . So they "escorted" me to the MRT station .. And Seith was walking infront of me , so i pulled on to his blouse cause i'm scared of being pulled away . haha . They were great laa . Will meet Seith soon , cause we're exchanging presents. haha . =) When i reached the station , one of the uncle said : " go out cannot come in . " But i went to the Orchard Boulevard underpass to make a call to Serene and i went in . Was stopped by this malay police uncle and he asked me to go out and walked one big round back to the entrance . So i acted pathetic and told him : " i lost my cousin , i went out to make a call and she's waiting for me at the platform now . " Uncle : " nono .. cannot .. go out cannot come in ." Wynny : " huh .. but i lost her .. now she's waiting for me at the platform. " Uncle : " okay okay .. actually cannot one .. come , i let you in . " wooho~ CRAP LAA WYNNY !!! haha . Met Serene and took train down to city hall and walked to Starbucks to get our Cramel Frap , but i said " Frapamel Crapuchino " . haha . Crap with the cashier , i told him : " Merry Christmas ! SOON ... " Then its already 11:50pm , we needa reach CONRAD by 12am . So i asked the person there how to go CONRAD , he crapped with us but he did tell us how to go laa . After we got our drinks , we ran out . But while running out , they wished us Merry Christmas ! So we shouted back "MEERY CHRISTMAS !!" Everyone in Starbucks looked at us as we run out . haha . And those working in the Starbucks woohoo-ed at us . haha . Ran to CONRAD .. and i leg is fcuking painful . Haven fully recover .. sob sob~ CONRAD was quiet and boring .. Wento Rene house and stay over and we were crapping about our working experience. haha . Wento work today as usual laa . Fugging quiet and was tired . But today i served a Thai customer , and i thought of GANBEH . haha . I received a parcel from him , but i think he din pay enough money for it . So i needa go down and pay the remaining amount to get the parcel . woohoo~ am so excited !! Gonna go get it soon . Hope that he leaves his address for me . haha . What a NICE chritmas laa . WORKING and WORKING !! I want Christmas presents !!! Okay , am tired now . Nights everyone . Miss all .. LOVE ALL !!!

Merry Christmas = Lonely Christmas

2005-12-21T23:58:00.000+08:00

Yesterday i was on leave .. wooohoo` *jumps around* So i slept all the way till 1:30pm . weehee` so good ! Woke up , prepared and went out to meet Gransazers and Heng at Sembawang MRT . Wento Cine for lunch .. but i din eat laa . I waited for Melvin to finish and i hurried him to Subway to get cookies . haha . Then we both making a fool down there , and Subway's cookies are nice okay . But of course FAMOUS AMOS are nicer ! *yum yum* We had loads of fun laa . Alex and me raced through traffic lights and the losers owe each other BIG GULP . We always reached there together . They wento play pool , but me and [him] din play .. I was crapping around there . Arrange balls .. The guys kept using " hey , YOUR BALL LAA . " haha . And they start laughing .. Dirty laa . After pool , was walknig with Melvin , then stepped into some muddy fcuking thing . Melvin , being a veh nice gentleman , he passed me tissue paper . haha . When we were at Plaza Singapura , i saw Joannie .. my work-mate . haha . We both having off yesterday . We chatted for awhile and we ended off by saying to each other , " act as you never see me today .." haha . Wento 77th Street with Heng , and i told her " Jie , buy me the crown thing laa .. please..." She only smile back . Sighh.. But i guess she's buying laa . haha . weehee` I love her laa . When we wento Newton , its a total RETARDED thing there . I hate that place .. Eeeek ! Dinner was at Sembawang , dinner was fun too . After dinner was like , 11:30pm already . I saw John , and he was cycling .. haha . I kept shouting his name . He heartless laa . =p No more bus back , so me and Jonathan decided to take cab home . He just stay opposite me , so can laa . He pay the cab fare ... weehee` We then call Heng and conference , we asked Andy to call in too and we wished him Happy Birthday . We all rocks laa . haha . Am missing the good times we had.. =( Today i woke up at 9+ to practice my dance and my right leg hurts a little , is because yesterday raced with Alex .. Then sprain .. haha . Wento work today and my leg really hurts ! But was having fun there laa . Elsie and Joannie .. haha . Crap here and there . Went off earlier for work , cause wanna go 4th uncle shop to massage my leg . Wahh .. pain know .. Then he bandage my leg and the smell.. Buay ta han . Strong dao ... I saw Ah Di also .. Stupid Rose .. haha . Tmr am going to school at 9am .. aww.. i just ate 2 panadols , my head hurts . Working at 1pm tmr .. Poor Wynny .. =( So people , must buy me Xmas present to make me feel happier . haha . When i'm working , i saw lotsa people buying presents for their love ones .. Sweet dao .. Okay , Wynny wake up laa . haha . Gotta stop here already . Nights all . Love everyone ("v")

Guy : " Why you always dont let me join you , when you're playing in the rain ?"
Girl : "Because i'm always crying in the rain , and i dont wanna let you see it . "

Maybe this is just love .

2005-12-19T23:33:00.000+08:00

Haven been blogging for almost a week . Okay , am busy ya . I should say busy "working" . haha . At my outlet , people there were fun okay . Like Hanis , Elsie , Joannie and Jenny . haha . Hanis rocks laa . lalala`All those cosmetic testers were fun . haha . And my feet hurts like fcuk ! Wearing heels everyday , walking around , standing from like 1-10pm . What the fcuk !! But working there is fun .. weehee` It's sad that am not having any leave on X'mas eve and X'mas day itself . Serene is also working in the same company as me , but different outlet . hee` Have been eating my dinner at 11pm almos everyday . Shit !! This is so unhealthy !! woohoo` Tmr is my off day , but its andy's bday . So i have to sacrifice my sleep for him . haha . Good right ? Thank you thank you . =) And yesterday was quite fun , Mum was having comp. at Amk . So i took cab down to Amk .. But the community centre gate was closed . I rang up Dad and ask him to come out . So when he was out , we were both looking for the entrance . But all lock laa . Stupid !!! Was in pants , so i just heck care and climbed in . haha . Dad was like wanting to hold me . But he dont know how to laa . Mum won the Best Dress award .. woohoo` and Uncle Derrick came in 3rd !! yeah yeah !! *cheers* Tmr i'm going for movie , shopping and pooling with the Gransazers . Okay .. Finally we met after so long . haha . I wento watch Peharps Love that day . Darn nice okay ! It's a MUST WATCH !!! I dont mind watching it for the second time . haha . woohoo` Am singing the songs everytime . haha . Wynny is going crazy . I just found out , recently i'm lazy to like talk so much . I AM LAZY TO EVEN SPEAK UP NOW . God !! What happen ? Haiya , dont care laa . I missed all my sleeps now . I never slept for more thatn 8 hours everyday can . Reminiscing the good old days where Wynny slept for 12 hours or more . That's fcuking cool !! Okay , i get pissed off with lotsa things , like those fcuking trust , concern , asking for something too much, and some stupid stuffs . Fcuking hell laa ! Dont play around with my mood , or i'll fcuking swear and curse you . Stupid Morons ! Oh yupps , yesterday i dreamt of GANBEH ! I dreamt that i'm going to meet him . haha . Like in Haadyai .. But no matter how much i persuade my Mum to go to the shopping centre where GANBEH's shop was at , Mum only said "Okay.." But , we never went . Idiot ! I still cant get to GANBEH . I dont know what the hell happen laa . Shitty ! haha . I gotta go off now . Thanks to everyone whom helped me and you know you know . haha . Good night ! Love all ! Missing GANBEH !! ROSE , ROSEY !! <3

"If i were to choose between Hell and Heaven , I would have chosen Hell . "

Santa can you hear me ?

2005-12-13T23:47:00.000+08:00

Am back from dinner at Causeway Point ! ! Kinda catastrophe.. Cause of the presence of someone . Ner ner .. He never speak i can still tolerate . But , when he opens he bladdy mouth . I cant help but to glare and ignore him . I never bother to listen .. Bladdy piece of shit ! Urgh !! Just shut the fcuking hell up and go eat dog's poo ! Fcuking noisy and irritating ! Okay , i know i'm bad scolding him all this . But i dont care ! Hmm , just now godma , mum and others asked me about [him] ... same thing , i din even whisper a word . Tmr mum will be out from morning till night . She's going on a one day cruise . I'll be having tuition at 2pm tmr ! I dont look forward to it .. Urgh ! But , i looked forward for what's happening int he night . haha . Watching Peharps Love !! woohoo~ I forgot , i have to miss GANBEH ! haha . Okay , i gotta stop here already ! G'night everyone . Love all !!

When you have to look away ,
When you don't have much to say .
That's when I love you ,
I love you .
Just that way .
("v")

When you don`t have much to say .

2005-12-13T15:25:00.000+08:00

Its 3pm now . Wynny just woke up and finish bathing . haha . Was lazy to update yesterday . So , yesterday woke up reluctantly with headache and arms aching laa . Bath , prepared and wento meet chew . Meeting was okay . But Reena went there to do nothing , because its not her programme . haha . Then say kept saying : " Cb laa Justin , ask me come here to nothing . I can stay at home and sleep lor . " wahaha` After meeting , me , Chew and Reena decided to go Causeway Point for lunch and walk around . Walked around Causeway Point , then i decided to go J8 . haha . So all headed to J8 .. We saw this crazy ah pek on the train platform . haha . He's mad ! He's crazy . We saw him walked into the train from the other platform , but we saw him in the same train and cabin as us . haha .Eeee~! And J8 is sooo small laa , saw Tong Tong mei there . wwuuu~ Wento 77th Street and saw the crown necklance and bracelet . Urgh ~! Stupid dumb dumb !! Temptation level : Very Strong !! haha . Walked around for awhile , and were bored already . So decide to go home . While walking to the train station , we heard this lady telling her fren that she's going to Taiwan later . We three gave each other the "wow!" looked and laughed . haha . Then i started playing around and kept telling Reena that i'm flying to Taiwan later . haha . While we were in the train , we heard another lady booking flight to Auckland . Ohh... Everyone is flying around ! I also wanna fly around to ermm , Paris , or say , Haadyai ? haha . Okay , i know i am dreaming laa . haha . And , we're aren't going to Sentosa this Thursday already . Maybe going for Reena's chalet and i'm psychoing Sarah to bring her dog there . haha . We really have loads of fun yesterday , talking , laughing , gossiping and playing around . haha . Anyway , am going to meet godma and others for dinner later at Causeway Point again ~ haha . Having tuition tmr at 2pm and in the night will be watching Peharps Love with cousins . weehee` Takeshi !! woohoo~ Just hung up the phone with Edwin . haha . He fugging crapper . Yeah !! Gransazers are back again !! wahaha` Edwin bought something for me . Not bad , still remember me . haha . Okay , gotta stop here already . Update more in the night ! =)

When nothing you do can change my mind .

2005-12-11T22:29:00.000+08:00

I just reached home from godma's house . Oh .. am so tired laa . Woked up at 9+ this morning , and i slept around 3+ yesterday night . Was watching this veh old movie , darn funny laa . haha . Ate breakfast with godparents , lil' Trina and naughty boy Kenneth . After breakfast , lil' Trina and Kenneth went up to godma's house with us and slack . haha . Lil' Trina was crying laa , cause she kinda scared and tired . But Kenneth was running around the house and as usual talking to me about Power Rangers . haha . So i also talked to him about it and i found out , actually i know quite a lot of Power Rangers stuffs . hee` Godma then told me , Lil' Trina and Kenneth is staying at her house till night time . woohoo~ So i played around with Kenneth and Lil' Trina crawling around the living room . Carried Trina and walked around , she din cry . weehee` Played with her , and my "ah-ler-ler" works on her . haha . Then played "peek-a-boo" with her using her towel . wahaha` Kenneth seriously have lotsa cranky ideas ,

he told me : "you what ..."
wyn : " you what what ? "
kenneth : " i what what what ?"
wyn : " haha . you what what , you what . "

Kenneth repeated my last sentence over and over again . haha . He's veh naughty laa . When Trina cry , he just go over pat on her shoulder two times then he go back to play his stuffs again . wahaha` Kept carrying Trina around , cause godma needa cook lunch and dinner . Then hand aching now . Cause , i kept playing "superman" with Trina . haha . Guess you all know how issit played laa . haha . Yesterday , wento ah ma's house to have dinner . And , my freaking bro got a job from K-Box @ Toa Payoh . I'm so happy !! He wont be home early .. wahaha ` Anyway , am going to school tmr at 10am . GOD !! My precious sleep ... *sobs sobs* I almost forgot half of the GRANSAZERS arent in spore , but they'll be back soon . =)) Alrights ! gotta stop here already .. Nights all ! Love everyone !!

And when you forget that we had a date ,
That look that u give when you show up late .
Sweetie I love you ,
I love you anyway .
("v")

You can count on me for life .

2005-12-09T23:32:00.000+08:00

*jump and scream around* AHDI TAGGED MY BOARD !! haha . Was seriously shocked , stunt , speechless , gong-ified and brain stopped functioning . haha . Dont really know how he managed to ~~bribe~~ get my blog's url . haha . Who knows , maybe he's also my blog fan . wahaha` But seriously shocked laa . Wuuhoo~ Anyway , i woked up at 1+ today . Still veh tired ahh.. haha . Wento AhDi's house to watch last week's Rainbow Connection . Darn nice ! But AhDi keep disturbing me . I dont cousin him already . haha . I dont know how i smiled laa , den he gave me this stupid look and say its fake .Ner ner .. So now i must smile from my HEART . Wynny gotta learn how to smile from her heart . haha . Quite fun disturbing him back with that smile . But Wynny must bear the consequnces laa . *sobs sobs* haha . I can also throw out all my unhappiness when i hit on his back . *evil grins* Punching him is also another fun thing , train my strength . He say its painful .. woohoo~ Wynny is powerful !! yeah ! And i found out that my elbow's bone wasnt straight , AhDi's one is straight . Urgh ! haha .Watched Rainbow Connection at 9pm again , aww.. today is so Rainbow Connection-ish . haha . After watching it , mum called and said she was at the carpark . So i went down with AhDi , but mum haven reach yet . Disturbed him with that famous smile of mine again . haha . After i hopped into mum's car , wento 6th aunt place and saw 2nd aunt , 8th aunt and 3rd uncle's wife ( i dont know what issit called) . So the aunties chatted while i lied on Jason's bed and rest . haha . Left around 11:35pm and headed home . GOD !! I dont know where to go tmr.. Rene reply me asap ya . =) Blasting the same song again . Am seriously in love with that song already . haha . Mum thought GANBEH is my new boyfriend . For heaven's sake , GANBEH and me are just friends , veh veh veh good friends . haha . Others , please dont misunderstand our relationship . haha . I so miss GANBEH laa . GANBEH , you see ? Darn ! Guess he cant see , we still cant connect to each other . Stupid network ! =) And recently the newspaper have been reporting about Zoe Tay's thingy . What the fcuk man ! Cant stand those viewers whom actually called in to complain . Maybe they are just plain jealous about Zoe walking on the stage lotsa times where they dont have the chance to even step into Mediacorp's Reception or Carpark . Darn them ! Okay , gotta stop here already . Nights everyone . Love all ! <3

And when you can't quite match your clothes
Or when you laugh at your own jokes
That's when I love you
I love you more than you know
("v")

Cause that's when I love you .

2005-12-08T22:55:00.000+08:00

*yawns* I woked up at 2pm today . But i actually did wake up at 10+ .. hee` After i woke up , mum cooked congee for me and she went out . She left 50$ for me on the table . But i know i needa return her 30$ back . haha . I was waiting for my tuition to start . Tuition started at 4pm , time passed quickly . haha . After my tuition prepared myself and went out to meet chew for dinner . Dinner was at mac , talked alot , crapped alot and laughed alot . haha . We both are hating the same person for the same reason . We rocks ! haha . Wento walk around Sun Plaza after dinner and we saw heng . blah blah blah till 8:45pm , me and chew left cause we both rushing home to watch Rainbow Connection . haha . The show was nice laa , but that stupid xiao qian URGH ! Jianyi also another one .. Tsk tsk tsk .... After the show , came online then was asking about tmr . Hmm , still discussing if we're going out tmr . Haiyo .. Thought of GANBEH again , cause .... i dont wanna tell you all . haha . GANBEH !!! "When you smile , you made my heart thump so fast . When you punch me , you made me felt painless . " haha . GANBEH told me this that time and i return him with -> "Your crappiness made me drown .. and your sweetness made me fly ". haha . We became so poetic . GOD ! GANBEH ! miss you so much laa .. haha . Okay , gotta stop here already . G'night everyone ! Love all !! <3

The more my heart can't get enough ,
That's when I love you ,
When I love you no matter what .
<3

Here's my promise made tonight .

2005-12-07T23:55:00.000+08:00

Tuesday - 06.12.2005

I woke up at 8am reluctanly . *sniff sniff* Lazed on my bed till my Dad say "i drive you there later." wwwwuuu~ So i can take my own sweet time to prepare . haha . Left home and wento meet chew then we had breakfast at mac . Wah.. chew change handphone , so cool laa ! I WANNA CHANGE PHONE ALSO !! =) Wento school to discuss about the camp and met Mr. Raj in the conference room . Anthony was funny laa .

Anthony : " Who is free on Saturday ?"
Wyn : " Saturday go where ?"
Anthony : *pause for awhile* "Saturday i bring you go gai gai.."
Wyn : "Gai gai ? okay okay .. Haha . I not free laa . "

haha . After meeting wento Sun Plaza , on the way there chew saw some not veh nice thing . We saw Mr. A with another girl . And Mr. A just broke up with chew . WHAT THE FCUK MISTER ? I HATE YOU ! FUGLY SHIT ! I DESPISE YOUR ACT !! YOU STUPID BRAINLESS , SHITTY , NEURONIC BASTARD !!! Walked at Sun Plaza for awhile and headed home . On the way home was still blasting "That's When I Love You - Aslyn " haha . When i reached home 6th aunt was at my house .. haha . So i bathed and prepared then went out to meet Rene at the station . I was late laa , suppose to meet her at 4pm i guess i reached there ard 4:10pm . hee` So we headed down to Bugis , in the train we were blasting some veh high songs . haha . Then me and Rene was like shaking and getting so high . wahaha .. When we reached Bugis , was walking around Paragon and looking out for AhDi's present . But we always end up looking at the stuffs that we want . haha . So we kept telling each other "AhDi . AhDi . " to make us not shop for our own stuffs . haha . Wento the National Library as Rene wanna return her books and we had lotsa fun while returning the book . haha . Talked about our related Mister Kenny Yap ..haha . We then walked around Paragon and saw lotsa stuffs that fitted AhDi , but we dont know his size . haha . So we called Lynsey and ask and we wento TOPSHOP . haha . Saw this real nice t-shirt laa . Seriously , veh nice . haha . So we ended up buying t-shirt and boxers . haha . Walked into 77th Street also , i saw this veh nice crown necklance and bracelet . I WANT !! Its really nice laa . People , buy that for me on X'mas okay ? =) Urgh !! Met the rest and headed to V8 CAFE for dinner .. My mood suddenly changed due to some stupid and sickening stuffs . So i kept quiet and was veh moody . Till i finish my spag , and then i asked Lyn to go get the cake . Then my mood came back again .. woohoo~ wento get the cake with Lyn and Xp and on the way we forgot we've no lighter , so wento look for Lyn's friend . I saw that lolipop .. Remember last time Alex bought it for me .. haha . So i took money from Lyn and bought it . YEAH YEAH !! I was like a 10 yrs old kid . I dont care ! haha . Went back to V8 then the three of us kalang kabot i wanted to light up the candles . So i lighted it but i burnt my finger again . haha . Stupid right ? haha . Walked into v8 with the cake .. abit pai seh laa . haha . Take photos , sing song , cut cake eat cake till around 8+ , got outta v8 and walked to Esplanade . Gave AhDi his present and wwooo~ it fitted nicely . Yeah ! haha . I kept telling AhDi to get me the Adidas Watch , but .. he say wait till he work . So sad... *sniff sniff* On the way to Esplanade was crapping a lot with AhDi , and i kept telling him "i dont cousin you ahh .." haha . Then the group was saying we looked like couple cause we both wore grey top and i wore denim skirt and he wore jeans . haha . Was really fun crapping around but like entertainer . haha . Wento Esplanade but din go up to the rooftop , walked across the bridge then Xing talked about that time we watched fireworks . Ahdi added in too .. Then you know , you know .. So i turned back to AhDi then i told him "dont say ...." he understood laa . haha . Wento Lau Pa Sat for a drink then headed home . On the way home Rene got mad and started laughing while me and AhDi was exploring our fingers . haha . Reached home at i-dont-know-what-time , bath and climb up to my bed . =) Afterall , it was a nice , fun , crappy and meaningful day . haha . I love all my cousins !! Ohh yups ! I suddenly thought of GANBEH cause was wearing the bracelet he gave me . haha . I MISS YOU LAA... =pPp G'night everyone !

Wednesday - 07.12.2005

I woked up at 2pm with swollen and watery eyes . haha . I seriously din get enough sleep . haha . Prepared for tuition and it was fun .. haha . We talked alot cause we din see each other for like 1 months plus . hee` Tuition ended around 3:30pm and was thinking if i wanna go over to AhDi's house to watch the show . But he not at home , put me aeroplane . ben dan ! haha . So i went out with mum to Thomson Plaza to look for Kai Ma ( canto ) on the way there i was blasting some veh high songs so in the car i was like shaking and got so high . haha . Was in shades and cap so no one know its me . haha . Ate dinner at Thomson Plaza and i love the deserts . aww.. Rushed home to watch Rainbow Connection darn nice . After watching came online and chat all the way till almost 3am then i wento sleep . My freaking bro is not at home ! *cheers* woohoo~ He went for chalet and wont be back till Friday !! But Wynny slept with her parents . haha . Below is my conversation with heng ,

heng : "andy birthday cuming le lelxx.."
wyn : "dont care..haha . =p"
heng : "he though of going k box.."
heng : "u wanna go??"
wyn : "ohh..okayy.. now , i care .. haha ! "
heng : "bad siah u!!!"
wyn : "haha! bleah.."

Okay , i'm bad . haha . Hmm , its been almost a week and i'm still blasting "That's When I Love You - Aslyn" am not tired of it . Maybe when GANBEH sang this to me , its really meaningful . GANBEH OH~ GANBEH ! Sigh.. Till now , i still cant connect to him . DARN !! God Bless ... Recently , my best friends had been outta love and seeing them cry really hurts and scares me . It made me scared to fall in love or to love someone deeply . God !! Okay , i guess i have to stop here already . And i've already upload those pics .. Do check them out ya ! Nights all ! <3

To hear you stumble when you speak ,
or see you walk with two left feet .
That's when I love you .
I love you...endlessly .

When i love you , no matter what .

2005-12-05T22:06:00.000+08:00

Guess what time i woke up today ? *drum rolls* Wynny woke up at 5pm !!! haha . Pro right ? Yups yups ! Nobody disturb me from me sleep , no one message me , mum din even come into my room to make noise . Ohh... the feeling is sooo good !! Woke up , bath and ate brunch then i was sitting on the sofa thinking of what to do . Mum then told me , my tuition teacher called in the morning . Urgh ! This means , Wynny is having tuition soon . Double Urgh-ness !! So , i called my teacher and we confirmed the time and days for tuition . This Wednesday and Friday 2pm . BORING ! Came online and started blasting "That's When I Love You - Aslyn " all the way even now . I'm oh-so in love with that song now . Did some house chores because mum is sick . Wynny is a good girl , yes she is ! =) Played with my MAGIC TOWEL . haha . Darn fun ! It will expand itslef when you soak it in water . haha . Was having so much fun myself . haha . Tmr having meeting in school at 11pm , gotta meet chew at 9:15am for breakfast and discuss about the meeting . Hope the meeting wont take too long because i needa meet Rene at 4:15pm then head down to Bugis to buy Ahdi's present . We're celebrating his bday at V8 cafe ..But , i still needa get money from my parents first . Hmm , I dont know for what freaking reason I cant connect to my dearest GANBEH .There's some connection problem . I think he cant connect to me also . FCUK ! I so miss him laa . GANBEH GANBEH GANBEH !! His stupid " saa-waa-dee-kaab" and dancing . haha . I'm also missing "my friend" . GOD ! Anyway , I'm gonna sleep early tonight cause i needa wake up darn early tmr laa . I'll miss my bed ! Okay peeps , gotta stop here already . G'night everyone . Love all <3

So when you turn to hide your eyes ,
Because the movie, it made you cry .
That's when I love you .
I love you a little more each time .
("v")

the more i learn , the more i love .

2005-12-04T23:02:00.000+08:00

yeah peeps ! Finally i finish blogging about my trip .. haha . Just scroll down to those titled "saa - waa - dee , haadyai" and i've already upload those photos . haha . I so miss haadyai now . *sniff sniff* Ohh , did i mention that i kinda played thai boxing there . haha . Darn fun ! But mine is anyhow one laa , cause was playing with ah long .. I watched thai boxing there , so i just act like one . haha . CRAP LAA WYNNY !! I think i forgot to mention lotsa stuffs laa . Like being approached , cried for stupid reasons , being pampered and was like a lil' children there . haha . I seriously love mickey laa . People , buy me more mickey mouse stuffs for x'mas okayy ? haha . Ohh yupps , i forgot to mention .. Every restaurant i went in haadyai , they have a glass of roses . I'm starting to like roses . SHIT !! That's so not wynny right? Maybe i just had a crush on roses .. I hope so . Am blasting "That's When I Love You - Aslyn " cause GANBEH sang this to me , when his player plays that song . He sang it with so much feelings , although he sang lotsa songs to me . But for this , he sang it so well and i think he could be the next Thailand Idol . haha . I MISS GANBEH LAA ... And he gave me this veh nice bracelet . Love it so much !Hmm .. Shuldn't have crap so much with him , now i miss his crapping . Actually , felt quite bad calling him GANBEH , cause its not his real name . lalala` But everytime i sees him , this word will appear in my mind . His real name is long laa .. I dont know how to spell it , but i know how to say it . haha . Watched Star Awards just now , darn nice ! Vincent Ng got in top 10 !! haha . weehee` Our dearest Ahdi's birthday is coming soon , on Tuesday . God !! We still dont know what to get for him . Every time he'll tell us , " if you all happy , den i'll be happy too . " But , ahhh.... we'll get something for him laa . He still owe rene and me x'mas pressie from last year . Ner ner .. Am feeling kinda aimless now , cause there's nothing for me to look forward to . I dont know why . You see , when i'm back from M'sia , i looked forward to erge's wedding , after which its my trip to haadyai . Now , i've got no plans already . So aimless , not exciting and dull life huh .. Go haadyai again !! *slaps forehead* Nahh... wynny , perish all your stupid thoughts laa . Go save money first before you think of leaving to haadyai . Now , you're in spore .. No more haadyai !! *sobs sobs* Where shuld i wander tmr ? Its so empty now . Colour my life , make it more exciting . That will be MY LIFE , MY COPYRIGHT ! okayy .. enough wynny . Wynny is too bored , that's why become so crappy . lalala` i gotta stop here already . G'night world . Love all !! <3

M-I-C-K-E-Y ! I LOVE MICKEY !
mum shouts : " go to sleep laa ."
*Wynny runs into her room and up to her bed den cover herself with that so cosy blanket . <3

I'M BACK !!!

2005-12-03T23:20:00.000+08:00

ohh... wynny is back !!! i seriously miss thailand sooooo muchh laa . of course missing GANBEH . who is ganbeh ?? haha . will tell you tmr when i blog about my trip . am very tired now .. nights all !

M-I-C-K-E-Y !!

saa - waa - dee , haadyai ( last part )

2005-12-02T18:48:00.000+08:00

Friday - 2nd Dec. 2005

had breakfast outside with godpa and co , ate pizza for lunch .. darn cheap laa . wento look for GANBEH with jess , cause jess wanna pierce her ear . wwuu` its scary . they use needle to poke . veh pain ahh .. but GANBEH was crapping and dancing to make jess relax . haha . during evening time , wento look for GANBEH again . haha . we both looked at each other and laugh . haha . mum did temp. tattoo also . i love his dressing sense laa . darn cool !!! and look at those tattoos on his hand and leg . COOL !!! the serious way when he's doing his work .. haha . melt girls heart can .haha . but if you know him well ,like me . haha . it wont melt your heart laa . it'll just be admiring . haha . after mum finish her tattoo , she went back to rest . while me and GANBEH walked out the mall tgt , but we parted outside laa . cause he wento look for his fat friend , while i wento look for jess . haha . the way we parted was stupid .. not gonna tell ya all . haha . its just like lil' children . haha . dinner was nice too .. den went back to pack our bags and i found out , i love MICKEY more . haha . slept veh late that night , cause all was talking about she-males in aunt ling's room . haha . ohh ... godpa bought me some nice meat stick . he actually wento this shopping centre which is quite far away from our hotel . because , wynny loves to eat it from young . haha . still remember when i was 4yrs old , i went there for like 2 weeks to stay .. den i was like some kid whom grow up there . lalala` am actually quite sad cause am leaving the next day .. ohh.. G'nights everyone !

Saturday - 3rd Dec. 2005

woke up at 6am , cause was going to the morning market to look around . the market was fun ! weeehee` and i thought of some stupid stuffs laa .. Urgh! went back for breakfast den rested for awhile , wanted to tell GANBEH that i'm leaving already . haha . but i din see him at the shop , so just left him a message .left the hotel around 2pm and head to Haadyai airport . kinda miss GANBEH cause , its will be years l8r after we meet again . our plane delayed because of some royal stuffs . haha . wynny is the princess there laa . haha . CRAP!! reached spore around 7pm , mum wento buy vodka . weehee` that's all laa . wynny loves mickey . wynny loves minnie . haha . nights all !!! love all !! <3

missing haadyai , missing the food , missing everyone , of course missing GANBEH !

saa - waa - dee , haad yai (part two)

2005-11-30T17:47:00.000+08:00

Wednesday - 30th Nov. 2005

i forgot what time i woke up , but i ate breakfast outside with godpa and co . after breakast , sat this " tuk tuk" van to some marketplace . its very very warm there . me and jess walked for awhile , den decide to go back to the hotel to rest . ah ma was in the hotel resting already , so took turns to bath den prepare to shop at the hotel's mall . wento warner bros. and bought powerpuff's cups . haha . and i found out , people are kinda curious about the henna on my hand . when they saw it , they nudge the partners and point to my hand and they ask me . haha . wento look for GANBEH !! wwwooo` cause jess wanna do the temp. tatoo , so did i do it . haha . lalala` chatted alot with GANBEH , lotsa stuffs to talk about .. although his english is rojak .. but i'm smart to understand . haha . GANBEH is really a nice guy to chat with .. haha . there's this part where , he's fren came in wearing this army uniform . den GANBEH stood up , salute and shouted " saa-waa-dee-kaab" den i stood up , salute and smile . haha . abit stupid . haha . den we all laugh and GANBEH continue doing the tattoo for jess . we chatted for like 1hrs+ or so .. den he passed me and jess this clip to clip on . haha . and he said return him tmr ... so we went back to the hotel and rest , crap and talk alot about love life . mmmms , talked about GANBEH too ... haha . darn funny laa . and having STM , i forgot what's after that .. and i only remember , i drank BACARDI and slept . haha . there's more fun to come ...

Thursday - 1st Dec. 2005

woke up quite late .. because me and jess din wanna go shopping with them . so slack at the hotel till noon time , wento return the clips at GANBEH'S shop . but he's not in the shop , but i handed over to his friend . after which , wento some market place outside the hotel and walk around till dinner time . dinner was at some veh chee naa place , and its veh veh cold too . after dinner , walk around till 10+ dont know who bought mango .. wwwuu` veh sour . haha . its nice laa . saw GANBEH outside WATSON . haha . he smiled to me , i smiled back . den he stroke my hair and walked pass . okay , i'm bad . he stroke on my hair .. but i punch his arms . haha . lalala` its our way of communicating . CRAP! haha . went back to the hotel and was counting down to the days i'm leaving back to spore . ohhh... so sad .. after everyone wento sleep , me and jess sat outside the corridor and chatted for awhile , but i was really scared laa . cos the lift kept opening when no one press it . haha . so ran into the room's toilet and we started talking and talking till i-dont-know-what time . i found out , i din talk to GANBEH that day .. so i was like having loads of stuffs to tell him . i mean those that i missed out or i talked about it halfway that day . haha . wento sleep and was veh cold too ... brrr.....

p.s : scroll up for more..

saa-waa-dee , haad yai

2005-11-28T16:55:00.000+08:00

Monday - 28th Nov. 2005

reached the airport at 5am.. darn early . wento check in and bought chocs and ate it for breakfast . *yummy* walked around with jess den mum wento buy ciggies for ah ma . wwwuu~ i help her take the ciggies .. got those veh brave feel . *slaps forehead* haha . "passenger of flight TR 136 please go to the boarding gate now . " wahaha` board the plane and it was veh fun ! before i step into the plane , i told aunt ling that i can smell the plane's smell . haha . den she laugh .. i know its stupid . haha . in the plane was trying my best to sleep . sat with god pa and jess , i sat in the middle . haha . when the plane is taking off .. acted like some stupid sua ku and kept saying "taking off already.." haha . it took arounf 1hr 10 mins to reach Hatyai (haadyai) went i reach there , i wasnt really awake for i-dont-know-why . i thought it was m'sia , me and godma was looking for toilet , den i kept finding for the word "TANDAS" . haha . after awhile , i saw "HONG NAM" (toilet in thai) ohhh.... wynny , you're in thailand now . not in m'sia . haha . board the hired van and wento the oh-so familiar place/ hotel . LGH !! my fav. place of all ... and maybe the most familiar place ever . godpa kept telling me 100baht = S$4 , wwoooo` checked in and i thought i could rest for awhile , but .. they wanted to have breakfast . so went for breakfast and after breakfast .... haha . godpa brought us for hairdo . weehee` its his fren's salon .. so went for this veh nice and relaxing manicure and pedicure . after that , did treatment to my hair and its veh fun .. start to speak a lil' thai and kinda getting use to it . haha . after hairdo , went back with jess and bought "xiao xiong milk " its veh veh nice . i drank that everyday . rested at the hotel till dinner time .. dinner was veh cheap .. haha . after dinner was SHOPPING !! me and jess went shopping ourselves as i know the place quite well laa , wont get lost . i leave the bargaining to jess . haha . around 11pm , went back to the hotel and ohh.. we bought BACARDI . haha . the 7-11 there is cool , i could buy alcoholic drinks there . haha . so every night we buy BACARDI . and it was a veh nice , cosy and tight sleep that night . four person in one room , godma , jess , ah ma and me . haha . that's all for the day ...

Tuesday - 29th Nov. 2005

woke up at 10am .. okay , i'm the last to wake up . haha . lotsa of people in my room talking and chatting . bath and left for breafast and after breakast wento some temple .. because the elder ones wanna pray . but , i din pray laa . wento 3 temples and the 2nd one has one veh veh cute dog . wahaha` am in love with it . love it soooo much !! she's so cute . played with it till the elder ones are done . veh fun ! haha . some aunties ask me why i kept calling my godpa " uncle pa .." haha . yeah .. so mum explains to them . haha . i call him that from young ... they were kinda blur and confuse at first when they heard me calling that . haha . blah blah blah till around 6pm .. went back to the hotel and you know there's a shopping mall from the basement till 5th floor of the hotel . haha . so went for a lil' shopping and started to get mad for MICKEY !! love it soo much . wento the basement and saw wj doing temp. tattoo . and so , this is where i met , saw , get to know GANBEH(not his real name) ! haha . i call him GANBEH , cause i-dont-know-why . he's the tatto artist laa , my friend . haha . he's cool , suave , nice and funny . he helped wj do the tattoo and so we chatted for awhile and am so excited laa . cause after dinner we're watch CARABET SHOW in short , she-male's . haha . was kinda afraid of them .. i dont know why also . but i started singing "kan jian ah kua , wo bu pa bu pa la . " haha . the carabet show was nice . and they're so womanly laa . and also this is where i saw "my friend" . haha . i called him "my friend" because , he's a she-male to be . his actions all is veh girlish and i think he's gonna be one . he's veh cute also ! when he walk in , i was like telling the whole table , " ohhh.. he's sooo cute !!! ahhh ..." den they "who ? who ?" haha . "my friend laa" so the whole table call him "my friend" weeehee` there's one part of the show where one of the transsexual started to "oooiiii.." haha . den everyone must do the same thing back . and this is where the fun part came ... when he or maybe its a she , oi-ed the voice is sooo low laa . haha . after the show , all the peformers were outside for foto-taking sessions . being notti , me and jess wento "oii" around to listen to their voices. haha . bought BACARDI again back to the hotel and crapped in aunt ling room with stupid lame jokes . haha . slept around 1+ that night .. was veh cold night as its raining . G'night world ! <3> p.s : scroll up for more ...

i missed it this time !

2005-11-28T00:48:00.000+08:00

*dad walks infront of wyn and ask,

dad : "wyn , you still with [him] or not ?" wyn : "huh ? what what what ? what thing ?" dad : "you still with [him] ?" wyn : "why you kpo ? *grins* i dont wanna tell you ehs..*sticks out tongue* dad : "den you and [him] got talk ?" wyn : "we dont talk , we chat . there's something called MSN . " dad : "orhh..okay.."

FEW HOURS LATER ,

dad : "wyn , why you and [him] not tgt already? what happen?" wyn : "dont know .." dad : " huh ? dont know?" wyn : "ya .. i dont know .." dad : "shit you laa.. " *smiles*

dad freak me out laa . because for the past few days , i din answer all his qns till just now .. i also dont know why . i think dad is quite concern about it.. or issit kpo ? mmmms , today my parents kept mentioning about him .. even 6th aunt . anyway , i woke up at 3pm today . everyone is at home , but no one calls me up or so . weee` so i just sleep and sleep ... den when i wake up , i saw titus and his mum (auntie sha) .. tell you ... after i bath , wento had the brunch auntie sha packed for me .. titus ate with me . haha . den when i open up , its some ducky rice . its not that i dont like duck rice .. its that , the whole thing dont turn out to be nice .. den auntie sha and mum was talking at the dinning room too . uh ohh ~ but me and titus were great , smart , clever .. haha . when mum and auntie is talking , we on the tv volume veh loud ... den they wento talk in the living room . titus said he'll help me eat some , haha . i quickly scoop a few spoonful of rice to him ... den he goble and goble . haha . suddenly auntie sha walked to the living room to get her drink , den we act like we're competing who is the fastest to finish . eewwww... it sucks ! haha . i ate 5 spoonful , titus help me eat 4 spoonful and ... i shouted : "mummy ! i'm full already .. cannot finish .." haha . titus left after awhile , and i left with my parents and freaking bro for dinner . slacked at 6th aunt house for awhile .. and counting down to my flight time . am flying so sooonnnnn .... wahaha` all my stuffs were almost packed already . haha . am not bringing xiong xiong , because err.. dad dont allow laa . grrr! but i'll miss xiong xiong . =) ohh yupps , thanks to those frens whom actually sent me a message to wish me bon voyage . haha . especially sister , you're the earliest ! hee` its 01:33am now , am not gonna sleep laa . around 3:45am i'll leave the house .. den meet the others and head to the airport . ohh.. i'm so gonna miss you guys !! <<3 okayyy , gotta stop here now . tag my board and miss me okayy ? cant believe , i'm leaving alreadyy .. arghh.. nights everyone ! love all !!!! miss all too ..

the owner / running away : i wont skip my meals , cause i dont wanna have gastric there . i wont do stupid things and injured myself . and i'll be careful . =) thanks a lot . take care of urself too ..

ALL : remember to tag my board , give me huggies and miss me okayy ? deal , set , on , steady ... love you all ! <3

"Never say good-bye when you still want to try , never give up when you still feel you can take it , never say you don't love that person anymore when you can't let go . "

we're all alone .

2005-11-26T23:39:00.000+08:00

ohh.. went for the concert just now . am sorry , its ngee ann poly's band concert .. not the swo thingy . haha . the concert was alright . during the concert , me and rene suddenly got lotsa brothers and we called some malay guy "rose" . haha . i know , anyhow . haha . after the concert , was sooo hungry ! ate BK .. den slack for awhile and left around 10pm and headed home . saw john in the train , we darn funny laa . at first i din see him , den he sent me some cheena msg .. i haven finish reading , i delete alredy . cause dont know how to read .. haha . den i look around .. wwwuu~ i saw him opp. me . haha . started luffing like mad . and before the concert , we wento bugis .. bought a belt and did henna . haha . ohh.. i cant believe i'm like leaving so soon for thailand . ohh.. i tell you , jon came to put the disc outside my doorstep today . den dont know whick fcuker go take away the disc . ner ner .. i curse him or her ah .. arghh ! see laa , now i got no show to watch . stupid ! i just remember , today when i was at my doorstep preparing to go out .. i was blasting my mp3 , den i started singing loudly cause cant really hear the loudness when i sing . haha . den coincidentally my neighbour was preapring to go out also .. haha . so pai seh laa ! hee` anyway , gotta stop here already . and so fast , its been two months already .. nights all ! love all !! and sorry , today's entry not much colours . =) <3

my henna ~

" my heart bleed till it dried up , i wonder what's next . "

dont play around with my attitude !

2005-11-25T23:44:00.000+08:00

i'm back from orchard !! getting so high now .. haha . anyway , wento pick Sherr jie jie up today .. ard 2+ she reached Singapore , ohh... ran over to hug her . haha . den i told her " jiejie ! i miss you alot ! and .. what have you got for me ?" haha . she got me this veh nice handmade cardigan . haha . weehee` den titus was like " wahh .. shuld be i hug her first lehs ... you run so fast .." haha . titus is old laa . *opps* when for lunch with them , den headed down to town and lok for godma den we walk around . ate fried mars bar again *yummy !* as for dinner , wento eat at food republic .. lotsa people ah . i glared at 2 bitches .. haha . because ... they took away our seats . haha . den wj kept swearing words behind me . wanted to shut him up but i lazy to speak up , so i just kept turning back and glare at him . quite lazy to talk to him and answer his questions , he kinda "big-hole"(hokkien) and talk bird . that is where i came out with my blog title . "dont play with my attitude" wwuu~ but i heard this ah pek scold "ccb" , he's just beside me . arghh ! den me and godma turned and glared . haha . walked around till 9+ den we left town and came back to yishun to have a drink den headed home . tmr going out with rene , xing and xp for concert . yippess ! but mum asked me to pack my stuffs for the trip first .. arrgghh... means i gotta wake up early . oh.. my precious sleep .haha . my freaking bro just called mac 24hrs delivery and we're kp-ing about the money . haha . he spoke to me in canto and m'sia style . haha . shit him ! haha . ohh.. i forgot to wish TONY , HAPPY BIRTHDAY ! grow up laa . dont be a bird man anymore . haha . and thanks for those shirts . haha . its my bro's fren .. haha . not our school's one . haha . am going for manicure soon ... i'm kinda tired of my current one already . hee`oh.. i saw adidas jacket again !! i called the-jiejie-to-be and told her lotsa crapss and she.. sighh.. she broke my heart . *sniff sniff* =pPp she's not gonna buy for my already . she veh bad ahh . i dont love her anymore . haha . she's gonna kill me . waa... *runs off* nights all !

"dont blame me when i shout or scream at you when you piss me off , you silly little fcuker . "

i miss you ~

2005-11-24T23:55:00.000+08:00

*phone rang... wyn answered the phone ..*

titus : " arlo.. may i speak to miss wynny ppplease ?"
wyn : " yess ? "
titus : " ohh.. this is calling from titus budget airline pte ltd . our company had received an overseas incoming call from this cilent , Sherr . She've left you a message saying : " i will be back tmr ! "
wyn : "wwoohoo~~ *screams* Sherr jie jie is coming back tmr ? wahaha !!"
titus : " YUPPS ! arriving tmr afternoon .. lets go pick her up tmr . "
yeah !! yippess !!! *fireworks* Sherr jie jie is coming back .. weeehee` she's the-gonna-be-titus's-wife .. haha . yeah yeah yeah !! i'm so happy.. i could finally see her .. its been a month i last saw her , she's an air stewardess so fly here and there , den hardly see her . this time , she'll be staying for 3 weeks . wooohoo!! i miss her so much laa ! my dear sister .. *chants - go airport , go airport !* fwee` okayy ... wynny relaxx.. relax.... yesterday i slept at 5+ and woke up at 3pm today . SO EARLY ! i know . haha . errmm , shant talk much about yesterday night . mummy is a slacker ! she never go for work today , because she's having some peformance in the noon . haha . i stayed at home the whole day today .. wynny is a good girl . yes i am . =) i think tmr also the same... because dad just gave me 30$ , and i wanna save it for saturday . hee` ohh... ermm .. dad just asked about [him] just now.. he ask why he din see [him] for sucha long time . den i said " ohh.. okayy. " mmmms , i thought dad know already , or issit mum din tell him . nevermind ... just found out , i haven packed my stuffs . gosh !! gotta pack it soon .. and er ge wento xp's house just now . NO FAIR ! haha . anyway , gotta stop here already . nights everyone ! love all !!

" i miss you , and i always do . "

the pain is getting deeper and deeper , till a state i cannot take it .

2005-11-23T23:44:00.000+08:00

the swollen eyes gets more serious ... i slept at around 6am yesterday , went offline around 3+.. cried like nobody's business den tried to put myself to sleep . then i found out my cellphone wasnt with me , so i climbed outta the bed and wento search for it . i found it in the office room .. ( 1 message received ) tears dripped on my phone while the message is opening . i read and that message din stopped me from crying . walked passed the mirror and i looked into mirror , seeing this teary girl crying bitterly , tears rolling down , sobbing , swollen eyes , hugging this very own bear of hers . sighh ... what a heart breaking scene i saw . mmmms , i woke up at 9am ran to the mirror and a saw puffy eyes again . i quickly wento bath and after i bath , i ran a metal spoon down with cold water and put it on my eyes again. its soothen my puffiness a little .. den i wento apply the LANCôME HYDRA ZEN YEUX - its for anti- puffiness . so i applied a little , and went out to meet chew . meeting starts at 10:15am ... a very short one . my eyes were very painful and were kinda red and i felt sleepy . but i tried my best to stay awake and i manage to stay awake through out the meeting .. crapping around to make people not ask so much about my swollen eyes . after meeting , wento orchard with chew cause she wanna buy her bag . i'm oh-so tired !! den walked around at orchard for awhile and headed home . and this is the time where mister melf just reached orchard . we've got no fate at all .. *smile* on the way back , me and chew thought of going out again .. meaning , go home , bath and come out again . cause i wanted to visit uncle mic too ... den when i reached home , i prepared den i heard uncle mic never open the shop so early .. den i called chew and said , we go out other days laa and asked if she wanna come over to my house . chew said okay , den we agreed to go esplanade and sky garden the next trip out . she wants to see sky garden .. so i'll bring her there soon . she reached my house , slack for awhile and she helped my do manicure . she's too free... and she's willing to do it . so i hand over my nails to her .. and she helped me with it . not a bad outcome ..=) my freaking bro went fo his prom night today and he took away my camera .. lets just bless he remember to bring it home and the camera is in good condition . chew left and i wento sleep ... i dreamt a lot .. i din really sleep well . those dreams are ....... just dreams . chew called me up again and ask if i wanna go out tmr , i told her i think staying at home will be better for me . just remember .. i haven eat a proper meal today . heck.. i'm not hungry .. i drank lemon-barley for breakfast , mars bar for lunch and a packet of sliced mango for dinner . wwwooo~ chatted with my dearest cousin ; mister oh kok swee .. we were both so engrossed with RAINBOW CONNECTION ,shall post our conversation later if i'm free .. he made me smile a little today .. and counting down to the days i'm leaving for thailand is very very near . do you , you or you care ? Urgh ! i think i really needa settle my mind fast . i cant be living in this kinda mood for long laa . ohh.. titus is back !! he rang me up just now and he say he'll be visiting me on friday if he's free . he got me chocs and some other stuffs . he rocks ! we chatted for awhile den i asked him ,

wyn : " eyy .. as a guy , do you feel bad when you make a girl cry or sees a girl cry ?"

titus : "this is a very good qns wyn .. ermm , i will feel very confuse and fussed up . thinking issit my fault to make her cry , or who made her cry . if its my fault . i'll apologise . if not , den i'll try to comfort her .."

wyn : "wahh ...you actually think of those things.. you really 5stars guy ah ."

titus : " of course .. i'm titus laa . 1 - 2 - 3 , 3 - 2 - 1 - titus , titus number one !! yeah ! "

wyn : "i just heard from the news that self - poring (self- praising) will shorten ones life . "

titus : "haha . shitty.. but , serious ahh . i really thought of those things ehh . "

okay , conclusion : some of the guys actually thought of those things when they see or make a girl cry . but what about the other half ? *big question mark!* its been a long time since i last saw that him , wonder how is he now ? okay ? or what .. sighh .. thursday ... lets sleep the day over . sleep and shall never wake up . argghh! okay , gotta stop here . nights all ! no worries ! thanks for all care and concerns .

"It takes a couple seconds to say Hello , but a forever to say Goodbye . "

wynny woke up with swollen eyes once again .

2005-11-22T23:59:00.000+08:00

i din sleep well last night , was crying and crying . den had a short dream and woke up again . this lasted till around 7+ in the morning .. i think i'm too tired so i slept soundly till 12+ in the noon . had a slight headache , woke up and found out that i had serious swollen eyes . *shuckks* its been a long time since i last had a serious swollen eyes . wento take a metal spoon and run it with cold water den put in on my eyes to soothe it . i checked my phone and no one messaged me all the way till 2+ , chuan messaged me and ask if we're going over to his house tonight . i called back and said i'm lazyy to go over .. i received a blank message too . what does it mean ?? i practiced my dance steps , hurt my wrist a little and i hurt my back again . it really hurts this time .. i fell flat on my back . i dont know why , i cant concerntrate well . i din dance in the correct tempo , cant do the ending pose nicely . sighh... wento rest for awhile , den sat infront of the computer . but i aint have any mood to go online .. so i wento watch tv and fold clothes instead . mmmms , tmr having counsillor meeting in school at 10am . gotta wake up early .. shityy ! dad din out money for me again .. i reminded him to put on my table just now . *hrrmmpph* i'm gonna be soo bored on thursday .. wj ask me to ask around who wanna go escape on thursday . ner ner .. everyone not free laa . so now , my thursday .... i guess i'll be sleeping the whole day . den friday ?? manicure ? or shopping ? or sleep at home ? godd ! still having headache now . argghh !! anyway , my freaking bro agreed buy me contact lens this month . he became mad after his o's . he wanted to get ACUVUE DEFINE for himself , and he's getting it for me too . am leaving for thailand real soon .. do anyone care ? i dont think so ... sighh .. wynny is once again back to her old self . crying everyday , talking much lesser , mood-less , depression state , unstable mood and teary eyes . i think i gotta stop here already . needa wake up early tmr .. nights everyone ...

"A million ways would not bring my smile back , I know because I've tried . Neither would a million tears , I know because I've cried . "

back with teary eyes

2005-11-21T23:57:00.000+08:00

feeling veh sad and heart pain . i really dont know how it happen .. was weeping after i publish that post ... i'm really confuse now . tears just roll down .. when i heard " how did i fall in love with you " and "Sadness" . am still crying when typing this .. sorry to those whom i promise i wont cry anymore .. =(

incredible dual ? still there?

what the hell ?!

2005-11-21T23:29:00.000+08:00

ohh .. what the hell ? i made people think its a fcuked up thing , god ! issit how you call it now ? plain stupid , fcuked up , hallucination ? fine !! am the cause of everything laa . shuldnt have do it that way , shuld actually keep quiet like the past . was actually telling someone blah blah blah.. but why become this way ? went off this way ? nice one laa ! shant talk about this anymore .. getting on my nerves . *poofs* okay , make this a short one . aint have any mood to type a long one . wento watch TOM YUM GOONG with ah di , wj and xp today . its an NC-16 show .. but wynny sneak her way through . i mean sneak behind ah di . nothing happen .. the show was darn nice ! the actor is veh veh veh suave !! when he fight , the energy , the strength , the way .. ohh !!! darn nice ! after the show went to godma house for dinner and i just reach home and finish bathing . i think tmr going chuan's house at night . i also not confirm . arghhh ! dont wanna type anymore . "fcuked up" that word kept revolving around my mind . what the fcuk !!! nights all !

"i'm the one to make you dream , i'm also the one to wake you up . it is always me . "

back from the wedding .. there's joy and sadness

2005-11-20T23:58:00.000+08:00

weehee` i'm back from er ge's wedding . wahaha` i'm so so so happy !! *fly fly fly* reached there around 7pm .. nobody .. haha . but i saw my eldest uncle outside the hall . den awhile l8r , chuan , candy , lyn and bobby and parents reached already . so we sat down and chat den blah blah blah .. everyone came . i saw er ge in his suit ! darn suave laa !! nigel and noel wasnt there.. =( children present were , claire toh , edwin , shaun , hazel and raynerd . haha . claire kept coming over to our table .. haha . den raynerd jumping around like a monkey and shaun taking my camera and take pics around . was having MVC .. darn pain .. den the food wasnt too bad . haha . er ge is drunk , so is our da ge . see ahh ... everytime needa "yam seng" den er ge always kena from his frens . so da ge needa save him , in the end they both kinda drunk . but da ge is more serious . er sao kept standing behind while er ge "tar" , my dad went over to cover up for him . haha . darn cool . my dad "tar-ed" 3 glass of martel with er ge's fren . er ge's face was soooo red and da ge cant balance well . haha . when the dinner is over , we had a oh's family photo taking . wwoohoo~ all the oh's in picture ! i'm gonna get that photo . haha . my wish came true ... weeehee`abit sad ehh .. cause the wedding is over .. no more walking around and slacking at BLK 103 . haha . anyway , tmr going for a movie with wj , xp and ah di . i'm the youngest . haha . ohhh... and i'm going for SWO's concert this on saturday . =) gotta stop here . pictures uploded already . nights all . love everyone ~! and of course i miss BUM !

"i always shed my tears in the river , because i want my tears and sorrows to be gushed far away . "

er ge's wedding dinner later !! wwwuuu~

2005-11-20T14:58:00.000+08:00

*jumps around* wwwuuu~~ its er ge's wedding dinner later !! yippees !! haha . am getting so high now .. i just woke up laa , its 3pm now .. haha . but fking shit , my eyes is swollen . while sleeping yesterday , i had serious stomach cramp .. i tried enduring the pain for 15mins .. its was better . den after that , my eyes were itchy already .. so i rub and rub .. till i fall asleep . that's the cause of the swollen eyes . ner ner ... serious stomach cramp can lead to swollen eyes . haha . am so excited now for the wedding dinner , meeting ALL my cousins and those long distance ones . wahaha` anyway , i haven choose my clothes or maybe my top for the wedding dinner . argghh !!! nevermind .will choose it later after i bath .. hee` ohh... yesterday had a talk with [him] , a fast one .. [he] seems to be happy and like nothing happen . if that's the case ... i think i shall get back to my decision about other stuffs . a 5months plus relationship , a happy ending ? up to you all to think ... shuld treat it as a lesson or a memorable thing ? be happy or not ? urrgghh.... perish all thoughts !!! dont wanna think about it now . its my er ge's wedding later . smile man .. come'on !! =)) hee` okay dong , i gotta go bath and prepare myself already . take care all.. update more when i'm back ..

wynny is back !! sssss....ahh

2005-11-19T23:51:00.000+08:00

wynny went back to malaysia the last few days and was back on friday night . wwwuuu~ will update more on m'sia in other entry .. shall talk bout my er ge's wedding preparation . haha . wento er ge's house today in the morning , woke up late laa . hee` den when i reached there , er sao already in the room ... den ate breakfast and wento the room and chat with xp and played with raynerd . around 12+ , wento 2nd uncle (father's side) house with mum awhile .. and i saw SHAWN HOI and HAZEL HOI . haha . shawn is sooo HIGH !! haha . played awhile den went back to er ge's house again . when i reach there , ah di and rene was there already . played around , watched tv . "ssss... ah .." haha . den wento chong pang with godma , 7th aunt (father's side) , rene , wj and ah di . wahaha` we had lotsa fun there . most of the time ah di crapped with me ... he ner ner one . this moment can kp with me about who is taller (of course is him laa) den next moment "pleasing" me to help me massage his back . haha . rene went mad went godma's cell rang .. haha . me , ah di and rene kept making that "sssssss.... ahh..." sound . wahaha` went back to er ge;s houe again .. haha . i tell you ... we're like walking here and there.. cause they all live so near to each other . den me and rene was having high tide den i let her first . cause , she win laa .. haha . we both drank too much .. hee` had dinner den slackk all the way till 10+ . went home , bath and i'm stuck onto the computer . haha . tmr night we're all going to the wedding dinner . yeah yeah yeah !!!! the night we're all waiting for .. yippees !! haha . okay , shall stop here now . was chatting with bum , den till the BFL part ... we suddenly became quiet . mmmmms , i dont know why . *eyes rolling* dont ask me why .. i dont know . ohh .. i 've uploaded some photos . go view it ya . nights everyone ! love all ! <3

"dont use anything to test my character , trust me or you shall perish. "

i'll miss everyone !

2005-11-16T18:48:00.000+08:00

wynny : " dad , can i bring xiong xionng along ? "
dad : " no , 15 years old already... still bring xiong xiong .. "
*wynny went into room and hug xiong xiong .. *

LOVE - I - N - G

2005-11-15T23:17:00.000+08:00

Monday - 14.11.2005

its XUEPING'S BIRTHDAY !!! *fireworks !* woke up at 1pm , the night before i slept at 2+ . got 12hrs of nice sleep .. wwwuuu~ prepared till 2:30pm den left to meet xing at amk station . saw nadia at yishun mrt station , salam-ed and the train came . hee` reached orchard , wento heeren and blah blah blah ... of course , we wento far east to have our mars choc . *yum yum* its veh veh nice ... being enduring my craving of it since last month . when i ate it , i was like on cloud nine ! * smack forehead* saw tong tong mei and yingsi . they darn funny . haha . we bought bits and pieces anklet and 3 white roses for xp . i tell you ... i was so near the bits and pieces necklance i wanted laa . nb ... just turn behind and i can see it in the glass shelves.. wah rao ..... nvm . my card no $$ , so me and xing kept looking around for payphones and call . shitty laa ! den while walking around i've got approach by that company again . me and xing was avoiding surveyers , den KNN .. got this 2 ah lians approachsed us and ask some stuffs . den i say , i did it bfore . den she " wah lau ehh ." bloody bitch ! what the fcuk has gone into you . lalala` met lynsey , xp , wj , rene and shing at 6pm . den we all wento SWENSENS ... got balloons ... weehee` "i want the pink one. " wynny told herself . but i din take laa . haha . ate FISH BAKED RICE .. nice one ! den had cake and ice creams ...darn nice !!! *hu jia gou zai ling - paparazzi* wahaha` we stayed and crapped at SWENSENS for 3 long hours . haha . got my pink balloon !! *yipeeess ! * after that , wento mac slack for awhile and walked to the mrt station and took a train home . i tried to act deaf when wen jing speaks to me , he just talk no sense . am sorry , but serious ahh . ( lynsey , i think you know ehh . ) reached home around ohh... i forgot what time . shucks !! nvm .. on my way home , was a total depress scene as my player plays S.E.N.S -WISH ... godd !!! walking up the bridge , counting down my steps . baaa ~ shant talk about it . as usual forgot to bring my medicine out .. so i skipped medicine taking the whole day . haha . chatted with BUM !!! happy 3 months !!! i know you know . wahaha` okay .. that's for the day . night all . love everyone !! <3

Tuesday - 15.11.2005

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DADDY !!! he's turning 46 this year ... stay cool and charming . =)) woke up at 1pm again ... den blah blah blah . wasnt in good mood laa . dont ask why . packed my waredorbe ... FINALLY !!! got lotsa nice and hidden clothes . haha . tell you , my waredrobe looked like a mountain last time .. now .. its so tidy . wwwuu ~~ i love myself so much . haha . and i've lotsa unwanted clothes . can donate to salvation army . hee` watched rainbow connection again . wahh ... love it so much . am going to school tmr at 10am for counsilor meeting . yeah !!! issit about sec one orientation camp ?? wwwoooossshh` someone is threatening me now .. stupid bum bum !! urrgghh !!! anyway , gotta stop here for today . nights world . love all !!!

my tidy waredrobe , no more mountains . =)

tidy right ? =pPp

black converse bball jersey .

FBT jersey ! yeah !!

unwanted clothes !

lastly , my daddy and the birthday cake .

2005-11-15T00:41:00.000+08:00

i ONCE wished for this .

i know this is hard , but be strong ~

2005-11-13T23:10:00.000+08:00

Saturday - 12.11.2005

woke up and 7:30am , because am going to the polyclinic for the stupid-bird-flu injection . was so scared laa , but calms myself with ribena . haha . reached the clinic , registered and waited . den when its my turn , me and mummy went to ask if i can take the inkection there . den woohooo ~~ they got no stock ! haha . cause too many people took it the day before . phew ~~ haha . but i went for a consultation instead ... cleaned my wound and the doctor ask me to eat evening primrose oil . (explanation of evening primrose oil - helps ladies in regular menstrual cycle and maintain good complexion of skin . ) hee` after consultation , went over to 8th aunt house ( yee mah ..) slack there , watch "Maid In Manhattan" in kor's (yee mah's son , cousin) room . its a nice show .. very very nice . haha .. den slept awhile and kor kor came back and we chatted . he asked bout [him] , i shake my head and look on the floor . he knows what i meant . den he advice me and stuffs , but he's too crappy in his advices . haha . yee mah went out to have her hairdo den i went to her room to watch tv and sleep again . sleep and sleep ... woke up had my dinner den watched scv till 11+ , mummy went over to fetch me home . she bought me a SK II thing . thanks mum ! bath and slept .. i love my bed so much !! nights world . love all ! BUM , i din miss you out . =)

Sunday - 13.11.2005

today i woke up at 1pm . *claps* thank you !! haha . den ate brunch and use the com till 6+ and had my dinner . mum is sucha *&^$#@!# she ordered or maybe threaten me to pack my waredrobe if not i cannot go back to k.pilah with 6th aunt . and she fking hell said that she din know i'll be going out tmr to celebrate xp's bday . what the fcuk !! so i shouted some stuffs laa . and i din bother about what she say ...stupid! anyway , chatted with BUM , even now .. den suddenly "wyn" me . haha . finally a "wyn" , no more "wei ni" . haha . BUM's nice and sweet ! den just a few mins ago , mum gave me ten bucks for tmr . what's the problem with you , mum ?! i needa go get pressie , have lunch and dinner .ten bucks ?? that's so freaking ~~NICE~~ of you laa . urrgghh !! she's getting on my nerves laa . fcuk !! okay , dont talk about her . my blood is gonna boil soon . dad's coming back soon , will try to get money from him . ohh.. i started with multiply , its quite laggy laa . but no choice , i only post images there . so do check it out ya . =) okay , gotta stop here . nights everyone ! love all ! "External Love"

"True love ? I used to believe it existed , but when you`ve had your heart torn out and thrown on the floor , you just don`t care anymore. ."

why am i still afraid to walk alone , why didnt you walk with me till my future ?

2005-11-11T23:15:00.000+08:00

lets start with this morning .. mmmms , i woke up around 9am den prepared myself and left house around 10:05am . i know that i'm having geo and maths test today , but i still go late. haa` reached school around 10:25am , did the maths paper its was a ~~nice~~ one . after maths was geo test ohh... its became a anyhow-do test to wynny . haha . but yusof was even faster than me . haha . left the school around 11:45pm and walked with fadlin and co. messaged BUM and BUM's at sunplaza laa . hee` i think i walked too fast laa . [bum , you should know what i mean .. dont be sad ya . =) ] reached home , quickly bath , prepared and went out to meet edwin all for movies . we went orchard to watch "all about love " that andy lau show "do do do do~" . its really nice and touching .. some sentences made me have tears around my eyes , because ... blah blah blah . while watching the show , was eating some cookies from SUBWAY its really nice . hee` after the show , wento adidas with edwin . den we kept pestering each other like ,

edwin : " eyy , wyn .. x'mas present ah ? thank you very much ! "
wyn : " you pay half i pay half laa . haiya .. since you pay half already , den ... pay for everything laa . haah . "

den if we see anyone wearing adidas stuffs , we'll go mad and start to kp . haha . we're crazy laa . saw michelle outside taka , wwuuu~ den wento city hall to have dinner . this time , wento city hall with a different feeling . no longer heading to esplanade whenever i'm at city hall . no longer heading to sky garden . just have a feeling that its so different , like its the first time i wento city hall . anyway , our dinner was chicken rice . nice one . =)) walked passed that sashay bear shop and some flashbacks of memories . thank god , jon grabbed me out of my flashbacks by telling me how i fell at smb park that time . phew~ i wont wanna imagine the scene of me having flashbacks at that time . we had lotsa fun and lotsa crapping . haha . took a train back and on the train , jie , edwin and me was talking about chinese new year and xmas . haha . darn funny laa . reached home around 8:30pm den wento bath and rested for awhile den watched tv . my fav. show , rainbow connection . hee` ohh yupps .. yesterday , george called me suddenly . know why ? cause he walked pass a famous amos shop and thought of me . so he rang me up . haha . den we chatted for awhile . at night , chatted with my long-lost good friend . he's jeff , i call him coffin boy . haha . we nv chat for 3 years .. long okayy . den recently he found me on friendster and added me . hee` still remember the days where me , him and marcus conference on the fone for long hours , crapping , laughing and talking about stupid stuffs . haha . okay , now .. wynny is very very scared . why ? because tmr morning , i needa go take the stupid-bird-flu injection . ohh... i'm so scared now laa . bless me !! mmmms , my msn display pic is lil' qizhi and lotsa people say he's CUTE !! haha . thanks to all ... hee` if you all wanna view more photos .. just click on the link below later . =)) okay , i wanna go and sleep already . nights all ! love everyone !! <3

click here for pictues - my beloved ones

sweetie qizhi and me ! <3>

he's trying to psycho me . *evil grins*

" I always knew what happen , but i just choose to keep quiet all the time . "